"You look lovely," Miss Laurel said, beaming after admiring Jessie's new hairstyle from every angle.
"Most becoming," Miss Flora agreed. And Jessie, who sneaked many another admiring glance at her reflection in the shop 138
windows as they made their way back to their hotel, decided happily that Miss Flora and Miss Laurel were right.
Despite all her misgivings, Jessie enjoyed herself so much in Jackson that she was almost reluctant to leave.
But the nearer the carriage drew to Mimosa, the more eager she was to reach home. In the final few miles she was finally afflicted with the homesickness she had dreaded. She could barely wait to get home again. It was hard to say whom or what she had missed most: Tudi, or Sissie, or Firefly and Jasper—or Stuart.
But when the carriage rocked to a halt in front of Mimosa's front door, Jessie discovered, to her own surprise, that she was going to miss the aunts. Quite dreadfully.
"We won't get down, dear," Miss Flora said briskly. Jessie looked from her to Miss Laurel, all at once hating to part from them. Impulsively she leaned over to hug Miss Laurel, and then, fiercely, Miss Flora.
"Thank you both," she said around the sudden lump in her throat, and meant it.
Miss Flora pish-tushed, while Miss Laurel patted Jessie's shoulder.
"Don't forget that we're family now. You must come see us," Miss Laurel told her.
"I won't forget," Jessie promised. Then as Ben, Miss Flora and Miss Laurel's elderly driver, who had safely conveyed them all the way to Jackson and back, opened the door, Jessie smiled at them one last time and stepped out of the carriage.
"Good-bye, Jessica!"
"Good-bye!"
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Thomas and Fred were already gathering up the dozens of boxes that Ben had slung down from the top of the carriage. The pair of them greeted Jessie vociferously. She returned their greetings, genuinely glad to see them, to be home, but inside she was torn. She, the girl who never cried, was battling the awful urge to sniffle. As the carriage bearing her new aunts swept down the drive and along the road toward Tulip Hill, Jessie felt her eyes sting. If she hadn't had Jasper's bounding attack to distract her, she might not have been able to hold back the threatening tears.
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September came, and with it came Seth Chandler's birthday. Everybody in the valley knew the exact date—the fourteenth—
because every year on that date Elmway was the site of the biggest party of the season. Lissa was an excellent hostess, and guests came from miles around for barbecue, fireworks, and an evening of dancing. Many from the more distant plantations stayed overnight with the Chandlers, and many more, relatives mostly, stayed as long as a couple of weeks. In fact, Miss May Chandler, Seth's unmarried cousin, had come for the party three years before and never left. Nobody thought much of it. It was the custom in the South for menfolk to offer the protection of their homes to their unmarried female relatives. And anyway, Miss May helped with the children.
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It never would have occurred to her to go this year, either, if Stuart hadn't insisted.
"Of course she's going," he said impatiently when Celia, sweeping downstairs on the morning of the party, told him that Jessie never went. Both Celia and Stuart were already dressed, and Minna followed Celia with her dance dress, carefully stuffed with tissue and folded so that it would not wrinkle, carried over her arm. Stuart inquired as to Jessie's whereabouts. Upon receiving an answer that displeased him, he swore and went to fetch her himself. He found her in the stable, just getting ready to set out for her morning ride. She was already mounted on Firefly when he strode through the wide door. Clad in the new blue riding habit that did marvelous things for her coloring while at the same time making her waist look impossibly slender, her hair only a shade or so darker than the sorrel mare on which she perched sidesaddle, she made a pretty picture. From the tight set to Stuart's mouth as he looked her over, it was clear that he was in no mood to appreciate it.
"Did you want me?" Jessie asked innocently after a moment's silence. She nudged Firefly forward so that the mare stood directly in front of him. Jasper had bounded ahead upon setting eyes on Stuart, who was a great favorite of his, and done his best to express his welcome in the age-old way of dogs. While Stuart, swearing, held Jasper away from his immaculate waistcoat and breeches by the simple expedient of catching a huge front paw in both hands, Jessie realized that for once she had the pleasure of looking down at Stuart. Savoring the unaccustomed advantage in height, she watched with a lurking smile as he admonished Jasper sharply, dropped the dog's paws to the ground, and kept him earthbound by placing a precautionary hand on the animal's 141
head. Jasper took that as an incipient pat. Immediately he groveled for more, dropping to his belly and rolling onto his back with his paws waving in the air. It was a blatant invitation to Stuart to scratch his belly. Jessie laughed. Stuart looked up at her. It was clear from his expression that he, at least, was not amused.
"Get down," he said.
"I'm getting ready to ride," she answered, not so much arguing as surprised.
"You are going to the Chandlers' party." Aggravation was as plain in his voice as it was in his eyes. His fists rested on his hips, and his booted feet were planted wide apart in an aggressive stance.
"I never go."
"Well, you're going this time."
When she just sat there looking at him, he muttered something that she couldn't quite hear but that she was sure was distinctly uncomplimentary. Then, stepping forward, he reached up to catch her around the waist and haul her bodily out of the saddle. Jessie gasped, Firefly sidestepped nervously, Jasper leaped to his feet and barked, and Progress stepped quickly forward to hold the mare's head.
