Go to Hail (The Hail Raisers Book 2)

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by Lani Lynn Vale


  I was too flabbergasted to reply to either Hannah’s words, or my mother’s.

  Instead, I walked to the huge fucking rock that my mother had insisted we put there in the flowerbed and took a seat, directly next to Hannah’s stomach contents.

  “When did you find out?”

  She pushed up and then back, coming to her ass on the sidewalk. “I’m so sorry.”

  She looked at my mother, as well as Tate Casey who didn’t even try to make it look like he wasn’t paying attention, and then back to me.

  I waved her worry away. “That’s my mother and Tate Casey. They both know me well. It’s not a big deal that they know…”

  She dropped her head and sighed.

  “To answer your question, I’ve been trying to work up the courage to tell you for a week now.”

  Then, to add the icing to the cake, Allegra chose that time to pull into the parking lot—fifteen minutes early to drop Alex off for her weekend with me—and got out.

  “Son of a bitch,” I muttered darkly.

  Hannah looked up, followed my gaze to the parking lot, and stiffened.

  I wasn’t sure if she knew the woman getting out of the car, but this was a fairly small town. Allegra was on fucking commercials for her father—who was a used car salesman. She was well known, and still sometimes used my last name because she thought it was funny to torture me.

  “Grandma!” Alex cried out. “Hey!”

  Alex, my lovely daughter, came running over and threw herself into my mother’s arms.

  My mother gobbled the attention up, sending me a gloating look. One that I returned. Only, my look was one of annoyance.

  Alex wasn’t my biggest fan since her mother and I had split, and Allegra had a lot to do with that. She loved my mother, though.

  My mother obviously didn’t realize how much Alex disliked being with me, otherwise I was sure she wouldn’t have looked so smug. She didn’t like seeing her babies hurting.

  Alex was a very intuitive child. One that knew that just last year, her mother and I had been together and what she thought was happy. Now it was all my fault that we were no longer together, and I had no doubt in my mind that Alex heard that from Allegra on a daily basis.

  “Hey, Alex. How you doin’, baby?” my mother cried.

  Hannah started to look green around the gills again, and I prayed that she would be able to hold it together while Allegra was here.

  My luck was that she wouldn’t and Allegra would find out, then things would get even worse.

  The good thing was that Hannah was able to keep it together. The bad thing was that apparently, Hannah hadn’t been discreet buying her pregnancy test, and Allegra was already aware of the rumors surrounding the new girl. (Like I said, this was a small town, and people loved to gossip.)

  What Allegra hadn’t been aware of was who had gotten the new girl pregnant.

  Now, seeing the two of us so close, she put two and two together.

  And what I saw in Allegra’s eyes was enough to make my stomach sour.

  “Well, well, well,” Allegra drawled.

  The words weren’t sing-song. They were sharp and hard. Like a fucking knife.

  God. Dammit.

  Chapter 13

  I like to make lists. I also like to leave them on the kitchen table and guess what I need when I’m at the store.

  -Hannah’s secret thoughts

  Hannah

  Present day

  I should’ve known that it was too good to be true.

  The bad things started happening the first day after Travis told Allegra how it was going to be, and it started with his daughter.

  I was with Travis when we went to pick her up from the parking lot of The Dollar Store where they always met for the exchange.

  I should’ve known when Alex got out—on her own volition this time instead of having to be taken out kicking and screaming by Travis—that it was going to be bad.

  Alex walked over to the car like she didn’t have a care in the world. She had her backpack on one shoulder, and a smile on her face.

  She got into the truck, didn’t complain once about having to sit next to TJ like she normally did, and even set her bag down carefully without jostling the baby or the car seat as she did.

  I looked over at Travis as he waited for Alex to buckle the seatbelt, and widened my eyes.

  He shook his head, feeling about the same as me that this was a rare phenomenon, and shrugged.

  The drive all the way to dinner was nerve wracking as we both waited for the other shoe to drop.

  But it never did. Not then. Not fifteen minutes into dinner. Not when Leida went up to Alex and gave her a hug—they were nearly the same age, and had been the best of friends since they both were born.

  “I’m glad that she’s back,” Travis’ mother, Allora, mused. “It’s nice to have her talking and being friendly instead of sitting in a corner and spitting at us when we get too close.”

  I winced.

  I hadn’t actually been here for any of their interactions for a while—at least a couple months before TJ was born. So this was news hearing that Alex was less than nice. At least to her grandmother, that was.

  Not that it surprised me.

  Alex was that kid. The one that you hated but loved at the same time.

  I couldn’t help but love her. She was part of Travis. A huge part of him that he loved with all of his heart, so how could I not love her?

  But being her friend had not happened. She’d scorned every and any attempt that I’d made to get to know her. I bought her presents. Clothes. Took her to see movies. I was the best friend that everyone loved—but Alex. Alex hated me, and made no attempt to hide that fact.

  “Fuckin’ breath of fresh air,” Colder, Travis’ father, grunted. “Was starting to think there was something wrong with her.”

