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by Todd J. McCaffrey


  With an impulsive burst of energy, Fiona grabbed all her blankets and bedsheets, twisted around to pull them over her shoulder, and strode into Talenth’s quarters.

  “I think it’s just you and me, love,” she said as she arranged thick blankets on the floor so that she could lie against Talenth’s chest.

  She was just dozing when a voice surprised her: “May I join you?”

  It was Seban. He didn’t wait for an answer, carefully moving to her side and encouraging her to prop herself against him. The warmth of his body, his arms wrapped comfortably around her, the father-ness of him, was all just too much and she buried her face against the hollow of his neck, biting her lips firmly to keep from bawling.

  “There’s no shame in crying, my lady,” Seban told her softly, his free hand stroking her hair. “There’s no one here but you, me, and your queen.” Fiona felt herself shudder but could not let herself go: She was the Weyrwoman, she was the strength of the Weyr, the people depended on her, the people looked to her.

  “No one’s looking,” Seban assured her, almost as if he’d read her mind. “And if they were, what would be the harm in that?”

  As if his words were the key to unlock her grief, Fiona suddenly found her tears flowing down her cheeks, her sobs uncontrollable, her nose running, and her whole body shaking with grief.

  “You take so much on such young shoulders,” Seban was saying softly. “You have the right to let some of it out.”

  The words eased her and slowly, very slowly, her sobbing slackened, her tears dried up. With a deep sigh, she buried her head further against Seban’s, seeking the comfort of a child with a parent and knowing that it was hers no longer.

  “Shh!” Seban breathed quietly. “Shh, now, it’s all right. It’s all right.”

  Too tired and worn out to argue, Fiona lay there, feeling the rise and fall of Talenth’s chest, the steady beat of Seban’s heart—the warmth of two bodies surrounding her, two loving souls comforting her.

  A long time later, she opened her eyes and turned her head toward the weyr’s entrance to the Bowl. Seban did not move, seemingly asleep himself. She closed her eyes again, then opened them and was surprised to see small bright eyes gleaming in the distance. They were joined by another pair, then another, and then a larger pair, higher up.

  Xhinna strode into view and the eyes swiveled nervously toward her.

  “Is it all right, Weyrwoman?” Xhinna asked, her voice soft and husky in the cold evening air. “They were cold in the dormitories and couldn’t sleep and I remembered …”

  Fiona saw her friend—Taria, wasn’t it?—reach forward to grab for Xhinna’s arm protectively and suppressed a smile, instead nodding and raising an arm to beckon them forward.

  “Talenth is large enough now for the whole Weyr,” Fiona called back softly. “And we’d like the company.”

  She gestured toward her quarters. “I’m sure there are more blankets and sheets there.”

  “We wouldn’t—we couldn’t—” Taria began nervously, clearly alarmed at the thought of sleeping on the Weyrwoman’s bedsheets.

  “Taria,” Xhinna cut her off with a kindly shake of her head. “This is Fiona, my friend. If she says she doesn’t mind, she’s not lying, she means it.”

  Xhinna tapped a couple of the children on the shoulders and gestured for them to follow her while telling Taria, “Start getting them settled; we’ll be back.”

  With all the grace her growing adolescence would permit, Xhinna strode into the Weyrwoman’s quarters, followed by a small cluster of eager, excited girls who alternately squeaked in delight and shushed each other.

  Beside her, Fiona felt Seban move and realized that the man had been feigning sleep.

  “They’ll settle down soon enough,” she told him.

  “What I cannot figure, my lady, is your ability to surround yourself so easily with love,” Seban replied, his voice mixed with awe, affection, and a sense of rightness.

  Fiona couldn’t think how to answer him; for her, having friends was as natural as breathing.

  Xhinna brusquely arranged the sheets, blankets, pillows, and youngsters and had them settled down as quickly as she could. She gave Fiona an apologetic look before she clasped Taria’s arm and tugged the other girl off to a corner at the far end of Talenth’s stomach.

  Fiona felt the great gold dragon stir in her sleep.

  Talenth, she said softly in a tone meant to reassure, we have company.

  Fiona received a dim feeling from Talenth that she knew and was pleased.

