by Riley Moreno
Chapter 15
As soon as she asked who Emily Harold knew he was lost. He told her about Emily. “I wasn’t a very good husband at the end.” He said, and it was the first time he’d admitted to another person.
He broke down and cried for the pain he had put Emily through in the end. He didn’t want to ever be selfish like that again in his life.
She walked up and put her arms around him. Harold wrapped his arms around her tightly. The comfort of her arms around him made him feel better. He hadn’t felt this good in such a long time.
Harold was shocked she let him cry. He didn’t feel very manly, but it was a release his body and mind needed. He could feel the pain dripping off of his heart as he let go of the honest truth.
“I wasn’t I let her suffer just so I could hang onto her longer.” He cried out.
He felt her wrap her arms around him tighter. “Shh, it’s okay you only did what we all try to do.” Sandra comforted him.
Harold knew at that point he loved her. If he loved her for Sandra or for how much she was like Emily though, he wasn’t sure yet. But he held onto her tighter, pulling her closer.
As the tears slowed down Harold realized that he was feeling other things holding her tightly. He felt bad for thinking of Emily and crying about her death, then suddenly feeling like he wanted to make love to Sandra.
He pulled away, it wasn’t right. Not now he thought. Plus he was quite confused on who he was feeling the thoughts for honestly. If it was for his long dead wife, or for this coal black beauty he found in front of him.
Harold looked at her closely just studying her more. He looked at the green emerald pools of her eyes. He could melt into them. They weren’t Emily’s eyes. So these feelings of adoration he felt when looking at her eyes were for Sandra.
He was so scared to trust his instincts though. His mind was shouting out, “You’re in love!”
But he fought it as hard as he could. “This isn’t possible. Not at all, how can it be? She’s 12 years my junior, how can I love her?” He thought to himself.
Searching for the answers he had to confront some of his past. It wasn’t really something he wanted to do in front of her though. He felt naked and exposed to her. He had just broke down crying about his wife, how could he do it again? Because these were things about him he would have to face. “You’re flaws, you mean?” His mind formed the words that he didn’t want to admit.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for that to happen.” He apologized to Sandra. “It’s just so raw right now.” He saw her puzzled look and quickly went on to explain. “Not Emily’s death, that’s not raw. I just finally admitted how selfish I was with her life. I watched her suffer needless pain because I didn’t want to give her up. How much of an asshole does that make me? No don’t answer please, because I’ve figured it out. I’m not a person I would like at all. What in the world, how could I never see it before?” He stopped not wanting to go on any further. Because if he did he would tell her everything about him and he couldn’t do that.
He was so scared in so many ways right now. Harold knew he was facing a huge decision in his life. He was faced by it and he wanted to run from it. However, there was a part of him that was fighting to release all of the pain.
“She’s the right one. You’re safe.” He heard his mind say.
Harold looked down. Sandra touched his chin and told him. “We’ve all been there before. We’ve all made mistakes that we wish we could take back. The problem is that it often happens at the point where you can’t go back. I’ve been there too many times. I’m here if you need me.” She stated.
He looked in her eyes and knew she was telling him the truth. Tears poured from his eyes at the realization. “How did this happen?” He asked out loud.
She looked at him confused not knowing what to say.
“No you don’t know I haven’t said it yet. I didn’t want to believe it, but it’s hard not to. But I just don’t understand it at all. I’m so confused right now.” He looked at her the pain obvious in his eyes.
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She looked and saw that raw pain in his eyes and knew exactly how he felt. It was at that point that she also realized she loved him. But she didn’t know how the hell it had happened. She had almost hated this man no more than 15 minutes before. “How did this happen?”
He said the words at almost the same time she thought them. Sandra wasn’t sure if he’d said it or not. She just looked up at him and stared.
He added. “No you don’t know I haven’t said it yet. I didn’t want to believe it, but it’s hard not to. But I just don’t understand it at all. I’m so confused right now.”
Sandra was shocked it had been exactly what she had been thinking too. “I don’t know either.” She finally stated and just thought.
“He’s feeling the same way as she did. As she had just this morning before she had left the house. No actually today when she had learned that Harold had searched her past.” She thought.
Oh that’s right what could he have pulled up on me? He could have found out about Jason. She wondered about those records, did he know? She felt the shame of having allowed Jason to take advantage of her so many times. Sandra was ashamed at the admission. She knew it was because she had loved Jason so much.
She had given herself to him completely. He had become an obsession to her. Sandra craved him in a way that had scared her at that time. Maybe it was because he was so good looking she had fallen so quickly.
Sandra had to wonder why she had let Jason so close. But as she was reeling in the thought of her heart feeling something for Harold, she almost cried.
Then she had seen the look of pain in his eyes and knew he would understand her. She also knew that no matter what he said, she would understand it.
“It’s okay I’m here for you.” She had wrapped her arms around him again, waiting for him to talk.
Sandra understood how confused he was, she was fighting her own battle of wills internally.
