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by Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu


  “You’ll have to contrive though, my lad, unless they’ll manage a post obit for you,” said Harry.

  “There is some trouble about that, and people are such d —— d screws,” said Charles, with a darkening face.

  “Al’ays was and ever will be,” said Harry, with a laugh.

  “And it’s all very fine talking of a ‘hundred a year,’ but you know and I know that won’t do, and never did,” exclaimed Charles, breaking forth bitterly, and then looking hurriedly over his shoulder.

  “Upon my soul, Charlie, I don’t know a curse about it,” answered Harry, goodhumouredly; “but if it won’t do, it won’t, that’s certain.”

  “Quite certain,” said Charles, and sighed very heavily; and again there was a little silence.

  “I wish I was as sharp a fellow as you are, Harry,” said Charles, regretfully.

  “Do you really think I’m a sharp chap — do you though? I al’ays took myself for a bit of a muff, except about cattle — I did, upon my soul,” said Harry, with an innocent laugh.

  “You are a long way a cleverer fellow than I am, and you are not half so lazy; and tell me what you’d do if you were in my situation?”

  “What would I do if I was in your place?” said Harry, looking up at the stars, and whistling low for a minute.

  “Well, I couldn’t tell you offhand; ‘twould puzzle a better man’s head for a bit to answer that question — only I can tell you one thing, I’d never agone into that situation, as ye call it, at no price; ‘twouldn’t ‘av answered me by no chance. But don’t you be putting your finger in your eye yet a bit; there’s nothing to cry about now that I knows of; time enough to hang your mouth yet, only I thought I might as well come over and tell you.”

  “I knew, Harry, there was something to tell,” said Charles.

  “Not over much — only a trifle when all’s told,” answered Harry; “but you are right, for it was that brought me over here. I was in Lon’on last week, and I looked in at the place at Hoxton, and found just the usual thing, and came away pretty much as wise as I went in.”

  “Not more reasonable?” asked Charles.

  “Not a bit,” said Harry.

  “Tell me what you said,” asked Charles.

  “Just what we agreed,” he answered.

  “Well, there was nothing in that that was not kind and conciliatory, and common sense — was there?” pleaded Charles.

  “It did not so seem to strike the plenipotentiary,” said Harry.

  “You seem to think it very pleasant,” said Charles.

  “I wish it was pleasanter,” said Harry; “but pleasant or no, I must tell my story straight. I ran in in a hurry, you know, as if I only wanted to pay over the twenty pounds — you mind.”

  “Ay,” said Charles, “I wish to heaven I had it back again.”

  “Well, I don’t think it made much difference in the matter of love and liking, I’ll not deny; but I looked round, and I swore I wondered anyone would live in such a place when there were so many nice places where money would go three times as far in foreign countries; and I wondered you did not think of it, and take more interest yourself, and upon that I could see the old soger was thinking of fifty things, suspecting poor me of foul play among the number; and I was afraid for a minute I was going to have half a dozen claws in my smeller; but I turned it off, and I coaxed and wheedled a bit. You’d a laughed yourself black, till I had us both a purring like a pair of old maid’s cats.”

  “I tell you what, Harry, there’s madness there — literal madness,” said Charles, grasping his arm as he stopped and turned towards him, so that Harry had to come also to a standstill. “Don’t you know it — as mad as Bedlam? Just think!”

  Harry laughed.

  “Mad enough, by jingo,” said he.

  “But don’t you think so — actually mad?” repeated Charles.

  “Well, it is near the word, maybe, but I would not say quite mad — worse than mad, I dare say, by chalks; but I wouldn’t place the old soger there,” said Harry.

  “Where?” said Charles.

  “I mean exactly among the mad ‘uns. No, I wouldn’t say mad, but as vicious — and worse, mayhap.”

  “It does not matter much what we think, either of us; but I know what another fellow would have done long ago, but I could not bring myself to do that. I have thought it over often, but I couldn’t — I couldn’t.”

