by C. L. Wilson
“It sounds like a quintet.”
“Aiyah, only they do not defend a single shei’dalin. They protect the Fading Lands.”
“From what?”
Rain gave a short laugh. “For the last thousand years? From me. Or so it always seems,” he added when she frowned in concern and Marissya gave him a chiding look. “We do not often see eye to eye. If not for Marissya, we would have been at one another’s throats on more than one occasion.”
Ellysetta glanced at Dax’s mate. “Marissya serves on the Massan council too?”
“She is not just a shei’dalin,” Dax said. “She is the Shei’dalin, the leader of all Truthspeakers and healers of the Fey.” When Ellysetta still looked confused, he explained. “In the Fading Lands, all authority ultimately rests with the Defender of the Fey. But the Shei’dalin”—he indicated his mate, Marissya, with a wave of the speared vegetable—“and the Massan assist in the administration of the Fading Lands and oversee all tasks of governance that do not require the Tairen Soul’s attention.”
“What does it mean that they’re meeting without Rain and Marissya?”
“It means there is trouble brewing in Dharsa,” Rain said bluntly.
“I’m sure it’s nothing,” Marissya said at the same time. Ellysetta looked between the two of them. “So which is it: trouble or nothing?”
Rain sighed. “I may have been the Feyreisen for the last thousand years, but Marissya and the Massan have been the ones leading the country since the Wars. First because of my madness, and then because I devoted all my attention to completing my Cha Baruk. The chatok thought the discipline of the training would help me to rebuild and strengthen my internal barriers and keep my madness in check. They were right, but the training didn’t leave me much time to be the king of the Fey.”
“You think some of the Massan grew too accustomed to wielding the power of the Tairen Throne themselves.” Ellysetta pressed a hand against her stomach. Having only just left the political turmoil of Celieria, she’d been hoping to find a measure of peace in the Fading Lands. A fool’s hope, perhaps, given that war was imminent and the tairen were dying, but still…
“Nei, Rain, do not alarm the Feyreisa,” Marissya said, frowning at him. “You know it’s nothing like that. Hunger for political power is a mortal affliction. The Fey have no such desires.”
“The tairen do not hunger for political power either, Marissya, but that does not stop the members of the pride from issuing Challenge if they think the makai leading them is weak. The strongest leads; the rest follow. That is the law of the pride.” There was a grim set to his jaw, and when Ellysetta feathered a hand across his, an unsettling mix of emotions roiled through her senses: tension, anger, and something that felt strangely like…shame.
Rain pulled his hand away to reach for his wineglass. “The lords of the Massan are honorable Fey whose sole interest is the protection and welfare of the Fading Lands,” Marissya insisted. “They would never betray the Feyreisen.”
“Marissya, the lords of the Massan are warriors, first and foremost. I do not doubt their honor, but there’s not a Fey warrior born who is not tairen enough to issue Challenge if he believes the situation warrants it.”
“A meeting is not a Challenge, Rain, and I’m certain the Massan would not even have done that much unless something had them deeply concerned.”
Dax leaned forward, arching a brow. “Something like—oh, I don’t know—your dahl’reisen brother, the Dark Lord, passing through the Mists, perhaps?”
“Former dahl’reisen.” Marissya sniffed. “And sarcasm does not become you, shei’tan.” Then she grimaced and admitted to Rain, “But Dax is right. That is why I think they met. And that’s why I think Gaelen and Bel should start for Dharsa first thing tomorrow. Once the Massan meet Gaelen face-to-face they will realize there is nothing to fear.”
Dax bent towards Rain to mutter, “Nothing to fear, but plenty not to like.”
Marissya glared at her truemate. “Dax!”
Despite the seriousness of the conversation, Rain smothered a laugh, but his expression flashed quickly to sobriety when Marissya turned her glare on him. He cleared his throat, tossed back the rest of his wine, and said, “Your idea is a good one, but I don’t want Gaelen confronting the Massan without us. The four of us will leave for Fey’Bahren at first light tomorrow. Have Bel, Gaelen, and the returning warriors meet us by the Sentinels outside of Dharsa in four days. That should give us enough time to reach Fey’Bahren, let Ellysetta spin her healing weave on the kits, and then fly to Dharsa.”
