by Walters, Abi
There you go again assuming there is a future between the two of you. He had said as much though, hadn’t he? Vex made me feel like I was constantly free falling. My heart was in my throat and thumping like a mad rabbit and my face hurt from smiling. He was becoming my new favorite obsession. Part of me knew that everything was happening quickly. I didn’t exactly have a moral compass when it came to guys. I was used to meaninglessness and three month relationships that happened way too quickly. But Vex wasn’t like everyone else. I would never grow tired of him. My feelings for him were already bone deep. I felt raw and exposed, and it was exhilarating. It felt like love.
I thought I was in love with my first boyfriend. Lane Peters. He was a senior when I was a sophomore. He would put me on the back of his motorcycle and take me out in the fields at night. We’d smoke pot and talk about aliens. He didn’t make fun of me for the stuff that most kids did. He took my virginity on Halloween with his Jason Voorhees mask lying next to us. Two weeks later he broke up with me at a gas station and left me without a ride.
I thought I was in love with Nate McHeen. We met at a protest. His hair was fire engine red and curly. His friends called him ‘Annie’. He lived on a combine with a dozen other activists. They raised their own cows and chickens. I moved in with him after a few weeks and drove forty-five minutes to Billings every day for work. We had a threesome with his best friend, Colin, one night. A week later he kicked me out because he couldn’t look at me without seeing Colin fucking me. It was his idea for the three way. I broke his favorite coffee cup, told him his dick was small, and left with my head held high.
But what I felt for Lane and Nate was nothing in comparison to how I felt about Vex. He made me believe in fate. He made me believe in forever.
He kissed me with so much force I thought my legs were going to give out. And the way he looked at me? I shivered at the memory. It was still fresh in my mind, but I was certain even on my deathbed I’d never forget the sea of emotion in his eyes. The already dark pools turned jet black, but I could see speckles of glimmering passion like stars in the night sky. I noticed the exact moment the bear side of his soul came forward.
How would it feel to have those eyes devour my body? I had fantasized an embarrassing number of times about erotic encounters with Vex. Warmth spread through my body like a forest fire as images of his bedroom eyes and rippling muscles bombarded my mind. I squeezed my breasts over my tank top and pretended his long fingers were teasing my pebbled nipples through the thin material of my shirt. The temperature in the RV rose ten degrees as I slid beneath the band of my underwear. My breaths were ragged as I wiggled my fingers through my pubic curls and started sensually circling my aching clit. After a few torturous moments I stopped.
Why settle for fingers when my battery operated friend was a few feet away? I stripped out of my tank and underwear as I raced towards my bedroom. I grabbed my purple friend from my bedside drawer and returned to the dimly lit living room. Am I really going to do this? Here? Now? Hell yes. I kicked the throw pillows I spent so long positioning off the sofa and threw my leg over the back padding. The hum of the toy made my sex ache even more than it had been. I threw my head back and lowered my hands.
The sheen of sweat that clung to my body only added to the thrill of my fantasy. I could hear the cicadas outside, but in my mind I was in a villa on the water in Hawai’i. Vex cloaked my body with his and left a scorching trail of kisses down my body. I moved my fingers down my chest in pretending they were his lips. He reached the apex of my thighs and looked up at me with that feral look in his yes before his mouth –
There was a loud knock on the door of the RV. “Acacia?”
Vex. Of course it would be Vex. I hadn’t heard from him in hours and he shows up in the middle of a masturbatory session in his honor. I turned the toy off and tried to steady my voice. “Y-yeah?”
My clothes were all the way in the back of the RV, and the throw blanket I usually kept on the couch was covering the blood stains on the floor. I was frozen with indecision and panic.
“Everything okay? I need to talk to you.” The door jiggled and opened. I hadn’t realized the lock was broken until night fell and I tried sealing up for the evening.
I shrieked and pulled a pillow up in an attempt to cover myself. “Wait a second! Vex! Don’t come in yet!”