"But I don't want to go," Jessie protested, her hands closing over Stuart's upper arms to steady herself as he set her on her feet in front of him. The muscles of his arms felt hard and very strong beneath her hands, even through the cloth of his coat and shirt. Of their own volition Jessie's fingers lingered on that breathstopping hardness. Almost immediately ashamed of herself, she curled her hands into fists and lifted them away. Ever since that day in the cotton field when her body had betrayed her so 142
embarrassingly, Jessie had forced herself to think of Stuart strictly in an avuncular light. Besides the fact that he had become both friend and mentor, he was her stepmother's husband, for goodness' sake! The wayward images of him that sometimes flitted unbidden through her brain were nothing short of evil. She would not recognize the tingle that his hands on her waist had ignited along her nerve endings. She would not.
"You're going," Stuart said. Grateful to focus on his words instead of his hold on her waist, she clasped her wayward fingers in front of her bosom and looked up at him.
It was a mistake.
He was scowling down at her, but his eyes were so blue that his expression scarcely mattered. His face was lean, brown, and heart-poundingly handsome beneath the crisp black waves of his hair. His mouth was tight with annoyance, but it was still a beautiful mouth.
His hands were large, and they gripped her waist securely. Her waist had grown small enough so that his thumbs almost met just above her belly button. At the feel of them pressing, ever so gently, into her soft flesh, Jessie felt her insides heat. She bit down, hard, on her lower lip. While she still had the will to do it, she pulled back from him, away from the seductive touch of his hands.
"I don't want to go," she managed, willing her contrary bones to solidify again. Afraid he might read her reaction in her eyes, she averted them from him.
"Look at me." His voice was impatient. Reluctant, Jessie nevertheless did as he bade her. She was afraid that if she did not, he would touch her again.
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Something in her face must have tempered his annoyance. When he spoke, his voice had gentled.
"Listen
to me, Jessie. It's nothing short of insane for you to turn yourself into a recluse, and I'll be damned if I'll allow it. Have you never given any thought to the future? Don't you want to marry and have children someday? Of course you do. All women want that."
Jessie shook her head, and opened her mouth to deny—with some truth—any such urge. Before she could speak he was grasping her shoulders, clearly near to shaking her.
"Celia's at fault for letting you grow up as you have, but you're at fault, too. Damn it, Jessie, you're not a child anymore! You're a lovely, desirable young woman, and you'll have scads of boys panting after you if you'll just give them a chance to make your acquaintance. And you are going to give them a chance. You're going to this party if I have to sling you over my shoulder and carry you every step of the way!"
He had said she was a lovely, desirable woman. Did that mean that he found her lovely and desirable? His hands on her shoulders seemed to burn through to her skin. Jessie swallowed, and fought the urge to close her eyes.
"All right," she said, and pulled away from him again. It was either that or step closer, into his arms.
"All right?" he repeated, his hands dropping to his sides, his voice tight with exasperation. Clearly he had no idea of the effect he had on her. Thank goodness he had no idea! "What does that mean?"
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from him at once. Turning on her heel without waiting for anything else he might say, she swept across the lawn to the house, leaving him staring after her.
Later, as she rode beside Celia in the backseat of the open carriage, Jessie wondered at herself for capitulating so easily. She didn't want to go to this party. Since her father's death she'd gone her own way, with not even Celia to tell her what to do. Her willfulness was well known around Mimosa, and even the servants, who loved her, had learned long ago that it was best to let Miss Jessie do as she pleased.
But Stuart—much as Jessie hated to admit it7 she was clay in his hands. She wanted so much to please him that she would bend over backward to comply with his demands. Which was, when she thought it over, quite a disturbing admission. That he affected her physically there was no point in denying, at least to herself. But there was a great deal more to her wish to please him than that. Jessie decided, finally, that she succumbed so meekly to his bullying because they were friends. But, though she refused to explore it, she knew that the relationship that had developed between them was far more complex than mere friendship.
It was strange that a man she'd known for less than half a year (and hated at the outset) should have assumed such importance in her life. Was it simply that he was so kind to her, so genuinely interested in her well-being, that she gravitated to him as a hungry man might to food? Rarely since her father's death had anyone save the servants even bothered to talk to her, except to scold or ridicule. Was it any wonder, then, that she was dazzled by Stuart and the whole world of friendly companionship that he had opened up?
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At least she was not the only one whom he had cozened into practically eating out of his hand. Thomas dogged his footsteps almost constantly when Stuart was walking about the grounds, and Fred vied with Thomas to fetch and carry for the master. Tudi and the rest of the house servants had long since started addressing him as the familial "Mr. Stuart," an honor that had not been accorded Celia until she had lived at Mimosa for more than three years. (Even after ten years as mistress of Mimosa, she was still mostly addressed simply as "ma'am." Celia, who had not been born to plantation life, never seemed to be aware of the subtle snub.) When even Progress unbent enough to give "Mr. Stuart's" horse, Saber, his own special bran mash to buck him up, Jessie knew that the plantation had fallen: Stuart had conquered it with scarcely a battle. And the funny thing about it was that she was glad.
