‘The pilot stowed my bag in the rear cupboard. I was just going to get it.’
‘Leave the damn bag.’ He dragged a hand through his hair and Miller realised how tired he looked.
She swallowed heavily. ‘Why were you looking for me?’
Had she forgotten something? Left something in their room?
‘Because I realised after you left that I loved you and I needed to tell you.’
‘You...what?’
He came towards her again and Miller’s back bumped the cabin wall. Her senses were stunned at his announcement.
Valentino stepped into her personal space and cupped her elbows in his hands. ‘You heard right. I love you, Miller. I’ve spent my whole life convincing myself it was the last thing I wanted, but fortunately you came along and proved me wrong.’
Miller tried to still her galloping heart. ‘You told me that racing was all you ever needed.’
‘Which shows you that you need to add stupidity to my list of flaws.’
‘I might have been a bit harsh earlier.’
‘No, you weren’t.’ He hesitated. ‘After my father died I was determined never to love anyone because I convinced myself that I wanted to protect them from the hurt I had experienced. But you were right. I was protecting myself.’ He shook his head. ‘Until you came into my life, Miller, I truly believed that I didn’t have the capacity to love anyone.’
Miller felt her heart swell in her chest. She desperately wanted to believe that he loved her but her old fears wouldn’t let go.
He squeezed her hands gently. ‘You’re thinking something. What is it?’
‘I thought you always knew what I was thinking?’ Miller smiled weakly at her attempt at humour.
‘Usually I do, but right now...I’m too scared to guess.’
Scared? Valentino was scared?
His admission was raw, and unbridled hope sparked deep inside her. ‘You risk your life every time you race.’
He laughed. ‘That’s nothing compared to this. Now tell me what you’re thinking, baby.’
Miller felt as if her heart had a tractor beam of sunlight shining right at it at the softness of his tone. ‘I’m thinking that I may never outgrow my need for certainty, and I don’t know if I can watch you throw yourself around a track every other week without making you feel guilty. Watching you qualify today, I thought I was going to throw up.’
‘You won’t have to do either. I’ve organised a meeting first thing tomorrow morning to announce my retirement from the circuit. Effective immediately.’
Miller didn’t try to hide her shock. ‘Why would you do that? You love racing.’
‘I love you more.’
His words made her heart leap. ‘But what will you do instead?’
‘Andy and I have a patent over the new go-cart designs and we have visions of taking Go Wild global. I like your idea of turning it into a venue for corporations to use and I’m also thinking we can use it as a place to give kids interested in competing some personal coaching.’
Miller nodded. ‘That’s a great idea.’
Valentino blew out a breath as if her opinion really mattered. ‘Good. I’m glad you like it. In fact, I was hoping to convince you to consult for us. Andy and I know a lot about cars, but we know jack about running a business.’
‘You want me to work for you?’ Miller knew she was smiling like a loon.
‘Only if you want to—God, Miller, you’re beautiful.’ Valentino dropped her hands and hauled her against him, kissing her so passionately she couldn’t think straight.
He drew back, shuddering. ‘Where was I? Oh, yeah. Marry me.’
‘Marry you?’
‘I’m sorry I don’t have a ring yet. Honestly, I’ve been fighting my feelings so hard for so long I’m embarrassingly under-prepared, but I promise to make it up to you.’
Remembering how everything had gone so wrong between them just hours earlier, Miller felt some of her anxiety return.
As if sensing her tumultuous emotions, Valentino tugged her in against him again. ‘If you don’t like the idea that’s fine. I know you have your own dreams to follow and I’ll support you in whatever they are.’ He smiled. ‘Just so long as we find a little bit of time to have a house full of kids.’
‘A house full?’
‘You said you didn’t like being an only child.’
‘I hated it.’ Miller’s head was reeling.
‘Then we should probably try for more than one, because chances are they’ll hate it too.’
Once again happiness threatened to engulf her, but a tiny niggle of doubt still prevailed. ‘Wait. You’re steamrollering me again.’
‘But I am wearing a suit this time. Does that count?’
Miller felt both fearful and excited in the face of his unwavering resolve. ‘It does help that you look insanely handsome in one, yes.’
Valentino clasped her face in his hands. ‘Okay, you’re still worried. Talk to me.’
Miller wet her dry lips and took a deep breath. He’d put his heart on the line for her, was giving up his racing career to be with her. The least she could do was confide her greatest fear.
‘Valentino, you can’t possibly feel the same way about me as I do about you, and that will eventually ruin everything between us.’
She tried to glance away, feeling utterly miserable now, but he held her fast.
‘How do you feel about me, Miller?’
‘I love you, of course. But—’
She didn’t get any further as his mouth captured hers in a blistering kiss so full of sensual passion and promise that tears stung the backs of her eyes.
‘Stop.’ She pushed at him weakly, her body trembling against his. ‘You’re too good at that, and it doesn’t change the fundamental law of relationships.’
‘Which one’s that?’ he asked, nuzzling the side of her neck.
