by B C Morgan
Pulling back to sit on my heels beside him, he’s trapping my hand in his and interlocking our fingers. I can’t stop staring down at them, our joined hands and his tumultuous eyes.
“Woman, let me make you mine,” he says, leaving my mouth hanging open and I can’t form a coherent sentence. All I can think about right now is his injuries and how he shouldn’t be thinking about sex.
“But... you hate me,” looking off to the side as I rub the back of my neck, I feel so confused.
“For the smartest girl I know, you say some really stupid shit. That is far from what I feel for you,” his hand cups my chin and pulls me closer until the tips of our noses are connecting lightly.
“You’re hurt,” I’m lacking all kinds of conviction as my fingers trail around the back of his head and lightly pull at the hair lying on the nape of his neck.
“Woman, I would go through it all again to have you looking at me like this. You’re worth everything,” his stare is intense, and I feel stripped bare under the heat of it. He sees me for who I am and he accepts me. Our mouths crash together, and his hiss of pain turns to moans of pleasure as I lean over him, straddling his waist.
“I’m not in tip top condition for this to go the way I’ve pictured, but I’ll make it up to you,” he breathes against my lips as his hands move over my arse and massage my flesh.
I climb off and I should win a medal for how fast I remove my top and trousers, before resuming my position.
“Fuck, woman,” he’s staring at me with so much lust and desire I fear I may spontaneously combust.
“I need to be inside you, but I promise it won’t be quick next time,” he says thickly as his fingers pushes my thong to the side and he slips one inside as I circle my hand around his cock.
We move in rhythm until we’re both panting and I pull away enough that his finger slips out, leaving me feeling empty until I push down against his tip and his groans match mine as I push him in deeper. I’m clean and covered and despite knowing better, I want to feel him bared to me.
He’s cupping my face, which I am more than happy to lean into while grinding my hips slowly. I’m so scared that I’ll hurt him more, I don’t dare move too hard or fast but it doesn’t matter. I can tell by his face that he’s as close as I am and as we reach our apex and fall over the cliff together, all I can think is if this is oblivion, can I just stay here. With him.
ROXIE PAID for us to have two days here, I have no idea how I can ever pay her back. I haven’t even spoken to Harrison about what happened and that was yesterday, what am I doing? He keeps looking at me, but he isn’t saying anything either.
“We should head back to Roxie’s and get our things, she hasn’t seen hide nor hair of Dante but she doesn’t exactly know who she’s looking for,” I’m burying my head in my hands, I wonder if he can hear me.
“Henleigh, we’re going to run out of places to hide,” his hand is running along my back and all I want to do is sink into him and steal some of his warmth for myself. I feel ice cold inside, even if it is twenty-three degrees in here.
“I know, but what if he hurts her? He set fire to my house, and we barely made it out. I can’t have any more lives ruined because of me,” I’m shouting and I know I shouldn’t, but what else can I do? I’m falling apart at the seams and I’m struggling to put myself back together again.
His mouth is on mine and I can hardly catch my breath, my anger is starting to morph into something just as fierce and hot and I think only Harrison can quench it.
“None of this is your fault, do you hear me woman, none of it. If you want to run, then we’ll run, but we need to do this right and put some more thought into it. He’s always ahead of us and we need to figure out how,” he’s so damn passionate, why did he have to stop kissing me.
“Mattias is looking into it,” I reply meekly, staring up at him.
He brushes the pad of his thumb across my lips and I’m not thinking as I pull it into my mouth, swirling my tongue around the tip before releasing it with a pop. His eyes are rolling to the back of his head before they lock back onto mine, his desires mirroring mine perfectly.
“Let’s go before I find a reason for us to never leave this room,” he links our fingers before pulling me up out of my seat and leading me to my fate.
Please Mattias, I need you to have found something, anything. Because Harrison is right, we cannot run forever, either we go to a spot where no one will find us and live in isolation or he finds us and its game over. Maybe we can stop him, but the odds do not look good.
