“Jesus, Micah, I’m sorry.”
He shook his head. “I’m not complaining. Like I said on the plane, it was interesting to see you so . . . so shaken.”
“You being there helped,” I said in a small voice.
“Glad to hear that I spilled blood for a good cause.”
“Did I really bleed you?”
He nodded. “It’s healed, but yeah, you did. You still aren’t quite used to being more than human strong.”
“I’ll read the file because I need to before tonight, but if you want to tell me about how you became a wereleopard, you can. Honestly, once you told me it was an attack, I treated you like any survivor. You don’t question survivors about the trauma; you let them come to you.”
He walked toward the doors, and for a moment I thought he’d walk by without touching me. Which would have been bad. He gave me a quick kiss and a smile, then moved past me to put the toiletries kit in the bathroom.
I stood there for a moment, leaning against the door. We were doing the exact thing I’d feared we’d do alone together. We were raking emotional shit. I sighed and moved into the living room. The briefcase was waiting beside the couch. I got the file out and took it to the four-seater table by the big picture window. The main road was just outside, but it wound around a sidewalk that wound around a large fountain. It somehow made it seem less of a road and more of a view.
I could hear Micah puttering in the bathroom. He had to be putting out the toothbrushes, deodorant, etc. . . . I would have stopped unpacking once the good clothes were hung up. Both Micah and Nathaniel were neater and more domestically organized than I was. So was Jean-Claude I guess. I wasn’t sure about Asher. But I was definitely the slob of the group.
I opened the file and started to read. There wasn’t much there. The deceased’s name had been Emmett Leroy Rose. He’d had a double degree from the University of Pennsylvania in accounting and prelaw. He’d gotten his law degree at the University of Pittsburgh School of Law. He’d died of a heart attack at the age of fifty-three, while in federal custody waiting to testify at an important trial. He’d been dead less than three months. It listed his race as African American, which wasn’t important to me. His religion was listed as Protestant, and that information I did need. There were a few religious persuasions that could interfere with zombie raising. Vaudan—voodoo—was the big one. It could be tricky to raise someone who messed with some of the same magic that I would be using. Wiccan could also make things difficult, and so could some of the more mystically oriented faiths. Straight Christian of whatever flavor wasn’t a problem. And psychic abilities could mess with a zombie and make it either hard to raise or hard to control once you raised it. If there was anything less than normal human about Emmett Leroy Rose, it wasn’t in the file.
In fact, there were some important things missing from the file. Like what had he been arrested for—what illegal activity did they catch him at that was bad enough to get him in federal custody awaiting his testimony? And exactly what did an important trial mean? Was it mob business? Was it government business? Was it something else I couldn’t even think of? Who did Mr. Rose have dirt on, and what had the Feds had on him that made him willing to shovel it? Did I need to know any of the above to raise him from the grave? No. But I wasn’t used to going into this blind. If they’d sent me this file, I’d have told them no dice without more info. Yeah, they’d have replied it was a need-to-know basis, and I’d have said if they wanted me to raise the zombie, I needed to know. Larry had just taken the crumbs they gave him and not complained.
I wondered how Tammy was doing. Did I call and ask? Later, I decided. I’d try to get some more info out of Fox first. Truthfully, I’d had about as much emotional angst as I could deal with for a little bit. If the news was bad it would wait, and I wouldn’t know what to say anyway. I said a quick prayer that Tammy and the baby would be all right. That was the most concrete thing I could do.
I called the number I had for Fox. No emotional problems, just business. What a relief.
“You have everything in the file that you need to raise Rose from the dead, Marshal Blake,” Fox said.
I’d figured he’d say that, but . . . “Just tell me this. Fox, how hot was Emmett Leroy Rose?”
“What do you mean, ‘hot’?” he asked, but his tone said he knew.
“How important a witness was he?”
“He died of natural causes, Blake. He wasn’t murdered. There wasn’t a contract out on him. We just caught him doing something bad. So bad, he didn’t want to go to jail over it. So he gave us more important people. Or was going to.”
