Micah was on his own cell phone. I heard him say, “Jean-Claude.” Had Micah heard enough to tell Jean-Claude what he needed to know?
“I’ll take that as a no,” Giovanni said.
“I thought the Harlequin couldn’t have a territory of their own. They’re supposed to be neutral.”
“We grow weary of this wandering life. We wish for a home.”
“You could petition Jean-Claude to join his kiss.”
“My mistress wishes to rule, not to serve.”
I started walking toward the exit. Whatever we were going to do, we needed to be at that church. We needed to stop whatever they had planned. Somehow I didn’t think they were done with their bid for power in St. Louis.
“The council has forbidden war between master vamps in America right now.”
“Only if the fight cannot be kept secret. My master is confident this will be settled tonight, quietly.”
“Overconfidence, Giovanni, it’ll get you killed.”
Nathaniel was alone at the end of the hallway. I didn’t know where Zerbrowski had run off to, but it was just as well. I wasn’t sure what my face looked like, but I knew I didn’t look happy. I didn’t want to lie to him, and so far this was a party for monsters, not cops.
“We will try our powers against each vampire here in turn. Those that cannot withstand us will be blood-oathed to Columbine.”
“You can’t blood-oath someone else’s vamps, it’s against the rules.”
“Think of it as the beginning of the duel between your master and mine.” The phone went dead.
“Shit,” I said.
Micah handed me his phone. “It’s Jean-Claude. I’ve told him it’s the Harlequin, and it’s the church.”
I took the phone and started talking. Jean-Claude listened and asked a few questions here and there. Maybe he felt my urgency over the phone, or maybe he’d spent too many centuries dealing with exactly this kind of shit.
“Will you bring human police?”
“I’ll bring Edward and Olaf, but I don’t know about the rest. I can’t prove they’ve broken any human laws.”
“I will leave it to your discretion whether a lie would be useful here.”
“You mean use the warrant even if I’m not certain she did it?”
“It is your honor that is at stake, not my own. I will call the wereanimals and my vampires. Be careful, ma petite.”
“You, too.” He hung up.
I stopped walking. My pulse was suddenly in my throat. Panic screamed through me. I was sure, certain, I would get everyone killed. If I took the cops, they’d die. If I didn’t invite the cops, my other friends would die. I couldn’t do this.
I looked at Micah. “This could turn into a hostage situation, and I’m not trained for that. They’ve got a few hundred people in there; what if I get them killed? What if I make the wrong choice?”
Micah searched my face with his gaze. “First, you need to shield better, because this kind of self-doubt isn’t like you. Second, she doesn’t want them dead. She wants to blood-oath them, and that means she wants them healthy.”
I nodded. “You’re right, you’re right.” The tremble of panic in my gut was still there. He was so right. I’d had vampires mess with my mind before in all sorts of ways, but Mercia’s power was almost the most awful. Because it made you have to feel your own emotions intensified until you almost couldn’t stand it. I think I’d have rather dealt with a good old-fashioned attempt to control me with her thoughts than this emotional rape.
“Why isn’t it affecting you?” I asked.
“I don’t think she’s targeted me yet.”
“She targeted Graham. How did she know to target him?”
“Soledad scouted for her, maybe,” he said.
I nodded. “Right, right.”
Nathaniel came up to us, alone. I asked, “Where did Zerbrowski go?”
“I got him talking about the party at his house. I asked what food his wife wanted us to bring. I think he’s more worried about you bringing us both to the party than he admits, because it distracted him from your super-secret phone call. What’s really happening?”
I told him. “I’m afraid no matter what cops I send in, she’ll mind-fuck them. It’s so subtle, she just emphasizes what you’re already feeling. It seems not to activate the holy items.”
“Because she’s not adding anything,” Nathaniel said.
“What?” I asked; we all looked at him.
“She’s not putting power into you, she’s giving more power to what’s already inside you. Maybe that’s why the holy objects don’t go off?”
I smiled at him. “When did you get so smart?”
He shrugged, but looked pleased.
“What if we call out Mobile Reserve and she fucks their minds? I can’t guarantee that she won’t turn them against each other, or more likely the congregation, and once I call them, they sort of take over. I’ll lose control of the situation.”
