by Aly White
Aubrey
I rush to the hotel, racing back to the restaurant where I left the two guys, who I finally realized I really love. If I could smash my head to the wall right now for only coming up with rash decisions, I probably would. But some things are far more crucial now and blaming my head isn’t one of them, there’s a time for that later. Right now I must find Lucas and Julian and attempt to patch things up when the wound is still fresh.
How could I bolt out right in front of their face especially when they’ve just confessed their love to me? That is definitely the worst idea any brain could produce, and it sucks that mine did. I know it is painful and embarrassing to face them, but I must not be fazed by these emotions for what I want right now is just to be with Lucas and Julian, to jump into their arms, to kiss them, and make love with them.
Oh my God, did I just say ‘make love’ instead of sex or fuck? God, I must be so stupidly in love right now.
When I arrive at the restaurant, the two are already nowhere to be found. I am already breathing so hard, but this will not prevent me from seeing them once again and proving my love.
A staff of the restaurant approaches me, “It’s a pity you weren’t able to catch them. They already left about twenty minutes ago.” The staff pauses as though she doubts if she has the right to say things to their guest. “We were expecting this night to end in a happy, lovely note.”
I do not respond or probably because I do not have the words for me to be able to respond, or because I am the person who ruined this night in the first place. And I do not have the right to be saddened by how the situation has turned out because, for the most part, I am the cause of it.
I run out of the restaurant while thinking of a place where I could find them, and two places come to my mind, either they are back in the room or somewhere where there is liquor. Then it dawns on me that there is a place that could let them lounge and drink at the same time.
As expected, I find them in the common area drinking scotch. I am gasping so hard and leaning on the side of the door, catching my breath when they discover me. Their eyes are wide open in surprise, jaws are dropped and mouths hanging.
The moment our eyes meet, the fervor in our eyes has become sparks, traveling to the open air to search for connection. And once these sparks have found each other, clashing against each other, they fill the space with lights irresistible to the naked eyes.
Julian jumps up from his seat and goes briskly towards my side. Lucas follows and ushers me to a chair across theirs while holding me firmly by the arms. I glance at their faces, various expressions are plastered as though the glee, dismay, anxiety, and confusion are glued to it.
I extend my arms and reach for their faces, cupping them with my hands. Lucas puts his hand on top of mine and closes his eyes, feeling the intensity of my touch. Julian gently removes my hand from his face and, instead, he plants kisses on every finger and then to my palm and then to the other parts of my hand until nothing is left uncared.
“Why are you in a rush? You didn’t have to look for us. This is our fault, we are the ones who should’ve looked for you or, fuck, in the first place, we should’ve stopped you from leaving,” Lucas says. “It’s okay if you turn us down, we know we’re asking too much and—“
“No,” I cut him before he says anything that might cause me to break down. My insides feel tender, and any minute by now I might bawl my eyes out. The walls I have erected for years are now getting torn down by these two lovely guys, and I couldn’t be happier that it is them who managed to break the wall. Or perhaps, first and foremost, I have created this barrier in mind in which only Julian and Lucas could destroy it. “I’m sorry I’ve brought you so much pain.”
“Don’t be sorry, Aubrey. We brought this upon ourselves. We can bear it, but it hurts thinking that you might not want to be, at least, friends with us once this trip is over,” Julian says.
“I came back to find you two because I want to say something that is straight out of my heart,” I say.
“Speak, then,” Julian says, there is a tremble in his voice. He gets down on one of his knees as if though he is about to propose, but the case here is different as I am the one who’s about to break the news.
“Do you know the reason why I declined? “ I ask them, but it is a question I do not demand a response because the answer only lies within me. “Because I’m anxious that you might leave me in the future, and it scares me that I’d be left behind once again. This is the reason why I have lost faith in love, why I don’t believe in it anymore, because I am always the side in the relationship that ends up badly hurt. I’m sure you don’t know how terrible that feels.”
