by C. M. King
“I miss seeing your face in the morning.” He snuggled closer, his stubble grazing against my cheek. I had missed that.
“I know, I don’t want you to leave,” I groaned. I wanted him to stay with me for the next three months, it was selfish of me but I couldn’t help it.
“I don’t want to leave either. The only way I could let you go the other day was knowing I would see you so soon. This time, it will kill me to leave you.” His eyes closed to try to hide the sadness I knew was buried inside.
“We have some breaks in the schedule, we can squeeze time in to see each other,” I added, hoping my words would offer him some comfort, but he didn’t look at all appeased.
“I know but it’s not the same.” He sighed and he was right, but at this moment it was the only solution.
“I’m sorry, Joel.”
“Hey, don’t apologise. This is your dream. I’m just being selfish. I just love you too much, that’s all. I’ll get used to it.”
“Three months is not long, it will fly by.”
“Right now, three months feels like forever.”
He was not wrong there.
“Do you need me to take your mind off it?” I asked, biting my lip waiting for his response.
“Don’t you … aren’t you supposed to abstain just before a performance?”
“It’s not football.” I laughed and he grinned.
“So I get to have my wicked way with you again before I leave?” He quirked an eyebrow as his eyes flicked over my naked chest.
“I am all yours for the next couple of hours.”
“I’d better make it count,” he added dryly, and my whole body tingled with desire.
“Joel,” I groaned as his fingers quickly made their way inside. I clenched as they slowly undid me, my mouth locked with his, our tongues caressing, slowly finding the perfect rhythm. I came minutes later, screaming into his mouth. Thank god, it was enough to muffle the sound.
“Fuck, Iz, watching you come undone is my favourite thing.”
“Then I need you to do it again.” I shuffled underneath him spreading my legs, and he groaned deep as his lips nuzzled the sweet spot under my ear. I gasped as he pushed his way deep inside. Skin on skin no barriers between us. His rhythm was slow as I gripped his back, slowly moaning as desire filled every inch of me.
“Oh god, this is what heaven feels like, being inside you. I don’t think I’ll ever get my fill, I’ll always want more.” He groaned, panting hard with each and every thrust.
“Trust me, I’ll always want more. I’m greedy that way.”
“I’ll be happy to keep you fulfilled. It will be the best part of my day.”
“Are you sure you will have the stamina to keep up? I’m going to be very demanding. It could be too much for you,” I goaded.
“I think I can handle it. I’m doing a great job already.” He chuckled.
“There could be some improvements made,” I added, knowing the reaction it would evoke. He immediately halted the pleasure and I couldn’t help but think I hadn’t chosen the right moment to make a joke.
“Excuse me? Do you want to clarify that for me?”
“Joel, it was a joke.”
“A poor joke, you know I take my pleasuring you very seriously. If you tell me I’m doing an inadequate job then I need to know to step it up.”
“Right now all I need is for you to keep moving.”
“What, like this?” He thrusted deep inside and I groaned in agreement.
“Yes, like that, don’t stop.”
“I think you might have to beg more, after all you did insult me.”
“Please, Joel, it was a joke,” I groaned. “Oh god, I’m sorry.”
“How sorry?” He flipped me over so I was no longer on my back, now on my knees as he thrusted in me from behind.
“Joel-oh-my-god.”
“That’s it tell me, Izzy, how good is it?”
“Joel,” my cheeks heated at the thought as the noise level increased. These walls were not very thick but as he drove deep inside of me, I lost all ability to keep it down.
“Fuck, Izzy, I’m close.”
“I just need—” I didn’t have to ask, his fingers found their way to my clit, and I panted hard as pleasure overcome me. His fingers being the final undoing till I exploded around him, taking him with me moments later.
We collapsed down onto the sheets, panting hard as we tried to get the air to circulate through our lungs once more. When I mustered up the strength, I slapped Joel on the chest. He quickly grabbed me pulling me into him and pouted.
“Hey, what was that for? I give you the best orgasm of your life and that’s how I get rewarded.”
“You know what it was for.” I narrowed my eyes. I’m sure half the hotel had heard.
“Just letting every guy know that you’re mine.” He grinned.
“They knew that already.”
“Yeah, but hearing you scream my name will have it etched in their brains. They won’t even try to compete.” He sure knew how to get his point across, I’d give him that.
“Stop blowing your own trumpet. I can see your ego growing right in front of me.”
“I’m not blowing anything, but if you want to blow mine then that can be arranged.” God, he was shameless.
I slapped him hard again, and he rolled me over so he was pressing me down into the mattress, his breath tickling my face.
“When are you officially going to be mine?”
His question caused me to stutter, we were having a playful time and now suddenly he was so serious.
“Soon.”
“How soon?” He brushed his nose up against mine, his eyes wide and staring, waiting for an answer.
“I don’t know, when I don’t have a crazy schedule.”
He huffed and released my arms, rolling onto his back and closed his eyes.
“Hey, what’s brought that on?” I asked.
“I just feel like the wedding will never be high on your list that something will come along and prioritise. Sometimes I wonder if you regretted saying yes, that when people make their remarks about how young we are, that inside you start to believe it.” I could see the pain there in his eyes, and my heart sunk at his words.
