by Anna Lewis
“Then… wh… what are you talking about?” Of course Talia already knew, but she wasn’t ready to accept it yet.
“I want you,” he said confidently. “And you want me. I think that we should explore that. Do you agree?”
Talia’s mind swirled with everything that was wrong with this scenario, but all she could really settle on was the one thing that seemed right… she wanted him, she needed him, her body was aching for him and she didn’t know how much longer she could hold back from that for.
I could die tomorrow, she thought to herself, trying to justify what she already knew that she was going to do. I should do this now, while I still can.
“Yes,” she answered in a small voice. “Yes, I want you too.”
***
As soon as she’d agreed, everything kicked up a notch. Much as she couldn’t believe that she’d just agreed to have sex with the alien that could threaten absolutely everything, she also couldn’t resist him at all. There was just something really intense about him, something that exhilarated her, and there was nothing in the world that would hold her back.
Wade pulled her in for a kiss, and as he did he continued to shift his shape in a weird way that wasn’t at all unusual – in fact it made her feel even needier for him. She wasn’t exactly sure what it was she was feeling – passion, or an intense romance, but whatever it was it felt absolutely amazing.
“Oh wow Wade,” Talia panted against his lips, her entire being buzzing with lust. “You’re incredible!”
A part of her mind was very aware that she was acting totally insane, but she didn’t even care anymore. Any rational side to her completely disappeared as her body took over instead. Her body craved this guy like crazy, and it was acting whether she wanted it to or not… and she really did want it to.
An involuntary moan escaped her lips as she felt his erection pressing against her leg. He felt very different to B – not better or worse, just different – and that had her feeling hotter than ever before. She absolutely had to have him right now… and nothing was going to stop her. She’d overstepped the boundary now, and she wanted to take that one step further, to go the whole way.
“Are you okay?” Wade asked her, panting against her lips, desperate for her. “Are you sure about this?”
She nodded quickly, running her hands over his unusual, very new body, loving every curve of it. It was somewhere between that of human and Ec’dua and that was surprisingly sexy to her. She liked the fact that it was something different, something new to her, and she couldn’t keep her hands off.
“I’m fine,” she whispered seductively. “I really want this.” She knew what she wanted, and she was certain that he knew it too and that he was just trying to be gentlemanly about it – but she didn’t need kind and caring, she needed to be taken, to be claimed, and she couldn’t wait for that to happen.
He held out his hand to her, wanting to lead her into the bedroom, and she took his hand happily to follow closely behind him. All the while she wasn’t even thinking, her entire being was simply swimming with desire. She hadn't felt so turned on since her first time with B, and that made her feel like maybe this was a good idea. Things had been amazing when she was with B, and she couldn’t wait to get that same rush again.
Wade lay her back onto the cool sheets of the bed, taking a moment to let his eyes roam all over her body in a way that made her feel incredibly sexy. He desired her so much, and that was obvious in his eyes. She had never really considered herself a sexy woman before. She had a full figure; big, heavy breasts, fairly thick waist and a large bottom. She’d always thought she was just another typical plus-sized brunette, but under Wade’s gaze, she felt like a goddess.
He then climbed over her and began raining kisses all over her neck, increasing the special feelings coursing through her body. Talia tossed her head back in ecstasy and squirmed beneath him as he took her for his own. He caused prickles of desire to race right down to her core, and she felt excited to have him explore that. In that moment, nothing could have convinced her that this wasn’t right, because it felt so damn amazing. She didn’t think that she could stop right now, even if the entire world walked in on them. She figured she would probably carry on, allowing them all to watch, even B – a passing thought that quickly transcended into a fantasy for her. She had never thought about being watched before, but as Wade kissed her, she was picturing the room filled with random strangers.
He slid her oversized t-shirt – the only thing that she was wearing – up over her head, and his mouth travelled down her body, until he eventually found her soft, full breasts. He quickly tugged her bra from her body and began to play with her nipples, alternating between his fingers and tongue in a way that made her ecstatic. She was left gasping, panting for breath, and the more that his hands caressed her body, the better she felt. Wade grew limbs, feeling every part of her with them, and she never wanted him to stop.
“You drive me crazy,” she panted, as she started to lose control of her thoughts. She didn’t even know what to think anymore. Her body was feeling too many things at once, making her feel like she might have been having an out of body experience – it was almost too intense to handle.
Almost.
Eventually Wade moved back over Talia, and a set of his fingers trailed down her body until they reached the outline of her panties, by now slightly moist. He could already feel that she was aching for him, pulsating for him. She desperately wanted him to take her panties off and explore her hot, wet desire… but he wasn’t going to. Not just yet. He wanted to see just how far he could push her first. He was fascinated by the human body – particularly Talia’s – and he wanted to know how different it was to what he was used to.
As her breaths started to come out intense and ragged, Wade leant closer and started kissing her cheeks.