Miller tried to put some distance between them, but his hold was implacable. ‘The one that says one person will always love more than the other.’
Her voice was so anguished Valentino stopped kissing her and stared into her eyes. ‘I’ve never heard of that law, but you’ll never love me as much as I love you. I guarantee it.’
‘No.’ Miller shook her head. ‘Your feelings can’t possibly be as strong as mine are for you.’
Valentino smiled, pressed her against the cabin wall. ‘Want to argue about it for the rest of our lives?’
Miller burst out laughing, radiant happiness slowly soaking into every corner of her heart. ‘You’re serious!’
Valentino stayed her nervous hands in one of his. ‘I’ve never been more serious about anything. I once told you I’d never met a woman who excited me as much as racing—but, Miller, you do. I feel exhilarated just thinking about seeing you. And when I do...’ He shook his head, the depth of his emotions shining brightly in his eyes.
Miller gazed back at the only man who had ever made her heart sing. ‘I love you so much. I didn’t know it was even possible to feel like this about another person.’
‘Ditto, Sunshine. Now, put me out of my misery and tell me you’ll marry me.’
Completely overwhelmed by emotions no longer held at bay Miller grinned stupidly. ‘I’ll marry you—but with one condition.’
Valentino groaned. ‘I knew you wouldn’t make it easy. What’s the condition?’
Miller linked her hands behind his neck, deciding to have some fun with him. ‘We do it at my pace, not yours.’
Valentino threw back his head and laughed. ‘I told Sam that was my lucky shirt. Now it will be forever known as my life-changing shirt.’
Wriggling closer, Miller nuzzled his neck, the last of her doubts fading into nothing. ‘I love you.’
Valentino’s touch became purposeful, masterful. ‘And I you.’
Miller smiled. How had she ever thought love was horrible? Love was wonderful.
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CHAPTER ONE
SHE was better off without the job, Allegra told herself.
No one should have to put up with that.
Except that walking in the rain along grey London streets, taking the underground to various employment agencies, the anger that her boss could make such a blatant a pass at her and then fire her for not succumbing started to be replaced with something that felt close to fear.
She needed that job.
Needed it.
Her savings had been obliterated by the bottomless pit that was her family’s excess spending. At times it felt as if her lowly publishing wage supported half the Jackson family. Yes, she was the boring reliable one, but they didn’t mind her dependability when their erratic ways found them in trouble. Just last week she had lent her stepmother, Chantelle, close to five thousand pounds in cash for credit card debts that her father didn’t know about. It was laughable to think that she might now have to have her family support her.
It was a miserable day, with no sign that it was spring; instead it was cold and wet, and Allegra dug her hands deeper into her trench coat pockets, her fingers curling around a fifty-pound note she had pulled out of the ATM. If her boss refused to put her pay in tomorrow it was all she had before being completely broke.
No!
She’d been through worse than this, Allegra decided. As Bobby Jackson’s daughter she was all too used to the bailiffs but her father always managed to pick himself up; he never let it get him down. She was not going to sink, but hell, if she did, then she’d sink in style!
Pushing open a bar door, she walked in with her head held high, the heat hitting her as she entered, and Allegra slipped off her coat and hung it, her hair dripping wet and cold down her back. Normally she wouldn’t entertain entering some random bar, but still, at least it was warm and she could sit down and finally gather her thoughts.
There had been a confidence to her as she’d stalked out of her office with dignity. With her track record and her job history, a lot of the agencies had called over the years offering her freelance work.
It had been sobering indeed to find out that they were hiring no one, that the financial crisis and changes to the industry meant that there were no causal jobs waiting for her to step into.
None.
Well, a chance for a couple, but they added up to about three hours’ work per month.
Per month!
Allegra was about to head to the bar but, glancing around, saw that it was table service so she walked over to a small alcove and took a seat, the plush couch lined with velvet. Despite its rather dingy appearance from the street, inside it was actually very nice and the prices on the menu verified that as fact.
She looked up at the sound of laughter—a group of well-dressed women were sipping on cocktails and Allegra couldn’t help but envy their buoyant mood. As her eyes moved away from the jovial women they stilled for a fraction, because there, sitting at a table near them, lost in his own world, was possibly the most beautiful man ever to come into her line of vision. Dark suited, his thick brown hair was raked back to show an immaculate profile, high cheekbones and a very straight nose; his long legs were stretched out and crossed at the ankle. But despite his rather languorous position, as he stared into his glass there was a pensiveness to him, a furrow between his eyebrows that showed he was deep in thought. The furrow deepened as there was another outbreak of laughter from the women’s table, and just as he looked up, just as he might have caught her watching, Allegra was terribly grateful for the distraction of the waitress who approached.
‘What can I get you?’ Allegra was about to order a glass of house wine, or maybe just ask if they could do her a pot of tea and a sandwich, because she really ought to try a couple more job agencies, but hell, a girl could only take so much rejection in one day and she may well be living off tea and sandwiches for a long while yet!
