The waiter arrives with our food and I quickly try to compose myself but the aroma of garlic turns my stomach. Covering my mouth, I lurch forward and my face nearly falls into the dish.
“Melissa?”
“I’m going to be sick,” I mutter.
Pushing back my chair, I make a mad dash for the ladies room and hear him warn me to watch my step.
Too bad he didn’t tell me to watch out for the vanilla extract.
Some hero he is.
Chapter 7
A Ghost Standing Between Us
Jimmy Casale
Sliding two hundred-dollar bills into the leather bill holder, I lift my eyes to the waiter as he takes in the untouched plates on the table.
“Sir, would you like me to wrap the meal?”
“No, thank you. Keep the change,” I tell him, rising from my seat. Brushing past him, I make a beeline toward the restrooms and glance at the watch on my wrist. Deciding the ten minutes I gave Melissa to collect herself is ten minutes longer than I like, I knock on the door to the ladies room.
“Melissa?”
She doesn’t respond and instinctively I throw my shoulder into the door before testing the knob. It flies open and I find her on her knees, hunched over the toilet. Rushing to her side, I pull her hair away from her face as she dry heaves.
“I’m so sorry,” she moans, wiping a hand across her mouth.
“Nothing to be sorry for,” I assure her as she leans forward and flushes the bowl. Bracing her hands on the seat, she tries to lift herself but, I quickly intervene and lift her into my arms. To my surprise, she doesn’t put up a fight and I stride for the door.
“I’m drunk,” she murmurs as she rests her head on my shoulder. Balancing her with one arm, I pull open the door.
“It happens to the best of us,” I tell her as I carry her through the restaurant, ignoring all the sideways glances we receive.
“I ruined our date,” she continues. Reaching the parking lot, I feel my pants for the keys to my truck and can’t help but grin. Yeah, the night didn’t go as I planned but having her admit this was indeed a date is more than I imagined she’d give me. And though she’s drunk, having her in my arms is another added bonus.
“Are you kidding? You just admitted it was a date. That’s a win for me,” I murmur against her ear. Unlocking the door, I pull it open and gently slide her into the passenger seat. She closes her eyes and leans her head back.
“My head is killing me,” she groans, shifting in her seat. Her purse falls from her lap and the contents tumble onto the floor of the truck. Leaning over her, I bend and try to collect her belongings. That’s when I spot the two empty bottles of vodka. Pocketing them, I set her purse upright and go to work on securing her seat belt.
“You’re a nice guy, Jimmy the hose Casale,” she sputters. Lifting my head, I bite back the chuckle and watch her eyes open. “I didn’t say that,” she warns, wagging a finger at me.
“Never heard it,” I swear, clicking her seatbelt into place. I’m about to step back when she grabs my face and turns me back to her. Unsure what she’s about to do, I stare into her eyes and like a raging inferno she sucks me in. Her lips, soft and firm, crash against mine. Every coherent thought disappears as I move my hands to her face and hold her in place. Our lips slowly part and I pepper hers with another peck before releasing her.
“I kissed you,” she says.
“Yeah, you did.”
“I threw up and then I kissed you,” she groans, smacking her hand to her forehead. “Ouch.”
Giving into the laughter that rolls through me, I pull away from her and close the door. By the time I make it around the front of the truck and into the driver’s seat Melissa is out cold. The drive back to her house is uneventful and when I pull into her driveway, I try to wake her. She doesn’t budge, causing me to lift her out of the truck and carry her to the door. Remembering her sister at the window when I picked her up, I don’t bother searching for her keys and instead I knock on the door hoping not to wake her kid.
The door swings open and Melissa’s sister stares at me with bulging eyes.
“What the hell did you do to my sister?” she shrieks. The shock wears off and her eyes narrow at me. Ignoring the ridiculous question, I reposition her in my arms and look over the sister’s shoulder.
“Where is her son?”