MATTIAS COULDN’T FIND ANYTHING, however he’s tracking us, it’s not through the phones. That option has been blown out of the water, we are still no closer to figuring out how he is doing all of this.
“I’m sorry Henleigh, I tried,” he says, looking and sounding so despondent.
“It’s not your fault, at least we know our phones are safe now. No more having to snap my SIM card every time I feel weak and message one of the guys,” I say, with utter diarrhoea of the mouth. I didn't mean to say all of that.
“Does that include Amias?” Noah asks, appearing in the doorway of the kitchen. I don’t know what he wants me to say, but I still won’t lie.
“No, I can’t forgive Amias for what he did. I don’t know if that will ever change,” I say simply, wringing my hands in front of me as he comes closer and crouches in front of my seat.
“Good, he’s an arsehole, and he doesn’t deserve you to forgive him easily. If you decide to, then make sure he works for it. Fucking dickhead,” I have no idea why he added the insult onto the end, but I’ve never seen him this angry.
“What happened between you two?” I wasn’t planning on asking him yet, but I have to know. They were friends, the kind I never thought I’d have. What broke it, please don’t say me.
“I couldn’t forgive him for telling you about me having my test done, I tried but then I found out about him and Elijah and it just got worse,” his eyes are widening, oh yeah he did not mean to share that little tidbit with me.
“What about him and Elijah? If this is some weird kind of kinky threesome with those two and another girl then you can blow over that,” my cheeks are heating, I wonder if he can see how embarrassed I’m feeling right now?
“Elijah was struggling to leave you alone, so he went off to uni and tried to throw himself into his work. He isn’t seeing anyone else, he just got worried that you’d jump to conclusions when you heard that girl’s voice and then he let it slip about knowing you and Harrison were together,” he’s staring at me and I can’t see a hint of guilt, did he not know? “I didn’t know what they were doing and when I found out I cut ties with them both. It hasn’t lasted with Eli, turns out it’s hard to stay mad at him but Amias is a whole other story.”
“Okay Noah, I need you to focus for a minute and not go off on a tangent. How did they know I was with Harrison?” I have no idea when Matti left and I can’t even begin to wonder about that, I’ve been dying to find out the answer to this question for a while now. Maybe Noah can explain it to me.
“Can we talk in your room?” He asks as he rubs his neck hard enough to leave a bright red mark.
I have no idea why a change in venue will make a difference, but why the hell not?!
We sit down on my bed and he takes my hand in his, his leg is bouncing up and down and he’s struggling to maintain eye contact. It can’t be that bad, surely.
“Amias got beaten because he decided to leave Devon’s, let’s say ‘services’ but after you left, he went straight back. This Devon that you both know wanted him to keep an eye on you, but he couldn’t keep track. Until he got Elijah involved, he gave him your number so he could keep track and he did it every time you messaged him on a new one,” that son of a bitch, Noah is drawing circles on my hand trying to calm me, I just don’t think it’s going to be enough this time.
“When you called him to ask about breaking into your father's office, he told Amias and then he rang me. T
old me everything they’d been doing. How he’s been helping Amias to basically stalk you and he was feeling guilty about it especially when we found out that your house was set alight. My love, that is all I know, but Amias has been tracking you for a while.”
“I have to tell Harrison, we knew there were at least two separate groups following us, I just didn’t think Amias would be a part of it. Although it makes sense, Devon told me he’s had someone watching over me ever since we lost Elliott. I’m just disappointed in myself that it took this long,” my cheeks are wet, oh well. Surely I must run out of tears eventually, right?
“What’s going on with you and Harrison? I saw you looking at him when you sang and it was hard to miss his reaction when we kissed, just be honest with me please Leighbear,” I need to stand up, I can’t sit still as I say this out loud for the first time.
A confession that Harrison should hear, but I’m not ready for that yet. Besides, Noah has always been my confidante, other than Roxie, why shouldn’t I tell him?