“Dax and I had planned to leave for Elvia after assisting Ellysetta at Fey’Bahren.”
Rain twisted the empty wine goblet in his hand and shook his head. “There’s no sense in negotiating with Elves before sorting out the Massan. Hawksheart will sense the disunity among us and hesitate to commit the troops we need. We’ll see to the tairen first, then the Massan, and then Elvia.”
After the meal, two dozen Fey took up flutes and stringed lutars to fill the night with music. And Ellysetta discovered that the warriors of the Fey sang as masterfully as they wove magic and wielded steel. The haunting beauty of their voices rose in soaring, crystalline swells interwoven with multiple complex harmonies, and made her want to laugh and weep all at once.
Following a rousing rendition of “Ten Thousand Swords,” which the entire gathering of warriors joined in singing, the Fey made their way by the score to the front of the room. There, one after another, they approached the head table to greet Ellysetta and Rain, offer well wishes for the speedy completion of their truemate bond, and kneel before Marissya and the other shei’dalins to receive their blessings.
Ellysetta noted a large group of warriors at the back of the hall—Tajik vel Sibboreh among them—who did not join the others in approaching the front table where the women sat. The aura of somberness about them caught Ellysetta’s attention and would not let go. They sang with the other Fey, but their smiles were not so frequent, and their laughter was quietly subdued.
“Rain, who are those warriors?”
Rain followed her gaze. “Those are the rasa. They are as Bel was before you made his heart weep again.”
Ellysetta’s heart contracted. She remembered how Bel had been when she’d first met him: his eyes full of shadows and pain, the careful way he had avoided meeting her gaze for more than a few brief moments at a time, the sorrow that hung about him like a shroud.
“Why are they not coming forward to receive a shei’dalin blessing?”
“They have seen too many battles and carry the weight of too many souls upon theirs. The shei’dalins cannot lay hands upon them without sharing their pain, so our women do not touch them except to heal mortal wounds.”
“That isn’t fair,” Ellysetta muttered, frowning at the solitary warriors.
“Little in life ever is, shei’tani,” Rain replied. “But it is the Fey way, and all Fey warriors accept that life is a dance of duty, honor, and sacrifice.”
It was the one aspect of Fey culture that her heart railed against. Those men, those warriors, had sacrificed so much for their country, and ultimately, if they could not find their own truemates, they would have to choose sheisan’dahlein, the honor death, or they would slip down the Dark Path and become dahl’reisen, banished forever from the beauty of the Fading Lands. There wasn’t even any guarantee a truemate existed for them—only the hope that if a Fey were honorable enough, worthy enough, the gods would eventually create and set in his path the one woman whose soul could call his own. But most Fey died before ever seeing that dream come to fruition.
Her fingers tightened, the nails digging into her palms. Ever since she’d been small, the call to heal those in pain had been a powerful urge. Those Fey were hurting. She could feel their pain pricking her senses like small, sharp knives.
Ellysetta pushed her chair away from the table and stood. “Shei’tani?” Rain rose to his feet as well, a frown furrowing his brow.
“I
’m going to talk to them.”
His hand caught her wrist. “Just talk?”
He was coming to know her a little too well. She wasn’t sure that was a good thing. “Perhaps offer them a shei’dalin’s blessing,” she admitted.
“Nei, you must not touch them,” he commanded. When she set her jaw, he explained on a low throb of Spirit, «Though you mean well, your offer would shame them. You would force them to hurt you by refusing your gift, or hurt you by causing you pain with their touch. Either way, their hearts would bleed with remorse.»
Scowling, Ellysetta sat back down. She knew that if she went over to the rasa, she wouldn’t be able to stop herself from trying to heal them. Earlier, the music and the joyful celebration had masked their pain, but now the rasa’s torment—and her own urge to lessen it—beat at her.
“Beylah vo, shei’tani,” Rain murmured.