  Please tell Xhinna that I love her, Fiona said. She felt Talenth groggily relay the message, felt Xhinna’s love return in response and then relaxed against Seban, making room for the small warm bodies that were curling up against her.

  Sometime in the middle of the night, Fiona came starkly awake.

  “Eww, it’s coming out her nose!” a small girl’s voice exclaimed from near Talenth’s head.

  “Come on back, Aryar, you’ll wake everyone,” another girl whispered urgently, fearfully.

  “But Rhemy, what’ll happen if she dies?” Aryar persisted, her voice coming toward Fiona, who kept her eyes closed, not wishing to alarm them further and possibly wake up the whole group. Fiona could hear the young girl—she couldn’t have more than seven Turns at the most—pausing in front of Fiona, probably peering at her, as she continued, “They say that when a dragon dies, the rider loses half her heart with it.” Aryar sniffed. “How can the Weyrwoman live with only half a heart?”

  “Her heart is big enough, even just half, and with our love, it’ll grow back,” Xhinna’s voice came quietly out of the darkness. She scooped up the youngster in her arms, prepared to carry her back to the others.

  As Xhinna’s steps receded into the distance, Fiona heard Aryar declare, “You have my love, Weyrwoman! I’ll help you grow your heart back!”

  NINE

  Weyrwoman, mind the Weyr:

  For all things prepare

  And set the best fare

  Lest all should despair.

  Telgar Weyr, early morning, AL 508.2.10

  Silence settled upon the group only for a short while. Fiona managed to nod off for a bit and was surprised to be woken by the sound of Talenth. This time her coughing fit lasted a long while, disturbing many of the youngsters who slept scattered around her.

  “It’s all right,” Fiona said. “Try to get back to sleep.”

  She herself in contradiction of her advice rose and went to check on Talenth’s head. There was a small pile of green ooze in front of it.

  “It’s only a little,” she said to herself, remembering the bucket and mop she’d used for blue Serth.

  “Come back to sleep,” Seban said, grabbing her shoulders in his hands and gently guiding her back. “Your rest is important to her.”

  Fiona had barely gotten settled when the sound of feet coming up the path of the queens’ ledge disturbed her. The noise redoubled with the sound of startled children.

  “She has the Weyrwoman’s permission!” Fiona heard Taria declare stoutly in Xhinna’s defense.

  “Yes, she does,” Fiona said, opening one eye to peer at the scene in front of her. Several women, their lips tight with disapproval, were shepherding children out of the weyr. “Talenth enjoys the company.”

  “It’s not normal!” one of the older women complained, dragging two children in tow behind her.

  “Really, they shouldn’t be disturbing you,” another woman declared. “And with your poor dragon …”

  “Talenth likes them,” Fiona retorted. She gestured vaguely to the women. “She likes company; you could join us if you’d like.”

  Several of the women looked positively affronted by the suggestion and hurried out of the weyr even faster, but some paused, looking wistfully at Talenth.

  “I’m sorry, Weyrwoman,” Taria apologized as she gathered the rest of the children, preparing to depart. She cast an accusing look toward Xhinna. “I should have known.”
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br />   “Taria, settle these children back down,” Fiona ordered firmly. “If their mothers or fathers want to take them away, they will. Otherwise, they are welcome to stay.” Taria opened her mouth once more, but Fiona cut her off peremptorily, jabbing her thumb toward the floor. “Here. In this weyr. With their Weyrwoman.”

  Taria’s mouth gaped in surprise as Fiona’s words registered with her.

  “And you wouldn’t want to disobey the Weyrwoman, would you?” Seban asked in a tone that mixed reasonableness with warning.

  “Come on, Taria,” Xhinna called softly, grabbing her friend’s hand, “I told you that you can’t gainsay this Weyrwoman, didn’t I?”

  “Well …” Taria began, clearly worried over the frowning looks of the remaining women.

  “May I join you?” Shaneese called softly as she climbed up to Talenth’s weyr. She smiled at Fiona. “I’d heard you were accepting sleepovers.”

  Several of the disapproving women gaped at Shaneese in surprise and anger, but she dismissed them curtly. “If you don’t want to be here, with your Weyrwoman, then leave.”

