“Okay.” Gwen frowned. She hadn’t expected this conversation, let alone know where it was going.
“McKayla and I both agreed that we could try to have her conceive a baby and it would then be a little of me and a little of her and a baby for you.” Cole said then took a deep breath and waited for Gwen’s response.
“What?” Gwen’s eyebrows pinched together as she tried to comprehend what he was saying. She looked to McKayla for help.
“Cole and I would have sex, with you there too of course. And if I can get pregnant, we would be able to give you a baby that your own body isn’t able to.” McKayla spoke softly. It hadn’t been an easy conversation between her and Cole. Neither of them knew if Gwen would even want to go that route. “We don’t have to. But we wanted to put it out there in case you ever wanted to.”
“Um, I need to think about this.” Gwen pulled her hand from Cole and sat with both her hands in her lap. “I have been trying to come to terms with not being able to have a baby. I never wanted a baby… ever. But when I was pregnant with the twins, things changed. Only to find out that now I can’t get pregnant or the chance of me getting pregnant is very unlikely... I guess I had figured at this point, there wouldn’t be children in my future so it’s going to take a bit for me to decide. My head is being pulled in so many ways.”
“It’s okay. You don’t have to decide now. We just wanted you to know this option is there.” Cole scooted closer to her and wrapped his arm around her shoulders. He kissed the side of her head and rubbed up and down her arm tenderly while McKayla laced her fingers with Gwen’s and gave it a reassuring squeeze.
The rest of the meal passed fairly quietly as Gwen didn’t have much to add. McKayla and Cole carried on a conversation but Gwen didn’t pay any attention to them. She was stuck in her own thoughts.
They headed back to the cottage afterwards. Gwen changed and went to bed with only a handful more words to either of them.
Chapter 33
The next morning, Gwen woke to find both Cole and McKayla in the bed with her. She carefully slipped out of the covers and down to the foot of the bed to climb off without waking either of them.
Gwen moved to the kitchen to start coffee for McKayla and Cole since she knew they’d both want some when they got up. She poured a glass of orange juice for herself and then sat on a lounge chair on the back porch to look out at the beautiful blooming flowers blowing in the nice breeze.
“There you are. I knew you had to be around somewhere since there was fresh coffee brewing.” Cole stepped out the door and sat in a chair next to Gwen. He had a mug of steaming coffee in his hand.
“Just came out here to enjoy the view. It’s beautiful.” Gwen smiled out at the scenery. It was much different than where they lived in New York or really any place that she had ever been. “It is so calming.”
“Well, I have plans to take you to all sorts of beautiful places in the future. We have all been through a long year. Heck, a couple long years. But now that it is calming and becoming normal, I want to show you some of the most beautiful places I’ve been in the world. Plus, I want to discover new ones with you two.” Cole smiled at her, even though she was looking at the landscape.
“That would be wonderful. I would like to learn what it’s like to be this so called normal thing. And happy. I’d love to be happy with both of you for more than a few fleeting moments. Seems like every time we get our little threesome happy, something bad happens. I guess that ends up being the biggest thing for me when it comes down to having a baby… at all.” Gwen took a swallow of her juice. “The pregnancy before was unplanned. No one thought it would happen, then it did and we just had to go with it. But now the actual opportunity to have a choice. I don’t know what to say. Before I was pregnant with your babies, I never ever wanted children. But feeling them grow and seeing them on the ultrasound screen, it was one of the most wonderful moments in my life. And then I lost them. I don’t think I can handle another loss like that. My entire world shattered when the realization hit me that day in the hospital.”
“Then don’t decide right now. Neither one of us is in a rush. We aren’t pushing you to decide one way or the other. It was just us putting the option out there for you to considered, if and when you wanted to.” Cole set his mug down on the deck and grabbed her hand and brought it up to his lips. “We just want to love you anyway we can. We both just want you happy.”
“And I just want to love you both too.” Gwen smiled at him. “So, what is the plan for today? Did you and McKayla talk about it last night after I went to bed?”