It was too late. Vex stood on the steps with his mouth open slightly. The concern in his eyes turned to burning lust when his eyes zeroed in on my partially covered body. I was mortified and turned on and completely flabbergasted. My vibrator slid off the cushion next to me and landed on the ground with a hard thud. Vex’s eyes dropped for a second, and I swear when he looked back up at me he wasn’t human.
“I, uh, I was just –”
He held up a finger to silence me. When he spoke, a new wave of arousal shot through my nervous system. His voice was husky and drenched with sex. “What were you thinking about, Acacia?” He walked up the steps and came closer to me. He smelled like pure man. I wasn’t a shifter, but in that moment there was a kitten inside of me that wanted to rub against his body and mark him as mine. “Were you thinking about me while you touched yourself?”
“Yes,” I breathed.
He bent slowly and I found myself staring into the eyes of the beast. The light from the candles danced across his face. My heart was jackhammering in my chest as I anticipated his next move. With steady control, he leaned forward and pulled the pillow from my hands. I didn’t put up much of a fight. I knew I was at an awkward angle, but I didn’t feel self-conscious under his hungry gaze. No, Vex made me feel like a vixen. His tongue wetted his lips.
“Even better than I imagined.” His fingertips grazed my skin. My breath hitched and I let out a gasping moan. He trailed across my stomach. A flicker of anger warmed the black orbs of his eyes when he came to the bruise that took up half of my side. He lifted his hand and put it at his side. I wanted to tell him it was okay – I was okay. But before I could speak I felt a cold silicone press against my thigh. “Touch yourself. I want to watch.”
I had never been shy with men, but his demand tinted my cheeks pink. “Vex…”
He stood up and leaned against the counter behind him. “I want to watch you, Acacia.”
I was aching for release, but not from a toy. I couldn’t deny him, though. And the thought of him watching me touch myself was entirely more erotic than the fantasies I’d been conjuring up. I readjusted myself and put a pillow behind my head so I could keep my eyes on Vex. Without breaking eye contact I turned the toy on the lowest setting and put the end to a sensitive nipple.
The sensation jolted me. I sighed, but forced my eyes to remain open as I ran the toy across my chest. My nipples were both hard, but I teased them until the skin puckered almost painfully. I trailed the toy down my stomach and legs. The vibrations rattled my skin, even on the low setting. My sex was swollen and needy. I ran the toy along my slit to lubricate it with my wetness.
Vex moved from rubbing his chest to palming himself through his jeans. The sight excited me even more. I moaned his name softly to draw his gaze from my body to my face and when his fierce eyes met mine, I pushed the toy inside. A low guttural sound came from his slightly parted lips, and the sound of his zipper pierced through the cicada’s song and the muffled vibrations of the toy buried inside of me.
I moved the toy in and out of my pussy slowly. The ears of the rabbit tickled my clit, but my desperation skyrocketed the moment Vex started stroking himself. I lowered my free hand from my chest and started circling my neglected clitoris. My movements quickened as I pretended that the cold, hard silicone member inside me was thick and warm – and most importantly, attached to Vex.
“What were you thinking about when you were playing with yourself, Acacia? Tell me.” He stopped touching himself for a brief moment to whip his shirt over his head. He bundled it up and threw it across the living room. His jeans were next; he haphazardly pushed them down to his knees before returni
ng to his ministration on his cock. It was the sexiest fuckin thing I had ever seen in my life.
“I think about you all the time,” I admitted throatily. “Every night I dream of you, but tonight I imagined we were in Hawai’i on a private beach. We were in a villa overlooking the water. Your mouth was everywhere; you kissed all the way down my body.” I abandoned my clit and raised my hand to my breasts. I kneaded them roughly, flicking my nipples frantically. “Here. You sucked here.” I trailed slowly, circling my bellybutton. “And kissed me here.” I inched almost glacially to my clit. Moaning, I used two fingers to spread the hooded skin around it. The warm air felt good against my exposed sex. I pulled the toy from my pussy, clicked it on high, and pressed the tip to my clit. “Fuck, fuck, fuck. And here. You kissed here. You sucked here. Oh, God, Vex!”
