by Megan Bryce
“Don’t let this one get away, George. Or you’ll find yourself wed to whatever is left.”
George clamped his jaw together tight. “I know what I’m doing. And kindly remember that I am not to the marriage stage yet with Miss Westin. I am interested.”
Sebastian sighed. “Despite what you think, I would love for you to be happy in your marriage. But that I can not wait for. Interest is almost more than I can wait for.”
“Did Father wait for you to be happy with your chosen? Or were you merely interested?”
“I knew Flora would be my countess the first time I spoke with her. I wasn’t happy or not happy. I wasn’t interested or not interested. It simply was.”
George knew he was right. Everyone had known that Flora was it. Everyone had been happy with the match.
And if George had been in the same situation as his brother had been, he would have known that Miss Westin was his countess.
It galled him to admit that he was in the same situation as his brother.
Miss Westin was everything he needed. Everything he should want.
And while he was interested, he wasn’t entirely happy with her. But that wasn’t her fault.
He simply didn’t want a countess.
Elinor received the Countess of Ashmore in her drawing room again.
“We missed you at the Westins.”
Elinor laughed. “I doubt it. But thank you.”
“Were you ill?”
“No. I didn’t want to see him.”
Not when she might have him. If.
If was too tempting.
“The earl was relieved to not have to chase you off.”
Elinor smiled conspiratorially. “Oh, yes? How relieved was he?”
Flora pinched her lips together. “Not that relieved.”
“Oh.”
“He thinks he’s found a wife for his brother,” she said and Elinor’s heart stopped beating.
Flora said into the void, “Miss Westin would be a wonderful countess. And George was interested despite himself. Or so Sebastian assures me. I, of course, have my doubts.”
Elinor put her cup down before she broke the thing. “Why are you telling me this?”
Flora took a deep breath, looking down at her hands.
“I love my husband, despite how gauche that is. He is happy in his position of power, happy with the wife he needed to choose.
“And I love his brother, too. As if he was my own. I would like him to be happy and I can’t see him ever being happy as the earl. Can’t see him being happy having to choose the wife he needs to fill that position.”
“You think he would be happy with me?” Elinor held her breath, waiting for the countess’s answer.
“I think he will only be happy when he can choose what he wants, not what he needs.”
He already wanted Elinor. She could make him want her more. She could make him want her enough.
If.
Elinor said, “If he could choose.”
“If he could choose.”
“And why can’t he, Flora? I know we are speaking of the earl but he is a man. They are notoriously easy to seduce.”
Flora set her cup down, looking away.
Elinor stood, rounding the little table to sit next to Flora and say softly, “That was not a comment on your womanliness. I am sure you lead your husband around like all wives. It is what we must do. The man thinks, just like a horse, that since he is in front, he is in control. And all women know that it is she who holds the reins who tells him where to go. So why isn’t he going where you want him to?”
“You do have a way with imagery, Elinor.” Flora shook her head. “And this is an area where I have never needed to lead him before.”
“It is no different than getting him to do anything else. Put his nose in the right direction and let him get there himself. The real trouble is in getting him to stop, and that you do not need to worry about.”
A snort escaped from beneath Flora’s hat. And then another.
“Put his nose in the right direction?” And then she peeled with laughter.
Elinor chuckled lightly with her, thinking it was nice to have female companionship. Someone to laugh with, to share with.
Someone she did not need to lead by invisible reins.
Flora patted her eyes. “I had not realized how little we touch. We have been married ten years and have become so comfortable with each other that we hardly notice the other.”
Elinor thought it important to say, “Flora, you have become too comfortable.”
“I did try, Elinor. Every chance I had. He has not deigned to visit my bedchamber, though I am sure he knows I would be happy to receive him.”
“And why did not you visit him in his?”
“Because I am not at all sure he would be happy to receive me.” She cleared her throat. “Rejection is not to my taste.”
Elinor laughed. “Spoken just like a countess. But what if you thought of it not as rejection but as…”
She put her chin against her fist and thought. No rejection for Lady Ashmore. How did one go about the dance if one was afraid of failing?
“Oh! What if it wasn’t him rejecting you? What if it was you teasing him?”
What if seducing a reluctant man you were married to was exactly the same as seducing a man you wanted to be married to?
Elinor turned on the sofa, smiling wickedly at her new friend. Her only friend.
She said, “Make him want you but don’t let him have you.”
Megan BryceTo Wed The Widow
Seven
George did not call on Miss Westin the next day.
He still couldn’t believe Sebastian had managed to catch Flora when he was so ham-handed. If the man hadn’t been an earl, he’d be a confirmed bachelor by now.
But George was not an earl, yet, and instead of relying on his position and name and power, he used charm and subterfuge.
He ran into Miss Westin while she was out riding on the mile. Surrounded by her beaus, her hapless maid, and sitting atop her horse like a queen. Or a countess.