“We did. She wants to go down to the beach and tan for a bit. I was hoping to steal you away for a little while and then we could join her to figure out the rest of the day.” Cole smiled as McKayla joined them on the patio.
“Sure. I guess that’s okay. Where are you stealing me away to?” Gwen put her arm around McKayla’s waist when she sat on the lounge chair next to her. McKayla rested her head on Gwen’s shoulder.
“It’s a secret. We can leave whenever you are ready. No time constraint.” Cole looked at the two women in his life and smiled again.
“You’ll be okay on the beach by yourself?” Gwen tried to look down at McKayla, who simply nodded her head. “You okay?”
“Mmm. Yes. Sleepy.” McKayla murmured. “I’ll take a little nap in the wonderful sun while you are gone.”
“Make sure you wear sunscreen. Wouldn’t want to get sunburned on your first full day here.” Cole reminded her. McKayla stuck out her tongue at him. He stood, picking up his cup again. “I’m gonna go get a shower so I’ll be ready whenever you are.”
“What should I wear?” Gwen asked before he disappeared into the cottage.
“Something comfortable.” Cole winked and moved out of her sight into the cottage.
Gwen slowly made her way inside and showered. She did her in big spiral curls with a bit of natural make up. She put on a simple nude slip dress that had a white lace overlay that was mid-thigh length with a pair of nude heels.
“This okay?” Gwen asked when she found Cole standing in the living room looking out a window, his hands in his pockets.
“Absolutely. Beautiful.” Cole pulled her close to him and laid a kiss on her lips. “You ready?”
“Yep. Where’s McKayla?” Gwen looked around the room.
“She already went off to the beach.” Cole informed her.
“Oh, okay.” Gwen frowned then took a deep breath and smiled. “Let’s go.”
“Lets.” Cole held open the back door for her. Gwen stepped out into the bright sunlight. “Why don’t we just walk down to say goodbye to McKayla first.”
“That’d be great.” Gwen smiled broadly. She held his hand tightly as they started down the path. Once they reached the part of the path that was surrounded by the forest, Cole tugged her hand and gestured off the path.
“This way. Just for a moment.” Cole carefully took a few steps through the underbrush before it opened to a small clearing. The sun shining down in spots through the thick branches above. “I just wanted to talk to you for a moment.”
“I thought that’s what we were going to do after we said bye to McKayla.” Gwen’s eyebrows pinched together in confusion. Cole just winked at her and held onto both of her hand, looking down into her eyes.
“Gwen, you make me the happiest man in the world. I really couldn’t ask for anything more in a woman. You are strong and smart. You’ve had so many bad things happen in your life but you always find your way through them to be this wonderful smiling woman. Even though you didn’t know love growing up, you somehow found it in your big beautiful heart to love not only McKayla but me as well. I just want you to know how much you mean to me. Baby or no baby or ten babies. I. Want. You. I want you in my life along with McKayla for the rest of my life.” Cole spoke softly. Gwen’s eyes teared up and he gently squeezed her hands. He laid a soft kiss on her lips before continuing, “I can’t promise that there won’t be tough times
. I can’t promise that we will have a perfect life. But I can promise you will have my heart in your hands for the rest of your life. I have had many loves in my life but you are the love of my life. I can’t live without you. I have to be able to see your beautiful face every day and hearing your melodious laugh and see the silly faces you make. I love everything about you. I love you so much.”
“I love you too, Cole.” Gwen smiled tenderly at him as he brushed his fingers against her cheek.
“Good. I just wanted to make sure you knew that.” Cole pulled her close and slowly brought his lips to hers again. Her lips parted and their tongues danced around each other. He pulled back after a moment. “We should get going.”
“Okay.” Gwen smiled. She followed Cole back to the path that led to the beach, her hand in his. Gwen froze when she saw what was on the sand in front of the,.
On the sand was a huge heart made out of rose petals filling the middle of the heart was more scattered rose petals. Cole led her out to the middle of the heart.
“As I was saying, I love you more than life. I can’t live without you.” Cole said holding Gwen’s hand in his. “I want you in my life every single day until I stop breathing.”
