The Complete Poems of A R Ammons, Volume 2

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by A. R. Ammons


  will, having resources, put on length: for these two reasons, bushes

  tend to get bigger: trees that do this, too, are not more scientific

  5than other trees, just bigger: although, since all trees and bushes

  react this way, I suppose they’re all bigger together, a uniformity of

  effect and a limitation of means so egalitarian as to be totalitarian,

  a political reading: bushes willing to be small are rare: more often

  than not, small bushes have not found a way to get bigger: there’s

  10burning drought to hold back for or a winter that lashes everything even

  with ice or there are dunes it’s more important for roots to grow down

  into than branches up from: things small are unwillingly small, unless

  like animalcules of water droplets they’re too small to dream in or toward

  a more noticeable dimension: things small when stirred take the vertical

  15too quickly, standing not fifteen degrees leant off true, whereas weightier

  members level a kind of solemn directness at you, a bigger thrill, though,

  than the trivial alert: some branches, shaded or sunny, don’t grow measurably

  however often they stiffen into and out of reach: some sizable and

  very considerable things widen and lengthen in a single plane, broaden

  20like a leaf, open and close, furl and foment in organizations by groove

  or lamina, outright astonishments: some like a small bush, some scanty:

  some short-cropped, some moss-like long: some like a curled, I suppose,

  bush: or wavy: some care only for the secrets thick bushes keep away

  or open to: some cut down all their bushes to a lush-lawn prickleness

  _________

  25and manifest everything they have openly: a thing is not insignificant

  just because you say it is insignificant, nor empty just because you say

  it is empty, and a thing is not meaningless just because you say so,

  nor absurd: you must make a thing whatever it is and having made it so

  it must always be what it is and not the thing it isn’t that you didn’t

  30make: this positive procedural edge, though, cuts both ways: a pile of

  meanings is meaningless, whereas an emptiness of meanings has not been

  created empty, and if you try to create it empty you will get something

  in it: existence is an unavoidable fact, and there is nothing else—

  “nothing”—except existence: there is much surdity but no ab, none, not

  35a hairpiece: there are, for example, different colored bushes and many can

  be dyed: a world of bedeckings and fragrances, kinky, ribbony, floral.

  1985 (1993)

  Capabilities

  Can nature form a rule ruling nature

  out, a line differential to the point

  materiality loses its fuzzy-fine edges

  describing it: not the knots, balances,

  5compensations, quandaries, divisions,

  paradoxes, not those big centralities

  that leave a little somewhere to go

  when going uses itself up, but (everything

  settled, believe me) tiny errors of

  10curvature, shades of misfitting, leftover

  hues the colors didn’t take—there

  attention flares up like a rabbit

  _________

  shot: can we go on being entertained

  by the large matters (not we

  15oldies): the wild, the exceptional

  break new waves through: nature

  may draw the line of our own and its own

  vanishing: still, we’re here where

  such states of being (love?) occur now

  20and then we can’t put our minds on nature’s

  own doings, and we dwell in reveries of

  adequate spirit nature may not know how

  to float, surpass, or continue in:

  remarkable sucked fizzy drinks burning the mucous.

  1978

  Minutial Impress

  Nothing will ever be the same again, he said,

  not even the same will be the same again,

  the same itself acquiring through time

  the promotion of shift-small differences:

  5still, is will be is, we know, close

  to it, close to forever: and anything

  worked off or away into perfection

  will be subtracted from the coming round

  of the next coming round: so, not too

  10much perfection, and even that the kind

  near perfection, what can fall back and

  help stir the confusion and élan: but

  even though is will be is (a form of the

  highest patience and knowing) even the

  15biggest is, returning, plays out through

  history extraordinary ragged changes:

  should we wish not to get it straight, since

  to do so is to vanish into nothing,

  nothing vanished perhaps except vanishing itself:

  20a little here & there into is: the rest churns.

