by J. D. Robb
“Is the palm plate coded for anyone but the two of you?”
“No.”
“Okay, then what?”
“I saw him. Right away. That’s when I went up to you.”
“All right. When’s the last time you saw him alive?”
“This morning.” Carter rubbed his eyes, trying to visualize the normality of it. Light, food, mumbling conversation. “We had some breakfast.”
“How was he? Upset, depressed?”
“No,” Carter’s eyes focused then, and were for the first time animated. “That’s what I can’t get through my head. He was fine. He was joking around, yanking my chain about Lisa because I haven’t—you know—scored. We were needling each other, just friendly shit. I said he hadn’t scored in so long he wouldn’t know it if he did. And why didn’t he get himself a woman and come along with us tonight to see how it was done.”
“Was he seeing anyone?”
“No. He always talked about this babe he was hung up on. She wasn’t on the station. The babe. That’s what he called her. He was going to use his next free cycle to pay her a visit. He said she had it all, brains, beauty, body, and a sex drive that wouldn’t quit. Why should he play with lesser models when he had state of the art?”
“You don’t know her name?”
“No. She was just The Babe. To be honest, I figure he made her up. Drew wasn’t what you’d call babe material, you know. And he was shy around women and really into fantasy games and his autotronics. He was always working on something.”
“What about other friends?”
“He didn’t have many. He was quiet around a lot of people, internal, you know?”
“He use chemicals, Carter?”
“Sure, your basic stimulant if he was pulling an all-nighter.”
“Illegals, Carter. Did he use?”
“Drew?” His tired eyes popped wide. “No way. Absolutely no way. He was a total arrow, straight as they come. He wouldn’t mess with illegals, Lieutenant. He had a good mind, and he wanted to keep it that way. And he wanted to keep his job, move up. You get tossed for that kind of shit. Only takes one time on a spot check.”
“Are you sure you’d have known if he decided to experiment?”
“You know someone you hang with for five months.” Carter’s eyes went sad again. “You get used to them—habits and everything. Like I said, he didn’t hang with other people much. He was happier alone, fiddling with his equipment, diving into his role-playing programs.”
“A loner then, internal.”
“Yeah, that was his way. But he wasn’t upset, he wasn’t depressed. He kept saying that he was onto something big, some new toy. He was always onto a new toy,” Carter murmured. “He said just last week that he was going to make a fortune this time, and give Roarke a run for his money.”
“Roarke?”
“He didn’t mean anything by it,” Carter said quickly, defending the dead. “You’ve got to understand, Roarke—to a lot of us—well, he’s ice, you know? Solid ice. Rolling in credits, mag clothes, outstanding digs, power plus, sexy new wife—” He broke off, flushing. “Excuse me.”
“No problem.” She’d decide later if she was amused or flabbergasted that a boy barely twenty considered her sexy.
“It’s just that a lot of us techs—well, a lot of people altogether—sort of aspire. Roarke’s like the epitome. Drew totally admired him. He had ambitions, Mrs.—Lieutenant. He had goals and plans. Why would he do this?” Suddenly his eyes swam. “Why would he do this?”
“I don’t know, Carter. Sometimes you never know why.”
She led him back, guided him through, until she had a picture of Drew Mathias that gelled. An hour later, there was nothing left for her to do but put together a report for whoever would be transported in to close the case.
She leaned against the mirrored wall of the elevator as she and Roarke rode back to the penthouse. “It was good thinking to put him in another room on another floor. He may sleep better tonight.”
“He’ll sleep better if he takes the tranqs. How about you? Will you sleep?”
“Yeah. I’d turn it over easier if I had a glimmer of what was troubling him, what pushed him to it.” She stepped out into the corridor, waited while Roarke disengaged security to their suite. “The picture I’ve got is of your average tech nerd with grand aspirations. Shy of women, into fantasy. Happy in his work.” She lifted her shoulders. “There weren’t any incoming or outgoing calls on his ’link, no E-mail sent or received, no messages recorded, and the security on the door was engaged at sixteen hundred hours by Mathias, disengaged at oh thirty-three by Carter. He didn’t have any visitors, didn’t go out. He just settled in for the evening, then hanged himself.”