Gwen watched as Cole slowly dipped to one knee in front of her while holding on to her hand. He brought up a velvet box in the other hand. Tears streamed down Gwen’s cheeks as she stopped breathing.
“Gwen, would you marry me?” Cole finally asked the question Gwen didn’t think she’d ever hear.
“Yes.” Gwen whispered as tears streamed down her face. Cole slid the ring on her left ring finger before standing to pull her into a kiss. Gwen pulled back and looked around “How?”
“McKayla.” Cole grinned and gestured off to the side where McKayla stood in a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. When Gwen’s eyes landed on her, McKayla ran over to her.
“Let me see the ring!” McKayla squealed and reached for her hand causing both Gwen and Cole to laugh. “Oh it’s beautiful.”
Gwen finally looked at the ring. It was an oval shaped diamond with one smaller shaped oval diamond on either side.
“It’s a ring for all of us.” Cole spoke up. “You see, you are the middle diamond, the light of our lives. We are the smaller diamonds that both love you and want to be by your side.”
“We? You had something to do with this?” Gwen looked to McKayla.
“Yes! We went ring shopping together.” McKayla smiled. “We are all in this together, right?”
“Right.” Cole and Gwen said at the same time.
Chapter 34
Later that night as they were all getting ready for bed, Gwen looked down at her ring and it made a decision for her. While McKayla and Cole were in the bathroom brushing their teeth and laughing about something, Gwen stripped and climbed onto the middle of the bed.
“Well, hello.” Cole said as he was the first to exit the bathroom and spot Gwen naked on the bed. “Feeling frisky?”
“Oooh” McKayla pushed past Cole to see what he was talking about. “I am.”
“I wanted you to know that I have made a decision.” Gwen pushed up onto her elbows. “I think nothing would make me happier than to have a baby that is a little bit of the two people I love most in the world.”
“Yea?” Both Cole and McKayla looked at each other and then Gwen.
“Yes. Now get naked and get over here.” Gwen smiled then laughed as both of them quickly stripped out their clothes. McKayla crawled on one side of her and Cole on the other.
Gwen reached over and threaded her fingers into McKayla’s hair. She pulled McKayla’s face down to hers. “Are you sure this is what you want?” Gwen had to know for sure before things went any farther.
“Yes.” McKayla smashed her lips to Gwen’s. Her tongue slid into Gwen’s mouth as her hands massaged Gwen’s breasts. Cole’s hand slid down between Gwen’s legs. One finger pressed deep into Gwen as she rocked her hips against his hand. He kissed along her shoulder and up to her neck while Gwen continued to slid her tongue around McKayla’s.
Gwen rolled on her side to face McKayla. With one hand still holding McKayla’s head to hers, the other skimmed down between her breasts and belly to find her dripping wet pussy. Using one finger, she circled McKayla’s clit.
Cole kept kissing up and down Gwen’s neck as he moved his hand to push between Gwen’s thighs from behind to press two fingers deep into Gwen. After slipping in and out of her slowly a few times, he slipped out of Gwen and moved his hips so that his erection pressed against Gwen’s opening.
“Wait.” Gwen pulled back from McKayla.
“I just want to slide in you. Feel you for a minute. I won’t come yet.” Cole spoke softly, right into her ear as he pressed slowly into her, filling her. His hand gripping her hip. Cole moaned into her ear once he was seated fully in her.
Gwen groaned and pulled McKayla back to her mouth. Cole started pumping in and out of her while his finger flicked her clit. Gwen slipped two fingers into McKayla and matched her rhythm with Cole’s pumping hips. McKayla massaged Gwen’s breasts, pinching and twisting her nipples.
Cole bit down on Gwen’s neck, hard enough to leave a mark. Gwen felt her orgasm getting close and sped up her fingers sliding in and out of McKayla. She pulled back from the kiss with McKayla so she could breathe. She looked into McKayla’s eyes as Cole continued to pound into her from behind.