“Honestly, I don’t know,” swiping my hand over my face as I groan out loud. “We were friends out of circumstance, he was at risk because of me so we kept each other safe or at least, we tried to. I started feeling something that I couldn’t explain or maybe I didn’t want to,” no I’m saying this all wrong. Taking a deep breath, I need to stop moving. Looking into Noah’s eyes, I take in a deep breath and get ready to say what I need to.
“We slept together the night of the concert, it was irresponsible and crazy especially with how injured he was, but I couldn’t refuse him. I didn’t want to, oh god Noah I... I love him,” my heart has stopped beating, I feel lighter than air as I let go of the one thing I’ve been trying to fight and deny. It was exhausting but now it’s out there and I can’t take it back.
“You love me?” Oh shit, no, no, no. He was not supposed to hear that, spinning around to face him is almost more than I can bear. I cannot meet his eyes, not after what he just heard.
“I should leave you two alone,” Noah says making this even more awkward, I didn’t even think that was possible considering the situation.
“No, I think you should stay,” Harrison barks out, his tone short as he closes the door and seals us all within a room that once felt spacious, but is now making me feel incredibly claustrophobic.
“Sit down Henleigh,” hey he can’t boss me around, and I’m going to make that clear. “Woman, sit the fuck down,” he orders and my traitorous body does as its told. What are you doing girl?
“Come on Harrison, there’s no need to be like this with her,” Noah says with his hands held out in front of him, I don’t think a placating gesture is going to work right now.
“She confesses her love for me and I’m not even in the room to hear it, oh no, that's you Noah boy. So yeah, I think I can be given a little slack, all things considered,” his tone is as sharp as a Katana blade and I don’t doubt just as deadly.
“You’re right and I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said it,” I say weakly, staring at my hands as I chip away at the varnish on my nails.
His heavy steps sound loudly across the floor until the tips of his boots are in my eye line and he’s crouching in front of me. Gripping my chin and lifting my head so our eyes are connected.
“Don’t say that, because that would mean you regret it and something like that would slay me. I just wish you had told me first, why didn’t you?” His eyes are showing me so much vulnerability and my heart is bleeding at the pain I see reflected within.
“It scares me to feel like this for you, we haven’t even spoken since we had sex. We just went back to normal, minus that toe curling kiss before we came here of course. What if you didn’t feel the same way? I couldn’t face finding out,” sliding my fingers across the stubble on his face, I can’t help but chew on my bottom lip and his eyes are zeroing in on the action.
“Have you forgiven Noah?” He’s going to give me whiplash with all this back and forth. I wonder if he could find a job as a human boomerang. This is not the time for jokes.
“Yes, it still hurts that he kept it from me but after everything that’s happened. Clearly life is too short to stay mad forever,” I say softly, while looking at Noah who has the sweetest smile on his face.
“Good, because I don’t have any idea how to share you and I’m smart enough to know that being with you means having to accept that I'll have to learn. Whether it’s just with Noah or those other arseholes, I don’t know. That’s entirely up to you but I’m going to need a little help with this one,” his dark eyes are smouldering as he frees my lips and sucks it into his mouth, biting on it himself before letting it go.
I wish I was strong enough to hold in my moan, but it feels too damn good. Especially as his hand gently circles my neck and his other massages my hip. I pull away slowly, breathing deeply.
“What do you want me to do?” Noah asks and I really shouldn’t, but I can’t help laughing, he sounds so worried. Maybe I should be, but there’s too much relief coursing through me for anything else to register.
“I’m not going to be like dickias,” Harrison says and my face must look so confused because he’s rolling his eyes at me before he continues, “Amias, woman. I don’t want to be like him, if you have more than one guy then you should be able to kiss them whenever you want because I know I won’t hold back kissing and touching you just because Noah is in the room,” he’s giving me another lingering kiss to prove his point and Noah doesn’t even look away.
“How are you okay with watching that?” He asks, as he stares at Noah causing him to come closer.