“That’s not true.”
“But you being here with everyone, you might start to rethink being tied down. The type of job you are in, you might prefer to be single.” His eyes closed like he couldn’t bear to look at me.
“Well, that’s never going to happen,” I said softly.
“It could, over time you might decide differently.”
I grabbed his chin and turned his face to look into his eyes. “I know how I feel, this love that burns deep within me is for you. Only you. Accept what I’m saying is true. You know me. Haven’t I proven my love to you over and over?”
“But the distance can change—”
“It changes nothing. This ring I wear means the world to me. It symbolises what we have. My heart will only ever want you, love you. It isn’t possible for me to love anyone else.”
“I just want you to know that there is a way out.” He tried to pull away, but I wouldn’t let him.
“I don’t want one, and we will never speak of this again. I know the change is hard, but we will get through it. We will become stronger. Nothing is coming between us.”
“Promise,” he whispered. His eyes still showing a look of doubt.
“We can go whenever you want and be married. We can apply for a licence and then it will be legal. I want to marry you, Joel. Just you and me together, that’s all I need.”
“You would do that? Miss out on a real wedding for a quick ceremony?” he asked surprised.
“I would do anything for you,” I added without hesitation.
I truly would.
“But I want you to have the wedding you deserve,” he replied sadly. I could see the look that was there—torn between getting what he wanted and giving me what he thought I needed.
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“I don’t care about a big wedding. I just want a ceremony with you where we speak our vows, commit to each other and exchange the rings that will rest on my finger till my final breath.”
“I want our day to be special, for our family to be there to witness our special day. I want to look back on that day with fond memories, not feel like I robbed you of sharing it with the ones you love.” He frowned.
“But as long as you are there, then there is no one else I need. I don’t need a fancy day to give me fond memories. I just need you by my side, swearing to love each other for eternity.”
“And we will, but I . . . it doesn’t feel right. I’m being selfish letting my demons win. I know how much you love me and for that I can wait.”
“Are you sure?” I asked, staring deep into his eyes and he silently nodded. I could see the fear was soon replaced with love.
“I love you, Iz, and when the day is right I will make you mine, until then you have to do the thing you love. I need to stop being selfish and let you go.” He sighed and I knew how hard it was for him to walk away.
“I’ll always return to you, Joel, as my heart only belongs to you.”
He smiled and I knew I had appeased him enough, but there was another way I could help bring that smile back to his face. “We have to get down to breakfast soon, but I’m not quite ready to leave this bed yet.”
“Whatever do you have in mind?” I asked innocently, like I didn’t even know already.
“Let me show you …”
* * *
After a quick shower we headed down to breakfast, we were both ravenous after this morning’s activities. Joel had worked hard to keep my mind off things, well, until I was reminded as we walked into the dining room and all of the guys from our tour burst into a round of applause. I was nothing short of being mortified. I didn’t need to ask what they were grinning at. Their smiles told me everything.
“Let’s just go and eat somewhere else,” I muttered to Joel. I wanted my breakfast in peace, away from prying eyes.
“Oh it will be fine. It smells so good. Please let me start, I’m a growing man, and you really worked me this morning I need some fuel inside me.” He left me and began to pile his plate with eggs, bacon and sausage and a stack of toast. I sighed following suit, starting to add to mine. Joel grinned and winked, probably at the thought of devouring the breakfast. I was almost certain he would be back for seconds. He would soon make short work of the plate in front of him.
Much to my annoyance, Joel headed over to where all the jeering was coming from. I was certain he was doing it to make me more embarrassed. He sat down and took a huge swig of orange juice while I sat there sipping on my coffee. My appetite had soon gone out the window now that all eyes were on us. Joel was oblivious digging into his hearty breakfast while I blushed slowly nibbling away at my toast.
“So you’re quiet, Iz, unlike earlier,” Josh scoffed.
Oh fuck.
“Yep, that was some wake up call this morning,” Corinne added, laughing. You could hear sniggers all around the table, and I turned to find Joel smirking into his orange juice.
“I think on behalf of all the ladies here, we can safely say you are one lucky girl, Izzy.” Micha grinned.
I cringed and wanted to crawl into a hole but Joel was the complete opposite, gladly taking their little jibes as accolades.
“I seriously need to find a guy like you, Joel, who has stamina.” Corinne winked.
“Really, guys?” I asked, rolling my eyes.
“Oh don’t get uptight now, Iz, not after you made yourself the main attraction,” Corinne scoffed.
“It wasn’t something I could help,” I protested before blushing.
“Oh we could hear your screams of protests, or was that multiple orgasms?” Micha said, laughing along with everyone else.
“Oh god, Joel, oh god,” Josh mocked as I turned a rich shade of tomato. “Fuck me harder, yes, yes, yes.”
“I did not say that, dickhead, you’ve been watching too much porn.”
“Trust me, I don’t need porn in a room by you two,” he scoffed.
Oh god, kill me now.