“Oh yea. Don’t stop. I’m gonna come.” Gwen moaned. Cole ground his teeth but didn’t stop. A few more deep thrusts had Gwen erupting around him.
“Shit. That was close.” Cole rolled onto his back after a minute, pulling from Gwen’s body.
Gwen laughed as she slowly regained feeling in her body. “I told you it wasn’t a good idea.”
“I love that pussy.” Cole smiled. “I couldn’t help it.”
“Come here.” Gwen rolled on her back and motioned for McKayla to move between her knees. Gwen pulled McKayla down for a kiss and wrapped her legs around her back. “I do have to admit, I’ll enjoy watching Cole fuck you.”
“He’ll be my first in a very long time.” McKayla smiled before pressing her lips to Gwen’s again. Cole moved to kneel behind McKayla.
“You sure you are ready for all this?” Cole bent and licked up McKayla’s slit. She was soaked. He moved to press his cock into her wet pussy.
McKayla continued to play with Gwen’s tongue as she felt Cole slowly start to press into her. She pulled back from Gwen to moan loudly.
“Mmm. Yea. He feels so good.” Gwen moaned, moving her legs so they were no longer wrapped around McKayla’s hips.
“Yea.” McKayla smiled softly. She moved one of her hands down between Gwen’s legs. McKayla slipped 2 fingers into Gwen, her thumb pressing into her clit. She bent her head and sucked one of Gwen’s nipples into her mouth as Cole moved slowly in and out of her.
“Damn you are so tight.” Cole held tightly to both of McKayla’s hips.
“Oh yeah. Fuck her good, Cole. Show her just how good that cock feels. How good you fuck.” Gwen moaned as McKayla’s fingers moved in and out of her while her lips and tongue were tugging on her nipple.
Gwen reached up and pinched McKayla’s nipples roughly, just the way she liked it.
“Oh yea. Keep doing that and I’m gonna come.” McKayla breathed around Gwen’s nipple.
Cole moved faster in and out of McKayla’s tight pussy. He slapped her ass on one side, which made McKayla moan loudly and clamp tighter around him. He slapped the other side just as Gwen tweaked McKayla’s nipples and it had her squeezing him tightly as she came. He pumped into her twice more before spurting deep in her as his own orgasm washed over him.
Epilogue
~ Four Years Later~
Gwen sat on the beach at Duck Island, smiling as she watched Cole play with his son, Cameron. He was the most energetic and happy little boy Gwen had ever known. McKayla hadn’t gotten pregnant right away as they had hoped, but they had a fun year of trying. McKayla had eventually gotten p
regnant and had a very easy, complication free pregnancy and delivery. Cole and Gwen had gotten married on the beach a few months after their engagement and that same day McKayla and Gwen had held a private ceremony making vows to each other as well.
In fact, they had all decided just three month ago that they’d like to have another little one around for Cameron to play with. While McKayla enjoyed having sex with Cole, she only did it when they were trying to get pregnant because it wasn’t her first preference or Cole’s either.
“They are so cute together, right?” McKayla sat down next to Gwen and handed her a glass of water.
“He makes such a wonderful dad.” Gwen watched them playing on the beach where everything had started this wonderful happy time in her life. They had been coming back to the island every year for a month of relaxation since that first year.
“He does. And tonight I am going to tell him, that he is going to have to chase another little one in a few months.” McKayla spoke softly so her voice didn’t carry.
“What?” Gwen looked at her, a huge smile breaking out on her face. “Really?”
“Yep. I just peed on a stick and we have two lines.” McKayla beamed at her. “And by my calculations I’m probably ten weeks along already. I didn’t pay attention since it took us so long last time. Apparently my body knew what to do this time.”
“Oh my gosh! I’m so excited!” Gwen laughed and clapped her hands together. McKayla grabbed her hands.
“Stop that! You’ll ruin the surprise for Cole.” McKayla laughed even though she was trying to be stern.
“Fine. Fine.” Gwen grinned and waved at Cole, who was holding the toddler in his arms looking at them. He waved back, as did Cameron before they went back to playing.
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