“Don’t thank me for letting them suffer.”
He laid his hand over hers. “That is not why I thanked you.”
Many bells after the last song was sung and the last warrior sought his bed, Ellysetta lay beside Rain, staring up at the ceiling overhead, unable to sleep. She was tired beyond measure, but she could not stop thinking about those Fey, the rasa. She hated the thought of their living here in semiexile without so much as the comfort of an embrace or a loving hand touching theirs to wish them gods’ mercy and a safe return when they headed into battle.
No man, not even a Fey warrior trained to fight since birth, should have to watch other Fey receive the shei’dalin blessings and warmth he was denied.
She rose from the bed, pulled on a robe, and cast a glance over her shoulder. Rain was sleeping. The long journey from Celieria City, the magic he’d spun to help restore Teleon to its former glory, and the exhaustion of today’s trials in the Mists had finally taken their toll. He hadn’t stirred.
If she wanted to do this, now was the time.
She started for the door, then froze when he shifted on the bed. He would not be happy if he woke to find her gone.
He would be even less happy when he found out what she’d done.
Ellysetta stood there, wavering, but soon, the throb of the warriors’ pain began beating at her again. She drew her robe more snugly about her and tightened the sash. Tomorrow she and Rain would fly to Fey’Bahren in the hope that she could save the tairen. Neither of them knew if she really could.
But healing souls was something she already knew she could do. She still didn’t understand how she did it, but she could. And Ellysetta was not the kind of woman who could ever stand by and witness the suffering of another without offering aid. The rasa were in pain. She was going to heal them.
With careful silence, Ellysetta opened the bedchamber door and slipped through.
Downstairs, Chatok’s main hall was now carpeted with the bodies of sleeping Fey. Ellysetta tiptoed through their midst, navigating the maze of booted feet and tousled heads, her robes hiked up so the trailing cloth would not brush against the sleeping warriors and wake them. A few stirred as she passed, but most continued to sleep soundly.
She started down the corridor that led to the bailey. Halfway to the massive doors guarding the keep, a strange whisper of awareness brushed across her senses. She was not alone. She stopped and turned to look down the long, shadowy corridor, illuminated by the flickering glow of candlelit sconces burning dimly every tairen length. She couldn’t see anyone, not even with the added help of Fey vision.
But she could feel them. Both of them. “Gaelen, Bel, I know you’re there. Show yourselves.”
A moment later, a lavender glow lit the darkness, and her two bloodsworn champions shimmered into sight.
“How did you detect us?” Gaelen asked. “It was vel Jelani, wasn’t it? His weave wasn’t tight enough.”
Bel stiffened, his cobalt eyes narrowing. “I spun my weave exactly as you showed me,” he objected. “If any imperfection existed—which I doubt—the fault lies in your instruction, not my execution.”
“It wasn’t the weave,” Ellysetta said. “And how did you manage to hide yourselves even from Fey eyes? That was what you did, wasn’t it?”
Gaelen shrugged. “A little trick the dahl’reisen have learned over the years. Many Eld weave Spirit too, so we’ve had to learn to mask the signature of our magic even from those to whom the flows would normally be visible.”
“A useful talent.”
The corner of his mouth curved up. “Most useful,” he agreed. “It’s saved my life on at least half a dozen occasions.”
Ellysetta immediately thought of the men who would be leaving the Fading Lands in the morning, the ones heading north to defend the borders against the Eld. “Is this something you could teach the other warriors—the ones who are leaving for Celieria?”
“I could teach the strongest Spirit masters among them, aiyah, if there were time,” Gaelen said. “And if they were willing to learn from one who was once dahl’reisen.”
“How much time would you need?”
“I taught vel Jelani in just a few bells, but he was very skilled to begin with.” Bel looked surprised by the compliment, then quite pleased. “The others might require more practice.”
“I doubt delaying their departure a day or two will do much harm on the borders, but it seems to me that having Fey warriors trained to hide their presence even from the eyes of a Mage could save many lives.”
