Poems From the Underground Volume 2

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by Robert C. Waggoner


  This is why so many people just stay single.

  At least they focus on themselves and don't get hurt.

  They don't have to be all

  Of somethin somebody says they're wantin.

  When they're really lyin like always and they don't want nothin.

  Can You Take It

  You're all I could need

  And I mean it

  Don't ever question my words

  Cuz everything is

  The truest I can say

  Cuz there's no other way

  I can describe it

  How I feel and it's real

  Outside and inside, it

  Always feels like I'm about to explode

  Going over the limit to be in it

  With you, knowin the road

  To where we wanna be is

  So long and hard to go down, it

  Feels like the weight of this world is drownin

  All on me, makin me wonder if that moment

  When we no longer have to hunger and be lonely

  Will ever get here or if it only

  Makes us wait so long to hurt us

  I don't know why it's like this

  But I know I don't deserve this

  Missin you ever single second

  Even when we're talkin

  Every word you say, I'm hangin on for the next one

  Thinkin how nobody else ever made 

  Anything like this

  I know I love you

  But bein here without you, I don't like it

  So please tell me you want this as bad as I do

  Cuz if you don't, then I won't bother

  Because any other person can't be anything like you

  So there won't be any chance to ever feel as I do right now

  And nobody will come close to makin me whole again

  Or even try as much as how 

  You keep on doin every day we're together

  Makin me hope and wish that the forever

  That we talk about is really comin

  So I don't have to sit here any longer and wonder

  And wait and hate that we're separated

  I know I'm goin crazy. Are you, too? Can you take it?

  Tears of Life

  Maybe my life

  Isn't worth living anymore

  And some day,

  I'll be

  What I could've

  Never been before

  If there really is a Heaven

  Up above

  And it is now

  My time to go

  Hopefully,

  I'll be there waiting

  Looking down on you

  With more love

  Than you could ever know

   

  Right now

  My eyes

  Are drowning me

  In a thousand tears

  Like the raging waters

  Of the sea

  It's so hard to bare the thought

  Of you having to go on

  Living all alone

  Without me

   

  But I know that one day

  We will be together again

  At least that is what

  I've heard some say

  I want to believe in it

  That our love

  Will never

  Have to end

  Refrain

  How do you

  Do the things you do

  You make me love you

  And hate you

  At the same time

  Some days,

  I wanna kill you

  And other days,

  I'm so glad you're mine

   

  I try not

  To take you for granted

  I try to show you

  Just how much you mean

  It's hard to feel

  Just the love

  Or just the hate

  I'm always

  Somewhere in between

  I’m Lovin’ You Just Because

  We've been together

  So long it seems

  Like sometimes

  It ain't no good

  Some days

  You don't wanna

  Keep on tryin

  But hey, Baby,

  Don't ya think we should

  I wish I could give my all

  Not a day goes by

  I don't wish I could change

  Maybe I don't show you

  Everything you're worth

  But I try

  And it's strange

  But I...

  Find myself

  Lovin you all over again

  Fallin so deep

  I can't dig my way out

  But I wouldn't want to

  And I...

  Can't keep

  From never wantin it to end

  You do so many things

  To make me mad at you

  But I remember

  How we felt

  Years ago

  I know I love you

  With all I have

  There's no way to know

  The reasons why I do

  But I have to ask

  What made me

  Fall in love with you

  I can't figure out

  Why I do

  All I can tell

  Is I'm lovin you

  Just because

  Final Goodbyes

  When you told me

  It was over,

  I lost my mind

  You took

  The air from my lungs

  You left me

  Deaf, dumb, and blind

  I'm trying

  To learn to breathe again

  I've been crying

  So much

  There's an ocean

  On the floor

  Right where

  My heart has been

   

  I know deep down

  To the very

  Core of my soul

  That we'll never

  Be together

  I'm crushed

  I'm a wreck

  I don't believe

  That all of time

  Can make me whole

   

  It doesn't matter

  Where you go

  You won't tell me

  And I don't need

  To know

  All of the moments

  We've had in our lives

  Have been leading

  Up to these

  Final goodbyes

   

