by Lauren Wood
It didn’t sound like much and he gave me a look like he didn’t understand why that was enough. It was for me and many others here. We weren’t worried about changing the world or making tons of money. We were worried about family, love and having a good time. It was clear that his priorities did not include any of that.
Chris moved towards me. We’d been at it for hours and we had kept our distance. I had done it to keep myself safe, but with his hands on my shoulders, it was hard to forget that he was touching me. I wanted him to touch me, no matter how badly it affected my head. It messed with it. He messed with my emotions and my mental wellbeing. It wasn’t something that I could stop.
“I don’t want to talk about this the whole time I’m here. I am not going to be here long.”
“I know. You’re right.”
I sat down and tried not to let his words bother me. At least he was being honest with me. I appreciated it, even if the words hurt me so much.
My eyes were getting blurry from being upset and I hid my face so that he wouldn’t see it. My back was turned to him and I felt his hands on my shoulder again.
“Let me make this better for a little while Molly. I don’t know how to make this right, but I can make it right for right now. Let me at least do that.”
His words were hard to ignore and I knew that I didn’t want to tell him no. I stood up and gave him a hug and kissed his cheek. Chris held me above the waist with his hands clasped behind me and I was pulled in against his hard body. I had felt him before, but this was the closest that we had gotten body on body since he had been back. I forgot how he felt, how big he was compared to me. He was huge and so damn solid. Every part of him made me feel shrunk down, but I had always liked it. I always felt so safe in his arms and now was no exception. Chris had changed my life completely again and this time it was for the better. Whatever way this worked out, I would never need to worry about money again.
When I pulled back and looked up at him, he moved down to kiss me and I didn’t want to stop it. I never wanted him to stop and when his lips met mine again, I melted a little bit more. I could feel my legs and knees getting weak and I tried to play it off like I wasn’t desperate for him, but I was, I really was.
My mouth was hungry and I made him move down to my level and then he was lifting me up into his arms. He picked me up like I was nothing and I wrapped my arms around his neck so that I didn’t feel like I was going to fall. I knew that I wasn’t, that he wasn’t going to let me, but it was hard to fight the urge.
He moved his mouth off of mine and went in for my neck. It was sensitive and he knew that it was a delicate spot for me. It was also the spot that turned me on the most.
I shivered and dampened from the initial touch of his teeth on my neck. I loved the way it felt as they grazed across my sensitive skin. It was hard for me to make no sound and there was no reason this time that I had to hold it in.
“I miss those sounds. I’ve wanted to hear them so badly.”
His words made me realize what we were doing. It was so easy to get wrapped up in Chris that I forget for a few seconds that he will break my heart again. I pushed against him.
“What? Do you want me to stop?”
“No, I don’t. You are as talented as ever, but I can’t do this. I’m sorry.”
“I don’t remember you being this hot and cold.”
“I’m not usually that way. I’ve been trying my best to stay away from you because I know what happens.”
“Why is that such a bad thing? You need it.”
While it was true, I didn’t want to admit that he was right. I did need it, so damn bad. I knew how good it would feel and ever since seeing him again and Chris moving in, my body has been on high alert. I didn’t like being this way, but he was the only one with the key.
“I do, but it has consequences. It’s just not enough. I’m sorry if that is why you came here. I didn’t see any of this coming and I have no plan. I don’t know what to do. I really don’t Chris and with Lila what happens matters more than ever.”
“I don’t see how I can prove it to you.”
I didn’t know either and I shrugged. He growled at me. “I can’t wait anymore Molly.”
He moved back to kiss me and before I could think to stop him, I was lost in his kiss. His tongue was taking over my mouth, pushing in between my lips. His hands held me against him fast and there was not an inch of my skin that wasn’t touching him.
“Tell me that you really don’t want this and I will stop pursuing you.”
The sound of his deep voice and the slight breeze of a whisper on my earlobe was more than I could stand. There was no way that I could tell him that with a straight face, even if I could find the voice for it. I was too far gone now.
“I can’t.”
His kiss deepened and I felt him moving me until the side of the house was on my back. His hands were making quick work of the button on my pants and he was pulling them down enough to get his hand down to the heat and wetness that I knew was there. I was so damn turned on and for once I didn’t want to refuse what I desperately needed. Even if it was only for tonight or a week, it had to be worth it.
His fingers rubbed on my clit and made me jump with each pass. I tried to squeeze my thighs together as the feeling got more intense, but he held them open roughly. His mouth was back on my neck and I swear I was going to faint. My legs weren’t going to be able to keep me up much longer.
Chris seemed to notice and after I cried out with pleasure, he started to lift me up and I stopped him.
“Dammit Molly, I really can’t stop this time. I’m going to explode.”
“No, I mean can we go inside?”
Relief melted my reserve. I didn’t know what tomorrow was going to bring, but tonight I wanted to be in Chris’ arms, just one more time.
