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by Helen Constantine


  Corona she gives me, I go out to put on my worn-out

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  health sandals—left lying on top of a box behind the

  curtain. She hovers in the kitchen door, saying:

  ‘Thanks for the help, it was so brilliant you took the

  trouble.’

  ‘No trouble at all’, I answer, thinking this is the

  moment to say I’d like to use the toilet. I turn away to

  sneak my own bra out from behind the Fjällräv and stuff it

  down one of the side pockets without her catching sight of

  it, but I’m standing a bit awkwardly. And just as I’m about

  to haul my Fjällräv out of the cubby hole it suddenly

  strikes me that I have to visit the toilet without my ruck-

  sack, otherwise I’ll have no reason to go back to the cubby

  hole to put her bra back in the bag. This makes me so

  jumpy that I go and tip the whole bag of clothes out into

  the corridor, and I can feel my cheeks going red hot as

  I start shoving the clothes back in the bag.

  ‘Oh my, those old clothes!’ says Kirstine, like it’s some-

  thing she’d forgotten. ‘Perhaps I could ask you to do one

  more thing for me . . . I mean, so long as you happen to be

  going that way’, she says tentatively.

  ‘Yes, what is it?’ I ask, standing there fumbling with the

  rucksack so she doesn’t see the colour in my cheeks.

  ‘It’s just that bag of clothes’, she answers, pointing.

  ‘I forgot to take it with me to the clothes bank on my

  way to work this morning.’

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  The Bra n 145

  ‘I’ll do it, no bother’, I tell her, bending down to fasten

  my sandals with her bra hugging my breasts like it was

  made for them. I can feel the colour draining from my

  cheeks, as I take a deep breath.

  ‘Should the boots go too?’ I ask in an off-hand way, as

  I hoist my Fjällräv on to my back.

  ‘Yes, if you can cope with it all,’ she says apologetically.

  If I can cope? You bet I can.

  ‘Yeah, there’s a basket on my bike—no problem’,

  I answer, and she thanks me again. On my way downstairs

  my heart is thumping like crazy. On my bike too, and after

  pedalling a short way I pass a laundrette. I can’t wait, and

  anyhow I really do need a pee now, so I get off and lock the

  bike. Luckily there are no customers. I go out to the toilet

  and sit down for a pee. I’m so impatient I try to pull the

  boots on while I’m still sitting there, and that makes me

  slide so far across the toilet seat I nearly piss over the side,

  which makes me laugh. So I have to wait a bit and dry

  myself before pulling on the boots. In the bag I also find a

  pair of knickers which match the bra, and—wait for it—

  right at the bottom of the bag is a natty silk shirt. It’s

  actually a tad worn, but I tie the ends together in a knot

  just above my belly button, so my little potbelly sticks out,

  and it looks so cool—like something from the ’60s. I can’t

  tear myself away from the mirror, so I light up a fag and

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  dig out the sunglasses I borrowed off Henrik, and then just

  stand there looking dead sexy.

  I bike off in the direction of Nørrebro with a smile on

  my face, and I don’t know what to say . . . I mean, I just feel

  so on top of the situation.

  There’s a really cool looking girl on the pavement who

  quite openly turns round to watch me go by—I really have

  to force myself not to look back. Sitting outside the Blue

  Dog are two guys whose eyes follow me all the way as

  I cycle past—they try to hide the fact but they’re not cool

  enough. It feels fabulous.

  I decide I absolutely must upgrade my wardrobe—

  Henrik will just have to get used to it. I’m not going

  round looking like a bag lady the whole time.

  By now I’m nearly at Flora’s coffee bar where I’m to

  meet my friend. She’s sitting out front. I park my bike, and

  I’m practically on top of her before she sees who I am.

  ‘Wow!’ she bursts out, as she gets up to give me a hug.

  ‘You look bloody amazing!’ And I smile. Carry on—I can

  take it.

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  The Naughty

  Boy

  Hans Christian Andersen

  Once upon a time there was an old poet, such a very kind

  old poet. One evening, when he was sitting at home, there

  was dreadfully bad weather outside; the rain came pouring

  down, but the old poet sat warm and snug by his stove,

  where the fire was burning, and the apples roasting.

  ‘They’re won’t be a dry stitch on all those poor things

  who are out in this weather!’ he said, for he was such a

  kind poet.

  ‘Oh, let me in! I’m freezing and ever so wet!’ cried a little

  child outside. It wept and rapped on the door, while the rain

  came pouring down, and the wind shook all the windows.