  One thing

  That you have

  To always know is true

  However long

  Eternity is

  It won't be enough

  For me to stop loving you

   

  You've been

  Everything

  There is to me

  And now,

  You've taken away

  All my energy

  Maybe I can

  Go on for a while

  But I will never forget

  Your face or your smile

  Your touch or your breath

  Attempting this life

  Without you in it

  Is an unending death

   

  It doesn't matter

  Where you go

  You won't tell me

  And I don't need

  To know

  All of the moments

  We've had in our lives

  Have been leading

  Up to these

  Final goodbyes

   

  I'm calling your name

  Inside of me

  But it doesn't help

  For me to see

  What happened

  For so long

  That I wasn't aware

  And I don't have

  Any strength to be strong

   

  Maybe this is for...

  The best

  You too
k what

  Was left of

  A broken heart

  Kept what you wanted

  And gave back the rest

   

  It doesn't matter

  Where you go

  You won't tell me

  And I don't need

  To know

  All of the moments

  We've had in our lives

  Have been leading

  Up to these

  Final goodbyes

   

  Maybe I can

  Go on for a while

  But I will never forget

  Your face or your smile!

  Your touch or your breath

  Attempting this life

  Without you in it

  Is an unending death

  I can't live

  Here without you

  I'm falling so hard

  I can't pull through

   

  It doesn't matter

  Where you go

  You won't tell me

  And I don't need

  To know

  All of the moments

  We've had in our lives

  Have been leading

  Up to these

  Final goodbyes

  Dying

  Am I dying

  Am I alive

  Am I crying

  For something inside

  I will never have

  The broken

  Emptyness

  Is a constant reminder

  That I will never be

  Anything

  I am trying

  To live

  I am lying to you

  To me

  Telling us both

  That I've given everything

  When I know I haven't

   

  My pain

  Is irrelevant

  The fact that

  I'm going insane

  Is evident

  I know

  I can't kill my pain

  It haunts me

  It owns me

  It tells me

  What I'm allowed to be

  Nothing but a wretch

  A shadow of a being

  Blindly walking

  In a hollow shell

  Never seeing

  What's out there

  Or what's inside

  No Name

  In another time

  And another place

  I might once again

  See her face

  But the memory

  Is running a race

  Against my sanity

  Keeping me

  From being free

  Making me lose my mind

  Everything I try to love

  Is an unpleasant taste

  Of the world I've made

  Without the only one

  That cared for me

  I could ever find

  Cursed

  There's a place

  No one knows

  Where easy come

  Is easy go

  And it is

  So hard to get there

   

  It's so unfair

  No one cares

  In this place

  I go through Hell

  Every day

  That I am living

  I've had a lot more

  Than my share

  Of everything that can't compare

  To what others have

  And are never giving

   

  The torments that I've faced

  Never end

  In this place

  It is bitter

  It ain't sweet

  Life drops

  Disasters at my feet

  So much has been

  Taken away

  Lost forever

  Or gone astray

  Because this place

  Is cursed for me

   

  I keep trying

  To forget my loss

  Enjoy this life

  And say damn the costs

  But it all adds up so fast

  I can't cope

  With the hurt

  With the pain

  With the constant

  Agonizing strain

  That it sends my way

  Destroying any hope

  That I had

  Leaving me broken

  And so sad

   

  I've lost so much

  There's no more

  That I can gain

  I am dying

  A million times a day

   

  The torments that I've faced

  Never end

  In this place

  It is bitter

  It ain't sweet

  Life drops

  Disasters at my feet

  So much has been

  Taken away

  Lost forever

  Or gone astray

  Because this place

  Is cursed for me

   

  Heaven has no room

  For someone like me

  I've already been through Hell

  It tried to blind me

  But I still see

  Though I don't want to go on

  Remembering

   

  It all sickens me

  That nothing is

  Ever free

  I can't be left alone

  I can never be

  Anything I wanted

  I can't find

  Deliverance

  I have no patience

  To fight temptation

  To end it all

  My salvation

  Is a void

  It is the wall

  That is in this place

  It is the memory

  Of her face

  It is the struggles

  That I can't

  Seem to chase away

  I can't accept

  The separation

   