“I’m going to ask you one more time, what did you do to my sister?” she commands, clenching her jaw.
“And, I’m going to ask you one more time where her son is, so he doesn’t have to see her like this,” I retort, losing my patience. It’s one thing to misjudge a person, but it’s another to accuse a man of foul play.
Crossing her arms against her chest, the armor slips from her face.
“He’s sleeping,” she replies, moving aside to allow me room to enter. Stepping over the threshold, I carry Melissa into her house. “Living room is to the right,” the sister says from behind me.
I hear her close the door as I gently lay Melissa down. Unable to help myself, I brush my fingers down her cheek before standing to my full height and meeting the sister’s fury. Running my hands over my head, I try to remember the name of the woman whose eyes are drilling a hole in me.
“You have five seconds to explain,” she hisses.
“Listen…uh…”
“For fuck’s sake,” she growls, rolling he eyes. “Amber, my name is Amber now start talking fireman.”
Reaching into my pocket, I pull out the two empty vodka bottles and hold them out to Amber.
“I think your sister might have a problem,” I reveal begrudgingly. “Everything was fine,” I continue. “We had a couple of glasses of wine before dinner then she excused herself to the bathroom. When she came back, I noticed she wasn’t herself but I thought she was finally starting to relax around me.”
Snatching the bottles from my hand, Amber’s eyes go wide before she closes them completely.
“Oh my God,” she groans.
Fearing the worst, I glance back at Melissa.
“What? What is it?” I ask.
“I put those in her pocketbook,” she mutters, meeting my gaze. “I gave her one before you picked her up and it seemed to calm her down so, I put the others in there as a joke. I never thought she would actually drink them but, maybe if she got nervous she would look in her bag, see them and voila—no more jitters.”
“Liquid courage,” I comment.
“Exactly!”
“Want to tell me why she needs it?”
Biting her lip, she looks at Melissa thoughtfully.
“My sister doesn’t date much,” she admits. “Actually, she doesn’t date period. It’s like she stopped living after her wedding.”
“Her wedding,” I repeat, shaking my head. “She told me she was never married.”
“Yeah, well, that don’t mean there wasn’t a church full of people or frilly white dress,” she replies.
Without trying, I see it.
A church full of people, flowers everywhere and Melissa in a beautiful white dress, wearing a smile that belongs to another man.
“Are you saying he left her at the altar?”
Placing her hands on her hips, she releases a strangled breath as she shakes her head.
“This isn’t my story to tell,” she murmurs. “If my sister wanted you know, she would’ve told you. I’ve already said too much.”
I don’t like being left in the dark but, I respect Amber’s choice to keep her sisters confidence. Still, I can’t shake the vision of Melissa in white and I know for certain when I lay my head down to rest, it’s that exact image that will keep me up all night.
“Thank you for taking care of her,” Amber says. “I’ve got it from here.”
Shoving my hands into my pockets, I nod taking the subtle hint that my presence is no longer needed.
“Two aspirins and a bottle of orange soda,” I reply.
“What?”
“Make sure she has
both waiting for her when she wakes up in the morning,” I tell her as I make my way down the hall. As I reach for the front door, I pause and glance up at the photos framing the wall. The largest is of an adorable little boy who if I had to guess was four years old. Then there are a few surrounding it. One of Melissa and Amber. Another of an older couple who I assume are her parents and a few more of the boy. My gaze zeros in on the final picture and my breath hitches as my eyes dart between Melissa’s smiling face and the man holding her in his arms. The man I pulled out of an elevator seventeen years ago.
The same man I carried over my shoulder for blocks.
The man I left inside that tiny church.
The one who came to thank me a year later.
Christopher Edwards.
Amber says something that I don’t make out and I take a retreating step backward. Shaking my head in disbelief, I give the photo one last glance before hurrying out the door. I slam it closed and run my fingers through my short hair.
Her face.
From that first day in her office, I knew I had seen her before.