“Talia,” he whispered, in a slightly odd sounding voice. “Talia.”
The way her name fell off his lips sparked a weird connection between them. She liked hearing it way too much, and she knew that could spell trouble. She already had a similar bond with B, so this was some form of dangerous betrayal. But she just couldn’t seem to stop it. She needed him like crazy. The desire to have him inside her, to have him as part of her, was overpowering.
Sensing that intense desire, he yanked her underwear quickly from her body, and slid a finger deeply beyond her slick, sensitive folds, causing her to yell out in bliss. He was cautious, careful, which wasn’t what she needed, but she wasn’t quite sure how to express that.
“More,” she said. “I need more, please.”
He liked that she was being commanding, he liked being bossed around by her, it made him crazier for her which was something that he hadn't thought possible until now.
He slid in another finger, and another, but that still wasn’t enough, so she grabbed hold of him and pulled him into her, kissing him passionately as she did. As she clung to him, crying out in pleasure, he pulled back to slide his full length into her, experimenting with the size, shifting its shape until it fit perfectly.
“Oh wow!” she yelled excitedly, as she finally got what she wanted. This was enough to encouraging him further, and soon he was thrusting hard and fast against her soft, inviting body. She couldn’t even catch her breath long enough to pant or gasp, never mind speak. He was taking her totally, and that made her feel wonderful. Their bond strengthened and became deeper. As it did, Talia found herself feeling something that she could so easily, and dangerously, misinterpret as love.
A hot pool of pleasure started to build in her lower regions, and she gripped the sheets tightly beneath her, needing something to hold on to as she forgot about everything else. No longer could she consider her feelings, or the fact that she was not being faithful to B, or that they were on enemy sides, or different species. None of that mattered. Desire was pulsating wildly through her whole body, from head to toes, sending her crazy. The pressure was building, increasingly intensely, and she was reall
y losing herself within that.
She’d never had an experience quite like it, and she it to keep going forever.
Then, just as everything was about to come to a head, Wade turned her over, and entered her sopping, hungry sex from behind. Shocked by the sudden change and the depth with which he entered her, Talia went to a height of ecstasy she did not think was possible.
They came together. Waves of torturous pleasure shattered through her body, leaving her shuddering and buckling beneath Wade, scrunching tightly onto the pillow with her fingers. In that moment, all she wanted was him, and she didn’t think anything would be able to change that. Everything else simply melted away, everything that she’d been through before that moment. All she could think about was Wade and the incredible way that he was making her feeling. She was certain in that moment that he was the only one for her, and that she was head over heels in love with him. On top of that, she became increasingly convinced that he loved her too. She felt like fate had brought them together and that they were meant to be.
He helped her turn her over on the bed, and allowed her to snuggle into his arm. Her head fit there perfectly. She was totally content and did not want to move, only listen to Wade’s breathing and heartbeat. She didn’t feel like anything would be able to tear them apart now, no matter what happened.
***
“What the fuck is this?”
As B’s shocked and hurt voice crashed through her hearing like a brick through glass, Talia’s bliss subsided quickly, and a cold shame washed over her.
He was standing there, at the bedroom door, falling apart in front of her eyes. She felt sad, ashamed, and absolutely sick with guilt, and the more hurt his expression got, the worse that feeling became.
How could she have done this? What the hell had she been thinking? She’d acted selfishly, becoming so wrapped up in Wade that she had allowed everything else to subside, and now she felt horrible for that. Looking at B, she couldn’t believe that she’d even slightly allowed herself to forget about him… what the hell was her problem? They’d been through such a tender goodbye only a short time before, and then she’d turned around and screwed Wade. She’d always considered herself a good person before this, but now she felt like she was the worst person on Earth.
“Oh God,” she gasped, trying to wrap the covers around herself, trying to maintain at least a little bit of her dignity. “I’m sorry B, I don’t know what…”
“Don’t try to give me the whole ‘you don’t know what you were thinking’ spiel… you’ve been thinking about Wade in that way ever since he came here!”
She froze, remembering the mind reading abilities that the Ec’dua had, and a blush covered her body. All of her thoughts, her secret fantasies, both of these guys could read them all. How embarrassing! She wanted a hole to open up in the ground and swallow her up. She’d been imagining all kinds of things, blissfully unaware, and they had known it all the entire time.
“I… I…” she stammered, wishing that she could find the words to make it all right. How the hell had she managed to get herself into such a mess? Things were so much easier when she only had the war to focus on, and she just had herself to worry about! Damn that gang who caught her and locked her up! If only she’d managed to stay free, then none of this mess would have ever happened.
“There’s no excuse,” B snapped, sounding incredibly hurt. “I don’t even know what to say.”
Then he stormed from the bedroom to spend some time in the front room, alone with his intense, sad thoughts. He’d never been so shocked, so hurt, and he had no idea how to begin processing those emotions. How could Talia do this to him? He knew that Wade didn’t exactly see things in the way that he did, so he couldn’t exactly blame him when he didn’t think that he’d done anything wrong. It was Talia he blamed. A rage towards her filled his thoughts.