“I had a bit more time to get used to it, plus Elijah has four dads and I’ve seen the way they interact. Besides how can I get jealous when me and Lija tag teamed on the foreplay the day after prom,” slapping him across the chest feels justified with his tag team comment. Seriously, you’re smarter than that.
“Sorry my love, that came out wrong I just wasn’t sure how else to word it,” he says sheepishly as he goes the colour of a tomato. Even his neck is flushing red, it’s adorable.
“Is that what you want woman, to have both of your guys at the same time,” his thick voice is making my stomach pool with desire as he strokes his hands up the insides of my thighs.
“I... don’t know, I never thought about it,” I say breathlessly, as my head drops back and I can see Noah sitting down behind me so I can rest my head on his shoulder.
“Well then, maybe you should start. I love you Henleigh and I want to make you happy, you deserve to feel happy woman,” his eyes are hotter than pools of lava, but his smile is soft and it’s such a fucking contrast.
Can I do this, be with both of them at the same time.
“We have to go again Harrison, we can’t stay and you know I won’t let Noah come with us. How would this be fair to any of us,” a broken record seems the most fitting analogy with the way my voice keeps cracking.
“I know that my love, but I won’t let you stay gone forever. Why can’t we be together one last time until the rest of our life can begin properly?” His words are a balm to my frazzled and damaged soul, maybe I should stop thinking for a moment.
Threading my fingers through his hair, a breathless “okay” slips free and his head drops down to my neck while he slips one of his hands down the front of my top. I arch into his hand while Harrison leans away and watches, I feel awkward as fuck with him watching us but I’m not sure what else to do.
“Touch yourself for me,” Noah says, causing both me and Harrison to stare at him in shock. Before Harrison grabs hold of my leggings and pulls them from me.
Noah tugs harder on my nipple as Harrison watches my hand glide down my stomach and brush the triangle of my thong to the side. His eyes are heated as he watches me glide my fingers through my wetness and dipping them inside myself. I can’t take my eyes off him, I’m transfixed by his stare, I feel as though he’s devouring me with one look and my body feels as though I’m burning up from the inside out.<
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I push my head into Noah’s shoulder harder as he begins playing with both my nipples, tugging and twisting as Harrison grabs my ankle and starts kissing up my leg.
Pulling my hand away, he places his on top and shakes his head. “Don’t stop,” he says deeply, lust deepening his voice beyond familiarity.
I start stroking myself again as he drops his mouth over my centre and thrusts his tongue inside, “oh god,” I moan out as Noah pulls my top off over my head before lying me back and he closes his mouth over my nipple.
Harrison growls at the taste of me as he pins my hands over my stomach and uses his free hand to thrust two fingers inside whilst sucking on my clit. Oh dear heavens above, I think they’re trying to kill me with orgasms.
It tears through me and I turn my head to bite down on Noah’s neck, muffling my cries. He moans out as Harrison moves away, grabs my ankles and pulls me until my arse is hanging over the edge and he’s lining his tip up with my entrance.
“Noah, kneel beside my head,” I can dish out the orders too it seems. I can see him swallow deeply, as Harrison keeps himself pressed against me, teasing me.
Noah releases himself from his trousers and I circle him with my hand before drawing him into my mouth, now this is heaven. Harrison thrusts himself home within me and my eyes roll back as I swallow Noah as deeply as I can. I’m relaxing my throat and making up the difference with my hand, as I circle him with my tongue before swallowing which brings his hand into my hair. He fists it so tightly, but it only makes me wetter as Harrison drives himself within me, hard and fast.
He’ll pay for it later when the excitement wears off and the pain returns, but I haven’t got it in me to make it stop. I’m a red-blooded woman, I wouldn’t stop this for anything.
“Henleigh, you’re so fucking tight and wet,” he groans out as he hits harder, his thrusts becoming sloppy as my walls tighten around him and we come undone as stars explode before my eyes.
Noah tries to jerk away but I refuse to release him, squeezing his arse tight with my free hand. I can feel him pulsing and he grunts out as he explodes into my mouth and I don’t even think as I swallow every last drop.