George tipped his hat at her, smiled, and rode right on past.
He liked to think he heard her gasp. That she had been outraged that he hadn’t stopped to chat when he’d danced and flirted with her not two nights ago.
And he decided he’d go on thinking that because, well, he couldn’t know otherwise. Not with three men and five horses between her and him.
When he turned around half an hour later, the crowd had thinned and he could see in a distance that she’d managed to shake a few of her followers. Enough so that when he caught up with her, he could stop without feeling like one of her hangers-on.
She turned her head just far enough to meet his eyes.
“Miss Westin.”
She sniffed. “Mr. Sinclair.”
She faced forward again, her chin tipped up a fraction, and they rode in silence for a furlong.
One of her beaus said something vacuous and she laughed gaily. Almost seductively, and George thought that if she had ten more years and five dead husbands behind her she could lead any man around as well as the widow.
He almost wished he’d brought his pup. Whip Anala out of his pocket and let her yap away because he still hadn’t figured out how to train that out of her.
But he didn’t want to share her yet with Miss Westin. She wouldn’t hug the dog to her chest with hurt blue eyes and scold him for keeping it in his pocket. She wouldn’t surround herself with three Mastiffs and get angry with him for overstepping his bounds with her servants.
She wouldn’t make him forget where he was or what he needed to do. Even when he hadn’t seen her in days. Even when he couldn’t smell her scent anymore on his shirt.
Miss Westin flicked her eyes at him. “Wool-gathering, Mr. Sinclair?”
Oh, she was too easy. He’d already won without saying a word.
And he was forced to play on anyway.
“Just thinking of
what fun the Greyson’s will be tomorrow night. I assume you are attending.”
“You assume correctly,” she said without a hint of welcome in her voice.
They rode another furlong in silence, her speaking and laughing with the other men and ignoring Sinclair, and Sinclair riding alongside, happy being ignored.
She turned to him again. “I assume you will be attending?”
“Of course. I am looking forward to the waltzing,” he said and lightly kicked his horse into a trot without a word of goodbye.
Flora smoothed her new nightdress.
Belted her dressing gown tightly, and then loosened it. And then tightened it again but pulled the lapels until they hung softly against her.
Yes, that was it.
She let out the long braid her maid had prepared for bed and shook her hair out. Pulled it over one shoulder, then pushed it back.
She looked at herself in the mirror and wriggled her nose.
She wanted to look seductive without Sebastian knowing she meant to look seductive. Wanted to look as if she was off to bed but had just remembered something vital to tell him.
Flora had the vital. She’d been biting her tongue all night, saving it up.
She wasn’t sure she had the seductive yet.
She fluffed her hair again and made a loose braid, pulling it over her shoulder and deciding that was the best she could do.
She bit her lips until they were puffed and reddened.
She smoothed the wrinkles around her eyes that hadn’t been there ten years earlier. And contented herself with the thought that there was also knowledge that hadn’t been there either.
Perhaps it was a fair trade.
It was an inevitable trade at any rate.
She knocked lightly at the connecting door that led to the earl’s bedchamber and pushed it open. Not locked, never locked. And still she’d never tried to open it.
“Sebastian?”
The earl’s valet was helping him into his dressing gown and Sebastian said over his shoulder, “Flora? Is something wrong?”
“No, no. I just remembered about Camilla. Should I come back?”
Sebastian shook his head, thanking his man and sending him off.
Flora perched on the bed, arranging herself just so and watching as he folded back the bedding.
She swallowed. “George asked if he could take Camilla to the docks. He is inspecting a shipment that just came in.”
Sebastian stared incredulously at her. “I can’t decide which of those statements has me more stupefied. Of course Camilla can’t go to the docks. And what is my brother doing inspecting a shipment?”
“I think you should go with them and let George explain it to you.”
He shook his head, crawling into bed. “Camilla is not going, and I can’t believe that you would even consider it.”
“You must know that George would protect her with his life.”
“And he may very well need to down at the docks.”
She felt the bed shift, watched him pull the blankets to his waist.
“Not with the two of you there. I think you should see what your brother has been up to the last eight years.”
She rested her hand on his foot tucked beneath the blankets, and then began to stroke it softly.
He watched her hand and the skin between his eyes puckered.
She said, “He’ll be here in the morning.”
“Flora!”
“If you decide that it is too dangerous for Camilla, you do not have to take her.”
“It is too dangerous.”
She looked down at her hand still stroking his foot and didn’t say anything. She thought about horses and reins and pointing a man in the direction you wanted him to go.
Every good wife instinctively knew how to do this. How to keep her husband’s pride intact while she ran her household.
The picture Elinor painted still made her want to smile, though.
Flora took her hand off his foot and played with her braid.
Sebastian sighed, tried to find a comfortable position and said in the tone of a man who thought the subject was over, “What is the shipment?”
