by Mallory Funk
What would it feel like to belong to a man like Trigger?
“Oh… okay he’s… hot, but completely out of my league, plus I’m on the run from my abusive fiancé and crazy mother. What kind of guy would want to take on that baggage?” I ask curiously but I make sure to keep my voice down.
They all look at me like I’m crazy. Maybe I am crazy, you know, since my mother is…
“Honey, you’re not serious are you?” Ella asks me with wide eyes like she can’t believe I just said that.
“Girl, have you looked in the mirror?” Stacey adds.
All I do is look down and shrug. I know what I look like. I have been told my entire life. I was lucky that Vince wanted someone like me.
“You have a rockin’ body. It was very well hidden the first day, but now that you’re actually wearing clothes that fit you it is quite apparent. Damn girl, I might think about switching teams,” Stacey says and winks at me when I blush.
“The only thing that I see stopping Trigger is Bear,” Olivia whispers but glances over at the guys. You can tell that they are trying to give us as much privacy as they can without listening to everything we are saying.
“W-why would my uncle get in the way?" I ask scared to hear the answer.
All the women look at each other before they burst into laughter.
“Honey, it wouldn’t just be your uncle to butt his nose in. Expect most of the club to,” Ella says with a smile on her face.
I nod like I get it but I really don’t. They must see the confusion in my eyes because they start explaining what happens when a family member is claimed.
They talk very quietly so that the guys don’t hear.
“Come on, hun. Trigger definitely has a thing for you. I mean he has barely taken his eyes off of you… and you! Don’t get me started on you! If you blush any harder, you’re going to look like a tomato!” Ella says, but the last part comes out a little loud and the guys glance at us again. I can’t help but smile shyly at Trigger.
“I wouldn’t know the first thing about being in a normal, functional relationship. I haven’t had normal family or friendships since we left here when my dad passed. Everything was about how we looked to everyone else, well, everyone that was rich so that my mom could land a rich husband although she could never keep them. She also made sure that I was only able to talk to the people who would further me in life and, well, that doesn’t really make it easy to get close to anyone. I don’t even know how to have a best friend. Sure, I can look and like all I want but, really, how could a woman like me who knows nothing about this life be with someone like him? I sure as hell know a lot about how to eat with proper etiquette and how to use my manners, ballroom dance, and dress like I’m going to a charity event every day, but I know absolutely nothing about being a biker. I even had to google how to dress! This whole outfit came off the internet. I couldn’t think of this on my own!” I say as I gesture to myself.
When I am finished, I am breathing heavily. I look at everyone and they are all smiling at me with wide eyes.
“Well it’s about fucking time she broke!” Stacey says, loudly causing everyone to laugh.
I feel my cheeks heat and use my hands to cover them.
“Sophie, I need to talk to you,” Trigger says as he walks out of the room and toward the hallway like he already knows that I’m going to follow him. Let’s face it, I really am.
I see him step into my room which means he wants privacy. Great, like I need to be alone with him after that little speech I just gave.
I reluctantly walk into my room and, as I do Trigger, is standing right in front of my bed. I can’t help but blush with him standing so close to it, and my mind is going places I can’t seem to stop from coming.
I stand awkwardly by the door. When it’s clear that I’m not going any further, Trigger walks up to me and pulls my arm slightly so that I’m in the room and he can shut the door. Next thing, I know he slowly backs me up until I’m against the door.
My breathing has increased and I can’t bring myself to look at his face. My heart is beating wildly in my chest.
He plants both of his hands on either side of me, caging me in, and I can feel my mouth getting dry. I try hard to keep my breathing even, but I’m failing miserably. His body is close to mine. I can feel the heat coming off him.
“Sophie, look at me,” he says in a soft voice that I have only heard him use with me.
When I look up at him, I can’t help but let out a small gasp. There’s an intensity in his eyes that I have never seen before. Well that’s a look that has never been directed at me; Vince for sure had never looked at me that way. I can’t help the shiver that runs through my body.
He searches my eyes for something before he starts to talk. “I don’t know how you can think you’re nothing special when you are the most fucking beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes on. I want you like I have never wanted anyone else in my life. At first, I thought I could stay away but I know now that I can’t. I don’t give a shit if you think you know nothing about relationships. I can already tell that you’re perfect for me. I will take on whoever tries to take you away from me, or if any brothers including your uncle try to get in my way. All you have to do is say ‘yes’.”
I can’t help the tears that well up in my eyes. No one has ever thought of me that way or wanted me so badly that no one and nothing would get in their way.
I can see in his eyes how honest he’s being. I have no reason to not believe him when he is showing me a side of himself that he never shows anyone.
I take a deep breath and give him the answer that I know he wants. “Yes.”
As soon as the words are out of my mouth, his lips come crashing down on mine and I can’t help but kiss him back with the same urgency and hunger that he’s showing me.
This kiss feels like something we both have been waiting forever for even though in reality it’s only been a few weeks.
It’s over sooner than I want it to be, but Trigger rests his forehead against mine and we are both breathing hard like we just ran a marathon.
