“What else did they say?”
“That’s it. They’ll send a car for us at five. They’ll give us the details at the airfield.”
Grigory throws the tuber into the next plot and gently sidefoots one of the ridges he’s created, watching the soil collapse upon itself. So much for the work he’s put in.
“Tell Margarita to come down here in a month or so. There’ll be a plot of new potatoes waiting for her.”
“I will.”
In his bedroom, Grigory stuffs shirts into a sleek brown suitcase. An expensive purchase from two years ago, although apart from a couple of weekend conferences it has lain unused under his bed. He has no idea what to pack. What should one wear to a reactor meltdown? Socks lie scattered at random in his drawer and he selects several, balling them into pairs before firing them into the case.
A thought causes him to pause. A nuclear disaster. He could die in such a place.
Grigory looks at the striped socks in his drawer. He’s walking into a poisonous lair and is packing shirts and socks. He sits on the bed and stares into the possibilities.
There were Saturdays, in his other life, when Maria would appear in the doorway carrying a bag of bread and a jar of chicken stock. Saturday lunches were a ritual for them, the time of the week when Grigory was at his most relaxed and they would relay news to each other, the small occurrences of the past days.
GRIGORY IMAGINES the scene if she were here, seeing it as she would. Walking through the door to find her husband sitting frozen on their bed with a hastily packed suitcase. Of course she would think he was leaving her. So often she had asked him the question, usually after their lovemaking, when they were wrapped in each other, glistening from each other, “You’ll never leave me, will you?,” and he would smile and reassure her, amused and astonished that this question could still be asked after all their time together, the infinite doubts in this woman’s mind.
She would stand in the doorway, cradling a bag of bread, her mouth slightly open, framing itself in a question, waiting for voice and breath to complete the process. Her face with that lost look it could take on, like that of a child when it encounters something utterly beyond its experience, when it eats a fistful of sand or crashes into a pane of glass, that momentary suspension before the weeping begins in earnest.
Grigory would approach her, place his hands on her cheeks, and kiss her, leaning in over the shopping.
“There’s been an accident. A plant in the Ukraine. I have to leave in a couple of minutes.”
“How long will you be gone?”
“I don’t know. A few days. No more than a week.”
He would underestimate their time apart, attemping reassurance, but his voice would give him away, a vulnerabilty that only she could detect.
“It’s serious?”
“Yes. But I’ll be careful.”
She would step back and immerse herself in practicalities. She would instantly think through the clothes he would need and issue instructions for him to pick specific things out from the wardrobe and drawers as she grabbed toiletries from the bathroom shelves, towels from the airing cupboard. She’d lay them on the bed, folded and arranged, and he’d pack them with care.
A knock comes to the door.
He looks up, walks over. The driver stands there.
“Dr. Brovkin?”
“Yes. I’m just finishing up. I’ll meet you out front.”
“You must hurry. We can’t be late for the flight. I would be in great trouble.”
“I understand. Just let me pick up a final few things.”
The driver walks down the stairs, looking back to check that Grigory understands the urgency.
He walks into his bedroom, opening drawers, grabbing bundles of clothes and stuffing them into his case. Who cares what he brings? No one will notice if the surgeon is wearing a shirt that clashes with his jacket. He grabs his keys from the kitchen counter and walks into the stairwell, places a hand on the doorknob and looks over his apartment. His furniture. His pictures. He turns the key in the lock and walks down the stairs, and on the first landing he stops and knocks on the caretaker’s door. No answer. He’ll have Raisa give him a call, ask him to send on any post.
He hands his case to the driver, turns to his vacant window, and realizes that he won’t spend another night in that home. He’ll sell the furniture, get a different place. The past has extracted its price. Whoever he was in those rooms, he won’t be again.
At the airport, there are suitcases being loaded onto trolleys, some carpet bags. There are men standing, holding briefcases, looking for a connection, a familiar face. Grigory thinks he should have brought something to eat. He gets edgy, irritable, when he doesn’t eat. This is not something he recognized in himself as a single man; another characteristic that emerged from his time with her. An attendant asks people their names, ticking off a list on a clipboard. Grigory scans the area, just as the others are doing. He doesn’t see Vasily in the gathering. A man in a double-breasted grey suit approaches, offering his hand. Grigory shakes it.
“Dr. Brovkin, thank you for coming.”
Of course. It’s Vygovskiy, from the baths, the chief advisor to the Ministry of Fuel and Energy—Grigory can connect everything now. Zhykhov must be delighted to be close to the centre of such attention.
“I know very little of what’s happening. Comrade Zhykhov read the communiqué at our departmental meeting.”
“He speaks highly of you.”
“So it seems.”
“You’re wondering what you’re doing here.”
“I’m here to help, comrade. Whatever you wish me to do. However I can be of service.”
“I have been appointed as chairman of the advisory commission. I have overall responsibility for the cleanup operation.”
“A daunting task.”
“Yes. But one in which I will be successful. We will all be successful. This is a tragedy, no doubt, but we have all dealt with tragedies.”