“What can we say, we’re vocal people,” Joel added, finishing off his last slice of toast before devouring the remains of what was on my plate. My appetite had now well and truly went out the window with all their goading.
“So Joel, are you staying over tonight? I might have to find accommodation somewhere else, a girl needs her beauty sleep.” Corinne pretend yawned as I sent a scowl her way.
“No, I’m going home in a few hours,” he said sadly and I pouted my disapproval. He pulled me in close, pressing his lips against my hair and I sighed. I did not want him to leave.
“Aww, don’t worry, I’ll keep Izzy company.” Josh grinned and I rolled my eyes knowing fine well his silly little joke would not go down well.
“I think you need to keep your hands to yourself, if Izzy needs consoling she can FaceTime me, I will soon cheer her up in the best way I know how.”
“Now, now boys, it’s not a pissing contest,” Corinne added.
“It’s not a contest at all.” Joel smiled smugly. Josh looked like he was defeated and soon made a swift exit. It may have had to do with Joel flexing his guns in a warning. I hated how he got all territorial. He had nothing to be scared of.
“What time is your train again?” I asked, trying to change the conversation.
“In two hours, do you fancy going for a little stroll. I saw a park on my way up here, and well it’s not our place, but today it could be.”
I smiled. “I like the sound of that. Let me get a jacket and we can head out.”
We quickly said our goodbyes. I thought we were past the worst when it came to being ridiculed, but we left to a barrage of whistles and jeers that were telling us to not do what they wouldn’t do. I almost had eye lock from over rolling them.
“Don’t listen to them, trust me, they are jealous,” Joel whispered.
“I’m the one who has to work with them goading me over my sex screams.”
Joel chuckled loudly obviously finding the whole thing completely and utterly hilarious.
“It’s not funny, Joel,” I fumed, completely embarrassed by the fact they knew what I sounded like in the moment.
“Oh it is, Iz, come on, crack a smile,” he teased.
I stormed off, grabbing the key card from my pocket and threw the door open. Joel quickly made up the ground behind me and scooped me up into his arms. I made to pull away, but he held on tight and kissed every inch of my face.
“Don’t be mad with me, Iz. We only have a short time left, let’s not part on bad terms. It’s going to be hard leaving you as it is but even harder if you’re mad at me. I know I pushed you out of your comfort zone and you hate to be ribbed about your sex life, but I wouldn’t take a minute of it back. It was the best sex I’ve had. I think this distance thing might make me hornier.”
A smile tugged on my lips. “It was amazing,” I finally admitted.
“So amazing, do you think we have—”
“Err, I do have to perform tonight, you know. A girl needs a little down time to recuperate.” He was going to break me at this rate
“Shame, we could have christened the walls.” Joel sighed.
“I think we need to get to the park before you get any more ideas into that head of yours.” Being enclosed within four walls with Joel was not a good idea right now.
“A guy can’t help but try and what can I say, when I’m with you it’s all I can think about.”
“I can tell. Come on, it’s a lovely day to sit and enjoy the sun for a few more hours.”
“Well then, lead the way.”
I grabbed his hand and his fingers locked with mine, making the most of the short precious time we had left.
Chapter Twenty-One
So give us all the goss, Iz. Well, we heard it but we want to know everything about Joel’s visit. Don’t hold out on us,” Micha u
rged looking excited.
“Seriously?” They were worse than Elijah and that was saying something. Speaking of which, I looked at my watch and knew he would want his own little recount of the Joel visit when we FaceTimed in an hour. Today was going to be thoroughly exhausting before I had even gotten on stage.
“There’s nothing to tell,” I mumbled, hoping they would drop it.
Corinne snorted. “Oh come on we need details, you can’t keep us girls in the dark. I’m single and she’s left her boyfriend behind, we need this to vicariously live through you and your amazing sex life.”
“Jeez, don’t hold back, will ya.” She could rival Elijah with how forward she was being. I would maybe have to keep that thought to myself. I didn’t see that going down well. He already was feeling a little down as there was nothing happening work wise for him. He had been to audition after audition but heard nothing back. His confidence had taken a little bit of a battering. I didn’t want to add this to it.
“So, come on,” they both urged, as I rolled my eyes. They were freaking perverts.
“Joel is . . . well, he’s really good in the bedroom department.”
“Fuck me, we knew that already. We want details. How big is it?” Corinne asked, her eyes widened in anticipation.
“You did not just ask me that?” I shrieked.
“I told you we want details”
I snorted. “I’m not telling you that.”
“Err spoilsport, I’m going to go out on a limb, also I noticed the bulge earlier and say he is around the nine-inch mark.” Micha grinned.
I blushed deeply.
Fuck.
“Oh my god, Izzy, your face is giving you away, you lucky, lucky bitch.”
I didn’t need to say any more. So I didn’t.
“Oh come on, Iz,” they pleaded, giving me the eyes. Did they really think something like that would make me loose lipped with all the details?
No way.
“But he’s my fiancé, please don’t ask. It’s bad enough that you know what my sex sounds are like. I am completely mortified. I’m pretty sure Josh isn’t going to let me forget.” I was almost sure he’d take great pleasure bringing it up over and over.