“What do I win?” I asked. I let him go.
He gazed down at me with eyes that didn’t quite focus. “Everything.” He kissed me. It started as a slow kiss, but then he was just suddenly kissing me as deep and hard as he could. I’d forgotten that Jean-Claude had bled me earlier. I knew that part of what made him so eager at my mouth was the taste of my blood. He kissed me as if he would crawl into my mouth, his tongue searching for every last drop of that precious fluid.
His body pressed on top of mine. He was so hard, so firm, the feel of him trapped between our bodies made me make small sounds into his mouth, as he kissed me.
He drew back from the kiss. “What do you want?” he asked.
“You, inside me,” I said.
He gave me a fierce smile, and raised himself up off my body.
I grabbed at his waist and shoulders. “What are you doing?”
“You said inside, you didn’t say where inside.” He crawled over me, his body not touching me, and I knew where he was going.
“Is this more foreplay or do you want to finish here?”
“Finish,” he said.
“Without the ardeur, I don’t like to swallow.”
“I know,” he said, and straddled my chest, leaning forward using the headboard much as Jean-Claude had.
I stared up the line of his body, his face so eager, so sure of itself. I’d worked a long time to have him look like that during sex. He knew with me he could ask for what he wanted, that his pleasure was as important to me as my own. I cupped my hand under his balls. They were already tight and close to his body. The caress brought his breath in a long sigh.
I kept one hand on his balls, and spilled the other hand up and over the length of him. He smiled down at me. “What do you want Micah to do while I’m busy here?”
We’d only very recently begun having sex at the exact same time, Nathaniel, Micah, and me. I’d thought it had been my idea initially, but now, it seemed like Nathaniel initiated it more. I knew what he wanted me to say, and truthfully, dawn was going to come, and I had one other man in the bed. Whatever we were going to do, we needed to be doing it.
I kept playing lightly with Nathaniel, and called, “Micah.”
He crawled until I could see him. He just looked at me with those chartreuse eyes. His face made no demands, but his body spoke for him, so hard, so eager. “You, inside me.”
“We’ve never done this without the ardeur,” he said.
“I know,” I said.
He gave me a look, then he smiled, and crawled back down along the bed.
“Suck me while he does it.” It was more a command than a request, but I’d worked long and hard to have Nathaniel that commanding anywhere in his life. Hard to bitch about it now. Besides, he was so temptingly close, so hard, so ready. I had to mound the pillows up, a little higher, to get the angle we needed.
Micah’s hands slid over my hips.
I licked the tip of Nathaniel, slid my mouth over him, took him inch by inch into my mouth, slow, so slow, so we could both enjoy the sensation of it.
I went down about halfway, then back up. We needed him wetter, so he’d slide better. But there’s something about putting that much of a man that far inside your mouth that makes you wet, both above and below.
Micah’s hands spread my legs, his finger plunged inside me. It made me cry out, and shove all of Nathaniel inside my mouth at once.
He put his hand on the back of my head, held me against him, so that I was trapped, and had a moment of choking around him. It wasn’t a gag reflex; it was a suffocation reflex.
He let me go, and I fell back from his body gasping for breath, choking. When I could talk, I said, “Don’t do that again.”
Micah said, “Are you okay?”
I nodded, wasn’t sure he could see it, and said, “Yeah.”
“You do it with the ardeur,” Nathaniel said.
“We’re doing it without tonight.” I think the look I gave him was not entirely friendly.
“I’m sorry, but I’m used to being able to do that.”
“Twice, we’ve done that twice. Twice is not a pattern.”