“And Comrade Zhykhov suggested I may be useful.”
“No, actually. I requested for you to come.”
“You’re placing a lot of weight on one brief meeting.”
“Dima is a good judge of talent. He didn’t get to where he is without surrounding himself with people of great ability. And it’s not just one brief meeting. I said my wife speaks highly of you, of your calmness under pressure. That’s an instinct that never leaves. Look around this room, Grigory Ivanovich. I know only a few of these men. For most of them, I can’t guarantee how they will respond under pressure. I know you have talent, have calm. Most importantly, I know you have integrity. You are not someone who merely carries out instructions, you’ll bring a critical mind to the situation. I need people like you, Doctor.”
“I hope my opinion will be reliable.”
“It will. I have no doubt.”
They shake hands again. Vygovskiy looks him in the eye.
“We are the ones who must close the stable door.”
The aircraft is a troop carrier, all these suited men sitting in the slate-grey hulk of the plane. All of them thinking they could do with a drink. There is no insulation from the noise of the engine so they have to speak loudly to carry on a conversation.
Grigory boards with Vasily. There are no windows, just sloping walls. They could as easily be in an underground bunker.
When they settle, Vasily says, “You know what’s most surprising about this whole thing. That they’ve had nuclear power for this long without fucking it up.”
It was true. The same thought had struck Grigory. Any safety protocol he had tried to put in place in the hospital was always received as an implicit criticism of his predecessors. It had taken all his will and guile to set up a checklist of steps to make sure that standards of hygiene were up to scratch. Even three years previously, before the push for glasnost, such actions would have called into question his loyalty to the Party. If this was true for hospitals, why would a nuclear power plant be
any different? They need to take a hose to the whole Union, wash out everything that came before. Fire those in power. Promote talent. Listen to ideas. They need to do these things but never will. The system could never allow it.
In Kiev, they’re met by every Ukrainian who has ever stamped a document. A long cavalcade of black governmental cars drapes itself outside the terminal, drivers standing to attention beside opened doors, indistinguishable from each other, same uniform, same stance, hands folded together in front, lined up along the stretch of concrete like an infinite mirror.
In the car Vasily chews on the arm of his glasses, a nervous habit that has resulted in the frames becoming puckered with toothmarks over time. A fact that is in keeping with his ragged appearance: hair receding, collar hanging limp, a button missing halfway down his shirt. Vasily has always been like this, the sharpest brain in the room with the most crumpled suit.
Grigory sits and watches the landscape. Just distance out there. Unsorted thoughts, dim images running through him. Distance and sky and land. A horizon of no distinction.
It’s early evening when the cavalcade reaches Pripyat—the feeder town to the power plant—snaking along the road like a funeral cortege, exuding gloom. There’s nothing more serious than a procession of governmental cars, the vehicles seem coated with a patina of menace. They crest a small hill and can see the power plant in the distance. Grigory and Vasily press their faces to the glass, trying to get a decent view. A host of mottled colours still hangs over the plant, warping all perspective, so that the scene looks concave, the sky somehow curving around the facility, like a painted bowl. The smoke stretches in a clearly defined column, fusing itself with the upper reaches of the sky. This is a sight that commands respect, Grigory thinks, a hushed awe.
The town is still going about its business. Grigory and Vasily cannot believe this. They pass a school playground where a football game is in full flow, men gesturing to each other with stiffened limbs, mouths opened wide, issuing mute shouts. Kids are still on the streets. Boys stop their bicycles on the roadside and enact strongman poses for the visitors, pushing their elbows wide, curling their fists towards their bodies. The braver ones cycle alongside, standing on the pedals but taking care to keep an appropriate distance.
A girl in purple trousers stands in an alcove, eating a chocolate bar. She can be no more than six or seven, a thin chocolate moustache running along the contours of her upper lip.
“All these children still on the streets. They need immediate iodine prophylaxis. Why has no one seen to this?”
“Because no one sees to anything, Grigory. We’ll have to clean this up with our own bare hands.”
There are no more words. Grigory thinks of Oppenheimer, tinkering with the atom in the deserts of New Mexico during the time of the Great Patriotic War: I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds.
At Party headquarters, the room is large, but the delegation fills it. The groups are obviously more comfortable in this setting, speaking in clusters, renewing acquaintances, all of it so casual, suits at a conference. Grigory had expected that here, at least, under the shadow of this tragedy, the room would be filled with urgency. But it’s all the same: backslapping, clasped handshakes, introductions according to who attended what party, where one’s dacha is located, their children’s choice of university. Grigory hasn’t had many professional arguments in his life, something he supposes has to do with his quiet bearing. But he can feel anger rising up his neck, pinpricks on his skin.
Some pretty blond girls emerge from a back room carrying plates of food and glasses of vodka. Grigory grabs the nearest one by the elbow.
“Where did this come from?”
“Excuse me, comrade?”
“The food. Where did it come from?”
“The kitchen prepared it.”
“Did they? Where is your supervisor?”