  1979

  Showups

  Never to be the fool, I always play the fool, but

  ready ever to be an even greater fool, sometimes

  fail the role and make never sometimes, indeed,

  alas: the sobriety of headhung

  5humiliation when the heart offers itself up

  to sacrifice, the goddess clicking away on

  cobblestones from some gray dead end, the wall flat,

  a stoppage, blank as the wailing spaces of lost

  mind: then I, fool’s fool, the true show folded,

  10test technique again beyond willing, easy

  failure to see with what colorations imagination

  twists the other side of waste; the fool’s

  fool dies and the play re-opens, grief-wrenched

  hair fabulous and startled, pants over-heisted,

  15face jacked up a millimeter or so above true.

  1971

  Modes Against Too Much

  My poems, if poems

  other than casual

  entrances into systems, are

  _________

  lulls by which

  5motion going by too

  fast as in damaging winds

  slows to assume

  (forced into the definition of)

  mediating rhythms,

  10sketchy but entangling

  knots, in this

  wind tight patterns

  obstructive and unyielding

  likely to come down

  15or be hauled off whole,

  criss-cross trellises

  in typhoon, say:

  but bits, strings,

  swerving (lessening and

  20swelling) elongations

  that giving to

  the wind like high water or

  sails catch a part

  of it formed into known

  25ways, let go, withstood.

  (1993)

  Sky Rides

  My constructions aim so far

  or high away, they get me

  ‘out of myself’ as they must for

  my sight to build a site:

  _________

  5but out of myself, I rise into

  alignment with others’ far

  projections and there we all are,

  stripped of earthly material,

  the knots we build from, but

  10safely together, as luminous

  as we would have been, born

  into a luminous place: but,

  it’s the way it goes, we fall

  back at times, singled out again,

  15into the dense knowledge of

  the word or two we can’t,

  shouldn’t, or won’t say that said

  could get us about okay on
the ground.

  1993

  Heights Known

  Love surgent, equipped with the direction

  of sail, is matchless, the heading right on in

  through the weather, ups and downs, the high

  swipes and weltering, but afterwards there is

  5the not-so-spanking hull flat in doldrums

  oblivious as absence, and there is the possibility

  of tides elsewhere, of coves and offshore

  anchorages, island-scented breezes: and in love

  the planks steam and split or a small fire

  10finds its way up a hatch or timbers peel and

  time-consuming decisions have to be made:

  love’s bells loll and clang these storms and calms

  averaging out into a kind of indifference one

  luckily doesn’t assume in the first place and go by.

  1979

  Conservationist

  Little time left to work with,

  the old say, is like youth’s having

  worked with little: birth’s center

  spent’s soon the sinkhole’s

  5oozing intake: who though (if not

  the old and long-accustomed) will

  care for the old: not the old and

  long-accustomed, imminent deliverance

  from new and old their watchwords:

  10the child, coming into so much

  time to fill, shape, name,

  the child’s the keeper, traditionalist.

  A Little Thing Like That

  life comes under no other

  propositions than mountain decrees,

  it seems at times;

  seldom if a meander is allowed

  5can one see it far: it bends

  away with its willows

  behind a boulder-head or sheer face-off:

  winding is the way of life

  _________

  I would choose, would you, if

  10I could choose, for I would

  like always to be on the other side

  of wherever there’s trouble

  or pointing responsibility

  or too much nailing down: just the

  15flexibility of brooks, dribbling over

  stones or swelling up to dribble

  over stones: I have always felt,

  as one should, I think, shy

  of mountains: they don’t seem like

  20breasts to me—

  but they rise

  up august into air-starving presences

  and they command views: I like

  to swerve away from commands

  25because I’m unconvinced that I could

  do all the things I might

  be commanded to do or that I would

  want to do them, and I would rather

  feint a dissolve into a curvature,

  30a curvature of disappearance, as

  around a hill or down from a rise:

  may I not feel the speech of mountains

  when they “speak” and may I wander

  with meanders, not seeing far (ahead

  _________

  35or behind) and picking up willows

  wherever possible, or alders and

  stopping to have lunch in the shade

  and drink from boulder-drained melts.