Making my way to my car, I rake my brain trying to place when and where I saw her. I play back every encounter I had with Chris and then it hits me. The last time I saw him was the day they opened the 9/11 museum. He called me a few days before and asked if we could check it out together. That’s the day he told me he met someone and was going to ask her to marry him. Come to think of it, he had met me after picking up the ring from the jewelry district down on Canal Street.
Forcing myself into my truck, I grip the steering wheel as the memories come flooding back to me. Proud of his woman, he pulled out his wallet and showed me the photograph he kept of her. I remember thinking she was beautiful. I remember staring at her face, at those eyes that seemed to jump off the paper they were printed on. They shined almost as brightly as her smile did. I told him he was a lucky bastard; and he thanked me. Not for the compliment but, again, he thanked me for saving his life—for giving him the opportunity to find her.
To love her.
Piecing together what I know, I start the engine and violently peel away from the curb. He looked so sincere then. He even asked me if I would attend the wedding. We joked that I should be his best man and then he made me promise to have dinner with him and his soon to be fiancé.
He called her Liss.
Jesus Christ, he called her Liss—short for Melissa.
I never got an invitation to dinner never mind a wedding. We lost touch after that and I’m mainly to blame. For as long as we knew one another it was always Chris who reached out to me. I never made an effort.
Suddenly anger coils in my veins and I can’t tell if I’m madder at myself or him. Myself, for not trying hard enough. If I had maybe then I would know what happened between the two of them. If I had then I wouldn’t have just spent the night enjoying the company of a woman whose heart belongs to another man.
Him, because he’s responsible for dimming the light in those beautiful eyes. He’s the reason her smile is gone. The reason she’s so unsure of herself. He’s why she’s so fucking sad.
“You son of a bitch,” I growl, pounding my fist against the steering wheel. “What the fuck did you do to her?”
Pulling my car onto the shoulder, I retrieve my phone from my pocket and flip through the contacts until I come to Chris 9/11. Having no idea what I’ll say if he answers, I hit send and wait for it to ring.
The number you are trying to reach is no longer in service. If you feel you’ve reached this message in error, please hang up and try your call again.
Disconnecting the call, I toss the phone onto the passenger seat and lean my head against the leather. It dawns on me then that Melissa has no idea I know Chris. Surely, she would’ve mentioned it. She would’ve used it as an excuse not to have dinner with me. That knowledge settles within me. It torments me and fucks with my conscience.
The right move would be to let her go.
I might not know what transpired between her and Chris but I know enough to know she’s still his. Melissa may have agreed to go out with me and yeah, she kissed me but that don’t mean anything. Physically she might not be Chris’ anymore but her heart and soul still belong to him.
I’ve lived enough life to know when to fold.
New beginnings don’t stand a chance with the past looming over it and Melissa and I don’t have a shot in hell—not with a ghost standing between us.
It’s got to be over.
We need to be over.
Done.
Finished.
But, that face.
I won’t forget it.
It will haunt me.
She will haunt me.
Tonight, will haunt me.
Reaching for my phone, I delete Chris’ number and pull up my text messages. Finding Melissa’s name, I click on it and I secure my place in hell.
Me: I hope you feel better. Let’s try again.
Lucky for me, I’m no stranger to flames.
Chapter 8
My Shadow Is Moving Without His
Melissa Moscato
I had the strangest dream last night. It started off with me on a date with Jimmy Casale. He took me to a fancy Italian restaurant and while we shared a bottle of wine; he told me all about himself. Everything was moving smoothly until he held my hand. Things got a little fuzzy after that and the sweet dream quickly escalated into a nightmare of sorts. The kind where the woman actually gets wasted and makes a fool of herself.
I woke up sweating and quickly sat upright, trying to shake the horrid thoughts from my head. However, the moment I lifted my head I felt like I was hit by a truck. The searing pain in my temples caused me to groan, and I fell back onto the plush couch.