“You love him, you know that now don’t you?” Her mind asked. It was a quiet little shy voice in her head. Sandra wanted to cry at the realization. She couldn’t figure out how it had happened. Why it had happened?
“I’ve been there before as well. I don’t know what you pulled up on me. But I’m going to tell you something I’ve never told a soul. Something that will for the first time be said out loud to anyone; I hope I can trust you.” She said.
He looked down at her and said. “You can trust me I would never hurt you.” She saw the truth in his eyes and melted.
The tears erupted from her eyes as she began talking. “How can I love you?” She didn’t mean to say it out loud but it was there.
Quickly she started telling her story. Hoping he hadn’t heard her words. “His name was Jason Jones and he was my college love. Hell the only man I loved. Until now.” She added the last part slowly and very quietly. “I was so in love with him that I took him back so many times even after he cheated on me. It was too many times to admit too. But I was so lonely I needed someone’s touch. Why did I trust him? It made me hate him and in the process I used that judgment against you. It was unfair of me. I’m sorry I hope you can forgive me of this.” Sandra said.
Harold pulled her closer kissing the top of her head.
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He had heard her tell him she loved him. She had tried to cover it up by telling the story of Jason Jones. But he had heard it and he knew that he loved her and not the ghost of Emily.
“I love you too. I don’t understand it at all either. It’s really hard for me to accept for many reasons.” He started. He stopped and looked at her when he said I love you. He kept looking at her to make sure she had heard him.
Before he continued he kissed her deeply. Harold sighed. Her lips felt so soft against his. He wanted to keep kissing her but he knew he had something to say.
“When I was 22 I ran off my dad’s wife. She was my step-mother and she always seemed to be
so fake, but i had lied to myself. I could swear she was a gold digger. She just was so rude to him all the time. But as I thought about it through the years I realized that my dad was being an asshole to her. She was only standing up to him.” His eyes wondered far off into the past as he relived one of those moments he had clearly misunderstood.
“Fuck you Edward, how dare you look at that other female? What’s wrong with me?” Harold thought about that moment once again. She had been right to say it. But Harold didn’t like her taking so much of his father’s time. So he had taken his dad’s side.
“Why can’t he look at them? He’s a man.” Harold had said to her. “Fuck dad she’s just a stupid bitch.” He had walked to the window and looked out.
“My dad was like your Jason. He loved women and he was never faithful to her. But in truth she tried to keep me out of trouble and I didn’t like it. She was always trying to help me with my homework if I didn’t get it. When my dad kicked her out about a week later, she had come crawling back to me. She swore she loved my father but I didn’t want her there. I could have fixed it if I wanted too. But I didn’t do it. I shut the door on her face and let my dad miss out on having a person love him so much. I think she would have done just about anything for him. I don’t know how many times she let him cheat on her either. I hate to think about it. I was always faithful to Emily. I would always be faithful to you.” He looked deep into her eyes.
Bowing his head he kissed her once again. She lifted her head to reach his mouth. They met in a connection that was hot as fire.
Harold could never imagine a kiss could feel like this again. It sent a shock of pleasure through his body. He wanted to possess her now. But he didn’t want too. He hadn’t planned for his body to so violently betray him.
But when she thrust her tongue into his mouth he couldn’t help but moan. Harold kissed her feverishly back. Increasing his pressure he moved his hands down the back of her body and cupped her plentiful ass cheeks in his hands.
He heard her moan and he pulled his mouth back. “We don’t have to if you don’t want too?” He said as a question. But Harold knew his eyes were showing the white hot lust he was currently feeling.
He felt like a dog in heat, he wanted to rip her clothes off of her and consume her completely. But there was just a slight bit of his civilized mind left that was telling him “no.”
“I want it, please.” She sighed and he thought she couldn’t look sexier.
He lifted her shift off and took her bra off quickly. He cupped his hands around her firm breasts. He lowered his mouth to her nipple and took it into his mouth. He sucked on it and applied a decent amount of pressure with his teeth. She moaned deeply and he ripped off her pants.
Harold undressed quickly. His penis was rock hard and he couldn’t wait any longer. He really wanted to enjoy her, but right now he was in an animal lust rage.
He quickly pushed himself deeply into her. She was leaning against his office chair, bent over he was enjoying the view. Her perfectly round ass was in the air, and he had to just bend his knees a bit to push into her.
She felt so good, tightly wrapped around his dick. He kept it buried inside of her, and moved his hips back and forth. Harold has always wanted to slam into Emily when she was bent over him.
He was so glad she was her, not Emily. He was glad he loved her for her. But right now his cock felt good as he slammed in and out of her hard. Harold loved the fact that she was screaming out “oh yes, give it to me baby.”
It drove him to thrust into her even harder he wasn’t able to hold it in and soon he filled her up. His cock was throbbing from the explosion of juices that had soaked her insides. Harold kept moving in and out of her as he felt her pussy tightening in orgasm around his shaft.