  “Well, then, it ain’t no great consequence,” said Harry, and he tightened his saddle-girth a hole or two— “no great consequence; but I couldn’t a’ put a finger to that — mind; for I think the upperworks is as sound as any, only there’s many a devil beside mad ‘uns. I give it in to you there.”

  “And what do you advise me to do? — this sort of thing is dreadful,” said Charles.

  “I was going to say, I think the best thing to be done is just to leave all that business, d’ye mind, to me.”

  Harry mounted, and leaning on his knee, he said, —

  “I think I have a knack, if you leave it to me. Old Pipeclay doesn’t think I have any reason to play false.”

  “Rather the contrary,” said Charles, who was attentively listening.

  “No interest at all,” pursued Harry, turning his eyes towards the distant knoll of Torston, and going on without minding Charles’ suggestion, —

  “Look, now, that beast’ll follow my hand as sweet as sugary-candy, when you’d have nothing but bolting and baulking, and rearin’, or worse. There’s plenty o’ them little French towns or German — and don’t you be botherin’ your head about it; only do just as I tell ye, and I’ll take all in hands.”

  “You’re an awfully good fellow, Harry; for, upon my soul, I was at my wit’s end almost; having no one to talk to, and not knowing what anyone might be thinking of; and I feel safe in your hands, Harry, for I think you understand that sort of work so much better than I do — you understand people so much better — and I never was good at managing anyone, or anything for that matter; and — and when will business bring you to town again?”

  “Three weeks or so, I wouldn’t wonder,” said Harry.

  “And I know, Harry, you won’t forget me. I’m afraid to write to you almost; but if you’d think of any place we could meet and have a talk, I’d be ever so glad. You have no idea how fidgety and miserable a fellow grows that doesn’t know what’s going on.”

  “Ay, to be sure; well, I’ve no objection. My book’s made for ten days or so — a lot of places to go to — but I’ll be coming round again, and I’ll tip you a stave.”

  “That’s a good fellow; I know you won’t forget me,” said Charles, placing his hand on his brother’s arm.

  “No — of course. Goodnight, and take care of yourself, and give my love to Ally.”

  “And — and Harry?”

  “Well?” answered Harry, backing his restless horse a little bit.

  “I believe that’s all.”

  “Goodnight, then.”

  “Goodnight,” echoed Charles.

  Harry touched his hat with a smile, and was away the next moment, flying at a ringing trot over the narrow unfenced road that traverses the common, and dwindling in the distant moonlight.

  “There he goes — light of heart; nothing to trouble him — life a holiday — the world a toy.”

  He walked a little bit slowly in the direction of the disappearing horseman, and paused again, and watched him moodily till he was fairly out of sight.

  “I hope he won’t forget; he’s always so busy about those stupid horses — a lot of money he makes, I dare say. I wish I knew something about them. I must beat about for some way of turning a penny. Poor little Alice! I hope I have not made a mull of it? I’ll save every way I can — of course that’s due to her; but when you come to think of it, and go over it all, there’s very little you can give up. You can lay down your horses, if you have them, except one. You must have one in a place like this — you’d run a risk of starving, or never getting your letters, or dying f
or want of the doctor. And — I won’t drink wine; brandy, or Old Tom does just as well, and I’ll give up smoking totally. A fellow must make sacrifices. I’ll just work through this one box slowly, and order no more; it’s all a habit, and I’ll give it up.”

  So he took a cigar from his case, and lighted it.

  “I’ll not spend another pound on them, and the sooner these are out the better.”

  He sauntered slowly away with his hands in his pockets to a little eminence about a hundred yards to the right, and mounted it, and looked all around, smoking. I don’t think he saw much of that extensive view; but you would have fancied him an artist in search of the picturesque.