  1986 (1986)

  Getting About

  The windiest morning this

  year (the second month) bringing

  the first warm

  heave of rain from the south:

  5starlings, this ocean’s

  winter schools, knot

  close, thickening twig-mesh

  in broad oaks and hold

  fast, clasped to the boiling sways:

  10flare-winged crows

  flap, tossed backwards, dip into penetrating

  spills to check the wind:

  a hawk, though, tilting,

  splits wings-in directly ahead into the

  15blundering wall, loosening its

  stones like silt.

  (1988)

  December Starlings

  A sheer loops in and berries bead

  the oak’s sticky lofts: twittering

  blooms a dense stippling, a burn

  _________

  that eases off with settling, but

  5just then before dusk’s blurs,

  a loaded twig snaps and the whole

  sheet ripples in report;

  the black sheer unfurls and swirls

  away to fold into night elsewhere.

  1984 (1995)

  Strings

  for Don Randel

  The yellow house

  of the willow is

  threadbare, now,

  the shiny little shingles

  5missing,

  thick as thatch

  under the snow floor the

  wind’s laid in:

  inside and outside

  10glare nearly the same

  cold and light:

  what is that

  black rill

  taking away—bits of

  15summer dark, bark

  shadow, scrimps

  of fern shade from

  den holes;

  _________

  it’s draining banks

  20and mounds white,

  churning

  narrows and dropping

  away

  quickly down

  25shale-shelves:

  the crisp of my steps

  in dry snow is

  the “shine” of

  stone underground:

  30I’m so happy!

  the house nearly

  gone, so is

  the grief,

  and yet

  35a wind-frail house

  is here.

  (1988)

  Winding Up

  The sun’s risings and

  settings on the west

  ridge like

  an accordion swell

  5and shrink the year’s

  music, a music rolling

  too quick now to step to—

  we rocking on the waves,

  _________

  the frequency working up

  10shaking the underload:

  soon the hum-burr will start,

  grind us free of the ground,

  loop loose from the tip

  of the sharpest sine peak,

  15a point, catapult

  to the long way away.

  1979

  Middling Seasons

  The weather here hits so many extremes the

  transitions sweep moderation: this morning

  ninety mile an hour gusts strip live

  wood from the maple crowns and on the ground

  5bend whatever bends over over, root-eruptions,

  scatterings, whole

  activations of leaves, bark, twigs,

  plastic foam, sheet—scurryings, unwindings

  blustered up: this winter stalled to

  10the deepest chill ever: last winter was the

  coldest span: the year before, the most snow:

  then the highest temperature, and the highest

  ever sustained, in a blocked inversion

  two weeks long: high water: drought: scientists

  15blame sunspots: others say, in spite

  of the centenary figures, it was never any different:

  a few ask how much quietude we wished: well, I

  _________

  need a skinny place in there not a statistical moderation,

  really moderate, a sunny calm clime in which to hang

  20onto some wrong idea about the nature of things.

  1979 (1992)

  Looking Way Off

  The winter day after days

  of lows and flurries

  and one trench of snow

  cleared brilliantly and I

  5went to the window to see

  the sun, striking through

  everything from blue
spruce

  to black rose-branch

  to the tops of gold burdock,

  10touch down on the ridge,

  the clarity, the line,

  the dazzling dalliance and

  surprising myself said,

  “Make me right,” but tightened

  15airless till, till I imagined

  from on high an unassenting

  reply, “You’re right wrong.”

  so I cleave to my holding.

  Obsession

  The wordwhirl stood

  high in my head

  so many

  _________

  years dustdevil-like

  5it dominated

  the ridges and

  ranges of whatever else

  was there, so

  that now,

  10the whirl worn

  low, wobbled

  diminished

  out of sight behind

  a stone, I

  15think what has

  become of the way

  things were, the

  ridges empty, too.

  1984 (1989)

 

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