‘A bottle of Bollinger please.’ It was an extravagant gesture for Allegra, an unusual one as well. She was extremely careful with her pay cheque, saving twenty percent to put towards her first mortgage before it even hit her account, determined never to be like her family—but where had that gotten her?
The waitress didn’t bat an eye; instead she asked how many glasses.
‘Just the one.’
She was given a little bowl of nuts too!
‘Celebrating?’ the waitress asked as she poured her drink.
‘Sort of,’ Allegra admitted, and then, left alone, she decided that she was. For months she had put up with her boss’s thinly veiled leers and skin-crawling comments. It was worth celebrating just to finally be past all that, so she raised her glass to the window, in the general direction of her old work place.
‘Cheers!’
As she turned she caught Mr. Gorgeous watching her—not staring, just idly curious—and she couldn’t blame him for that. After all, she was raising a glass to the window. She gave him a brief smile and then turned back to her thoughts, took out a pen and the notebook and list of contacts that she always carried and set about making copious lists, determined, determined, that by the end of the week she would be back in work.
Halfway down the bottle and she didn’t feel quite so brave. If anything, half a bottle of champagne on an empty stomach had her emotions bubbling and she was dangerously close to tears, especially when the waitress came over.
‘You didn’t sign the register when you came in,’ the waitress said, and even before she continued Allegra knew what was coming and inwardly flinched as realization dawned. ‘You are a member, aren’t you?’ She felt a blush spread on her cheeks. Of course it was a private club that she’d entered, not some bar she’d just wandered into, and just as she was about to apologise and fling down her fifty-pound note and flee, a voice that was as pleasing as its owner saved her the embarrassment.
‘Why are you hiding there?’ A deep warm voice had both Allegra and the waitress turn around and she found herself looking now into the eyes of the pensive stranger—very brown eyes that stayed steady as hers blinked in confusion. He turned and addressed the waitress. ‘Sorry, she’s my guest. I’ll sign her in in a moment.’ The waitress opened her mouth to say something—after all, Allegra had been sitting there alone for a good half an hour or so and he had made no effort to join his guest—but perhaps he was a favourite customer, or maybe it was just his impressive stance, because, without comment, the waitress left them to it.
‘Thanks,’ Allegra said as he took a seat in front of her. ‘But no thanks. I’ll just settle my bill....’ She went to go, but as he moved to stop her, his hand reaching across the table, she shot him a look that told him unwelcome contact would be a very foolish mistake on his part. Given the day she’d had, Allegra had enough pent-up energy to give this stranger a little piece of her mind.
‘As I said, thank you, but no thank you.’
‘At least finish your drink,’ said the stranger. ‘It would be a shame to waste it.’
It would be a crying shame actually.
Maybe she could take it with her, Allegra thought wildly, having visions of herself walking down the street, half-drunk bottle in hand, bemoaning her situation. She found herself smiling at the very thought—not smiling at him, of course, except he interpreted it as such, because he clicked slender fingers in the direction of the bar and summon
ed another glass. Allegra sat bristling as the waitress poured him a glass of her champagne.
‘I’m just trying to enjoy a quiet drink alone,’ she said pointedly.
‘Then sign in,’ he suggested.
‘Ha, ha!’
‘Or,’ he offered, ‘you can be my guest, which means you sit with me. I wouldn’t hear of it otherwise.’ She couldn’t place his accent. He spoke English terribly well; in fact, his voice was clipped and well schooled, unlike Allegra’s rather more London accent, but there was a slight ring to it, Spanish or Italian perhaps. She was determined not to stay long enough to find out.
‘Anyway,’ he carried on despite her lack of response, ‘you don’t look as if you are enjoying it. In fact, apart from the small salute to the window you seem as miserable as I am.’ She looked at him and saw that the impressive suit he was wearing wasn’t just dark, it was black, and so, too, the tie. Not just from the attire, but from the strain on his face, he had clearly come from a funeral. Now he was close, she could smell him—and he smelt nothing like the usual man in a bar. It wasn’t just the delicious hint of cologne that was unusual; he actually smelt of clean—there was no other way to describe it. His eyes were clear and bizarrely she felt herself relax just a little, for this was surely not a man who usually pressed attention, and it wasn’t as if she had anywhere else that she needed to be.
‘Are you usually so invasive?’
He thought about it for a moment. ‘No.’ He took a sip of drink and seemed to think about it some more. ‘Never. I just saw you looking so fed up and then when the waitress came over I thought...’
‘That you’d cheer me up?’
‘No.’ He gave a small shrug. ‘I thought we could be miserable together. Don’t look, but there are a group of women...’ He gestured his head and as instructed she didn’t look, but she knew who he meant. She’d heard their flirting laughter, and had easily guessed it was aimed towards him. ‘One of them in particular seems determined to join me.’
‘I’d have thought you’d have no trouble at all fighting off unwelcome attention.’ Unlike me, she didn’t add, but then she wasn’t particularly used to men vying for her attention—well, not gorgeous ones anyway. But knowing how to deflect unwelcome attention was surely a prerequisite to him stepping out on the street, because wherever he went he surely turned heads.
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