"Are you ladies doing all right?" Stuart rode up beside them to ask. He was astride Saber, while Jessie, Celia, Minna, and Sissie rode in the buggy with Progress up on the seat driving. Minna and Sissie faced backward, each charged with the care of a carefully wrapped dance dress. Sissie, who had been recruited to act as Jessie's maid for the occasion, was puffed up with her own importance. Upon being told what her assignment for the day would be, she had donned a clean apron and turban. Her back was ramrod straight, and her face was as solemn as a judge's as she sat clutching the parcel holding Jessie's dance dress.
"We'd be better if you'd had the courtesy to order up the closed carriage," Celia said pettishly.
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on to join Ned Trimble, who was on horseback escorting his family just ahead.
Elmway fronted on the Yazoo River. It was a low, sprawling house made of clapboards and stone that did not look from the outside nearly as big as it actually was. It was situated so that the rear faced the road. As their carriage rounded the bend that brought Elmway into view, Jessie saw that the drive was already lined with carriages waiting to discharge their occupants. Remembering the reception that had been accorded her at the engagement party, Jessie felt a flutter of nervousness. Would she be a social pariah this time, too?
She looked infinitely better than she had at the engagement party, Jessie knew. Her dress was blue-sprigged white muslin (white was practically the only color considered suitable for a girl of Jessie's age for afternoon wear), but it fitted her perfectly. It was trimmed by knots of sapphire-blue ribbon, and even that small amount of vivid color flattered her eyes and skin. A wide sash in the same shade of blue wrapped around her waist. Her hair she wore up in deference to the heat, which was still summerlike. The cunning tendrils that Madame Fleur had scissored into existence formed a soft cloud about her face.
"Hello, Jessie! Hello, Mrs. Edwards!" Nell Bid-swell and Margaret Culpepper were riding together in Nell's mother's carriage, with Mrs. Bidswell for chaperone and Mr. Bidswell riding beside them. They pulled into line behind the ladies from Mimosa. Jessie, surprised to be hailed, turned and waved. Celia did too, smiling for what, to Jessie's knowledge, was the first time that day.
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was not far behind them. As Jessie saw his approach, she quickly turned so that she was facing forward again.
"I thought Mitchell Todd was your particular beau, Jessie," Celia said snidely, a malicious glint in her eyes. Celia had never said anything, not a single word, about the transformation in her stepdaughter's appearance, which had brought a slew of compliments from everyone else at Mimosa. Jessie had known for a long time that her stepmother disliked her, but lately Celia seemed to take particular pleasure in doing anything she could to cause Jessie pain. When Stuart was not around, of course. Before Jessie could say anything by way of reply to that, she was surprised to hear Mitch call out her name. Embarrassed, she pretended not to hear. But then to her consternation he rode up beside the carriage.
"Good afternoon, Mrs. Edwards. Hello, Miss Jessie." Mitch greeted Celia politely and Jessie with more warmth. Seeing no help for it, Jessie turned to face him. Her answering hello was, she hoped, perfectly composed. But the memory of the last time she had seen him was still strong. The remembered humiliation of that awful night made her cheeks heat.
"Why, Miss Jessie, you went and turned into a beauty while my back was turned!" Mitch exclaimed, looking her over with transparent surprise. There was a teasing note to his voice, but there was also no mistaking his underlying sincerity. Jessie stammered, turning pink with embarrassed pleasure. Celia looked on with a smile. Jessie wondered if she was the only one who could tell how much effort that smile cost her. Celia was seething with jealousy, Jessie realized suddenly. She hated for her despised s
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attention, while she herself was relegated to the ranks of the matronly chaperones.
It was amazing what a difference a fashionable dress and a becoming hairstyle could make to one's pleasure, Jessie thought hours later, after the barbecue was over and the ladies had retired to change into their dancing frocks. Nell and Margaret had complimented her on her beauty and asked her to sit with them while they ate. They were popular with the young men, so Jessie, for the first time in her life, knew what it was to be surrounded by a positive swarm of admirers. And that the gentlemen found something to admire in her altered looks she did not doubt. It was obvious in the way they gazed at her, in the teasing manner of their talk. Before, they had been merely polite, as if she were a kind of elderly aunt, if they'd bothered to address her at all. Now they were almost flirting with her. For the most part Jessie kept her eyes on the plate of barbecue she balanced in her lap, too unsure of herself to indulge in the easy repartee that seemed to come so easily to Nell and Margaret. But the gentlemen did not seem to find her shyness off-putting. If anything, they redoubled their efforts, showering her with outrageous compliments and telling her droll stories in an effort to make her laugh. Despite the rekindling of the childhood friendship she'd had with Nell and Margaret, and the kindness of the other girls, Jessie was still not quite easy in their presence. With Sissie's help, therefore, she dressed quickly, and went downstairs alone. She needed some breathing space before she had to deal with the intricacies of polite socializing again.
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