Maybe he should have stayed away from Talia in the first place. Maybe there was a reason that they were supposed to keep away from humans. Maybe he should have listened rather than being so damn naïve…
“What should we do?” Talia pleaded with Wade, tears forming like dewdrops in her eyes. She really hadn't wanted to hurt B, but she’d gotten too caught up in the moment to even think. Now she was suffering the consequences of that, and she couldn’t have hated herself more.
“He’ll be okay,” said Wade. He didn’t look as worried as she felt, but he felt less guilty than she did. From his point of view, Talia and B were not officially a couple, and B was overreacting. But from Talia’s point of view, she had cheated on B. Wade said, “You just need to give him time. He will come around, and everything will be fine in the end. You’ll see.”
Wade pulled her in for a hug, trying to comfort her, but his touch no longer made her feel safe and loved, it made her sad and ashamed of what she’d done. She couldn’t believe that she had ever acted in such a way. And now she didn’t know how to solve it. That was the worst thing at all, that she had no idea how to make it all right again. Wade had said to give B time, but how? How could she possibly ignore him at a time like this? No, as far as she was concerned, this was an unsolvable problem, and that was all there was to it.
Sensing that what she really needed was to be by herself, Wade left her alone and took a walk outside. There, she collapsed into sobs, regretting everything that she’d done so far.
She thought about the way that she’d disconnected herself from other people when the war first started, and how she shouldn’t have done that. She recalled coming face to face with the gang that kidnapped her, and figured a dozen different ways that she could have handled that better, and then she went on to think about the way that she’d met B, and she realized that she shouldn’t have allowed herself to get sucked in by the connection between them. No matter how sensitive or caring he seemed, he had been her captor, after all, and was using her DNA to try to defeat her side, the human race. That was when she should have kept her distance – she got it totally the wrong way around.
Then she thought about Wade, and how she should have created a barrier between her and him the second he stepped into the cottage. She didn’t regret letting him in, because he was on the side of the humans, but she did regret giving in to temptation.
She knew where she should have been – in one of the refugee camps with other humans – but she didn’t ever feel like she could. She didn’t know how to fit in with them and trust them, but again, she had no one to blame for that other than herself.
Her life had been filled with mistakes, from the very first moment that she was on her own, and she cried over every single one of them.
***
Things at the house became tense. No one was speaking to anyone, which was incredibly difficult in such a small environment. Every moment felt like a spike in Talia’s heart, and she desperately needed to find a way to fix it. The only problem was that she just didn’t know what she could say to make everything okay again. She just couldn’t find the right words.
Every time Wade shot her a smile, she turned away, shutting him out, which only broke her heart that little bit more. Every time B refused to meet her eyes, she felt another tear open up in her chest. Her entire body was crashing apart, and there wasn’t a damn thing that she could do about it.
All she wanted was for things to go back to normal, but she was acutely aware of how impossible that was. Too much had happened for that, there was too much water under the bridge. She had messed things up completely, and there was no coming back from that.
She started to think that maybe she would be better off leaving, and being on her own again. She could go back to the way she had been before, a loner, fighting the lonely fight, building up her strength and wondering if the war was ever going to come to an end while contributing her own small part in the fight against the alien invaders. Maybe that would be better for her. Maybe that was where she was supposed to be.
Maybe, because things were so much different now, she could go and find one of the famous hum
an colonies, and she could really join the fight. Wade had told her that things were turning around, and that the humans actually stood a chance, so maybe it was time for her to accept that. Maybe it was time to finally get involved.
If she could integrate herself with other humans again now, maybe things wouldn’t be so difficult when life returned to normal. Maybe she would find a way to connect with other people again, and it wouldn’t be too much of a shock to live among them normally. Now that it was clear she wasn’t going to die in a prison cell, it was time to begin really considering what she would do once all of this was done.
She didn’t really want to go anywhere – in fact even the idea of leaving B and Wade behind filled her with dread – but she didn’t think that she had any other options. All she wanted was for them to be happy, and they so clearly weren’t with her around. She’d been the one that made all of the mistakes, she was the one that had caused the tension. So it was only fair that she be the one to go.
She locked herself in the bedroom and tossed her head into her hands once more, allowing more tears to flow down her face. She was absolutely devastated, but it was all her own doing, and that was the most heartbreaking thing of all.
She lay down on the sheets, aware of B and Wade just outside that door, wishing that she could just go back out there and hug them both, but she couldn’t.
All she could do was lie down and cry, like the weak, pathetic girl that she had never allowed herself to be before. She hated this person that she’d become, she didn’t like this version one damn but, but she couldn’t see it changing. Not when she was here, stuck between these two men, feeling all of their hurt and pain.
Leaving was the only option that made any sense.