“Fuck baby, you taste better than I thought you would,” he says in a low husky voice.
I can’t help the smile that comes to my face. I have no words that can express how that kiss made me feel.
“Fuck, I want to make you smile like that every fucking day,” he says before he pulls away.
“Come on babe, we should head out there. Finish your girls’ night and we will talk later,” he says, and I nod my head. I can still feel my lips tingling from his kiss. I can’t help but bring my hand up to touch them and smile shyly at him.
He chuckles as we head out of the room.
When everyone looks at us as we walk into the room, I can’t help but blush. I know that they know something happened. When Stacey winks at me and gives me a knowing look, I can’t help but look away. I’m not used to all this attention.
When I sit down, I look at the men sitting at the table where Trigger now is and see a look of longing on one guys’ face. When I turn my head to see where he’s looking, I see him staring at Krista. She glances back at him out of the corner of her eye, but I can see her put on a fake smile and talk with Olivia.
When I look at Stacey and Ella, they both shake their heads and shrug. It seems like they don’t know what’s going on either with those two, but I really want to find out.
When I look back at Krista, she’s staring at him now so I’m guessing he isn’t looking at her because she doesn’t seem like she wants to be caught.
I see a look of wanting something you can’t have in her eyes. I recognize that look as I have had it in my eyes for many years. I would look at other teenagers being normal with dating, partying, and basically having friends that they chose for themselves. I spent so long wishing for a life that I never had.
When she must feel like someone is watching her, she looks over at me and gives me the saddest smile I have ever seen. She shakes her head at me and looks ar
ound the room. I have a feeling that no one knows what’s going on with her and the biker, if there is anything going on at all.
I sit with the women for a few hours talking about anything and everything. They were really curious about me, but also told me plenty about their lives and how they came to the club.
To say I was shocked at some of their stories is an understatement, but I could tell not one of them regretted what they had been through and loved their men with everything they had. I can’t help but hope that it will turn out that way for me too.
Chapter Six
Trigger ‘Colton’
Bear shows up before everyone leaves, so I know that I can’t talk to Sophie until tomorrow.
I wanted a chance to be alone with her to talk about us before I talked to Bear. I want to make sure that we are on the same page.
I give him a nod when he walks into the room. Sasha takes a seat in the living room with the rest of the women. Bear grabs a beer from the fridge and sits down.
We all start bullshitting with each other since we know better than to talk about club business with all the women here.
The next thing I know, Crash and Pyro go out to pick up some beer since there’s pretty much an unofficial party happening right now.
It doesn’t take long for Damien, Torch, and Steal to join since their women are here. A few minutes later, Prez and Lily are here.
The house has become loud but, since Bear lives far enough from the city, we aren’t really bugging anyone.
At least I know that this party will be tame. Sometimes at the club when there is no Lily, Ella, and Stacey, there are brothers there getting pleasured by the club whores.
I haven’t felt the need to be with any one of them since Sophie walked into my life. She’s the only woman who I want to be with anymore.
I already know that I want her for the long haul. She’s a forever kind of girl and it feels like I finally found my other half.
It has been a long time since I had been with anyone for more than a few hours or a night. I spent so much time with meaningless fucks that I didn’t care who I was with.
I was in a serious relationship once, but that burned out when my best friend was fucking her behind my back. They took the time when I was at work to fool around.
When two people you trust betray you like that it makes it hard to want to be with anyone for anything other than sex.
Then that damn fine ass woman walks into my life and makes me want to be in a relationship. I want to be a man that deserves her, but then I also hope that she can accept this life and what we are all about. I’m nothing without my club and, although I haven’t been a member for that long, I would lay down my life for anyone in this club.
I knew that I had proven myself time and time again.
Throughout the night, everyone merged together and now it doesn’t look like the women don’t want to sit with the men.
Crash starts talking to Sophie and he’s a little too close for my comfort. I notice Stacey get up from Torch’s lap and walking over to them. She not so lightly pushes Crash’s shoulder until he’s forced to move, and she wedges herself in between them. I can’t help the chuckle that escapes when I see the look of disbelief on his face.
“Fuck, I love that woman. Always butting her head in where it doesn’t belong but, if she wasn’t that way, she wouldn’t be my woman,” Torch says grinning at Stacey who is wearing the same expression back.
I can’t help but be jealous but, if things work out the way I hope they will, Sophie will be mine and she will be wearing my patch and my biker name on her beautiful body. I’d like to see it trailing down her thigh or placed right across her chest above her breasts so that when she wore shorts, skirts, or tank tops people would see who she belonged to.
“Dude, you better get your eyes off of her before my dad or Bear catch you,” Steal says and, when I look at him, he has amusement in his eyes.
“I can’t help it. She’s so fucking beautiful,” I mutter. I didn’t think he heard me but when I hear him snicker, I know that he did. Damn “Swoon King.”