  ‘You poor little thing’, said the old poet, and went to

  open the door.

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  There stood a little boy; he was quite naked, and the

  water was streaming out of his long yellow hair. He was

  shaking with cold; had he not come in he would most

  surely have died in the dreadful weather.

  ‘You poor little thing!’ said the old poet and took him

  by the hand. ‘Come inside, and I’ll warm you up! I’ll give

  you wine and an apple, for you are a sweet boy!’

  He certainly was. His eyes looked like two bright stars,

  and even though water was running down his yellow hair,

  it still curled so prettily. He looked like a little cherub, only he was so pale with cold and shaking all over. In his hand

  he held a splendid bow, but it was quite ruined by the rain;

  all the colours on the beautiful arrows were running into

  each other because of the wet weather.

  The old poet sat down by the stove, took the little boy

  in his lap, wrung the water from his hair, warmed his

  hands in his own, and heated up sweet wine for him; so

  then he recovered, he got rosy cheeks again, and he

  jumped down on the floor and started to dance round

  the old poet.

  ‘You’re a merry little boy!’ said the old man, ‘what is

  your name?’

  ‘My name is Cupid’, he replied, ‘don’t you recognize

  me? There is my bow, I shoot with it, you know! Look,

  now it’s clearing up outside, the moon is shining!’

  ‘But your bow is ruined’, said the old poet.

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  ‘That’s bad’, said the little boy, and picked it up and

  looked at it. ‘Oh, it’s dry already, and not the least bit

  damaged! The string is quite taut! Now I’l
l try it!’ Then he

  strung the bow, fitted an arrow, took aim and shot the

  good old poet right in the heart. ‘Now you can see my bow

  wasn’t ruined!’ he said laughing at the top of his voice, and

  he ran away. What a naughty boy!—to shoot the old poet

  who had let him into his warm living room, and who had

  been so good to him, and gave him the tasty wine and the

  best apple.

  The good poet lay on the floor and wept; he really had

  been shot right in the heart, and so he said: ‘Ugh! How

  naughty that Cupid is! I am going to tell all good children

  to watch out and never play with him, for he will hurt

  them!’

  All the good children, girls and boys, to whom he told

  the story, took care to be on their guard against the bad

  Cupid, but still he tricked them, for he is a cunning fellow!

  When students leave their lectures he runs alongside them,

  with a book under his arm and dressed in a black gown.

  They don’t recognize him at all, and they take his arm and

  think he is a student too, but then he thrusts his arrow into

  their chests. When the girls are preparing for confirma-

  tion, and even when in church taking communion, even

  then he is after them. Yes, he is constantly after people! He

  sits blazing in the big chandelier in the theatre, so people

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  think it is a lamp, but later they know different. He runs

  around Kongens Have and Volden! Yes, once he shot your

  father and your mother right in the heart! Just ask them

  and hear what they have to say. Oh yes, he is a bad boy that

  Cupid, don’t ever have anything to do with him! He is after

  everyone. Imagine, he even shot an arrow into dear old

  Granny, but that is long ago, and it is over now; but it’s

  something she will never forget. Shame on you, bad Cupid!

  But now you know him! Remember what a naughty boy

  he is!

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  Is There Life

  after Love?

  Jan Sonnergaard

  It was that time just before winter turns into something

  resembling spring, and Ulla and I were walking along

  Nørrebrogade after a not specially successful and pretty

  expensive dinner at a restaurant out in Frederiksberg.

  Arguments, silences, and snide remarks had become the

  order of the day, every day, and long before then I should

  have realized which way the wind was blowing. Even more

  when she started on about the cook she knew from the time

  when she . . . and now this cook had just left her husband

  and kids in order to move in with . . .

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  ‘I know the type’, I cut in, Lord knows why, ‘the type of

  woman who runs from one man to the next leaving only

  death and destruction in her wake.’

  And then it was as though all movement stopped, and

  my banal remark was left dangling in the air like a toxic

  cloud, and she gave me a look that could only mean I had

  just plunged a dagger into her stomach.

  ‘Are you trying to make me feel guilty or what?’ she

  said, on the verge of tears, and I should have said, Sorry,

  that was a stupid thing to say, and I should have been

  shocked and flustered and should have broken off mid-

  sentence. Thunderstruck, I should have asked if she was

  considering doing the very same thing. To me. But I just

  looked at her stony-faced, without saying a word.

  She was just a fucking tart. Just a tart. A fucking tart.