“There is still the matter of Fey pride,” Gaelen reminded her. “I was dahl’reisen. Even though you restored my soul, my honor remains tainted. A chatok should be above reproach.”
“Gaelen, you have knowledge and skills the Fey need. Kieran, Kiel, and Bel were willing to learn from you. Why should the rest of the Fey be any different?”
“They served as your quintet, kem’falla. Their loyalty was to you. But if you recall, even they would not accept instruction from me until you ordered them to do so.”
Bel interrupted, his cobalt gazed fixed upon Ellysetta. “At the moment, I am more interested in knowing what you are doing wandering the halls of Chatok alone in the small bells of the night. Where is Rain?”
Ellie blushed. This was not the first time Bel had caught her sneaking out of her bedchamber at night. “I couldn’t sleep.” Despite her best effort, she couldn’t keep the defensiveness out of her voice. “You know I’ve always liked to walk in the night when I’m restless. And you told me yourself it would be safe to do so in the Fading Lands.”
“It’s not the walking that concerns me this time, kem’falla. It’s the destination.”
She bit her lip. Rain wasn’t the only one getting to know her too well. “You will not stop me. I have to do this.”
“Ellysetta, did Rain not already forbid you to touch the rasa?”
“He warned me they would feel shame if they hurt me; but, Bel, you were rasa, and I healed you without a twinge of pain.”
“The glamour that hid your abilities must also have buffered your empathic senses. And you had built hundreds of Spirit weaves on top of that, which provided further protection. But both that barrier and those Spirit weaves are gone now. You will feel the warriors’ pain almost as strongly as you felt Gaelen’s when you laid hands upon him. We cannot let you do this.”
“You’re assuming that without any proof that it’s true.”
“I was there the night you restored Gaelen’s soul,” he reminded her. “I saw what happened to you, and I remember the way you could hear everyone’s thoughts and feel their emotions so strongly after Marissya unraveled your Spirit weaves.”
She crossed her arms. “I’m going to do this, Bel. With or without your approval. I need to do this.”
“You’re asking me—us,” he corrected with a quick glance at Gaelen, “to betray our bloodsworn oaths to protect you from all harm. Tell her, Gaelen. We cannot let her do this.”
For a moment, Gaelen said nothing. He merely stood with catlike stillness and regarded her from pale, glowing eyes, his face expressionles
s. “She is the Feyreisa,” he said at last. “And we are the warriors bound by lute’asheiva to serve and protect her in every way we can. We do not command her, vel Jelani. We are hers to command. If she says she must do this thing, then we must help her do it.”
“Don’t be a fool!” Bel exclaimed. “If she wanted to jump to her death, would you have us give her a shove? Simply touching them will hurt her! You know that.”
Ellysetta caught his hand, and Bel went still. His dark brows were drawn tight, his cobalt eyes glowing like blue flames in the dark. “I’m a shei’dalin, Bel. Whether you like it or not, pain has become an inescapable part of my life. You can’t protect me from that.”
“Ellysetta—”
“Shh.” She reached up to take his face in her hands. “You are my friend. I couldn’t love you more if you were my own brother. But I need to do this. Don’t you see? It hurts me more to feel their pain and do nothing. I know I can heal them. It’s the one thing I know I can do.”
“But—”
“Teska. Please.”
His eyes closed in defeat, and he gave a reluctant nod.
“Doreh shabeila de. If this is your choice, I will stand beside you.”
“Beylah vo, Bel.”
“You want to do what?” Tajik vel Sibboreh looked aghast. He speared Bel with a glance. “And you aid her? It is madness! Not even Marissya can touch the rasa without pain.”
“She is not Marissya,” Bel said. “The Feyreisa’s abilities go so far beyond what we expect from a shei’dalin—even from one as powerful as Marissya—there is no comparison. And I aid her because I am her lu’tan, her bloodsworn champion, and she says she must do this.”
“Nei, it is out of the question. Honor is all the rasa have left. You cannot take that from them.” The general had changed back into his leathers and steel for night watch on the wall. His arms were crossed over his chest, his fingers close to the silk-wrapped hilts of his Fey’cha.