“I’m sorry,” he said, and that look came back to his face, that uncertain, lost look. He started to move, and I grabbed his hips to keep him from moving. He looked down at me, his face so fragile, so hurt, as if all the new bravado were only skin deep: scratch it, and it goes away. I did the only thing I could think of to chase that look from his face. I drew him back into my mouth, sucked him fast and hard, until his head went back and his eyes closed. When he looked at me again, he was smiling, but there was still a flinching around his eyes; a shadow of that hurt. There was only one thing that would take that hurt from his eyes, I had to prove I trusted him. I slipped my mouth over him again, and gave myself over to the pleasure of him filling my mouth. I let my face show just how much I enjoyed the sensation of all that velvet muscle inside my mouth. The sensation of it wet and slick from my own saliva. But I didn’t stop at the comfort point, that point where it just feels good and full. I sucked past that point where my body told me too much. I sucked until my mouth met his body, and there was no inch to spare. I sucked until he was shoved as hard and deep inside my throat as I could manage. I sucked until my body stopped complaining about needing to gag and started to complain about needing to breathe. But I’d learned to be able to fight past that, too. I stayed there, pressed tight and solid against his body, until he looked down at me, stayed until my throat convulsed, spasming around the length of him. He stared down at me, his eyes wild, eager, and something more. His hands stayed in a death grip on the headboard, as if he didn’t quite trust himself. I drew back from him, coughing, before I could get a good breath. I finally let myself swallow all that extra saliva and lay back, panting as if I were behind on my breaths and had to catch up.
His body shivered above me, a shiver of pleasure that went all the way up his body, to throw his head back, close his eyes, bow his spine, as if the memory alone were that intense, and for Nathaniel it might have been. He finally looked down at me, eyes slightly unfocused. He smiled, and said, “Thank you.” And the look on his face held something much more precious to me than passion; it held soft gratitude, wonder, love, for lack of a better word. There were men who loved me who never wore a look like that. Maybe it was his youth, or his years of therapy, or his lack of hang-ups. What Nathaniel felt he felt down to his toes, no hiding, no holding back, not once he gave himself to someone. It had been one of the things that made him such a danger to himself with the wrong person. With the right person he was magnificient in his abandon. He put the rest of us to shame with our wariness, our unease, our holding back. He was the only one of us who simply gave.
I gazed up into that face and was happier than I knew how to say that he was in my life.
I felt the bed adjust, a moment before fingers slipped inside me. Two searching, slender fingers. Those fingers found that certain spot, and began to flick back and forth, back and forth, fast and faster, until the feeling threw my head back, and tore a scream from me. There were other men who could do that to me, but no one else was that quick at it. I knew who it was, before I looked past Nathaniel’s body to see Jean-Claude kneeling between my thighs. His eyes had bled to solid blue light.
Nathaniel moved off me, and I had a moment to try to focus and find Micah, before Jean-Claude slipped his fingers back inside me and brought me again, screaming, tearing at the sheets, grabbing for the headboard, grabbing for anything to hold on to.
I found a hand, and grabbed it, nails digging into the wrist as I writhed. When I could see again, I found it was Micah. He stared down at me with such a look on his face. He spoke, staring down at me. “Wait, Jean-Claude, wait until I’m in place.”
I blinked up at him. “In place where?” My voice sounded as thick and unfocused as I felt.
He squeezed my hand tight, and said, “I want you to scream your orgasm with me in your mouth.”
I said, “
Okay,” then thought enough to say, “Can’t deep-throat you from this angle.”
He put his other hand against my cheek, and turned my face to the side, toward his body. “How about now?”
The way he asked made me smile, and staring at the front of his body so thick, so ready, stole the smile and made me whisper, “Let’s try.”
“That’s our girl,” he said. He put my hand on the headboard, wrapping my fingers around it. He did that when the body part closest to me wasn’t somewhere he wanted nail marks.
Nathaniel came in from the other side; he took my free hand and put it against his hip. One telling me clearly, Don’t mark me there; the other one saying, Please, do it.
Micah turned my face back to him. Nathaniel put my hand higher up his chest, so I could get a running start on his skin. He wouldn’t be working at Guilty Pleasures this weekend, so I didn’t have to worry about marking him.