“Did he have a bad heart?”
“No, if he had, we’d have had a court reporter in to take down his testimony, just in case. We found out later that his father had died of an unexpected heart attack at almost the same age.”
“You see, Fox, if you’d known that, you might have gotten his testimony down sooner, right?”
He was quiet a second, then said, “Maybe.”
“Is anything you haven’t included in this file going to bite me on the ass later? Like a father who died of a sudden heart attack.”
He made a sound that might have been a laugh. “It’s a good point, Marshal Blake, but no, there’s nothing we left out that will impact you or your work.”
“Have you ever seen someone raise the dead, Special Agent Fox?”
He was quiet again. Then, “Yes.” Just that one word.
I waited for him to say more, but he didn’t. “So you’re happy with the information I’ve got.”
“Yes,” he said again, and there was a tone that said this conversation was about over. “Why do I think that if I’d called you in first instead of Kirkland, you’d have been a much bigger pain in the ass?”
That made me laugh. “Oh, yes,” I said. “I’m a much bigger pain in the ass than Larry.”
“How’s his wife doing?”
“I’m going to call them when I get off the phone with you.”
“Give him my best.” He hung up.
I sighed and hung up my end. Then I went for my cell phone in the front of the briefcase. I turned it on, and there was a message. I pushed buttons until the phone gave up the message. Larry’s voice: “Anita, it’s Larry. They’ve got the labor stopped. They’re going to keep her overnight, just to be safe, but it looks good. Thanks for taking the run to Philadelphia. Thanks for everything.” Then he laughed. “How do you like the file? Real informative, isn’t it?” He laughed again, then hung up.
I sat down on the couch sort of suddenly. I don’t think I’d realized how worried I was until it was all right. I didn’t even like Tammy much, but Larry was my friend and it would have broken his heart.
Micah was standing in front of me. I looked up. “Tammy and the baby are going to be fine. He must have called while we were in the air.”
Micah smiled and touched my face. “You’re pale. You were really worried about it, weren’t you?”
I nodded.
“Were you hiding it from me or didn’t you know either?”
I gave him a smile that was a bit too wry to be happy. “Stop knowing me so well, dammit.”
“Better than you know yourself, sometimes,” he said softly. And that was a little too close to the truth.
CHAPTER
6
Room service came with a knock and a polite voice. Micah got to the door before I did, but he didn’t just open it. Some people in my life I’ve had to teach caution to, but Micah had come with it as part of the standard boyfriend package.
He checked the peephole, then looked at me. “Room service.” But he didn’t open the door. I watched him take a very deep breath, scenting the air. “Smells like room service.”
My hand eased back from the gun under my arm. I hadn’t even realized my hand was on it until that moment. His scenting at the door had made me think, just for a second, that something was wrong, not that he was simply scenting the air because it smelled good.
He put his sunglasses on before he opened the door. I made sure my jacket was covering the gun. Didn’t want to weird anyone out, and definitely didn’t want to give the staff a reason to talk. Hiding how far outside normal we were was standard practice. People tend to get nervous around guns and shapeshifters. Go figure.
The guy smiled and asked where we’d like the tray set up. We let him put a cloth on the table by the window.
It seemed to take a long time for him to get everything ready. He placed water glasses, real napkins, even a rose in a vase in the center of the table. I’d never seen anything this elaborate from room service.
Finally, he was done. Micah signed for the food, and the guy left with a Have a nice day that actually sounded sincere.
Micah shut the door behind him, putting all the locks in place. I approved. Locks don’t help you if you don’t use them.
I was trying to decide whether to frown. “I like the caution—you know I do.”
“But,” he said, setting the sunglasses on the coffee table.
“But I thought I should compliment you before I complain about something else.”
His smile slipped a little. “What now?”
“There’s a salad here with grilled chicken on it and a butterflied chicken breast grilled with veggies. The salad better not be mine.”