“No other girl has hurt me aside from you, Aubrey. You’re saying that we don’t love you enough for us to stay. You have no idea how these words of yours feel like a knife aimed directly at our chest. Don’t you trust us, even just a little?” Lucas says, his voice is rough, but is also shaking a bit, showing his frustration.
“I only trust a few people, and you two belong in that circle. I don’t exactly know what’s wrong with me. Maybe it is me that I don’t trust. That I might disappoint you. That I might not be enough. I don’t know, I just know I’m messed up,” I say.
Julian laughs softly as though his chuckle could melt me. “For sure I’m a damn mess as well. And Lucas is messed up in the head. We’re all crazies here trying to prove our love.”
Lucas chuckles a bit and nods lightly and adds, “Finally, you are smiling.”
It is then that I notice the smile on my face. I have been denying my feelings for them, and now that my heart is open, I can feel my heart release its concerns, every futile fear that only corrupts the heart. “I was hesitant at first. I never knew admitting my feelings would bring me so much happiness,” I say as I welcome love back to my life.
“So you’re saying,” Lucas says, a mixture of disbelief and bliss is displayed on his face.
“Yes, Lucas,” I say, and then I turn to Julian. “Yes, Julian.”
Julian stands up and throws himself on me for a hug. He is shaking me with his arms as he giggles jubilantly as if he just won the lottery—not that they desperately need to win the lottery, maybe I am their jackpot prize. Lucas joins us in the hug and is starting to laugh as well in a way that is similar to Julian’s.
My head is in between their heads and so I say almost to their ear, “You know, I've always been afraid to be in love again, but I know I want the both of you to be in my life.”
Julian withdraws himself from the hug and pulls me in for a gentle kiss, Lucas follows and puts his lips on ours. I know I’m thinking as though I’ve always believed in love, but I can feel their hearts bursting with ardor just through their lips. It feels like something is popping inside our mouths, exploding with vibrant colors.
“We planned a surprise for you. There were some setbacks, but I'm glad we reached this part of our plan for tonight," Lucas says.
Julian moves and stands beside him. “You’re gonna love this.” He smiles, and Lucas smiles. You two are enough.
Both of them walk away and then stop behind the counter. They pick up something on the ground and when they stand straight a wooden crate is on their hands.
I hear a faint squeak and there, behind the small opening of the crate, two corgi puppies appear. The corgis are in a rush to come out of their restraints, and so I walk towards them and ask Julian and Lucas to help me take the puppies out. The two puts down the crate and unlocks the small door.
“I hope you like them,” Lucas says.
“Come on, one look at her face, and you’ll know that she likes them. I’m worried she might have forgotten us already,” Julian says.
By then the two corgis are already out and running and jumping around the common area. I don’t speak instead I observe their faces, the depths of their eyes, the affection behind them, the curves of their lips, the tip of their nose. And it hits me that I love everything I am seeing.
“You two are
gorgeous,” I tell them and then I kiss Lucas on the lips, next is Julian.
And as much as I want to kiss Lucas and Julian for the second time around, I’m afraid I have to pass on that. The situation might get steamy, and I’m sorry to break it to you, but I prefer it to not be in front of my puppies, my babies.
I step back and rush to my babies and snuggle them. Yes, this is life.
Julian
Words are not enough to describe the feelings that are currently washing over me. I have never been overwhelmed with this kind of happiness before. The joy I’m feeling right now is even greater than the joy I have felt after a successful launch party for an app, and if those words left my mouth, that’s saying something.
I stay in the back as I follow Lucas and Aubrey make their way towards Aubrey’s room, watching as they stumble against each other, and both are obviously drunk in love with each other. Well, I am too. I am just too in love to act like this.
I let out a chuckle as Lucas makes Aubrey twirl, a soft giggle leaving Aubrey’s lips. “Are you just going to stay back there and watch us?” Aubrey asks, giggling, as she closes the distance between us.