“I’m not sure you have control of the situation now,” Micah said.
“Thanks,” I said.
He touched my shoulder, gently. “Anita, what you’re really trying to decide is, is it the police you need to be backup, or is it Jean-Claude’s vampires and our shapeshifters?”
I nodded. “You’re right, you are exactly right. That is what I’m trying to decide.”
“Won’t Zerbrowski and the rest of the uniforms suspect something when you run out of here?” Nathaniel asked.
“I have nearly total discretion on how any warrant of execution is served. I don’t have to include any other police. But the Harlequin have fixed it so that the warrant really isn’t in effect here.”
“It’s a shame you can’t deputize civilians, like in the old movies,” Nathaniel said.
I had the grace to look embarrassed. “I was sort of disappointed I couldn’t do that, too. It would have been so damn convenient.”
“Whatever you are going to do, it has to be done now,” Micah said.
I felt paralyzed. I couldn’t decide. It wasn’t like me in an emergency. I stepped away from both of them so they weren’t touching me. I took a deep calming breath, and another. All I could think about was how I’d almost gotten Peter killed. He might be a lycanthrope, at sixteen. Would I get Malcolm killed? I didn’t want to risk anyone else. I couldn’t bear the thought of Zerbrowski dead and having to face his family. I couldn’t…
Hands grabbed me, and I was suddenly staring up into Nathaniel’s face. “I can feel it,” he said. “She’s shoving doubt into you.” His hands gripped my arms tight, his face was so intense. I was suddenly filled with certainty. A certainty built of unshakable faith. He believed in me. He believed in me utterly and completely. I tried to be frightened that anyone would believe so perfectly in me, but the fear could not last on the tide of his belief. He simply knew that I would do what was right. He knew that I would save Malcolm. He knew that I would punish the bad and save the good. He simply believed. It was one of the most comforting things I’d ever felt. There was a small part of me that screamed in the background, His faith isn’t in God, it’s in you. Again, I tried to be afraid, or struggle against it, but I couldn’t. I felt his certainty, and there was no room for doubt in it.
I stared up at him and smiled. “Thank you,” I said.
He gave me that smile, the one that he might have had if his life had been gentler. It was a smile that he’d only found in the last few months. I’d helped him find that smile. Me, and Micah.
Micah came to stand close to us but made no move to touch. “The power is coming off you in waves. It feels similar to what happens when you touch Damian, sometimes.”
I nodded and looked back at Nathaniel. I’d never wondered what I’d gained from Nathaniel being my animal to call. Damian, as my vampire servant, gave me his control, honed over centuries of being at the mercy of one of the most sadistic vampire masters I’d ever heard of, which was saying something pretty terrible. I’d never thought to ask
what Jean-Claude gained from Richard. From me, a certain ruthlessness; we sort of doubled our natural practicality. When we’d all survived tonight, I’d ask what he gained from Richard. But in that moment, I simply kissed the man in my arms. Kissed him not for lust, though that was always there, but because no one else could have made me believe in myself.
41
I THOUGHT I’D have trouble ditching the police, but no one wanted to play with me. I got nervous glances from some of them, or ignored, or even downright hostile stares. No one questioned where I was going with Micah and Nathaniel. None of the officers were ones that I knew well, but it was still unnerving. Helpful, in that moment, but it didn’t bode well for future police work.
“They think you’re one of us,” Micah whispered.
“And it makes that much difference to them?” I said.
“Apparently, yes,” he said.
Nathaniel hugged me one-armed as we walked past the people who had come here because a cop had been hurt. They’d come because I was one of them. The looks on their faces said, clearly, that I wasn’t one of them anymore. Did it hurt my feelings? Yeah, it did. But I’d worry about my reputation later; right now there was a fight to finish.
I realized I was about to walk out without the only police backup I’d be taking: Edward and, oddly, Olaf. I didn’t want to be in a car with Olaf. The space was too small to share with him. As if I’d thought too hard about him, he walked through the doors of the exit. Edward was right behind him, but for a moment Olaf looked at me. For a moment I saw his eyes bare, no hiding. The look in his eyes, on his face, stopped my breath in my throat. There were so many things to be afraid of tonight, but in that instant I was afraid of Olaf, truly and completely afraid.