She points to a balding man with a thin moustache standing at the back of the room, arms folded. Grigory drags the girl over, causing the conversation in the room to come to a staggered halt, a few lingering words in the silenced chatter.
Grigory snatches the tray of sandwiches from the girl’s hand and thrusts it in the man’s face.
“Where did you get this food?”
The supervisor is unnerved. He’s a man who goes about his life unseen, as innocuous as the tablecloths. A conversation like this is outside the narrow confines of his professional experience.
“Our kitchen staff prepared it.”
“And where did they get it?”
“That, comrade, is none of your concern. If you don’t like it, don’t eat it.”
Grigory releases his grip, and the tray drops horizontally to the floor, the neat triangles of bread bouncing upwards in shock, the clang of metal ringing around the room. He grabs the back of a nearby chair and turns it around to face him, then stands on it and addresses the gathering.
“For the rest of your time here, do not eat or drink anything unless it has been approved for consumption. Only prepackaged items are safe to eat.”
The officials try to rid themselves of their sandwiches as subtly as they can, placing them on windowsills or on the catering table; some, to avoid embarrassment, stuffing them in their pockets—any strategy they can think of to avoid the tainted items coming in contact with their skin.
Anxious faces look Grigory’s way, unsure if he is exaggerating. He faces them with a cold glare. Surely he can’t be the only one present with enough expertise to understand the implications of what they are faced with.
A plant manager takes to the stage and outlines the events leading up to the accident, careful to phrase his remarks in such a way as to emphasize his own professionalism in responding to the event.
After the presentation, Vygovskiy approaches Grigory, motioning him towards two plastic chairs under a tall window.
“Thank you, comrade. I’m angry too. Everyone in this room should be angry.”
“I think they’ve forgotten how.”
Vygovskiy leans in towards Grigory. They speak shoulder to shoulder, looking like two old men on a park bench talking about the weather.
“I see this man on the stage and I feel guilt lying on me in layers. Three Mile Island—you know of this plant?”
“No,” Grigory says.
“It’s a power station in America. They had an accident. Seven years ago, this was. Not a catastrophe, but a big problem, a serious incident. The Americans learned from it, though. After the accident they put in place a safety system, one that would anticipate problems instead of just fixing things when they were already broken. I read of these changes, I studied their developments. I said to myself we need to do something like that here. I brought my proposals to the committee, but before I could present them formally, there were conversations in corridors, I was pulled into doorways. There was much talk about me, they said. They might decide to downgrade me, they said. Not outright threats—you know the way—just talk. So I did the smart thing, I withdrew my recommendations. I reworded my critique. I did as the entire nation has done. I stayed silent. I backed away. Because I did this, they made me chief advisor to the ministry.”
“We are all guilty, comrade.”
“When I was put in a position of power, I could have dusted off my proposal again. I could have said, ‘Here’s an idea I’d forgotten about.’ But I didn’t. The only thing we’ve learned from the past is how not to do it. I don’t want people who’ll keep their mouth shut.”
Vygovskiy leans closer, pats Grigory on the neck.
“I want you to take charge of the medical operations. This has been a shameful day for the Union. We will make this right.”
Vygovskiy stands and is immediately surrounded by a circle of questions. He exits the room and the whole group follows, streaming into their separate offices.
AND SO THE paperwork begins, the assorting and allotting, the segmentation into regions, the color coding, the mountains of paperwork that spread exponentially from thi
s point. They use the Party offices as an administrative headquarters and hang maps all over the walls, charting the affected regions, the anticipated radiation levels according to weather reports and probability analysis. Population estimates run vertically beside maps in various scales. They colour-code areas, they speculate upon water-table contamination and agricultural implications. They devise outrageous long-term solutions and then abandon these, or put them to the side, to be picked up at a later stage for reassessment. There are no definable models for this, no guidelines. There are only predictions and scant facts.
They call for serious military support and medical equipment. They discuss evacuation. Grigory agrees to remain patient until the proper transport can be arranged, so he appoints an evacuation committee to form a strategy and gives them strict deadlines. He orders iodine tablets to be dispensed amongst the population and is informed they have only one box. Grigory asks how many pills the box contains and the official replies casually that there are approximately one hundred. Grigory feels an urge to strike the man. One box, in a town of sixty thousand, a town located next to, built for, a nuclear power plant. Grigory says, “I’m sure you looked after yourself, though,” and the man remains silent.
He drives to the plant with Vygovskiy and Vasily. They want to see it for themselves. Firemen are still working on the roof, dead on their feet, wild-eyed with exhaustion. Vygovskiy orders them to cease their work. Now that the blaze has been dampened, their continuing to flood the reactor with water is counterproductive, resulting in nothing more than an increase in the level of water vapour, which floods into the other buildings.
Rubber facemasks have been delivered, and Grigory orders everyone to wear them. They put them on and all traces of personality are erased; everyone now moves and walks with a sinister sameness, an inhuman mien. Hair becomes important for identification purposes. Vygovskiy recognizes people by remembering their hair: blond or black, crew-cut or curly. Voices filter through the masks as if disembodied.
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