Chapter 15
Chris
Her answer was all I needed to hear to calm down. I couldn’t wait for her anymore and if she had tried to stop me, I can’t say what I would have done. It was the last thing that I wanted to do and now it was time. She had lasted longer than I’d thought she would, which was not exactly a good thing. I was over the wait and I was over not having her in my arms. I needed her there like I needed my next breath. I had to have her and as I led her into her house, I knew that this was the moment that I’d been waiting for since coming here. Ever since I heard the will reading and heard Molly’s name, it was this moment that I was waiting for. I had to have her and I was practically trembling with the idea of her in my arms again. Finally.
We made it inside, but I didn’t let her get that far before I started to kiss her again. I wanted to make sure that she didn’t change her mind again. I don’t know if I was going to be able to handle that, so I made sure that her mind wasn’t working at all. If she was too hot and horny, she wouldn’t be able to think of why this was such a bad idea.
Her lips were red and willing, pressing against mine and opening up for my tongue. She tasted just as good as I remembered and I started to unbutton her shirt. I wanted it off of her so that I could get my hands on her before I exploded.
“Come on Chris. I never knew you to be so impatient.”
“Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for this?”
She shrugged and told me that I hadn’t been in town that long. It was true, but I’d been fantasizing about Molly back in my arms since I left for New York. Those images were almost enough several times to make me go back. I almost did, but something had told me that my chances with her were long gone.
Now I was starting to see that things didn’t have to be that way. We could be together again and maybe it could be like before. This time though, I already knew it was doomed and I was going to make the best out of the situation. If I only had a little bit of time with her, I was going to make sure that I made it the best time that I could. I wanted to remember everything about her. Every line, every curve and every sound that came out of her mouth. She had always been quite loud and I wa
s ready for it again.
I got her shirt off and I was starting to take her bra off when she suggested that we go into the bedroom. There were windows all along the living room and I had a feeling that she just wanted to make sure that we had privacy. I didn’t care either way, but I would have done it in the bathroom, if she had suggested it. I just wanted Molly. I didn’t care how or why. I just wanted her.
“Come on then Molly. You’ve made me wait long enough.”
“It hasn’t been that long.”
“It’s been eight long years.”
She agreed and let me pull her up the stairs. It had been long enough. A day without her felt like a lifetime.
Chapter 16
Molly
I’d never seen him like this before and it was hard to ignore the buzz that he had going on. He was always the aggressor, had been before, but this time he was rushing like I was going to vanish into thin air. He was the one that was good at that.
I started to think about it on the way up to the bedroom and I worried that my heart wasn’t going to take it again. I was thinking about how it felt to be without him and I knew that even if I walked away now, I was going to miss him terribly. The sex was going to be the memories that I was able to hold onto.
“What’s wrong? You haven’t changed your mind, have you?”
I told him that hadn’t. I was just missing him and he had a sad smile on his face. He had missed me too and I believed him when he said it. How could he not when we had been inseparable for so long? It was impossible to not think about my younger years and not think of him. He was in most of my fondest memories and I hoped that I was in some of his.
“No, I still want you Chris. I don’t think I could stop wanting you if I tried, and trust me when I say that I’ve tried.”
“Well I hate to say it, but I am glad. I was sure that you were going to be married off and have a few kids by now. It’s what we had talked about when we were together before.”
I didn’t want to think about any of that now. I was half naked and he was looking at me with lust. The last thing I wanted to do was talk about any of this. Tonight I just wanted to feel and forget all of the reasons why this was such a bad idea.
“Do you want to fuck me Chris, or do you want to talk me to death?”
He grinned and his eyes darkened in a way that made me smile. It was hard for me not to get a little bit of a shiver that went over my spine as he moved towards me. Maybe I had said too much. I might have pushed him over the edge. He always had liked it when I talked dirty. He said I was too innocent to say such things, but his reaction was the same every time. He liked it and it made me want to do it even more.
I got to the bed and started to back onto it. Our eyes never left each other and I got to the pillows and started to pull my skirt down. I wanted him to watch me and he froze in place and did just that.
When everything was off of me, I beckoned to him with my finger and waited as he hastily took his own clothes off. It was funny how fast he was moving now. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him go this fast, but the laughter died on my lips as he started to come towards me on the bed. He knew what he was doing, how I was reacting and I could see that he liked the control he had on me. I was pinned, not by his body, but by his eyes and his expression. This man. I’d been his since the first time we’d met and I don’t think that even after all of this time, nothing has changed. I still want him just as bad as before and he still had just as much control over me as he had had before. Nothing changed and all of this time between us had changed nothing either. He was a trap, a spell that I wondered if I would ever get away from.
“Your body feels just like it did before Molly, nothing has changed.”