  His head was full of ideas of selling Carwell Grange; but he was not quite sure that he had power, and did not half like asking his attorney, to whom he already owed something. He thought how snug and pleasant they might be comparatively in one of those quaint little toy towns in Germany, where dull human nature bursts its cerements, and floats and flutters away into a butterfly life of gold and colour — where the punter and the croupier assist at the worship of the brilliant and fickle goddess, and bands play sweetly, and people ain’t buried alive in deserts and forests among dogs and “chaw-bacons” — where little Alice would be all wonder and delight. Was it quite fair to bring her down here, to immure her in the mouldering cloister of Carwell Grange?

  He had begun now to reenter the wooded ascent toward that melancholy mansion; his cigar was burnt out, and he said, looking toward his home through the darkness, —

  “Poor little Alice! she does love me, I think — and that’s something.”

  CHAPTER XIX.

  COMING IN.

  When at last her husband entered the room where she awaited him that night, —

  “Oh! Charlie, it is very late,” said Alice, a little reproachfully.

  “Not very, is it, darling?” said he, glancing at his watch. “By Jove! it is. My poor little woman, I had not an idea.”

  “I suppose I am very foolish, but I love you so much, Charlie, that I grow quite miserable when I am out of your sight.”

  “I’m sorry, my darling, but I fancied he had a great deal more to tell me than he really had. I don’t think I’m likely, at least for a little time, to be pressed by my duns — and — I wanted to make out exactly what money he’s likely to get me for a horse he is going to sell, and I’m afraid, from what he says, it won’t be very much; really, twenty pounds, one way or other, seems ridiculous, but it does make a very serious difference just now, and if I hadn’t such a clever, careful little woman as you, I don’t really know what I should do.”

  He added this little complimentary qualification with an instinctive commiseration for the pain he thought he saw in her pretty face.

  “These troubles won’t last very long, Charlie, perhaps. Something, I’m sure, will turn up, and you’ll see how careful I will be. I’ll learn everything old Mildred can teach me, ever so much, and you’ll see what a manager I will be.”

  “You are my own little treasure. You always talk as if you were in the way, somehow, I don’t know how. A wife like you is a greater help to me than one with two thousand a year and the reckless habits of a fine lady. Your wise little head and loving heart, my darling, are worth whole fortunes to me without them, and I do believe you are the first really good wife that ever a Fairfield married. You are the only creature I have on earth, that I’m quite sure of — the only creature.”

  And so saying he kissed her, folding her in his arms, and, with a big tear filling each eye, she looked up, smiling unutterable affection, in his face. As they stood together in that embrace his eyes also filled with tears and his smile met hers, and they seemed wrapt for a moment in one angelic glory, and she felt the strain of his arm draw her closer.

  Such moments come suddenly and are gone; but, remaining in memory, they are the lights that illuminate a dark and troublous retrospect for ever.

  “We’ll make ourselves happy here, little Ally, and I — in spite of everything, my darling! — and I don’t know how it happened that I staid away so long; but I walked with Harry further than I intended, and when he left me I loitered on Cressley Common for a time with my head full of business; and so, without knowing it, I was filling my poor little wife’s head with alarms and condemning her to solitude. Well, all I can do is to promise to be a good boy and to keep better hours for the future.”

  “That’s so like you, you are so good to your poor, foolish little wife,” said Alice.

  “I wish I could be, darling,” said he; “I wish I could prove one-half my love; but the time will come yet. I shan’t be so poor or powerless always.”

  “But you’re not to speak so — you’re not to think that. It is while we are poor that I can be of any use,” she said, eagerly; “very little, very miserable my poor attempts, but nothing makes me so happy as trying to deserve ever so little of all the kind things my Ry says of me; and I’m sure, Charlie, although there may be cares and troubles, we will make our time pass here very happily, and perhaps we shall always look back on our days at Carwell as the happiest of our lives.”

  “Yes, darling, I am determined we shall be very happy,” said he.

  “And Ry will tell me everything that troubles him?”

  Her full eyes were gazing sadly up in his face. He averted his eyes, and said, —

  “Of course I will, darling.”

  “Oh! Ry, if you knew how happy that makes me!” she exclaimed. But there was that in the exclamation which seemed to say, “if only I could be sure that you meant it.”

