The Complete Poems of A R Ammons, Volume 2

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by A. R. Ammons


  the beach dunes nearby: or Gause’s Landing:

  Lord, I wish I were home—those pastures—where I’ll

  never be again: Spring Branch Church, South

  Whiteville, New Brunswick: mother and father, aunts,

  15uncles gone over, no one coming back again.

  1974 (1993)

  Somers Point

  What are you doing out here

  this windy on the headland

  said the bay reeds bent inland,

  _________

  their bounding tassels like

  5blurred drops trying to rain ashore,

  the bay water thrashing

  to land or get away to the open,

  the holly, its held leaves

  jangling tambourines, the

  10whipping cypresses simmering and

  seething:

  oh I said I’ve come out here

  to hide in the trembling

  from my trembling, storm roars

  15outsounding blood roars, sprints

  of pulse surpassed by clacking leaves,

  to count how many, many

  particulars ease could come into.

  (1993)

  White Echo

  The willow’s knotty threads

  select scant weave from the flurry,

  the threads fluffing up a little

  to cotton on one side, but

  5it’s so calm the flakes

  barely find a side to come from,

  a straight downward mingling

  turning around as it sometimes does

  midair as if to define

  10ambient mounds of itself to hold

  and keep or come back round to:

  it’s hard to burden a skinny

  willow down with snow—ice

  would be a different matter, rain

  15glazing and freezing swelling

  laminations, a holding that could

  split the willow’s giving, branch­-splits

  skinning the trunk, could, I hope

  it won’t, this willow’s weeping

  20so huge a summer somberness—

  willow stringknots are fast

  leeches (spring changes them into pollen

  and leaves), the blunt end attached

  to the string, the rest tapering

  25downward so it won’t catch anything

  unbearably heavy or only

  the fluffiest flake on its hump or, of

  course, the microinscriptions of

  building rain: (soft, blurry snow

  30blunders into airy holds): sifted

  lightly on one side, though, with

  snow, a whole tree­-ghost can be

  shattered free by a striking gust,

  white dust stemless, traveling branchless,

  35shaken whole off side till a breaking

  current collapses the snow willow into willow.

  (1993)

  Pileup

  Driving when

  the snow’s

  _________

  this slick,

  it’s hard

  5(spinning, sliding)

  to build

  any momentum

  up or

  get rid

  10of any.

  (1993)

  Ping Jockeys

  Gosh! Imagine! How did it happen? I am

  virtually a New York School poet (maybe not

  virtually a poet!): I have affinities, old solid

  ineradicable affinities: I just read Schuyler’s

  5interview and learned 48 years later that I was

  there in Key West (in the Navy, I mean) just about

  when Schuyler and O’Hara (both) were, and we

  sailed at dawn every day out on the trainer boats

  catching on to sub chasing; we were younglings

  10with special gifts of sound, striking sonarmen

  discriminating pitch, doing theory, and learning how

  to lay down depth-charge patterns on enemy hulks

  (where was John, anyhow): oh, the Navy, the

  sweet Navy, sound pinging out through the waters

  _________

  15of the Caribbean, later the Pacific, thrilling

  the submarines deep down hustling to get away

  or pop us off point-blank with a slim torpedo!

  1993 (1994)

  Keeping Track

  It’s not going to be again the way it was:

  Silver won’t come up from the pasture again

  and stand, head low, dozing by the gate:

  the sow won’t strike mouthfuls of wiregrass

  5all day for a rushed bed to farrow in:

  I won’t ever again hear my father at dusk

  holler leatherbritches from the woodsroad

  coming home or feel the start that things might

  once be all right: the plank fence of the barnyard

  10is down and gone, cornerposts rotted holes:

  when my memory goes, my father’s never adzed

  and mauled those boards from swamp-cut logs.

  1983 (1994)

  Cornell’s Wee Stinkie

  The creek maidens long ago used to tinkle in

  still trickles through campus: it

  keeps finding its

  way through big new construction and

  5under paved streets and

  loose footbridges:

  _________

  after rains, it carries along poplar leaves this

  time of year and settles them against

  stones in the bed,

  10damming itself up into noticeable pools too cold

  (and nearly too deep) to wade in:

  then, on it goes.