I felt like a goddess. There wasn’t a single part of my body that felt anything but empowered by my brazen display. I was the cause of Vex’s hooded gaze and breathy moans. The temperature in the room had shot up at least ten degrees, and though I was naked, I felt like I wanted to peel my skin off. I focused on the rhythmic noise of skin against skin as Vex pumped his cock. I was going higher and higher; the strong buzz of the vibrator against my clitoris was almost agonizingly pleasurable.
I struggled to keep my eyes open, but when volts shot through my system and curled my toes I had no option but to throw my head back and squeeze my eyes shut as I rode out my orgasm. I didn’t want to come without him but I couldn’t keep it at bay any longer. Vex’s name was on my lips as I quaked with one of the most powerful orgasms of my life.
Before I could even catch my breath, the toy was ripped from my hands. My eyes shot open as it landed with a thud on the ground. It buzzed, still turned on, and rumbled against the tangled blanket. Vex scooped me up and switched our positions. My leg instinctually threw itself over his lap, and I straddled him. Our skin was like a fine layer of glue keeping our bodies together. Vex didn’t notice the sweat – or he didn’t care. His mouth attached to my collarbone and he licked the skin while his hands groped my body.
He moaned, the noise coming out like a primal growl, and pawed at my flesh like he’d never touched a woman before. I braced myself against his broad shoulders and moved my hips in tiny circles against his hard body. His cock pressed hard against my ass. I didn’t see it while he was pumping himself with abandon, but it felt like a branding sear against my skin. Thick and hot, I tried to memorize the way he felt against me.
Neither of us were speaking any understandable language. Vex’s rumbling grunts were more akin to a troglodyte than a human, and a nonstop stream of throaty moans and botched requests came from my mouth. He seemed to understand me well enough. The hands that were kneading my ass slid up to my waist. Despite his rough caveman actions and noises, he grabbed my hips softly and lifted me, as if he were afraid I’d disappear into the hot spring air.
“I need you.” He held me above his erect cock as he waited for permission. We didn’t have condoms and I hadn’t bothered replacing my birth control when it ran out months ago, but I didn’t care. Need was an understatement at that point.
“You have me.”
The words barely left my lips. Vex impaled me on his shaft. He let out a guttural grunt that matched the shaky moan vibrating from my chest. The toy I had been using was no comparison to his thick member. He twitched inside of me, reminding me that he was alive and not a figment of my imagination. My eyes rolled slightly as my body stretched to accommodate him. His fingers momentarily tightened, digging into my skin, as he let out a steadying breath. Our pubic bones touched. However cliché, it was like we were two puzzle pieces. Vex was made for me, and I was made for him. I had no doubt in my mind. My brain felt like it was going to explode as the epiphany hit me.
Vex’s jaw was slack and his eyes were closed. I felt his cock flex inside of me as if it were yelling at the man it was attached to. Neither of seemed capable of moving, but our bodies blazed with a budding connection that could only be described as magic.
I rocked my hips, and it seemed to jolt him back to life. Seconds had passed, but it felt like an eternity. A hand left my hip and snaked up the front of my body, dipping between the valley between my breasts, before caressing my face. His fingers were damp with sweat and sex, and the pungent aroma wafted up and circled us. I was shocked by the intimacy of the act, which otherwise was primal. He tilted my head towards him, and when our eyes connected, I saw a ghosting shadow of a bear reflected in the pools.
“Mine.”
And then he moved. The moment was gone, but forever tattooed on my heart. His hips flexed once, twice, and then a third time as his hands circled back to my waist. When he had his grip, I felt my body jump in the air. He thrust into me with a force I didn’t know existed. The expression on his face was half amazement, half desire. I bucked against him, matching his strokes with movements of my own.
My words slurred like I’d downed a bottle of whiskey. “Yes, yes, yes!” It was the only word I was capable of saying. I gave up speaking all together and resorted to squealing moans as he pulled out nearly to the tip before slamming our bodies back together.