Micah slipped inside my mouth; he pushed slowly, easing his way in, but he already tasted salty, bitter, and sweet all at once. He’d been enjoying the show. That taste meant he wouldn’t last as long as he might have, not a bad thing in oral sex with someone his size. Intercourse you want to last as long as possible; orally, duration is not always an asset. Two very different skill sets.
I moved forward to meet his careful thrust, and it was as if I’d given him permission. He began to thrust into my mouth, hitting the back of my throat with every thrust, pulling out just before I would have to call uncle. I had a death grip on the headboard, and my hand was mostly just steadying myself against Nathaniel’s side, not digging in. I was concentrating too hard on doing Micah to think about doing myself.
“Now,” Micah said, and it took me a second to understand who he was talking to. Jean-Claude’s fingers slid inside me, and he found that sweet spot, found it like he knew exactly where it was. He brought me with quick, sure flexing of his fingers, quick, quicker, quickest. I screamed around Micah’s body, screamed and thrust my mouth harder and deeper onto him. I rode his body as I rode the orgasm, so that he suddenly didn’t seem too big, too wide, but just right. I screamed and thrashed, and drove my nails into Nathaniel’s hip, as if I were trying to dig my way through him.
I screamed, screamed, and screamed, screamed my pleasure, but it was a sound that would have been pain for most people. It wasn’t pain; it was release. I gave myself over to that moment, completely and utterly. Jean-Claude’s hand inside me, Micah’s body in my mouth, Nathaniel’s flesh under my nails. I let go of the headboard, and had just enough of me left to mark higher up on Micah’s back, while my other hand just kept digging at Nathaniel’s hip and ass.
I heard voices, and knew vaguely that they weren’t us. I heard Jean-Claude say, “Get out,” but I was too far gone to look, or care.
He shoved more of his hand inside me in one quick motion, and that brought me, too. He’d worked me until my body would give orgasms like a gift, so wet, so excited, so thick, so tight, swollen with pleasure.
Micah’s body was beginning to lose its rhythm, he tasted close. The apex of his thrust climbed down my throat, and back out; my own saliva poured down my mouth, because there was no time to swallow.
Jean-Claude leaned over me, with his fingers still inside, but his mouth licked between my legs, while his fingers kept going in and out of me. He couldn’t do the deep sucking that the others could—fangs got in the way—but I didn’t need deep. He’d worked me to the point where quick flicks of his tongue, back and forth, back and forth, started to bring me. That warmth building up, up inside me, as if the center of my body were a cup, filling up drop by drop with pleasure, until with one last lick, the cup spilled, and I screamed around Micah’s body. He thrust one last time, so deep that I choked, and I knew in that moment that he’d been careful, and now he wasn’t, now he finally did make me take those last two inches. I finally touched his body for longer than a second. I started to pull away. His hand went to the back of my head, as if he’d hold me in place, but he moved, and let me draw back, and drew himself out.
I watched Micah fight for control. Jean-Claude moved inches to the side, so his mouth nestled in the very upper, very inside of my thigh. Jean-Claude’s fangs plunged into me, and I was to that point where pain was pleasure, and the feel of him piercing my skin, his mouth sucking on me, brought me up off the bed, throwing my upper body upward, screaming. My body brushed against the front of Micah’s body, and it was that little bit too much. My body came back to rest on the bed, and Micah spilled himself across my breasts, hot, so hot, the liquid thick and heavy, running between my breasts, down the side of my body, pooling trickling down my stomach. The sensation of it made me cry out.
Jean-Claude raised his mouth off me. His mouth was smeared with my blood, and his body was hard and ready, full of my blood, so he could pleasure my body, and his. He usually started out slow for intercourse, but tonight he, like Micah, had done his slow. He was suddenly above me, held up on his arms like a push-up, but his lower body didn’t stay up. He thrust into me as hard and fast as I’d ever felt him, and I could watch every thrust as he moved in and out of me. Three strokes, five, and he brought me. I thrust my hips up to meet his, writhing under him. He brought me twice more, before I felt him begin to lose the rhythm of it, and with one last thrust he spilled himself inside me. He stayed above me, holding himself on shaking arms, while he gazed down at me, lips open, fighting for breath. He normally collapsed on top of me afterward, but my chest was covered in Micah’s juice. It was already growing thinner, beginning to trickle down my sides like icing melting in the heat.