A soft laugh escapes her lips as I place both of my hands at the side of her waist, tugging her gently against me. I could feel her smile as I press my lips against the top of her head. “I couldn’t believe that I finally have you,” I say, my voice muffled.
Aubrey raises her head, a smile gracing her face as she presses her lips against mine for a soft peck. “I don’t think I’ve seen him like this,” Aubrey says, directing the statement to Lucas, who is leaning against the wall and watching us with a twinkle in his eyes. “Have you always been like this?” She turns to me, her smile widening.
“I guess I’m only like this when it comes to you,” I reply, grinning at her. She turns her head away and makes a vomiting sound as Lucas laugh his head off.
“That is so cheesy, man,” Lucas says in between laugh.
“Oh god, I didn’t know that you’re this sappy,” Aubrey leans in for another kiss as she lets out another giggle.
“Stop clowning me,” I say, laughing all the while as Aubrey leads both Lucas and me to her room.
“You brought that upon yourself,” Lucas laughs, clapping my back, before placing his arm on my shoulder. His and Aubrey’s laugh rings into my ears, and it is the kind of sound that I could listen to forever.
Lucas pushes me from behind as Aubrey pulls towards the bed, all of us a laughing mess. Aubrey hops on the bed, the sound of her laughter filling in the room, as Lucas tackles me from behind.
“Lucas, what the fuck,” I say as Aubrey giggle beneath me. “Are you okay?” I turn towards my attention to Aubrey, who I found smiling despite being pinned down underneath me.
“I,” she starts as her hands come up to the sides of my face, tugging it closer towards her. “Have never been so much better,” she continues as she leans towards me, and proceeds to claim my lips.
I could feel her grin widening against my lips as she kisses me, her soft lips slowly moving against mine. She wraps her arms around my neck, pulling me forward as she deepens the kiss, nipping at my bottom lip, silently asking for entrance.
“I love you,” I whisper as I pull away, chuckling at the soft protest that left her mouth. “I just want to let you know.”
Aubrey gives me a quick peck. “I already know,” she replies as another smile makes its way to her face, lighting her features. “Now, come here.”
Aubrey pulls me closer again, this time, crashing her lips against mine. She moans as I shift, the rough material of my pants rubbing against her bare thighs, her dress is giving me easy access to her bare skin. Another moan escapes her lips as I break our kiss, but my lips never leave her skin.
“Sit up for me, baby,” Lucas says as he moves and positions himself behind Aubrey, who obliges. “We’re going to take such good care of you. Just relax.” Lucas lifts Aubrey easily, as if she weighs nothing, before settling her on his lap, his hips rocking slowly against her behind.
Aubrey could only moan in reply as Lucas's mouth finds its way to her sensitive spot in her neck, kissing and nipping at the flesh.
I continue to pepper her with kisses, from her neck then to her chest, sucking each of her hard, perked nipples through the thin material of her dress. Thank God for wearing this dress, Aubrey.
My fingers ghost over her legs, leaving soft touches from her knees then to her inner thighs. A soft gasp leaves her plump lips as I massage the soft, firm skin of her inner thighs. Not wasting any time, I lean down towards her core, my hot breath fanning against it.
“Yes,” Aubrey moans, her body shivering as the cold air finally make contact with her already dripping pussy as I remove her lingerie.
I begin to flick my tongue firmly at her clit, plunging my tongue in and out of her, my hands splayed on her inner thighs, spreading her legs even wider as I go in deeper to her core. She lets out a high, languid moan as my ministrations become rougher, my tongue twisting in and out of her before returning and pressing my tongue hard against her clit.
A low, shaky breath leaves her body accompanied by a shiver as I take her clit between my teeth, nipping at her red cherry core before sucking it.
“Julian, I-hah-I’m going to come,” she says, her breathing uneven and hard.
It didn’t take her long before her whole body quivering above me, her moans filling in the room as it bounces off the walls. I continue to lap on her swollen nub, licking and swallowing her cum, my hands pressed down on her thighs. Her hands tug on my hair as I proceed to manhandle her pussy, licking and sucking and kissing, her body shivering once more at the oversensitivity.