He grinned then, and it was that sudden grin that gave me a glimpse of what he might have looked like at fifteen.
“You get the chicken breast.”
I frowned. “I would have preferred steak.”
He nodded. “Yes, but if you eat that heavy then sometimes the food doesn’t sit well if the sex is too, um, vigorous.”
I tried not to smile and failed. “And is the sex going to be, um, vigorous?”
“I hope so,” he said.
“And you got the salad, because . . .”
“I’ll be doing most of the work,” he said.
“Now, that’s just not true,” I said.
He wrapped his arms around me, and his being the same height made the eye contact very serious, very intimate.
“Who does the most work depends on who is doing what.” His voice was low and deep. His face leaned closer as he said, “I know exactly what I want to do to you and with you, and it means that I will be doing”—and his mouth was just above mine—“most of the work.”
I thought he’d kiss me, but he didn’t. He drew back and left me breathless and a little shaky. When I could talk without sounding as wobbly as I felt, I asked, “How do you do that?”
“Do what?” he asked as he sat down on his side of the table, spreading his napkin in his lap.
I gave him a look.
He laughed. “I am your Nimir-Raj, Anita. You are my Nimir-Ra, my leopard queen. The moment we met, my beast and that part of you that calls and is called to the wereleopards were drawn to each other. You know that.”
I blushed, because the memory of just how much we’d been drawn together from the moment we’d met always made me a little embarrassed. All right, more than a little.
Micah was the first man I’d ever had sex with within hours of meeting him. The only thing that had kept it from being a one-night stand was the fact that he stuck around, but I hadn’t known he would when it first happened. Micah had been the first person I fed the ardeur off of, the first warm body that I slaked that awful thirst on. Was that the bond? Was that the foundation of it?
“You’re frowning,” he said.
“Thinking too hard,” I said.
“And not about anything pleasant, from the look on your face.”
I shrugged, which made the jacket rub on the gun. I took the jacket off and draped it across the back of the chair. Now the shoulder holster was bare and aggressive against the crimson shirt. My arms were exposed, which showed off most of my scars.
“You’re angry,” he said. “Why?”
I actually hung my head, because he was right. “Don’t ask, okay? Just let my grumpy mood go, and I’ll try to let it go, too.”
He looked at me for a moment, then gave a small nod. But his face was back to being careful. His neutral, pleasant I’m managing her moods face. I hated that face because it meant I was being difficult, but I didn’t know how to stop being difficult. I was tripping over issues I’d thought I’d worked out months ago. What the hell was the matter with me?
We ate in silence, but it wasn’t companionable silence. It was strained, at least in my own head.
“Okay,” Micah said, and his voice made me jump.
“What?” I asked, and my voice sounded strident, somewhere between breathy and a yell.
“I have no idea why you are this”—he made a waffling motion with his hand—“but we’ll play it your way. How did you get the scars on your left arm?”
I looked down at my arm as if it had suddenly appeared there. I stared at the mound of scar tissue at the inside of the elbow, the cross-shaped burn scar just below it, the knife cut, and the newer bite marks between the two. Those bites were still sort of pink, not white and shiny like the rest. Okay, the burn wasn’t white, darker actually, but . . . “Which one?” I asked, looking up at him.
He smiled then. “The cross-shaped burn scar.”
I shrugged. “I got captured by some Renfields—humans with a few bites—who belonged to a master vampire. The Renfields chained me up as a sort of snack for when their master rose for the night, but while we were waiting they decided to have some fun. The fun was heating up a cross-shaped branding iron and marking me.”
“You tell the story like it doesn’t mean anything to you.”
I shrugged again. “It doesn’t. Not really. I mean it was scary and horrible, and hurt like hell. I try not to think about it. If I dwell too much on the things that could go wrong or have gone wrong in the past, I have trouble doing my job.”
He looked at me, and he was angry. I didn’t know why. “How would you feel if I told my story the same way?”