  She eyed them carefully as she added, “But if you don’t want to be with your Weyrwoman now, when she stands by you, you might ask yourself whether you want to remain in this Weyr?” She smiled grimly at them. “There are plenty of small holds lying fallow—you’ll not lack for a roof or food.”

  “Where’s the best place to sleep?” Vikka asked, two children waiting eagerly behind her. She nodded to Shaneese, then to Fiona, saying, “My lady, I only just found out about your kind offer.” She released the children, gently shooing them toward Taria and the others. “There are many of us here who have slept with dragons but none with a queen.”

  “You are welcome,” Fiona said, gesturing toward a spot nearby. To the women who still remained standing, undecided, Fiona said, “F’jian’s Ladirth is also suffering and could use company tonight, if you’d consider it.”

  “That Bekka will keep everyone up all night!” a voice exclaimed out of the dark.

  Seban’s chuckle broke the tension that rose with those words. “It’s true that Bekka rarely sleeps, but she’s learned silence from an early age—her mother is a midwife and Bekka was warned that any baby she woke was hers to get back to bed.”

  Some of the reluctant women chuckled.

  “However, some here should be sleeping, I think,” Fiona said with a glance toward Taria’s charges. “I know some may prefer soft beds to hard rock, and their own quarters to a stranger’s.”

  She closed her eyes, wishing the disgruntled would either relent or leave. After a while, the sounds of movement died away. Fiona felt the warmth of some more bodies near her and the sounds of older sleepers and drifted off, content to see the morning.

  “Good morning Talenth.” Aryar’s small piping voice, kept hushed, was the first thing that woke Fiona that morning.

  “Good morning Talenth,” Rhemy added in a whisper a moment later. “I hope you’re feeling better.”

  Fiona opened an eye, only to see Seban wink at her and close his eyes again suggestively. Suppressing a smile, she followed suit.

  One by one, the young weyr girls and boys filed past the queen dragon and wished her a good morning and good health.

  “I’ve never heard the like before,” Seban murmured as Taria added her voice, in heartfelt tones, to the others.

  “I know you’re pretending,” Xhinna said right beside Fiona. “You snore when you’re really sleeping.”

  “I do not!” Fiona replied, eyes snapping open. Xhinna smiled at her, leaned forward, and gave her a quick kiss on the forehead.

  “Of course not, Weyrwoman,” she agreed cheerfully. “Did you sleep well?”

  Fiona stretched, careful not to hit Xhinna or Seban, and considered the question. “Well enough, thank you.”

  “We’re heading back to the dorms to get them washed and dressed—there are far too many for your rooms,” Xhinna explained. “Shall we bring your breakfast here?” When Fiona made to protest, Xhinna told her, “You know they’d be ecstatic to serve you. You can’t imagine how they’d feel: ‘I served the Weyrwoman!’”

  Fiona smiled but shook her head. “Perhaps another day.”

  Xhinna accepted this with a phlegmatic shrug. “It’s probably just as well—they’d spill all over you.”

  “Come on, Xhinna,” Taria called from the entrance. She nodded to Fiona and gave the Weyrwoman a tentative smile. “Thank you, Weyrwoman.”

  “My pleasure.”

  As they departed, Fiona took her Weyrwoman’s privilege and stole into her bathroom before Seban. She was out again in a moment, offering him its use before taking a more relaxed bath and getting dressed for the day.

  When she was done, she went to clean up Talenth’s weyr and check her over thoroughly, insisting upon going over the great gold body with her hands, searching for the smallest signs of patchiness. She was delighted to find one and oiled it promptly, to Talenth’s great pleasure.

  Really, though, she was saying good-bye. She wanted to savor every moment with her brilliant queen, to build a treasury of memories that would last all her days, to—

  I will be all right, Talenth assured her. You’ll see. We have Turns yet.

  Fiona’s sob brought Seban rushing to her side, his face full of concern.

  “Do you think dragons could have the Sight, like Tenniz?” Fiona asked in response to his questioning look. She realized belatedly that he had never met Tenniz. “Tannaz was his sister.”