“It’s not a homicide.”
“No, it’s not a homicide.” Did that make it better, she wondered, or worse? “Nobody to blame, nobody to punish. Just a dead kid. A life wasted.” She turned to him suddenly, wrapped her arms tightly around him. “Roarke, you changed my life.”
Surprised, he tipped up her face. Her eyes weren’t wet, but dry and fierce and angry. “What’s this?”
“You changed my life,” she said again. “At least part of it. I’m beginning to see it’s the best part of it. I want you to know that. I want you to remember that when we get back and things settle into routine, if I forget to let you know what I feel or what I think or how much you mean to me.”
Touched, he pressed his curved lips to her brow. “I won’t let you forget. Come to bed. You’re tired.”
“Yeah, I am.” She skimmed her hair back from her face as they started toward the bedroom. Less than forty-eight hours left, she remembered. She wouldn’t let useless death mar the last hours of their honeymoon.
She angled her head, fluttered her lashes. “You know, Carter thinks I’m sexy.”
Roarke stopped. He narrowed his eyes. “I beg your pardon?”
Oh, she loved it when that lilting Irish voice turned arrogant. “You’re ice,” she continued, circling her head on her tensed shoulders as she unbuttoned her shirt.
“Am I? Am I really?”
“Solid ice, which is, as Mavis would say, mag. And part of the reason you’re ice, in case you’re wondering, is because you have a sexy new wife.”
Naked to the waist, she sat on the bed and tugged off her shoes. She flicked a glance over at him and saw that he’d tucked his hands in his pockets and was grinning. Her lips curved as well. It felt very good to smile.
“So, ice man”—she cocked her head, lifted a brow—“what are you going to do about your sexy new wife?”
Roarke ran his tongue over his teeth, then stepped forward. “Why don’t I demonstrate?”
She thought it would be better, facing the trip back, being flung through space like a kid’s ray ball. She was wrong.
Eve argued, using what she considered very logical reasons why she shouldn’t get into Roarke’s private transport.
“I don’t want to die.”
He laughed at her, which had her eyes kindling, then he simply scooped her up and carried her on board. “I’m not staying.” Her heart jittered into her chest as he stepped into the plush cabin. “I mean it. You’ll have to knock me out to get me to stay on this flying death trap.”
“Mmm-hmm.” He chose a wide, scoop-shaped chair in buttery black leather, kept her in his lap and, moving quickly, strapped her in, trapping her arms to limit any possible reprisals.
“Hey. Stop it.” Panicked, she struggled, wiggled, swore. “Let me out. Let me off.”
Her snug butt jiggling on his lap gave him a solid clue as to how he intended to spend the initial hours of the trip. “Take off as soon as you have clearance,” Roarke ordered the pilot, then smiled at the flight attendant. “We won’t need you for a while,” he told her and engaged the locks on the cabin doors the moment she made a discreet exit.
“I’m going to hurt you,” Eve promised. When she heard the hum of engines gearing up, felt the faint vibrati
on under her feet that signaled imminent takeoff, she seriously considered gnawing at the safety harness with her teeth. “I’m not doing this,” she said definitely. “I am not doing this. Tell him to abort.”
“Too late.” He wrapped his arms around her, nuzzled her neck. “Relax, Eve. Trust me. You’re safer here than you are driving through midtown.”
“Bullshit. Oh Christ.” She squeezed her eyes tight as the engine let out a powerful roar. The shuttle seemed to shoot straight up, leaving her stomach flopping on the ground below. The g’s slapped her back, plastering her against Roarke.
She was barely breathing by the time the ride smoothed out and she discovered that the pressure in her chest was caused by the fact that she was holding her breath. She let it out in a whoosh, then sucked in air like a diver surfacing from a great depth.