“Tell your story any way you want, or don’t tell it, Micah. I’m not the one forcing us to play true confessions.”
“Fine,” he said. “I was eighteen, almost nineteen. It was the fall I went away to college. My cousin Richie had just gotten back from basic. We both came home so we could go hunting with our dads one last time. You know, one last boys’ weekend out.” His voice held anger, and I finally realized that he wasn’t angry at me.
“At the last minute, Dad couldn’t come with us. Some hunters had gone missing, and Dad thought one of his patrols had found them.”
“Your dad was a cop?”
He nodded. “County sheriff. The body they found turned out to be a homeless guy who got lost in the woods and died of exposure. Some animals got to him, but they hadn’t killed him.”
His face had gone distant with remembering. I’d had a lot of people tell me awful truths, and he told it like most of them did, no hysterics. No anything, really. No effect, as the therapists and the profilers would say. He looked empty as he told his story. Not matter-of-fact the way I told my story, but empty, as if part of him wasn’t really there. The only thing that showed the strain was that thread of anger in his voice.
“We were all armed, and Uncle Steve and Dad had taught Richie and me how to use a gun. I could shoot before I could ride a bike.” He set his silverware down on the table, and his fingers found the salt shaker. It was real glass, smooth and elegant for a salt shaker. He turned it around and around in his fingers, giving it all his eye contact.
“We knew it might be the last time the four of us got to hunt together, you know? College for me, the army for Richie—it was all changing. Dad was really upset that he didn’t get to come, and so was I. Uncle Steve offered to wait, but Dad told him to go ahead. We wouldn’t all get our deer in one day. He was going to drive up and join us the next day.”
He paused again, this time for so long that I thought he’d stopped for good. I gave him the silence to decide. Stop, or go; tell or not.
His v
oice when it came was emptier; no anger now, but the soft beginnings of something worse. “We’d gotten a doe. We always got two buck tags and two doe tags, so between the four of us, we could shoot what we found.” He frowned, then looked at me. “You don’t know what a deer tag is, do you?”
“The deer tag tells you what you can shoot, buck or doe. You don’t get a choice some years, because some years there are more does than bucks, so they give out more doe tags. Though usually it’s buck that’s more plentiful.”
He looked surprised. “You’ve been deer hunting.”
I nodded. “My dad used to take me.”
He smiled. “Beth, my sister, thought it was barbaric. We were killing Bambi. My brother, Jeremiah—Jerry—didn’t like killing things. Dad didn’t hold it against him, but it meant that Dad and I were closer than him and Jerry, you know?”
I nodded. “I know.” And just like that he’d told me more about his family than I’d ever known. I hadn’t even known he’d had siblings.
He kept his eyes on my face now. He stared right at me as he said the next part, stared so hard that even under normal circumstances it would have been difficult to hold his gaze. Now, like this, it was like lifting some great weight just to meet the demand in his eyes. I did it, but it was hard work.
“We had a doe. We’d field dressed it and put it on a pole. Richie and I were carrying it. Uncle Steve was a little ahead of us. He was carrying Richie’s gun and his. I had my rifle on a strap across my back. Dad always told me that if it was my gun, I needed to hold on to it. I had to control it at all times. Funny. I don’t think Dad really liked guns.”
His face started to break, not badly, but around the edges. All the emotions that he was trying not to have chased around the borders of his face. If you didn’t know what you were looking at, you might not have understood it, but I’d had too many people tell me too many awful things not to see it.
“It was a beautiful day. The sun was warm, the sky was blue, the aspens were like gold. The wind was gusty that day. It kept blowing the leaves around in showers of gold. It was like standing inside a snow globe except instead of snow, it was golden, yellow leaves. God, it was beautiful. And that was when it came for us. It moved so fast, just a dark blur. It hit Uncle Steve and he just went down, never got back up.” His eyes were a little wide, his pulse jumping enough in his throat that I could see it. But other than that his face was neutral. Control—such tight control.
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