  “Of course I will — that is, everything that could possibly interest you, for there are very small worries as well as great ones; and you know I really can’t undertake to remember everything.”

  “Of course, darling,” she answered; “I only meant that if anything were really — any great anxiety — upon your mind, you would not be afraid to tell me. I’m not such a coward as I seem. You must not think me so foolish; and really, Ry, it pains me more to think that there is any anxiety weighing upon you, and concealed from me, than any disclosure could; and so I know — won’t you?”

  “Haven’t I told you, darling, I really will,” he said, a little pettishly. “What an odd way you women have of making a fellow say the same thing over and over again. I wonder it does not tire you, I know it does us awfully. Now, there, see, I really do believe you are going to cry.”

  “Oh, no, indeed!” she said, brightening up, and smiling with a sad, little effort.

  “And now, kiss me, my poor, good little woman, — you’re not vexed with me? — no, I’m sure you’re not,” said he.

  She smiled a very affectionate assurance.

  “And really, you poor little thing, it is awfully late, and you must be tired, and I’ve been — no, not lecturing, I’ll never lecture, I hate it — but boring or teasing; I’m an odious dog, and I hate myself.”

  So this little dialogue ended happily, and for a time Charles Fairfield forgot his anxieties, and a hundred pleasanter cares filled his young wife’s head.

  In such monastic solitudes as Carwell Grange the days pass slowly, but the retrospect of a month or a year is marvellously short. Twelve hours without an event is very slow to get over. But that very monotony, which is the soul of tediousness, robs the background of all the irregularities and objects which arrest the eye and measure distance in review, and thus it cheats the eye.

  An active woman may be well content with an existence of monotony which would all but stifle even an indolent man. So long as there is a household — ever so frugal — to be managed, and the more frugal the more difficult and harassing — the female energies are tasked, and healthily because usefully exercised. But in this indoor administration the man is incompetent and in the way. His ordained activities are out of doors; and if these are denied him, he mopes away his days and feels that he cumbers the ground.

  With little resource but his fishing-rod, and sometimes, when a fit of unwonted ener
gy inspired him, his walking-stick, and a lonely march over the breezy expanse of Cressley Common, days, weeks, and months, loitered their drowsy way into the past.

  There were reasons why he did not care to court observation. Under other circumstances he would have ridden into the neighbouring towns and heard the news, and lunched with a friend here or there. But he did not want anyone to know that he was at the Grange; and if it should come out that he had been seen there, he would have had it thought that it was but a desultory visit.

  A man less indolent, and perhaps not much more unscrupulous, would have depended upon a few offhand lies to account for his appearance, and would not have denied himself an occasional excursion into human society in those rustic haunts within his reach. But Charles Fairfield had not decision to try it, nor resource for a system of fibbing, and the easiest and dullest course he took.

  In Paradise the man had his business— “to dress and to keep” the garden — and, no doubt, the woman hers, suitable to her sex. It is a mistake to fancy that it is either a sign of love or conducive to its longevity that the happy pair should always pass the entire four-and-twenty hours in each other’s company or get over them in anywise without variety or usefulness.

  Charles Fairfield loved his pretty wife. She made his inactive solitude more endurable than any man could have imagined. Still it was a dull existence, and being also darkened with an ever-present anxiety, was a morbid one.

  Small matters harassed him now. He brooded over trifles, and the one care, which was really serious, grew and grew in his perpetual contemplation until it became tremendous, and darkened his entire sky.

  I can’t say that Charles grew morose. It was not his temper, but his spirits that failed — careworn and gloomy — his habitual melancholy depressed and even alarmed his poor little wife, who yet concealed her anxieties, and exerted her music and her invention — sang songs — told him old stories of the Wyvern folk, touched with such tragedy and comedy as may be found in such miniature centres of rural life, and played backgammon with him, and sometimes écarté, and, in fact, nursed his sick spirits, as such angelic natures will.

 

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