  That’s what she was. And nothing else. She was nothing

  better than that. A fucking tart. And a traitor, not someone

  to grieve over. The opposite. She was the type of person

  you should be only too pleased not to number among your

  acquaintances. You don’t go making friends with traitors.

  You string them up, and then you cut them down.

  So that’s what I just can’t understand. Why our break-

  up so completely knocked me for six. I can’t think what

  made me do it, but I kept constructing different scenarios.

  So I’d phone her up and plead,

  ‘Can’t we see each other—all the same?’

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  The first few times she agreed, plainly with no great

  enthusiasm, and we’d meet for half an hour, an hour, and

  just once for an hour and a half. In bars, always in bars,

  even though I’d have much preferred meeting just about

  any other place. More private. My own place. Or hers. Or

  her parents’. But it always ended up being bars. Or restau-

  rants. Every single time, and in the end I couldn’t stand it

  anymore, that it had to be so anonymous and public. Why

  did we always have to meet up in places neither of us

  knew? Why always so cold? Can’t you see how impersonal

  it is? And cold.

  Later on she wriggled out by suggesting parties she

  never turned up to. Even when the invitation expressly

  specified I was not to show up until ‘after dinner’. Or she’d

  invite me round to her flat and when I arrived she’d not be

  there.

  ‘Why weren’t you there?’

  So I’d demand over the phone after a couple of days

  with no word of explanation from her, and even though

  I never got a proper answer it invariably ended up with me

  asking, ‘So when can we meet again?’—even though I had

  every reason in the world to be livid with her, even though

  I ought to have slammed the phone down and forgotten all

  about her, and even though I knew perfectly well I’d be

  better off with absolutely anybody else. But always it ended

  up with my forgiving her and pleading,

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  ‘Just once more.’

  The thing is I kept seeing her before my eyes, with her

  dimples, and her long blonde hair, the way she used to

  look when things were good between us. Especially at

  weekends I felt I just had to phone her, and also I began

  sending her letters or postcards saying things like, ‘It

  doesn’t have to last this long’, or ‘Remember the time we

  had lunch with the Hara Krishnas at Govinda’s on Nørre

  Farimagsgade?’—and once I also wrote saying we could

  easily meet up in some bar just round the corner from

  where she lived. That way she wouldn’t need to walk so

  very far.

  But she kept putting me off. It would have been simpler

  to arrange an audience with Queen Margrethe. If it was me

  wanting something her lips were sealed seven times over.

  ‘Couldn’t we meet—this Friday?’ I asked after I’d at

  long last got hold of her direct number at her new job. And

  she said she didn’t wish to. No more did she try to

  sidetrack me, or avoid the is
sue, or lie. Very quietly she

  announced she didn’t wish to.

  ‘Why not?’ I asked, and there was a three-second

  silence at the other end. Then she said,

  ‘I think I’d rather not tell you’, and it was as if it went

  on resounding in the room whole minutes after she’d

  rung off.

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  So I clammed up. When I was out. In the morning.

  And when I was home. At night.

  Where either I listened to the same three records over

  and over again. Or late night programmes on the radio.

  There were just those two alternatives. I never ever listened

  to any of my own records, just the ones which weren’t

  mine. For I had to get away, far far away, since I couldn’t

  stand being at home. Especially not to eat. I had to get out.

  Out into town. To places with lots of people.

  To libraries, or museums, or parks, or streets, or alleys.

  Until dark. Or to Govinda’s on Nørre Farimagsgade. Or

  the Italian restaurant just round the corner on Smallegade.

  Or the wine bar a little further on. As though there was

  something comforting in everything being so anonymous,

  and so few people who knew me. And like as not I’d want

  to be in some other place next day. But wherever

  I happened to finish up I’d always be sitting there hoping

  that next moment . . . next moment she’d come through

  the door, in precisely this library. This restaurant. This

  bar. This coach on this train on my way to my father’s in

  Slagelse. Or Funen where my mother lives. And she would

  fling her arms wide and hug me tight when she saw it truly

  was me sitting in this very coach, over by the window.

  But it was air. Nothing but air.

  All I had left was the music. The same records and CDs

  as back then. All the time I kept listening to the same

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  records and CDs as back then, and most of all the last three

  which I’d been going to give her on the first of June, her

  birthday.

  Most of all I’d listen to just those three records which

  were so specially meant for her. And the letter . . . I’d tell

  myself I needed to read her letter all over again. ‘There is

  nothing wrong with either of us, and there’s no reason to

  doubt it. The chemistry just isn’t right. At least not

 

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