Flora undid the bottom third of her braid and brushed her fingers through it, and then began to braid again.
“Trinkets. Combs like he gave me and the girls.”
Sebastian grunted and she said, “Perhaps I will take Camilla tomorrow. He says it is great fun to watch the ships being loaded but has never been on this end of it before.”
“You will not.”
She kept braiding and flicked her eyes up to her husband’s. “It is too dangerous?”
“And…uncouth.”
She smiled a tight smile and looked down at her braid again. “Sailors.”
Sebastian fidgeted. “Yes, sailors.”
“Pirates?”
“Some of them.”
“How exciting.”
“It’s not exciting. It’s dirty and foul and frantic.”
“Oh, have you been?”
“Of course. It is no place for a lady.”
She sighed. “I agree. No place for a lady. No place for a countess. Only men and children could be excited about orderly chaos, frantic shouts, and potential disaster.”
“It is no place for a countess’s daughter… Is that how George described it?”
“Mm. He made it seem quite exciting.”
“George could make tea and crumpets sound exciting.”
She laughed lightly, knowing it was true.
Sebastian said, “Do you know anything else about these trinkets? And just what the devil he’s doing with a shipload of them?”
“I know that when I wore mine out it was exclaimed over and envied. I know that George did not seem at all surprised when I told him that.”
“I might have to go with him and get the story out of him after all. I can’t have my brother dabbling in trade.”
“Of course not. Be sure and tell us all about it afterward. Hearing about an adventure is always so much more fun than experiencing it firsthand.”
Sebastian didn’t say a word and Flora kept playing with her braid.
He finally sighed and when she looked at him, his eyes were closed.
“You’ve already told Camilla about it, haven’t you?”
“I mentioned it. But of course said that you would have to agree.”
“And she wanted to go?”
“With you. She is not at all sure about George yet.”
“That’s because she is a bright girl.”
“She is. And she knows, just as I do, that with her father there to protect her, the docks will be as fun an adventure as her uncle promises.”
“Flora, she can’t go,” he said, but this time there was regret in his voice not cold certainty.
“If we had a nine-year-old son, would you take him to the docks to see his uncle’s shipment from a foreign and exotic land?”
He kept his eyes closed and Flora kept watching him. Watched as grief covered his face, and she wanted to lie down next to him and hold him. Cry with him. Or for him since she doubted he would join her.
She wanted to lie down next to him and strip her nightdress off and make him that son.
She wondered what he would do if she did because she didn’t think he was heading that direction. Not yet.
She climbed off the foot of the bed and walked around to his side.
His eyes opened when she touched his chest and he said softly, “Camilla is not our nine-year-old son.”
“I know. There is only you, and your brother, and perhaps one day, his nine-year-old son.”
“Don’t say that. Don’t say perhaps about that.”
“There is always a perhaps about that. Always a chance of four more girls and no son among them.”
Sebastian’s eyes widened and horror covered his face as he thought of his last great hope being unsuccessful.
She kept her hand on his chest and let him think about it. About w
hat he would do if George’s wife delivered no heir.
She said, “Will we do then what we should be doing now? Or will it be too late?”
“It’s already too late if you’ve found someone else to relieve that tension.”
He sounded angry and Flora tried not to be thrilled. She shook her head. “I have not. I would prefer it be you.”
That didn’t seem to mollify him any. “The devil you know?”
He still sounded angry and frustrated, and what had he said?
I know my duty; I know what the world expects from me. I am sorry to disappoint it and you and everyone.
The devil she loved, it was more like.
She pulled the covers up to his chin and kissed his forehead lightly.
“The devil I know,” she said and left him there.
George arrived early the next morning, dressed in his ubiquitous greatcoat and Sebastian knew his brother still hadn’t acclimatized to the cold.
Another hit this morning, another person he’d failed when he wished he could give them the world.
Sebastian eyed the coat and said, “Keep the dog in your pocket.”
George laughed, pecking Flora’s cheek. “Would you believe I didn’t bring her?”
“No.”
Flora teased him and Sebastian watched them banter happily between themselves. Flora never joked with him like that, only George, and Sebastian realized that she became whatever the situation needed.
Which version was the real her?
Did she really want to go to the docks with them this morning? What would she do if he invited her?
But she was right. It was no place for a countess. If there had ever been a time she could have had that adventure, she’d missed it.
Sebastian called for his daughter and Flora stopped talking long enough to smile at him.
Camilla entered the room, her hands clasped tight together, and when Sebastian asked if she would like to join them, she nodded.
She pursed her lips, then turned to her uncle. “Do you have your puppy, Uncle George?”
“Would you believe I didn’t bring her?”
Camilla squinted at his pocket. “I don’t know. But I don’t like her barking.”
George muttered, “You and me both. I didn’t bring her. I haven’t figured out how to get her not to bark.”