“You better figure your fucking intentions out fast because it’s not going to be easy to get in Bear’s or Dad’s good graces. She’s almost like a long lost royalty to the club. All we had to do was wait for her to grow up and find her way. They ain’t going to let anyone fuck around with her,” he says with a serious voice.
“Listen, I don’t want to fuck around with her. I spent every day with her for the past three weeks. I want her to be mine and my Old Lady. She’s something special and I can fucking see that. I don’t know how anyone, including that fucker and her mom, could treat her like shit. They better hope to fuck that I don’t get my hands on them for the shit they have put her through. She’s mine and I will stand up to anyone who thinks that they have a say,” I say maybe a little too loudly and, when I see Torch and Steal glance behind me, I have a feeling that I know who heard.
“Trigger, outside,” Bear practically growls. Fuck, he really does sound like a bear.
“Let’s do this,” I say confidently. It’s definitely not the way I wanted to handle it, but if this is how it’s going to go, well, I guess I better prove my worth.
“Uncle!” I hear Sophie yell, so I guess she heard too. I would be embarrassed about it, but I want her to know how serious I am about everything.
“Not now, Soph. I just need to have a few words with Trigger. We will be right back,” Bear says trying to dismiss her.
What shocks me and everyone is what comes out of her mouth next.
“Now you stop it right there! I’m tired of people telling me what I can do! Now I know you are going to go outside and warn Trigger or try to tell him to back off because I’m your niece. I just got out of a messed up relationship, but I really like him and, so help me, if you hurt him I will never bake for this club again! Just let me make my own choices for once!” she practically yells, and the look on her face shows everyone that she means business.
Bear looks at her with wide eyes and throws his hands in the air in a self defense pose. “Baby girl, I’m not going to tell him to back off. I’m simply going to point out what will happen if he breaks your heart. Then there is the courtesy punch that me and Prez get to throw for messing with a member’s family. One shot and he knew the rules.”
She looks at him with narrowed eyes for a full minute before she slowly nods her head. “If he is hurt, I mean it uncle- NO muffins!” she says pointing her finger like she’s serious. I look at everyone and they are equally worried that she is serious. I hear everyone swallow hard.
“D-do you really think she will take the muffins away?” Torch asks in horror.
I nod my head because I know she would, but not forever. She loves baking too much to do that to them.
“Soph, we won’t hurt your man,” Prez says, and he looks amused more than pissed. Usually when a woman claims a man publicly like that, and they know that the biker is all for it, there is usually no trouble except for the “we will beat you to death if you break her heart” speech. I hadn’t witnessed it, but I had heard about the speech when one of the brothers told me about when Prez started dating Lily.
“Good.” She nods her head and sits down but doesn’t take her eyes off her uncle until he agrees.
All of the brothers step outside, and I can’t help but let out a chuckle and rub a hand over my face. I can already tell that I’m going to have my hands full with her.
“Fuck, that was awesome. It has been a long time since I have seen a woman stand up for her man like that,” Steal says.
“I fucking agree. She seems to really care about you, so don’t fuck this up. I already have to deal with one fucker for hurting her. I wouldn’t hesitate to do it to you too. I only just got her back,” Bear says crossing his arms over his chest.
I nod my head before I speak. “I want her as my Old Lady. I didn’t expect to, fuck, well to want her this much, but spending everyday with her has been fucking grea
t. I would never hurt her, especially like that fucking dickhead she calls an ex. She’s not going anywhere.”
Everyone nods their heads, and Prez is the one to speak this time. “We still need to give our shots. Don’t worry, we will make sure she will still bake for us.” Bear chuckles along with him.
I just stand there while they both take a shot by punching me in the stomach. I knew they could have hit me harder than they did, but no one is going to bring it up. I think that they mostly just wanted to follow the tradition of old rules more than anything else. I knew how serious they were by their words alone anyways.
We head back inside shortly after and I lock my eyes onto Sophie right away. She looks me up and down making sure that I’m not moving funny or have any visible injuries. I can’t help but laugh. I think she might have been serious about never baking for us if I was hurt and, when I look at my brothers, I can tell that they were all thinking the same thing too. When she smiles and nods her head, I think we all breathe a sigh of relief. She’s the best fucking baker I have ever known.
I finally sit beside her and pull her into my arms. The fact that she comes willingly, and automatically leans against me, proves how right this is and feels.
Sophie
I spent a lot of the night trying to figure out how I feel about Trigger, and if my uncle would lose it the second that he found out.
Then a guy named Crash had introduced himself to me and started leaning a little too close for comfort.
I was so thankful that Stacey had come and made it clear that it wasn’t wanted.
I’m glad that I can depend on her to have my back.
When she whispered in my ear that Trigger looked like he was a second from losing it, I glanced over at him and could tell that he really was.
I couldn’t help but hope that this wouldn’t turn out like my last relationship, but I can see that there are a number of people who would back me up if Trigger ever laid a finger on me. By the look on everyone’s face when I had bruises all over, I can tell that they don’t take well to hitting women. I still need to get my mind around the idea because my heart is already wanting to claim this man, but my mind wants to be cautious.