He stayed above me, panting, and smiling, his mouth still smeared with my blood. He bent down, carefully, keeping his upper body and hair out of everything, but he kissed me. Kissed me with my blood like sweet copper in his mouth.
He pulled out, and left me blinking, dazed with it all. He had barely moved out of the way, and Nathaniel was there, above me. I couldn’t remember when he’d moved from the head of the bed. I’d lost track.
I stared down the line of his body, poised above me, and I thought, Didn’t I promise to start using condoms? But the worst had happened, I was already pregnant, it didn’t matter anymore. Jean-Claude had caught me by surprise, but I let Nathaniel plunge himself inside me, naked, his flesh inside mine with nothing between us.
He found that rhythm that he did sometimes, like a shuddering wave down his body, like he was dancing inside me. And with each shuddering wave, he thrust into me, thrust into me, right over that spot. Jean-Claude had given himself over to the sex, but Nathaniel was doing his usual careful job of it, as if even after all the foreplay he was going to give me my money’s worth. His emotions were raw, but his intercourse was controlled. He wouldn’t come until I did, he just wouldn’t. He’d made a game of making me come over and over, until I begged him to. It wasn’t going to take long tonight.
It didn’t. I felt that weight begin to build between my legs, slow and steady, but faster than normal because of all that had gone before. “Close,” I whispered, “close.” My hips began to rise up and down with his movements, so we danced for each other, my hips thrusting upward as his thrust down, so that we met again and again. The orgasm caught me, and there was no more dancing for me. There was just screaming, and nails along his sides, me writhing, but no rhythm, no control.
I came to myself panting, double-visioned, and found his body back in the same rhythm. He kept going in and out of me, as if he could do it all night. He damn near could. He brought me again, and this time I wound my upper body around him, pressed our chests together, dug claws into his back. He pressed his upper body against me, putting his upper chest against my mouth, while his body kept pumping away. I knew what he wanted, and I gave it to him. I bit him, bit him until I tasted blood. I held his upper body against mine, so that he wouldn’t jerk away and cause me to hurt him more than I planned. My mouth filled with blood, and his rhythm faltered. Pleasure he could fight off all night, but pain, pain would bring him fa
ster.
But he brought me again first, and I tore my mouth away from his body, so I didn’t bite him too much. I turned my face to the side, and screamed. I wrapped my legs around his body, locked my heels at the top of his ass, and pinned him to me, so he couldn’t get the rhythm he wanted.
He raised himself up on hands and knees, with me clinging to the front of his body. He crawled us both to the head of the bed, and used one hand on my ass, and the other on the headboard, to lift me up, and put my back against the headboard. His voice came in a strangled whisper. “I want to move more.” And he did, he moved in and out of me, over and over and over, while I clung to him with my arms and legs. He brought me again, and again, and finally one more time, and then he asked, “Please, please.”
Some nights he liked to beg before I said yes, but tonight I didn’t think either of us could stand much more. I whispered it against the sweet smell of his neck, “Yes, go, go, go inside me. God, go, please!”
He stopped trying for rhythm and thrust inside me as hard and fast as he could. He brought me again; I dug my nails into his shoulders and back, and he finally thrust up inside me. Thrust as far and hard as he could. He stayed there like that for a heartbeat, forever, then he slumped lower on his knees, while I still clung to him.
Our bodies were slick with sweat, and blood, and other things. He clung with his hands to the headboard, his heart beating so fast I could see it. “God, that was good,” he said, voice breathless, and not quite like his voice at all, yet.
I tried to say yes, and couldn’t do it. It was as if I couldn’t figure out how to form words, and I still couldn’t make my eyes work. The world was still a white-edged blur, like something wrapped in cotton.
“Anita,” Micah said, “are you all right?”
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