  “She was a great lady,” Seban said respectfully. “By the Sight, do you mean to see what will happen?”

  Fiona nodded. Quickly she told him of the gifts that Tenniz had left for her, Terin, and Lorana.

  “Lorana of Benden?” Seban repeated, surprised. “I wonder why he didn’t have it delivered to her there.”

  Fiona shook her head. “She,” she said, nodding toward Talenth, “told me that she would be all right. That we will have Turns together.”

  “Weyrwoman,” Seban began hesitantly, “dragons have very poor memories.”

  “I know,” Fiona said, running a hand briskly over Talenth’s chest. Her lips quirked as she continued softly, “I think she was trying to cheer me up.”

  “Like her mate, she puts her concerns for others first,” Seban agreed, patting the queen respectfully.

  “Perhaps dragons are more like their riders than we think,” Fiona mused. “Didn’t you say that if a rider wants to know how injured he is, he asks about his dragon?”

  Seban chuckled. “So your gold thinks that if you feel all right, she’ll be all right?”

  “A view that’s not without its merits,” T’mar spoke up and they turned to see him standing at the entrance to Talenth’s lair. He nodded respectfully toward the queen, then came to Fiona. “I don’t know if you heard but F’jian’s Ladirth—”

  “What?” Fiona broke in anxiously, turning toward the entrance, ready to sprint away.

  T’mar raised a hand in reassurance. “No, he is in no greater danger,” he said. “I came to tell you that he slept well and was thrilled with all the company he had.”

  “Did F’jian sleep at all?” Fiona asked, relieved enough to allow herself to feel amusement.

  T’mar’s brows rose and he grinned mischievously. “I believe that he and Terin managed to find some distraction from their cares, with Bekka and at least a score of others devoted to the bronze’s every whim.” He snorted. “I wonder if we’ll have to worry about our dragons being too pampered.”

  “Not as long as this illness lasts,” Seban said bleakly and the light mood vanished. T’mar gave the ex-dragonrider a sympathic look in apology.

  “We were just going to break our fast,” Fiona said to get past the awkward moment. She gestured. “If you’d care to join us?”

  T’mar shook his head. “No, thank you, Weyrwoman,” he said, “I’ve duties to attend.”

  “Oh, come on, T’mar!” Fiona snapped at him. “Seban’s man eno
ugh to let your gaffe pass—join us and tell us how the training is going.”

  Seban gave the bronze rider an encouraging nod and the two headed out toward the Kitchen Cavern together. “How has Ladirth’s illness affected the wings?”

  Fiona followed a moment later, distracted from their conversation by her worries.

  She forced herself to be cheerful throughout breakfast and teased Xhinna, Terin, and Taria for their hollow-eyed cheeks and evident fatigue, but she knew she was just putting up a front, a trick she’d learned Turns before when she was still a toddler at her father’s Hold.

  “A Holder is the hope of all,” Lord Bemin, her father, had told her solemnly once when Fiona had been having a tantrum. “When you laugh, they are happy.” He lowered his chin as he asked her, “And when you misbehave, how do you think they feel?”

  She’d understood, even then, what he meant, though it was Turns before she truly grasped the concept of leading by example. It was a strange thing: Even if she was feeling sad herself, just displaying cheer to others would inevitably cause her to cheer up, as well.

  She wondered if she would still be able to do that if she lost Talenth. Little Aryar’s question echoed in her mind: “How can the Weyrwoman live with only half a heart?”

  She glanced around, spotted Xhinna, rose, and went over to her, grabbing her around the shoulders in a great hug.

  “What?” Xhinna asked, turning to face her, surprised by the embrace and the emotions behind it.

  “I just wanted to say that I love you,” Fiona told her, ignoring Taria’s concerned look from her nearby seat. Xhinna gave her a wide-eyed look and Fiona’s lips quirked upward as she quoted: “‘Her heart is big enough, even just half, and with our love, it’ll grow back.’”

  “Oh,” Xhinna said in a quiet voice. “I didn’t think you’d heard.”

  Taria had risen just in time to hear Fiona’s words and gave her friend a look of admiration. Fiona shared a smile with her.

 

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