She mewls as my lips found her clit once again, her hips bucking wildly as she gives a hard tug on my hair. “Oh god—Ahh—it’s too much,” she moans, and I look up only to see her looking down at me before Lucas claims her mouth. She rolls her hips again as I lick her sloppily and languidly, my tongue flicking from top to bottom.
My hand leaves her thigh as I gently grab Lucas's hand resting on the side of Aubrey’s waist, guiding his hand down to her core. Lucas, realizing what my plan is, proceeds and without warning, plunges in two fingers deep within her core. Aubrey could only moan as pleasure after pleasure washes over her.
Lucas pulls out his cum-coated fingers, the slick covering his finger’s length making it even easier for him to pump roughly in and out of her, as the lewd squelching sound of his movement and Aubrey’s moan fills the room once more.
“Fuck,” Aubrey whispers harshly as she weakly thrusts her hips forward.
“Are you going to come again for us?” I hear Lucas say as he plunges into her once again, his pace quickening once more, driving Aubrey on the edge who could only moan in reply.
I match the fast pace of Lucas's fingers going in and out of her, pressing my tongue harder to her clit. “Oh god,” Aubrey rambles as she tugs and pulls at my hair, hard. Her body arches backward as she comes for the second time, faltering moans and curses leaving her lips as she spurts out watery fluids, which I catch with my mouth.
Lucas continues on pumping in and out of her, riding her high, as she convulses with pleasure against his body, her hands rubbing the top of my head, giving me a pat after what seems like a full minute.
I leave her core to the tender hands of Lucas as I rise from the bed, leaning in closer towards her. Aubrey straightens as our lips crash against each other, moaning into my lips as she gets a taste of herself in my mouth. Her hands roam on my back before finding its rightful place on my ass as she pulls me forward, my bulge pressing firmly against her stomach.
“Have I told you that I love you?” Aubrey whispers, her voice gentle and weak. A soft smile lights her face as she puts a finger below my chin.
“You can say it to me again,” I reply, tucking loose strands of her hair behind her ear. “I love you.”
Her smile widens, and I could feel my heart already racing as if it’s going to jump out of my che
st any second now. Aubrey croons as she puts both of her hands on the side of my face. “I love you so much.”
I lean towards her, and she meets me halfway as our lips brush against each other. Our mouth moves against each other slowly and gently, taking our time. Aubrey smiles into the kiss and my heart flutters.
Aubrey breaks the kiss and turns towards Lucas, who is lying down beside her. She gives him a kiss, like the same one that we shared, and I couldn’t help but think of what the future holds for the three of us.
I smile, my heart still fluttering with happiness.
I can’t wait to experience my life with the two of them in it.
Lucas
I feel a smile creeping up on my face as Julian watches me and Aubrey kiss. Aubrey’s hands roam all over my body, pausing over my nipples to tease as she tugs and pulls and rubs her fingers over it. I groan into her mouth, her ministrations sending a shock of shivers down to my spine. She licks at my bottom lip before taking the opportunity, her tongue slithering in the cave of my mouth.
I push her gently back to the bed and straddle her without breaking the kiss, but rather deepening it, her hair a tangled mess on my hands as I tug and pull at her hair, my actions eliciting a moan from her. Saliva drips down to her chin as she pushes my head away, and I smile as she catches my bottom lip in between her teeth.
“What is it?” I ask, panting as the kiss rendering me breathless. A lovely smile lights up Aubrey’s face as she pulls my head forward, meeting my lips midway.
I soon find myself lost in the gentlest kiss of all the kisses that Aubrey and I have shared. The kiss is calming, reassuring, as if Aubrey is telling me that the future for the three of us is something that is worth uniting for.
“What do you want me to do?” I whisper against her lips before leaning in to steal another kiss. “I want to make you feel good. We want to,” I add, glancing at Julian who is looking at us with such intensity in his eyes.