“Oh, good, you’re alive,” Amber mutters. “Now, I can kill you with my bare hands.”
“Lower your voice,” I plead. “My head feels like it’s going to explode.”
“Hold on, let me get my violin,” she replies. Her voice dripping with sarcasm.
Willing the room not to spin, I open one eye and peer at her. She extends her hands, offering me two tiny pills and a bottle of orange soda.
“What’s this?”
“Fireman’s orders,” she mutters.
Both eyes open now, I try to slowly sit up.
“Oh my God,” I groan, taking the aspirins from her. “It wasn’t a dream was it?”
“Nope, not a dream,” she replies, handing me the soda. “You most definitely went out with the sexy fireman, got sloshed and had him carry you home.”
“Oh my God,” I shriek, lifting my hands to cover my face. The room stops swaying and clarity begins to wash over me. My voice rings in my ears, replaying every ridiculous word that came out of my mouth. “I told him my hymen must’ve grown back!”
“Well at least you were honest,” Amber offers, shrugging her shoulders as she sits next to me. “Usually first dates are full of lies and false pretenses.”
“I fell into his lap and blamed the floor,” I add, my eyes going wide. “Oh God, I threw up all over the bathroom.”
“Well, it could be worse. You could’ve thrown up on him.”
Turning my head, I glare at her.
“You’re not helping.”
“Who said I was trying to?”
Leaning forward she grabs a brown paper bag off the coffee table and drops it in my lap.
“Your knight and shining armor dropped this off at the crack of dawn,” she reveals.
“He was here?”
“Sure was,” she replies. “I stayed up all night making sure you didn’t die swallowing your own vomit and just as I was about to fall asleep, there was a knock on your door. Mr. Hero didn’t trust me not to take care of you and dropped off a bottle of Bayer, a liter of orange soda and the greasiest bacon egg and cheese sandwich I’ve ever seen.”
“This is all your fault,” I sneer, shoving her shoulder. “You put those little bottles in my purse.”
; “Yeah, I must’ve poured them down your throat too,” she says, rolling her eyes. “You do realize you’re freaking out over nothing, right?”
“Amber, I haven’t been on a date since I started dating Chris. The first time I go out with a man, I make a complete jackass out of myself. I have every right to freak out. I told you this was a mistake. Clearly, I’m not cut out for any of this.”
“Did you not hear the part about him stopping over this morning to make sure you were okay? And I completely snooped through your texts last night. He wants to take you out again,” she says, handing me my phone. “If you don’t believe me, look yourself.”
Taking the phone from her, I pull up the last text message Jimmy sent me and to my surprise, Amber’s right.
“He was a complete gentleman, Melissa. Another guy may have taken advantage of your condition but Jimmy took care of you. He made sure you got home safely, and he checked in. Take it from a girl who has kissed her fair share of toads, there aren’t many of his kind floating around.”
Standing from the couch, she points to the phone in my hand.
“Call him,” she orders. “I’m going to take a nap. Mom picked up Chris and said she’ll drop him off after dinner.”
“Mom knows what happened?”
“No, she thinks you got a stomach bug,” she responds. I let her words sink in as I watch her start for the stairs and I know there is truth there. Jimmy was completely respectful from the moment he picked me up. Knowing the type of man, I was with, feeling some sort of connection to him as we got to know one another—it’s the very reason I flipped out.
“Amber?” I call as she reaches the stairs. Turning to me, she lifts an eyebrow in question. “Thank you.”
“Don’t thank me,” she says with a shake of her head. “Just let yourself be happy,” she pauses. “You deserve that much.”
I nod in response and watch her disappear up the stairs. Sitting back on the couch, I open the bottle of soda and take a few sips. My eyes dart to the breakfast sandwich and before I can doubt myself I reach for my phone. Pulling up Jimmy’s number, I press send and wait to hear his deep voice greet me.
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