“Yes, but—” I pried a menu out of her hand and, after a quick glance, declared, “We’d like to split the big breakfast.”
“Jake—” Alice said, and, under the table, I kicked her.
“We’re really hungry too, so as fast as you can,” I said with an unconvincing grin. “Thanks.”
Alma left grumbling and Alice turned to me with a glare.
“I wanted a hot dog.”
I took her hand.
“Babe, I’ll buy you a whole pack as soon as we’re out of Mesquite. I just don’t think we should stay here much longer. We should probably try to get out of this restaurant as fast as we can.”
Alice’s forehead crinkled in concern.
“Oh, why?”
I leaned in, lowered my voice, and said, “The guy by the TV—don’t look—he seems to be staring at us suspiciously. His hat is all weird, too.”
Her mouth in a worried “O,” Alice nodded. Then, slowly, casually, she threw a glance over her shoulder. A glance which turned into a full-on staring session. The man rose and started walking toward us. I jumped up, but Alice placed a hand on my arm.
“It’s okay, Jake. I know him.”
Now standing in front of Alice, the man took off his hat and shoved out his hand.
“Alice. Knew I recognized ya, even in that kooky dress and wig.”
I shot a worried glance at Alice, but her smile was relaxed, genuine. If this guy recognized her, had a functioning brain, and had seen any news segment in the past week, then why on Earth shouldn’t I be worried?
“This is Gabriel,” Alice said to me. “He’s my best friend Lux’s boyfriend.”
Gabriel’s black eyes were flicking from Alice to me and then back to Alice again.
“Hey, Alice…you good?”
There was a moment’s pause, in which Tom’s words flashed in my head. This girl, she’s playing you, playing you, playing you…
But then Alice laughed.
“Yes, Gabe, completely. The TV stations have it all wrong. Jake’s a good guy, just got mixed up in some bad business. I’m not here against my will.”
Gabriel nodded slowly, as if trying to decide whether to yell for the cops now or later. Alice touched the arm of his thick navy sweatshirt.
“Gabe, please. You can call Lux after our meal and everything. Just sit here and hear me out.”
Gabriel nodded slowly, sitting on Alice’s side of the booth with a furtive look at me.
As we waited for Alma to return with our big breakfast, in a low voice, with periodic looks all around, Alice told him everything. She talked about the kidnapping (during which his lips pressed together so much they disappeared completely), staying at my place (his eyes narrowed to match), our bonding (he scratched at his neck in a way that wasn’t completely unpromising), and, finally, the events of the past few days—how much I had proven myself, how much she cared for me, and, finally, what we were going to do.
“Keep running?” Gabriel yelped in disbelief, after which Alice whacked and shushed him.
Alma chose this opportune time to appear with our big breakfast, which, as it turned out, wasn’t that big at all.
“Aw, there’s another of y’all,” she said, but Gabriel shook his head.
“I’m just from another table. I’m fine.”
Alma gave a big nod to this and, thankfully, left.
As Alice and I dug in, Gabriel argued his case.
“Okay, you somehow lost it and fell for this dude—cool. But you’re going to keep running? Why? And for how long?”
Alice paused, swallowed, and then said, “He’ll go to jail, Gabe.”
Gabe shrugged.
“Doesn’t your dad have lawyers so good they could get Charles Manson out of jail?”
At this, a smile played on Alice’s face, but I shook my head.
“That’s only if her father actually liked me, which he never will.”
Gabe’s gaze slid to me.
“You know that?”
I nodded.
“Yeah, I do. Guys like me—with a record and no job to speak of—we aren’t exactly promising fiancé material. Not for any girl’s father, and certainly not for one whose weekly earnings are more than I’ve ever made in my life. Not to mention that I kidnapped her.”
Gabriel nodded. There was no arguing with common sense after all. I’d be lucky if Alice’s dad didn’t have me thrown into Guantanamo Bay, let alone accept me as a worthy suitor for his daughter.