  “It was like coming back to night and day,” Evander, an employee and friend of Travis, muttered. “I went to jail for four years. When I’d left, she was always giving hugs, and warm. Then I got back, and it was like the kid had been switched with her alternate alien version. I don’t think I’ve gotten a single hug since I’ve been back.”

  Kennedy, Evander’s wife, curled up to his side. “Well, four years is a long time for a child. They grow up, change, and move on. It’s very possible that she is a different kid, at least in the knowledge sense. She’s more capable of comprehending the things that go on around her.”

  I.e., the divorce, and her parents no longer being together. Not to mention the fact that I’d had a baby with her father.

  Yeah, those kinds of things.

  “Whatever the reason, I’m just glad she’s not spitting at you. That shit drives me insane, and I want to spank her ass. But you damn well know the minute you do anything to her, her mother is going to report it to the cops. The kid could use a good ass whoopin’,” Colder muttered.

  I couldn’t agree more, yet I couldn’t do a damn thing about it.

  “Did you see that Allegra’s in another commercial?” Baylor asked, sidling into the conversation, taking a seat, and deftly removing a sleeping TJ from his mother’s arms. “This one was for a ‘darn good deal.’ She even spread out the cash like she used to.”

  Allegra Levaux was Hostel royalty. Her father owned a chain of car lots, and was richer than Elvis—as well as more popular around here.

  “Yeah, it was annoying as fuck,” Baylor continued when nobody spoke. “She does this wave and dance that lifts her skirt up. Looks like a total hoochie.”

  I didn’t reply, trying not to get sucked into this ‘trash Allegra’ business that Travis’ family always fell into the moment that they could. I tried not to do that. Maybe because I wouldn’t want anyone else to do it to me, and also, because Alex always seemed to know when someone was talking bad about her shitty mom. Like now.

  She was staring at us from where she was sitting outside, watching, but not mov
ing.

  “You have company,” I gestured toward Alex. “Let’s not talk about this. I swear, it feels like that kid has super hearing or something. She always knows when her mother is being talked about—like a sixth sense or something.”

  Baylor said something under his breath and changed the subject.

  “So, are you and Trav going to have any more babies?”

  I looked at Baylor in surprised.

  “Uhh, no,” I said. “We have three total together. It’s simpler if we just deal with what we have. That, and I’m not a good pregnant person. I gained fifty pounds, and I’m still carrying twenty-five of it around on my hips two months later.”

  Allora snorted. “I’m carrying around fifty pounds thirty years later. You have no worries.”

  Baylor snorted. “You popped out eight kids. You look damn good for that.”

  I agreed. Allora and Colder had six boys and two girls, all of which were over ten pounds each. She did damn good.

  Travis passed by the window, ruffled Leida’s hair, and went to Reggie. She was sitting on the swing set, pumping her little legs to carry her higher and higher.

  Then my heart leapt into my throat as she launched herself out of the swing.

  Travis caught her, but that didn’t make my heart feel any better.

  “Jesus Christ,” I muttered, looking away from Reggie, who was laughing hysterically and already running back toward the swing set. My best guess, to do it again.

  But by averting my eyes, I inadvertently dropped them down to Alex, who was watching her father with such a look of longing that it made me freeze.

  The others around us, however, continued talking about a football game that was coming on in an hour, and didn’t see the devastated little girl.

  I sure did, though.

  And when Baylor walked outside with a now awake TJ and offered him to Travis so he could capture Leida and swing her up into his arms, I didn’t miss the look Alex gave Travis’ back, again.

  It was one of anger, resentment, and calculation.

  ***

  Seven hours later, at two in the morning, I heard a soft thump.

  My brows furrowing, I got up, thinking that it’d been a little bit longer than TJ normally went between feedings, and started down the hall to TJ’s room.

  I’d just pushed the door open when I saw a form standing over TJ’s bed.

  I flipped on the lights and saw Alex, standing on a chair, glaring down at TJ.

  The moment the light flicked on, Alex turned and I saw the hatred there.

  “Alex, what are you doing?”

  She looked so much like her mother that it kind of sickened me a little.

  Not that I’d ever admit as much. Travis didn’t need to hear or know my inner musings.

  “I hate him.”

  I blinked.

  “Alex…”

  “I hate you, too.”

  That I knew.

  “I wish you would die.”

  My jaw worked. “But he’s a baby, and I don’t wish he would die. I wish he weren’t born, though. Every single day.”

  I walked further into the room and closed the door behind me, then walked up to the chair that I used to rock TJ while I nursed him in the middle of the night.

  “Alex,” I paused, looking at her. “I know you don’t like me.”

  Her eye twitched.

  “But what I don’t understand is why you would hate a baby. He’s done nothing to you. But if you gave him a chance, you might actually like him.”

  “He’s the reason that my mommy and daddy will never be back together.”

  There were so many things wrong with that statement that I didn’t know where to begin.

  “Your mommy and daddy were divorced for an entire two years before TJ came into the picture, baby,” I told her softly. “They were never going to get back together.”

  Her eyes flared with anger.

  “My mommy told me that they were, and that if you weren’t there telling Daddy you would hurt me, that he would be with her right now.”

  Oh, God.

  That woman.

  That fucking woman.

  What a bitch!