She was still alive, she told herself. And that was something. Now, she would have to kill him. It was then she realized that not only was she unstrapped, but her shirt was unbuttoned and his hands were on her breasts.
“If you think we’re going to have sex after you—”
He merely swiveled her to face him. She caught the glint of humor and lust in his eyes just before his mouth closed cagily over her breast.
“You bastard.” But she laughed as pleasure speared into her, and she cupped her hands behind his head to urge him on.
She’d never take for granted what he could do to her, do for her. Those wild floods of pleasure, the slow, thrilling glide of it. She rocked against him, let herself forget everything but the way his teeth nipped, his tongue licked.
So it was she who pulled him onto the thick, soft carpet, she who dragged his mouth to hers. “Inside me.” She tugged at his shirt, wanting that hard, muscled flesh under her hands. “I want you inside me.”
“We have hours yet.” He dipped to her breasts again, so small, so firm, already warm from his hands. “I need to taste you.”
He did, lavishly. The subtle variety of flavors, from mouth to throat, from throat to shoulder, shoulder to breast. He sampled with tenderness, with finesse, with a quiet concentration focused on mutual pleasure.
He felt her begin to tremble under his hands and mouth.
Her skin grew damp as he roamed to her belly, easing her slacks down, nibbling his way between her thighs. His tongue flicked there, making her moan. Her hips arched for him even as he cupped them, lifted them, opened her. When his tongue slid lazily into the heat, he felt the first orgasm rip through her.
“More.” Greedy now, he devoured. She would let go for him as she had for no one else, he knew. She would lose herself in what they made together.
When she was shuddering, when her hands lay limp on the carpet, he slid up her body, slipped into her. Mated.
Her eyes fluttered open, met his. Concentration was what she saw there. Absolute control. She wanted, needed to destroy it, to know she could, as he could destroy her.
“More,” she insisted, hooking her legs around his waist to take him deeper. She saw the flicker in his eyes, the deep, dark need that lived inside him and, pulling his mouth to hers, scraping her teeth over those beautifully formed lips, she moved under him.
He fisted his hands in her hair, his breath quickening as he rammed himself into her, harder, faster, until he thought his heart would burst from the ferocity of it. She matched him, beat for beat, thrust for thrust, those short, unpainted nails digging into his back, his shoulders, his hips. Delicious little bites of pain.
He felt her come again, the violent contraction of her muscles fisting over him like glory. Again, was all he could think. Again and again and again, as he hammered into her, swallowing her gasps and moans, shuddering from the thrilling sound of flesh slapping wetly against flesh.
He felt her body tense again, revving toward peak. As that long, low, throaty moan slipped through her lips, he pressed his face into her hair, and with one final thrust, he emptied himself.
He collapsed onto her, his mind fuzzed, his heart thundering. She was limp as water beneath him but for the rage of her heart against his.
“We can’t keep this up,” she managed after a moment. “We’ll kill each other.”
He managed a wheezing laugh. “We’ll die well, in any case. I had intended a bit more romance—some wine and music to cap off the honeymoon.” He lifted his head, smiled down at her. “But this worked, too.”
“It doesn’t mean I’m not still pissed off at you.”
“Naturally. We’ve had some of our best sex when you’re pissed off at me.” He caught her chin between his teeth, flicked his tongue along the slight dent in the center. “I adore you, Eve.”
While she was adjusting to that, as she always did, he rolled off, got lightly to his feet, and walked naked to a mirrored console between two chairs. He laid his palm on it, and a door slid open. “I have something for you.”
She eyed the velvet box with suspicion. “You don’t have to get me presents. You know I don’t want you to.”
“Yes. It makes you uncomfortable and uneasy.” He grinned. “Perhaps that’s why I do it.” He sat beside her on the floor, handed her the box. “Open it.”
She imagined it would be jewelry. He seemed to thrive on giving her body decorations: diamonds, emeralds, ropes of gold that left her stunned and feeling awkward. But when she opened it, she saw only a simple white blossom.
“It’s a flower?”
“From your wedding bouquet. I had it treated.”