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Sandra had loved when he covered her mouth with his. She felt a heat of passion hit her. If he hadn’t gone on and made love to her, she might have raped him.
She laughed at that realization as her pussy was squeezing around his hard shaft as it pleased her. Sandra hadn’t remembered sex being this good. “No it’s because of how you feel about him.” Her mind said.
Sandra knew that was true. When she had first loved Jason it had felt almost this good. But with Harold it was better because she honestly believed he loved her.
“You believed that with Jason too.” That little part of her mind that was angry at her shouted out.
It was a hard thing to admit. But it was right; she was scared about this feeling. It left her wide open to pain. That pain that she had been through way too many times in the past.
Harold looked at her and saw the pain. “What’s wrong? Did I hurt you?” He asked.
Sandra looked up at him. “You are unbelievable sweet!” She kissed him. “No I’m just worried about being hurt again. I have only given my heart to one other person like this before. He ripped my heart apart and stomped on it more than one time. I’m so scared right now that you’ll do the same thing to me. But I love you and I want to enjoy your love.” Sandra said to him.
Harold looked down at her. “I will worship you. I love you, you will never doubt that once.” He promised.
Sandra believed him; she saw it in her eyes. She also felt it in the way he touched her.
She watched as he lowered his head to her pussy. He ran his tongue down her slit. She moaned loudly as he thrust one of his fingers into her and sucked on her clitoris.
Sandra pushed up into his face exposing more of her love flower to him. She looked down at him; he looked up at her and smiled. Then he pushed her over the edge of oblivion. His tongue worked its way around her nether regions and soon had her screaming out as she climaxed.
He kept going and licked her more. Pushing his tongue in and out of her. Sandra grabbed onto his head and felt her legs begin to quiver. “Oh my god not again!” She yelled out as he held him in place.
She heard him laugh and felt his tongue swirling around her lips more. He finally pulled up and kissed her deeply. She saw the juices that coated his cheeks.
Sandra looked at him and said. “What the hell I never knew it could be that good!” He laughed in response.
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Harold tasted her pussy and was in heaven. Sandra’s scent was exquisite and he couldn’t get enough of it. He worked her to one orgasm and wanted to make her scream more. He loved her grabbing onto his hair and pulling it as her legs quivered around his head.
She screamed out his name one time and it had driven him to make her cum even more. Using his fingers and tongue he had tasted her deeply. He was ready to share again.
His cock was rock hard and he moved into her gently. Looking down on her as he pushed in and out slowly. Savoring the folds of her interior as they moved around his dick.
Harold was more in control this time. He would be able to last longer. But even if he didn’t he knew they would be together as long as he lived. He wouldn’t let her go no matter what. She was worth fighting for. His love, now admitted, was on fire.
He wanted to marry her right now. “Will you marry me?” He asked her.
She looked up, his cock was buried deeply inside of her, and her mind was the mush that multiple orgasms made.
“Did I hear that right?” She asked.
Harold laughed. “Yes you did. I just realized I never want to let you out of my sight if I don’t have too.”
“Wow not even private time in the bathroom?” Sandra laughed.
“Well if you have to I guess it’s fine! But at least for a bit I just want it to be me and you.” He admitted.
“I seem to have a ton of time on my table right now!” She stated.
“If you want that job back, I’ll get it for you. I swear I’ll do whatever it takes to make you happy.” Harold said honestly.
“Maybe at a later time. Right now I like your first idea. I think I’d like to spend some more time with you. As much as I can!” She smiled up at him.
Harold sped up again and felt
his climax getting close. He kissed her deeply and moaned as he seed was released in her. They fell asleep with her wrapped in his arms.
Chapter 20
The next month and a half flew by. They had spent almost every hour together they could. The only time they were apart was the few times he couldn’t put off an important meeting. Even then she would often ride with him to the meeting. As he was talking, she would be off in a library, museum or some other place just relaxing.
It was night time; they had just gotten done making love. They did this almost every night. She hadn’t tired of him yet, and he seemed to be just as enthusiastic.
She sighed and kissed his chest. “Is this real?” She asked. Sandra didn’t know whether to believe it or not.
“Yes baby it is very real.” Harold commented.
“It’s been so long since I’ve felt this alive.” She admitted to him.
“Me too, way too long. I have to wonder what it would have been like if I had met you 10 years ago. If I had gone out right after I lost Emily. Or hell if I wouldn’t have been so selfish it would have been 12 years. I kept her around for 2 years longer than any sane person should have done.” Harold fully admitted his selfishness now.
Sandra and him had shared many in depth talks over the past month. They both had a clear picture of what the other had been through in their lives. It had made them much closer than Sandra could have ever felt when she was with Jason.
She looked up and kissed him on the lips. “You know that thing you do so well with your tongue?” She asked and he shook his head yes. “Would you mind doing that right now?”
He smiled and head down between her legs. Sandra loved how he made love to her with his mouth. She would never tire of how he made her body feel. She closed her eyes and let the sensations of pleasure carry her away.