Micah started to step in front of me, doing that guy-protection thing. With almost anyone else, I’d have let him do it, but not for Olaf. I moved so that Micah was beside me, where he’d started. I stepped out in front of both my men, so that the only target for Olaf’s eyes was me. Me, he liked; he didn’t like my boyfriends. They were just in his way. Call it a hunch, but I was betting that people who were just in Olaf’s way didn’t last long.
His eyes changed from that look that would haunt me to something that was almost, almost, admiration. In some strange way I understood him better than most. Edward understood him, too. It should have worried both of us that we understood someone like Olaf.
Edward hurried to get ahead of the bigger man. He was talking as he walked. “I think you need to get out there and rescue your friend from the lieutenant.”
“What friend?”
“Graham,” he said, and Edward’s eyes melted around the edges, showing me the anger that was underneath. Anger about Peter, anger about Olaf, anger about what? I couldn’t ask, and when I got a chance later, he’d probably lie anyway.
Edward took my arm, something he had never done that I could remember. He took me by the elbow like I was a girl and needed to be led. I might have protested, except I caught sight of Olaf’s face. He watched Edward touch me, touch me like I was a girl, which he’d never seen before, because it wasn’t how Edward touched me, ever. I was a lot of things to Edward, but I was never a girl. Edward led me past the looming presence of Olaf. Micah and Nathaniel trailed us. Olaf watched us with a considering look on his face. I was through the doors and into the cold of the parking lot beyond before I realized that Edward had done what I wouldn’t let Micah do: he’d protected me, put himself between me and Olaf. It hadn’t been as obvious as Micah’s attempt, but I didn’t pull free of Edward even after I figured it out. Of all the men I knew, Edward could handle himself, even against giant-sized serial killers.
Graham was a big guy, knew it, liked it. But standing beside Dolph, he looked small. It made me wonder for a second how tiny I must look standing beside Dolph. Edward let go of my elbow as we got to the argument. It wasn’t quite a fight, yet, but it had the feel of something that might turn into one. We didn’t have time for this shit. Jean-Claude and his vampires were on their way to the church. We had to go.
“Since when does a federal marshal need a bodyguard?” Dolph asked, his voice deepening with anger. His big hands were already curled into fists.
The energy of Graham’s beast was trailing the air like tiny, searching hands. Pats and tickles of energy touched my skin. Nathaniel shivered beside me. Micah would control it better, but he’d feel it, too. The fact that it was only small touches of power meant Graham was really fighting to control himself. I wasn’t so sure the same could be said of Dolph.
Edward let me walk a little ahead of everyone so that I stood just out of reach, but close enough to be heard by Dolph and Graham.
“Hey, Dolph, I’ll take Graham off your hands.”
Dolph gave me a glance, but didn’t seem to want to look away from the man in front of him. I’d seen him try to pick a fight once with Jason. It hadn’t worked, because Jason didn’t get upset that easily. Graham did.
Detective Smith walked up beside me. He was rubbing his arms, as if he were cold. It was December, but it wasn’t that kind of cold. Smith was psychically gifted, no specific ability that I knew of, but he sensed lycanthropes and other otherworldly stuff. Standing out here with an arguing werewolf had probably not been comfy for him, but Smith was a good sport.
“Lieutenant, I think Marshal Blake is leaving. She’ll take her guard with her, and that way you won’t have to worry about what he’s doing here.” Smith made his voice light, trying to sound harmless. He was pretty good at harmless, not much taller than me, blond hair, young for his age. He was the newest detective on the squad. Where was Zerbrowski? He was the best at managing Dolph’s moods.
“I want to know why a federal marshal needs a bodyguard,” Dolph said through gritted teeth.
Graham looked at me. The look said, What do I say?
Unless I was willing to fess up to being Jean-Claude’s human servant or Richard’s lupa, I didn’t know what to say. I seldom lie well if I don’t see the lie coming a long way off.