“A petunia.” She found herself sentimentally teary-eyed as she picked it out of the box. Simple, basic, ordinary, one that might grow in any garden. The petals felt soft, dewy, and fresh.
“It’s a new process one of my companies has been working on. It preserves without changing the basic texture. I wanted you to have it.” He closed a hand over hers. “I wanted both of us to have it, so we could be reminded that some things last.”
She raised her eyes to his. They had both come from misery, she thought, and survived it. They had been drawn together through violence and tragedy, and had overcome it. They walked different paths and had found a mutual route.
Some things last, she thought. Some ordinary things. Like love.
chapter three
Three weeks hadn’t changed Cop Central. The coffee was still poisonous, the noise abominable, and the view out of her stingy window was still miserable.
She was thrilled to be back.
The cops in her unit had arranged for a message to await her. Since it was blinking slyly on her monitor when she walked in, she figured she had her old pal Feeney, the electronics whiz, to thank for bypassing her code.
WELCOME BACK, LIEUTENANT LOVEJOY
Hubba-hubba
Hubba-hubba? She snorted out a laugh. Sophomoric humor, maybe, but it made her feel at home.
She glanced over the mess on her desk. She hadn’t had time to clear anything up between the unexpected closing of a case during her bachelor party and her wedding day. But she noted the neatly sealed disc, competently labeled, sitting atop her stack of old work.
That would be Peabody’s doing, Eve concluded. Sliding the disc into her desk unit, she cursed once and slapped the drive to cure the razzing hiccups it emitted, and saw that the ever-reliable Peabody had indeed written the arrest report, filed it, and logged it.
It couldn’t, Eve mused, have been easy on her. Not when she’d been sharing a bed with the accused.
Eve glanced at the old work again, grimaced. She could see she had court dates stuffed and layered together over the next few days. The schedule juggling she’d had to do to accommodate Roarke’s demand for three weeks away had had a price. It was time to pay up.
Well, he’d done plenty of juggling as well, she reminded herself. And now it was back to work and reality. Rather than review the cases she would soon give testimony for, she bumped up her ’link and put out a search for Officer Peabody.
The familiar, serious face with its dark helmet of hair fizzed onto her monitor. “Sir.
Welcome back.”
“Thank you, Peabody. My office, please. ASAP.”
Without waiting for a reply, Eve switched off the unit and smiled to herself. She’d seen to it that Peabody had been transferred to the homicide division. Now she intended to take it a bit further. She engaged the ’link again.
“Lieutenant Dallas. Is the commander free?”
“Lieutenant.” The commander’s secretary beamed at her. “How was your honeymoon?”
“It was very nice.” She felt a quick flush of heat at the gleam in the woman’s eye. Hubba-hubba had amused her. This dreamy look made her want to squirm. “Thank you.”
“You were a lovely bride, Lieutenant. I saw the pictures and there were several news runs on the event and the gossip channels were full of it. We saw clips of you in Paris, too. It looked so romantic.”
“Yeah.” The price of fame, Eve thought. And Roarke. “It was . . . nice. Ah, the commander?”
“Oh, of course. One moment please.”
As the unit buzzed, Eve rolled her eyes. She could accept being in the spotlight, but she was never going to enjoy it.
“Dallas.” Commander Whitney’s grin was an acre wide, and he had an odd look on his hard, dark face. “You look . . . well.”
“Thank you, sir.”
“You enjoyed your honeymoon?”
Christ, she thought, when was someone going to ask if she’d enjoyed being fucked around the world and into outer space? “Yes, sir. Thank you. I assume you’ve already read Officer Peabody’s report on the closing of the Pandora case.”
“Yes, very complete. The PA is going for the maximum on Casto. You ran a close one there, Lieutenant.”
She was very well aware how close she’d come to not only missing her wedding day, but the rest of her life. “It stings when it’s another cop,” she said. “I was rushed, sir, and only had time to give you my recommendation for Peabody’s transferral, permanently, to my unit. Her assistance, in this matter and others, has been invaluable.”