  The torments that I've faced

  Never end

  In this place

  It is bitter

  It ain't sweet

  Life drops

  Disasters at my feet

  So much has been

  Taken away

  Lost forever

  Or gone astray

  Because this place

  Is cursed for me

   

  The horrors that I've seen

  Have been my reality

  And my dreams

  Nothing ever seems

  To get any better

  The comfort

  In between

  All the misery

  And the means

  To carrying on

  Is that I know

  I will never in all my life

  Forget her

   

  The torments that I've faced

  Never end

  In this place

  It is bitter

  It ain't sweet

  Life drops

  Disasters at my feet

  So much has been

  Taken away

  Lost forever

  Or gone astray

  Because this place

  Is cursed for me

  It is cursed for me

   

  It is too dreadful

  To leave me be

  Anything but

  Unforgiving

  Of myself

  I can't believe

  I'll never see

  My love again

  Death has taken

  All I thought I could need

  And left me with

  A heart to bleed

  But it won't give me what I want

  And kill me

  I Thought It Was

  I thought that we

  Would always be

  Livin this life

  Together,

  Hand in hand

  It took me by surprise

  That that wasn't
her plan

  She didn't really need

  A guy like me

  She didn't wanna see

  What we could've become

  It's all over now

  It all went down

  The drain I didn't know was there

  Though I knew

  It was her nature to run

   

  But she flew away

  And she's gone

  Another day

  Another day,

  She might come back home

  Wherever she went

  She had to go

  Her time, it never was spent

  Well enough to know

  What we ever could've been

  How I really felt

  What she always meant to me

  That I didn't wanna

  Start my life over again

  That I didn't wanna be

  In this place alone

  All on my own

  My heart was part of hers

  At least I thought it was

   

  Time slips on by

  Flowin like a stream

  I can't figure out why

  She had to kill my dream

  I'm down the creek

  Without a paddle to row

  Gettin knocked around

  Not knowin where I'll go

  Not feelin a thing

  And I can never grow old

  With anyone else

  Since I loved her

  And wanted her all to myself

  But that wasn't her idea

  Of how to live this life

  She was given the chance

  To leave me

  Without sayin goodbye

  She slipped away

  Out my door

  It's been so many days

  I can't tell

  What I'm holdin on for

   

  But she flew away

  And she's gone

  Another day

  Another day,

  She might come back home

  Wherever she went

  She had to go

  Her time, it never was spent

  Well enough to know

  What we ever could've been

  How I really felt

  What she always meant to me

  That I didn't wanna

  Start my life over again

  That I didn't wanna be

  In this place alone

  All on my own

  My heart was part of hers

  At least I thought it was

   

  I thought it was

  I thought it was

  I guess I did because

  She told me so many times

  That I was hers

  And she was mine

  That she'd always be

  Around for me

  She'd never leave

  She'd never go

  She'd stick by me

  Through thick and thin

  Through all of the worst

  When really she knew

  She would never stay

  Since the first

  Day we met

  Now all the moments we shared

  Are too much to forget

   

  But she flew away

  And she's gone

  Another day

  Another day,

  She might come back home

  Wherever she went

  She had to go

  Her time, it never was spent

  Well enough to know

  What we ever could've been

  How I really felt

  What she always meant to me

  That I didn't wanna

  Start my life over again

  That I didn't wanna be

  In this place alone

  All on my own

  My heart was part of hers

  At least I thought it was

   

  How can I go on

  How can I sleep

  How can I eat

  I'm a wreck

  I can barely speak

  I'm so weak

  I'm so scared

  I'm so hurt

  I'm unaware

  Of what I'll do

  Or how I'll live

  Or if someone else comes along

  How I'll ever give

  Myself to them

  Any heart that I might have left

  Is scarred and torn

  And weighed down with regret

   

  But she flew away

  And she's gone

  Another day

  Another day,

  She might come back home

  Wherever she went

  She had to go

  Her time, it never was spent

  Well enough to know

  What we ever could've been

 

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