His strokes were long and punishing and fueled by white hot lust. My nails dug into the fabric of the sofa as I leaned forward and rested my head in the crook of his neck. My mind felt like putty, and all I could do was brace myself and enjoy the rest of the ride. Strands of hair clung to his neck, but I suckled the skin with the intent to mark him as my own.
Vex slowed his pace slightly. His hands moved from my hips to my ass. He grasped my cheeks and spread them, keeping hold as he used my fleshy orbs as leverage. My body moved on auto-pilot as I started rocking to ride him. Each time my hips contracted my clit brushed against the tangled pubic hair above his cock.
“So close,” He groaned. His words were close to my ear. “Lift your head, baby. I want to see your face when I come. I’ve dreamed about it for far too long.”
I kissed his neck softly before pulling back just enough to give him a view of my face. My hands traveled from the back of the couch to either side of his face. I held him there, wishing I could trap us in the moment forever. He looked at me like he owned me, and in that moment, I was willing to give him my soul.
His cock swelled inside of me. I felt it pulsate, stretching me even more than I already had been. His movements were never anything but precise as he thrust into me with long strokes. His head tilted to the side and his eyes fluttered, and seconds later my name was a rasping moan on his lips as he came. With our bodies connected and his cock buried completely inside of me he coated my walls with a long stream of semen. The sensation of his warmth filling me was nearly enough to make me have another orgasm.
I had never felt the need to cry after sex. Vex fucked me hard and loved me even harder. I swallowed the lump in my throat and captured his mouth for a kiss to keep the tears at bay. I wasn’t prepared for Vex. I wasn’t prepared for the intimacy or the love that he graciously gave to me. I wasn’t ready to hear the words or say them myself, but that didn’t mean they weren’t true. Vex could read me like a book. I knew he was aware of my feelings for him.
His fingers caressed my skin in a soothing motion. “Come home with me tonight.”
I buried my face deeper into his neck. “Did your meeting go okay? Am I… allowed?”
“I have permission. I’d take you even if I didn’t.”
I smiled into his skin. His place was a far better option than Big Betty. It had air conditioning, electricity, running water, and a bed that came straight from the heavens. And him, of course. I pressed a rapid stream of kisses to his neck, causing him to shiver beneath me. When I rolled my head away and looked up at him he looked at me like he was going to throw me down and give me round two. I was momentarily sated, but I knew I’d never tire of his body or the way he looked at me like I was the most beautiful woman in the world.
“Well, then, let’s go. I’m ready for a shower and something other than g
ranola.”
“And here I thought you wanted to spend time with me…” He clucked his tongue against his teeth, a smirk on his face the entire time. “I really don’t have the energy to move, but I think our skin might melt together if we stay like this any longer.”
I wanted to tell him I could spend every day with him for the rest of my life and then some and never grow tired of his presence, but I wasn’t ready to cut my chest open and hand him my heart. Too late; he already has it.
Chapter Ten
Acacia
I dried my hair with a towel as I walked out of the bedroom and towards the kitchen in the center of the house. Vex was stirring something on the stove. He pushed me in the direction of his bathroom as soon as we walked through the door and told me he’d find something to cook while I washed up. Though he didn’t shower with me, he changed out of his clothes and was wearing a black shirt with a logo on the back for ‘Wood Brothers Construction’ and a pair of athletic shorts.
He looked over at me. “I didn’t feel like cooking a whole meal this late, and I wasn’t sure if you’d be okay with Hot Pockets and frozen pizza. I hope grilled cheese and tomato soup is okay with you.”
“Sounds perfect.” I leaned against the refrigerator. “I can finish cooking if you want to shower.”
“That would be great, actually.”
He brushed a kiss against my forehead and disappeared around the small lip that separated the master suite from the rest of the house. He had already laid out the supplies for the sandwiches and it didn’t take long for me to have them in the pan and grilling. Vex still hadn’t returned from his shower by the time the food was finished, so I plated them and set them on the island before going in search of him.
I pressed my ear to the bedroom door. When I didn’t hear the shower running a nauseating wave of panic sent my heart into overdrive. The horror movie fan inside me told me that something was very, very wrong on the other side of the door. I pushed it open regardless.