Micah stepped into the charged silence. “It’s my fault, Lieutenant. I love her, and she almost died. I’m sorry if my hiring Graham to be by her side upset you, but I know you’re married. I’m sure you understand how frightened I was when I saw her lying in that bed.” Sometimes I forgot how smoothly Micah could lie. Of course, the only real lie in the mix was that he had hired Graham personally. The rest was probably true.
“You aren’t married to Anita.”
“Micah’s been living with me for seven months.”
“Talk to me when you’ve made a year,” he said.
“You were always onto me to find a steady boyfriend who had a pulse. I found one, so now what’s your problem?”
“When did humans stop being good enough for you, Anita?”
I shook my head and made a push-away gesture. “I’m not having this fight tonight, Dolph. Come on, Graham, let’s go.”
We went. Dolph didn’t have any reason to hold us, except his hatred of the monsters. But being hated isn’t against the law. Good to know.
42
EDWARD DROVE INTO the parking lot of the Church of Eternal Life, with Olaf riding beside him. I’d opted to sit in the middle seat with Micah and Nathaniel. Graham was in the back by himself. Edward hadn’t even questioned why I let Olaf ride shotgun. I think he didn’t want to watch Olaf stare at me either. It takes a lot to creep out Edward, but whatever Olaf had done while I was cut open had done it.
The parking lot was so full that we had to park illegally, close to the small green area with its benches and growing trees. In the December cold it was a bleak little space, or maybe my reaction was partly that the last time I’d stepped on the church’s grass I’d shot a vampire to death with a handgun. It takes longer with a handgun. They tend to squirm and cry. Not one of my best memories. I shivered in the short leather jacket that Nathaniel had brought for me. The jacket would have been warmer if I’d been willing to zip it up, but I wanted to be able to get to
my weapons more than I wanted to be warm.
You could tell who was carrying weapons by whose coat was flapping open in the winter cold. Nathaniel was zipped tight, but he’d continued his matching theme with his short leather jacket, so we still looked like we were going to a Goth club prom. The disturbing part was that Olaf matched us: black on black, leather jacket, boots. Nathaniel had zipped up, Olaf hadn’t. Micah had belted his lined trench coat. Graham’s leather was fastened tight, too.
The church rose above us white and bare. The lack of decoration always made the church seem unfinished to me. No holy objects allowed when most of your congregation are vampires.
We walked up those wide, white steps to the double doors. Graham insisted on opening the doors for us. I didn’t have patience to argue, and I was pretty certain Edward didn’t argue because he knew cannon fodder when he saw it. He was hard-to-kill cannon fodder, but Graham wasn’t armed, and I wasn’t in love with him. From Edward’s point of view it changed how he would treat him. Truthfully, me, too. I wanted everyone to come out alive tonight, but if it came to choices, who you loved counted. If you’re not willing to admit that out loud inside your own head, then you should stay out of firefights and keep your family at home. Be honest, who would you save? Who would you sacrifice? We let Graham swing wide those double doors. He didn’t even try to take cover. He stood framed in the light, his body dark with that nimbus of brightness around it. He turned back to me with a smile, as if he’d done a good thing. I said a prayer that Graham didn’t get himself killed tonight. Yeah, we were supposed to be doing metaphysical battle, no weapons, but there were ways to kill with metaphysics. I’d seen it done. Hell, I’d done it a time or two. Illegal, that, if it’s a human that dies. I won’t tell if you won’t.
Nathaniel reached for my left hand. He was warm, warmer than he should have been, fever warm, but there was no sweat on his palm. It wasn’t nerves. It was power. It climbed up my arm, across my body in a wave of heat that made my skin dance in goose bumps. I made a small stumble on the steps. Micah grabbed my arm. He meant it to be helpful, but the power leapt from me to him. And it wasn’t a power meant for him. Damian was meant to be on the other side of me for this. He was meant to cool this fire, but Micah’s was never a magic that cooled me down. The power found the only thing it could recognize. It found his beast. I could actually see his leopard roaring up inside him like a black flame, roaring to life, spilling upward inside him. Micah could control it, but the velvet pouring of his beast brought mine. I was caught between two wereleopards. There was no other animal to distract my beasts.
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