  (1994)

  Candle Lit

  Old friendlies

  will sometimes in

  the dead

  of night

  5flick their

  choppers out

  and rummaging

  gum you

  to the stars.

  (1995)

  Emerging Curves

  Spot time conceals: wait long enough (for

  how few things we have time to wait) the

  face of the glacier splits off, the overhang

  drops into sharp depth and comes up blue to

  5its proper bob (so much so fast the long

  preparation blinks): or take wet snow clumps

  _________

  sloped on a spirea bush’s finework: how long

  it takes thawing drops to drop at forty degrees:

  but by afternoon or maybe the next morning, the

  10bush’s risen way out of nodding: I’ll never

  know what becomes of this slope I live on:

  I know the wind coming up’s high farther down

  where the slope sheds sharply but what the wind’s

  doing or what the brook’s going the other way

  15are putting up or taking down the long sayings tell.

  1974 (1996)

  Sumerian Vistas

  What but the declarations of nothingness shall we gather

  the world around: buildings arise from buildings,

  lattices of sunk rooms, partitions of held space, combed,

  underground, so that buildings can be domes or attics

  5to prior dwellings, one layer turned up into the

  next, random assortments of crushed or tumbled stone,

  block, brick recovered or brought in: but the new towers

  become mounds which grassed over are hills in neglect,

  odd interruptions of riparian plains: while, inside, whole

  10pieces of wall may be standing, tiled, inscribed, embossed,

  locked to sharp corners or foundation stones: but

  nothingness, the groundwork brushing up from rockbottom,

  permits definition to the arising, arising on arising carrying

  cubicles, ancient airs, collapsed atria unguessed in the

  15arc of declaration:
where an affirmation intrudes, all

  _________

  our affirmations bear the cut of it: Erech rose by river

  wharfs, steps highwinding to the cool, tiled blue sancta,

  but wind honed the mound away, and the river is off

  across a mile of sand: the reeds that once

  20picked up highwater weeds and dried them out to bird nesting,

  the reeds glimmer in the heat-streams of nothingness:

  nothingness is the rock, solid bottom, against nothingness the

  level lies true, takes to, defining, beam and joist:

  the wasted ziggurat shines in the permissions of nothingness.

  1985 (1996)

  Mucilage

  Led off the arena with a noose around my neck,

  bearing the leash of cowering humiliation &

  degradation, I thought to myself, hey, between

  facing one death and another is this interlude,

  5life, and having escaped the first may I not

  by grace or god, device or dare, sidestep

  the second: by the time I hit the stoneshade

  of the periphery, I believed in hope again:

  the crowd was already rolling in some other

  10emotional slush:

  you may wonder, as I often have

  and sometimes do, what I mean by all these

  statements: well, of course, I mean the

  statements as gestures, actions, jots and tittles

  15of possibility, nods, smiles, words, thoughts,

  _________

  things which, summed up, will take on ambiance,

  milieu, intermediacy, flow, these representing

  existence which evidences certain values—

  a willingness to be nearly honest, if that

  20state is nearly approachable (if I go on too

  long about this you will think I don’t

  mean it): anyway, that’s what I’ve been doing

  and tricks like this are unworthy of you:

  what I really really mean to do, though, is

  25to dissolve encrusted certainty: I believe in

  definition, in limits and being fairly certain

  about things, but I want ongoingness to have

  always this power to break through bringing

  upheaval and growth: I would like to have just

  30enough structure so that when change hit it I’d

  be left with a shambles: I can get along

  with a shambles; I can prop it up or knock

  a leg from under it or gradually replace it: I

  don’t want a steel cell but on the other hand

  35I don’t want to settle down in hurricanes or

  floods: I like the mild passion of thinking

  something reasonably so, or not: anyway,

  they took me off, washed, scraped, oiled,

  pounded and kneaded me, spritzed me with

  40aromatics so witchingly fine you’d have to

  get your nose nearly to the skin to be sure

  scent was there, and they strapped me,

  _________

  arms and legs, on a kind of tilted catafalque,

  a gold and silk fabric knotted around my waist

  45and falling open below: lutes in tiers and

  files of naked women lifted the dome of the

  high place with spangled light and sweetest

  sound: when the women swayed and turned,

  their arms rising and falling into waves by

  50their sides, I felt an unquenchable rush which

  I could not reach to hide: what is a man to

  do, his lust visible and no permissions

  granted or sought: a most beautiful face

  began to rise from my waist toward my face, and

  55I looked directly into a pair of eyes and lips

  so open and pure and gorgeous that I was

  already swimming in dreams when the hand lightly

  moved upward along my thigh, and then the face

  went back where it came from and raptures

  60dreams can’t conceive touched me: past the

  cresting ecstasy, my heart subsiding, I saw

  the face again, peeling itself away, shining

  hair, eyelashes, glowing lips and revealing

  the emperor, the very magnificence that had

  65spared me even against the wishes of the crowd

  (you take the word fucking—as in, who cut

  the fucking tree down—a blustery effect that

  almost hides fear from courage; a useful

  word, for isn’t everything a pretense or a

  _________

  70substitution, integrity the biggest cover-up

  of all: I know this woman, lady-like, lately

  met, her first move is grinning obsequiousness,

  this the paranoia alert, and sure enough she

  comes up with trifle after puzzling trifle till

  75the bulldozer that is her true nature

  chugs: poor little thing, all she wants to

  do is push the world off a cliff: beware such

  who haunt you with niceties till your guts

  form a lasso or a noose, one for you, one

  80for her): the f word, tho, used

  too frequently loses its force: why? the

  doesn’t lose its force: but then one hardly

  ever notices the, whereas, in polite society,

  fucking is strong tonic, not, of course, in high

  85society: those fuckers don’t care what they

  say and can back up their vulgarity with moldy trust

  funds: the slavish behave slavishly, even while

  they wait to bulldoze the upper crust away:

  & those of us (I mean, you) with a million a

  90year income should recall from time to time the

  splitting fine edge of the guillotine: walk

  upon the bottom of your trust fund if you want

  to cross the river of life: lake, I mean: the

  river has a bad reputation: on the other side,

  95it’s a gray area: walk along the bottom of the river

  and you may have a non-round trip: my wife

  says she feels sorry for this man she met the

  other day: he had the look of someone who has

  said yes all his life when he wanted to say no,

  _________

  100somebody like a suit salesman or accommodating

  real estate salesman or professor or possibly

  a L-A-N-G-U-A-G-E poet, for, you know, a

  language poet will think twice about anything if

  he thinks it will get closer to the truth: yes,

  105yes, you’re right, I’m only kidding: I’m not

  typing or even talking, I’m yapping, and almost

  anything will outlast this measly rhyme: it’s

  metrical time for memory and next time around

  maybe I’ll take that up: but this time it’s

  110free verse for me: who wants to remember this

  century’s mess: I think the main reason,

  though, that I don’t have any subtle gestures,

  withery gracious moves, is that I came from a low

  religious caste, holy roller, where anything

  115under a shout is insincere; I never sat in any

  cool Presbyterian pew and considered the

  startling differences in effect between 3¼ and

  3½% interest over time: even Baptists held it down

  a little: they even held it under, and their

  120preachers talked just like they’d met somebody

  on the road, neighborly like: my kind were afire

  with the fire of the pentecost, although what

  they were actually lit up about was where the

  next meal or rag for their children would

  125come from: the surface tells the truth every

  time, but you
have to know how to read it right.

  1992 (1998)

  Clabberbabble

  How usage changes usage: with so many people

  in the cities, and so few geese, nobody is

  silly as a goose anymore, and the word anserine

  looks like something the w has been left out of:

  5so unexpected; in fact, silly as a goose: makes

  me think of some English hamlet, houses clustered

 

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