  “Alex, sweetheart.” I leaned forward. “I would never, ever do that.”

  She tossed me an unbelieving glare and climbed down from the stool.

  Of course, when she did, she accidentally knocked it against the bed, causing TJ to wake up.

  Knowing the moment that his eyes opened that he’d need to eat, I went ahead and picked him up, changed him, and used the time with my back to the little girl to plan out what I was going to say next.

  I didn’t say another word until I was in the chair and feeding him.

  She just watched me with narrowed eyes, her smart little brain taking in everything at once.

  “My mommy says that is disgusting. We saw you doing it at your job the other day, and Mommy said that she was very offended by watching you.”

  Well, then.

  “Your mommy had the option to feed you like that, but chose not to. Every woman gets the same choice. Some choose to, and some choose not to,” I told her.

  Why I’d taken the time to explain it all to her, I didn’t know.

  She was likely too young to comprehend what that meant, but I didn’t bother pausing as I explained.

  “Breasts are made to nourish a child,” I explained as I rocked. “Not all women breastfeed, but a lot do. I do. Not because I’m all gung ho on breastfeeding, but because it’s cheaper.”

  That was really the reason.

  I hated the idea of spending forty dollars on a can of formula. If I could save money by feeding him like nature intended for him to be fed, then that’s what I would do.

  “What?” Alex asked. “Mommy said…”

  Gently I explained to her the art of breastfeeding, and then she started to ask questions. All during this process, not once did she snarl, get angry, or say anything discourteous at all.

  It was actually quite nice to speak to Alex instead of having her be ugly.

  “Your daddy and I were talking about going to Disneyland this summer,” I told her. “We’ve already discussed the benefits of staying there, rather than just visiting for the day. If you were to go, would you want to stay there, or maybe stay at the beach?”

  Technically we were going to do both, but I liked talking to her without the nasty words thrown in. It was therapeutic in a way.

  “I’d rather go to Disneyland than the beach,” she said, then explained her reasons why.

  By the time I was putting TJ back to bed with a full stomach, it was a half hour away from when I’d wake up anyway, so I decided to get an early start on breakfast before I had to be at work by eight that morning.

  The entire time, I had a little girl that was very interested in everything I had to say, and a touch of hope that one day we could be more than enemies.

  Chapter 14

  Isn’t it weird how we have one hand that knows how to do everything, and one that is useless and can’t even open a candy bar?

  -Hannah’s secret thoughts

  Hannah

  Two days later, I was in hell.

  “I’m sorry, Hannah,” the doctor that had hired me all those months ago when I first started, said. “But her father is half of our funding. I’m damned if I do, and damned if I don’t.”

  I stared, dumbfounded.

  “I’m fairly certain that it’s illegal to fire me,” I told him.

  He smiled sadly. “Texas is a right to work state. I don’t have to have a reason to fire you, honey. I made sure to check with my lawyers on that before I started this.”

  I was physically sick to my stomach.

  “Well, okay,” I said, standing up. “I suppose that I will see you around.”

  He winced. “As of today, you and Travis are no longer welcome at this clinic.”

  My jaw clenched. “So you’re
saying that if Travis or I gets sick, that we’re not allowed to come here?”

  He nodded. “I have a right to refuse service to anyone I deem necessary.”

  I looked at the ceiling.

  “Good to know that you’re not banning our kids. Thanks for that at least.”

  He looked away and gathered his things, actively dismissing me.

  I took that as my cue to leave.

  I wanted to vomit. Seriously, if there was anything in my stomach, I would have.

  God, this was such a nightmare!

  How was I supposed to pay my bills? Because I knew one thing, I wouldn’t be taking money from Travis. Although, I knew he’d give it to me if I asked.

  I’d also have to take TJ out of daycare…

  A thought suddenly occurred to me.

  A woman that I’d met over a month ago when I’d first come here. A woman that was looking for a caretaker for her mother-in-law. A woman that had looked to be at the end of her wits.

  I pulled my keys out of my purse and walked out of the clinic without a single look back, determination in every step I took.

  By the time I got to my Jeep, I already had my phone placed to my ear.

  Carol Marks was the wife of a local rancher who owned upwards to a thousand acres right outside of town. She was young, maybe twenty-five at most, and was having to deal with the rancher’s mother, who was bedridden due to a stroke she’d had six months ago.

  The mother, Hilda Marks, was an active rancher with her husband when her husband had died of a heart attack. Two days later, Hilda had a stroke. Ever since then, she’d been bedridden with complete right-side paralysis.

  Carol and her husband, Atticus Marks, had brought the mother into the clinic when she’d had her stroke. However, since it’d been so long since she’d had the stroke—which had been in the middle of the night sometime—there was nothing that we could do.

  I’d seen Carol quite a few times since then at the grocery store, and other places in town as she did stuff for the ranch and her husband, and each time she’d gotten subsequently more tired.

  It had been one day last week when she’d come in for what she suspected to be the stomach flu, and was later confirmed as a pregnancy, that she admitted that she’d do absolutely anything for some help. She’d even offered me the role as a caretaker during the daylight hours for quite a large sum of money. Seeing as I had a job, I’d declined.

 

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