A few minutes later, after we’d reduced the big breakfast to a few dismal crumbs on the white, expansive plate, Gabriel voiced the question of the hour.
“So, what’s next?”
Alice shot a glance at me and then shrugged.
“We’re going to talk about it.”
Seeing our empty plate, Alma swooped in.
“So, y’all are finished and will be wanting the bill pronto?”
I took another dismal look at the empty plate. Suddenly, I didn’t want to leave at all.
But Alice said “yes” and Alma scooped it up and hurried away from our table.
“Lux’ll be wanting to talk to you,” Gabriel said, running his fingers through his hair. “She’s been going psycho these past few days, was sure it was her fault for not convincing you to stay away from Paul. She practically killed me for going on this road trip, but I had to for work.”
Alice nodded.
“As soon as we get outside, call her. I’ve been missing her myself.”
She took my hand and squeezed it, looking at me as she said the next words.
“So much has happened since I talked to her last.”
Gabriel put his hat back on.
“She’ll be pissed, though. Just to warn you.”
Alice laughed.
“Yeah, I know. You don’t need to warn me.”
Alma returned and set our bill down with a glint of long, gold nails.
“I got this,” I said, taking some bills out of my pocket from the fast-diminishing pile Tom had given me.
“Wondered how you guys had been getting on,” Gabriel said with an understanding nod.
Outside, Gabriel called Lux and handed his phone to Alice.
We walked off into the parking lot and stood watching the far-off highway.
“So, Alice—you really like her, huh?” he said.
“I really do,” I replied.
It was funny: A few parking spots away, a gull swept down, picked up a fallen hot dog with its beak, and soared off.
It didn’t take Alice as long to talk to her friend as I had expected it would. Only a few minutes seemed to pass before I felt her arms around me and heard her cheery voice in my ear.
“All done now!”
I swept my arms around her. As Alice handed him the phone, Gabriel said, “So it went well?”
Alice nodded.
“Yeah. She yelled for the first bit, but really, she was just happy I’m okay.”
She smiled.
“Though she thinks I’m crazy and is threatening to come to Nevada herself to drag me back home.”
Smiling, Gabriel nodded.
“Yep, that sounds like our Lux.”
His gaze flicked to my arm around Alice, and his smile became strained.
“Well, I better be going now.”
Alice drew out of my grasp and hugged him.
“I’m glad I ran into you, even in these…circumstances.”
Gabriel nodded, his gaze flicking to me one last time.
“Yeah, you…you take care of yourself, Alice.”
He threw out his arm, gave me a limp-handed shake, and then walked off.
Putting my arm back around Alice’s colorful waist was a relief, and yet I couldn’t entirely dispel the negative impression Gabriel had left.
“He’s worried about you,” I said.
Alice sank into me deeper.
“I know. They all are.”
I turned to face her, to look into her assured eyes.
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��Alice, I meant what I said. If you want to go back to Denver, to your friends, your family…then it’s fine. Really. You have to do what’s right for you. I want you to be happy.”
Alice only smiled, like I’d told a joke.
“You don’t get it, do you?”
“Get what?”
“You.” Her finger tapped my chest. “You are what’s right for me. Not Denver. Not some boring, lukewarm, daddy-approved man I feel nothing for. You, with all your quirks. Whenever I’m around you, there’s no denying it.”
I shook my head and averted my gaze from those insistent, eager blue eyes.
“But, Alice…you don’t understand. I’ve done some very bad things in my life. I…I don’t know if I can live up to the man you think I am.”
When I chanced a glance back at her, her eyes were as certain as ever.
“No. You’re wrong, Jake Harker. I may not have known you for a long time, but I’ve seen enough. I know that you are a good man, and that you will always do your best to be so. And that’s all that matters.”
As her small, pale, soft fingers entwined with mine, all doubt suddenly fell to the ground. Whatever happened, whatever mistakes I’d make, as long as those blue eyes looked at me in that trusting way, as long as this extraordinary creature beside me kept on believing in the good in me, I could live up to what she saw me as.