I could have answered with something like, it had, but I wasn’t allowed to think. He was naked on top of me and my legs moved wider apart so that he could settle in between them. It felt just like before and the old memories flooded back and added to the pleasure felt from just the feel of his hardness rubbing against my stomach and moving lower. The same anticipation that I had before was there and I tried to hold it together. Chris had always brought me to the state of hysteria and I felt like I was ready to go back.
“You feel the same too.”
He smiled and started to press into me. It was the same thickness that had stretched me wide open before, but this time it had been so long since I had been with anyone that it felt like it was stretching even more. I whimpered against him, but it did no good. It only added to feed into him and I heard him hiss between his teeth.
“Fuck Molly.”
I giggled a little and asked him what before he slammed the rest of the way in and I wasn’t finding it funny anymore. I’d forgotten so many things and the feeling that came over me when he was inside of me was one of them. I must have did it so that I wouldn’t drive myself crazy. It felt amazing and I closed my eyes to the pleasure and closeness that I felt with him again. It was always so much more than physical with Chris.
Everything about it brought back old times, even the way he felt with my arms around his neck. I was holding on and it was the same shoulders that I’d held onto before. I clenched the cock inside of me and heard him groan. “Don’t or this isn’t going to last very long.”
“It’s okay. I came earlier. It still feels good. This is enough if you can’t hang.”
He growled at me and started to move inside of me quickly and I squeezed my eyes shut. It was good to know that I could still goad him on into doing what I wanted.
“You don’t remember very well Molly.”
Chapter 17
Chris
Her words had sent my mind into overdrive and the last thing I was going to do was end this with a solo ending. She should have known better, but there was a part of her that was teasing me. After a few strokes, she wasn’t smiling anymore. Her lips were pursed and I bent down to kiss her as I drove in over and over again.
She felt good, too good and I did have to concentrate on not losing it right then and there. I wanted to hear her scream out my name as she had before. I wasn’t going to rest until she was begging me to stop. Only then would I give her a break.
The dirty words started to stream out of her mouth as she got close. She wanted me to fuck her harder and faster and I was only too happy to oblige her. I wanted to be inside of her as deeply as I could and when she called me name out for the first time, I did have to stop for a moment to keep it together. She just felt so damn good and Molly knew what her words did to me. It was always clear what she wanted and after the third orgasm in a row, she started to push onto my chest. She was reaching her limit and I couldn’t have been happier, because I had long since reached mine.
I exploded inside of her as she clenched me over and over again for the third time. Every time she came, she suffocated my length inside of her and this time I didn’t have to bite the side of my cheek to hold off on coming. The release that was so long awaited was worth every second. I felt drained as I slid out of her and heard the whimpering sounds from her lips.
“Damn you feel good Molly. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this damn good before.”
Molly didn’t say anything and I looked over at her and she looked like she was going to pass out. She had a smiled fixed to her face and her eyes stared off a little bit. I don’t know what she was thinking, but I knew that it was along the same lines that I was thinking. How the hell had I given her up?
“You always felt good Chris. You’re right, nothing has changed.”
“I don’t know. I don’t remember you coming so quick or being that tight.”
Molly didn’t answer; she just turned her head a little bit with that silly smile on her face. I pulled her in and against my chest and kissed the top of her head. It was perfect, just like it had always been and once again I was questioning every decision I’d ever made that took me further away from Molly. What had I been thinking?
***
We dozed off like we didn’t have a care i
n the world and when I woke up with her lying across my chest a little while later, something inside of me snapped a little. Molly had always been the one. When I heard other men talk about the one, I knew that for me, it was Molly. She’d always been the one and she was the only one that I had ever considered going the next step with. I’d been with some pretty girls and some women that were even beyond my league, but it was Molly that I thought about almost every night before I went to bed.
Now that she was here and I was with her, it felt like this is the way that should always be. It was hard for me to think of life without her and I felt like I’d just gotten her back.
But there was something between us and it didn’t seem to get any better. She wanted to stay here in Alaska and though I missed certain aspects of it, I knew that my life was in the city. How could I just walk away from everything, the business and all of the perks that came with it? I was used to the city life and there were still times even now that I was looking for my favorite coffee house and I knew that it wasn’t there. Molly’s restaurant was one of the only ones around and it was like that for most things. There was very little selection. In New York, there was plenty of variety, but that didn’t seem to matter because the one thing that I wanted truly, I couldn’t have.
It was all too complicated and I lay like that for some time, not sure what to do. I wanted everything to change and for us to be together, but it was impossible now as it was then. Now I was older and I could see futility a little quicker than before.
Molly started to move next to me.
“Are you up?”
“Yeah.”
“What time is it?”
I hadn’t even thought about the time. I hadn’t even been tired but I’d go to sleep with her next to me. There was a feeling of complete relaxation that had come over me after we were done.
“I don’t know. Not too late, it’s still light outside.”