Feeling Alice’s closeness like this, I couldn’t hold back from kissing her a moment longer. Her lips were impossibly soft, and, as I ran my hands through her silky strands of hair, the words spilled out of me.
“I can’t ever see myself not loving you.”
Breaking away, a smile flitting over her face, Alice looked me straight in the face and said, “I have a crazy idea.”
Chapter Eighteen
Alice
It really is true to its name. That was the only thing I could think as our van pulled up to the white building. “A Little White Chapel,” heart emblazoned heart sign read, and that was exactly what it was. And what we needed.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Jake asked.
“Are you?” I shot back.
He sighed, giving me something between a smile and a scowl.
“You know I am. But hell, Alice, I told you, I want it to be a proper ceremony, where I can proclaim to the world just how much you mean to me. I want it in some big hall packed with our family and friends—not in some seedy Las Vegas, 24-hour joint with people who don’t give a damn about us.”
I clasped his hand.
“And I told you. We can do all that, have the big ceremony. Just for now, this is our best shot to get on my father’s good side. Trust me.”
Pulling over into the parking lot, Jake nodded.
“All right. I just hope you’re right, Alice.”
I didn’t say anything, but as we walked up to the white, heart-carved doors, all I was thinking was that I hoped so, too. We didn’t have anything wedding-appropriate to wear, but we’d opted to wear the nicest clothes we’d picked up on our travels. Jake looked as handsome as ever in dark jeans and a black V-neck T-shirt, while I donned my only white article of clothing—a lacey blouse—paired with a sky-blue skirt that brought out my eyes.
Inside at the gold-gilded front desk was an older woman talking on the phone.
“Naw. We don’t do movies. Sorry.”
She pressed a button and then continued talking on the phone. “Well hi. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No. No dogs. Because they piss. No. No. Have a good one.”
She pressed a button. Then, seeing us, pressed another and, her platinum blond head raising slightly, asked, “Wedding?”
Unsure if she had been addressing us, we stared at her blankly.
“A wed-ding?” she repeated slowly, as if we were four-year-olds.
Jake jerked to life.
“Yes, actually. We’d like to get married. Now.”
Her over-tanned head nodded as her hands moved, unseen, behind the front desk.
“You’ll have to sign here.” She handed us a light pink form. “And that’ll be 75 dollars—cash, debit, or credit.”
A crinkled palm extended, presumably for the just-mentioned payment.
I fished around in my bag, but Jake put his hand on my lower arm.
“Don’t you dare. If we’re doing this your way, then we’re doing this my way.”
I sighed and began filling out the paperwork while Jake made the payment and chatted with the oh-so-friendly front desk woman.
“So, how does this work exactly?”
Cherry red, talon-like hands shoved back Jake’s change while bubble-gum pink lips said, “You go in, Charlene does the ceremony, you say vows if you’ve got ‘em, then—poof—it’s done. Marriage. The whole kit and caboodle.”
I could almost see Jake’s brow lowering in combative irritation. Luckily, I was done with the forms.
“Here you go,” I said. The woman accepted them without a word.
“Why, hello there,” a calm, friendly voice said.
We turned to see a kindly faced woman in a minister’s robe.
“Well, aren’t you two a picture,” she said in a reassuring voice with a southern twang. She shook both our hands warmly. Then, leaning in, she asked, “Are you ready?”
At the uncertain silence that met her question, she laughed. Leaning in further, she said, “Now, don’t you worry. No one ever really is.”
Taking both our hands, she led us down a hallway toward a white-arched doorway.
“You’ll be getting married in the original chapel today. Beatrice should have told you what to expect, but first things first—if you have vows, you should get them out now.”
Stopped at the edge of the beautiful chapel, we were momentarily speechless at the sight before us. Set against the deep purple floor, the white wooden seats and walls and the pink and lavender stained glass windows were stunning. Just when I was about to speak, I caught sight of the garlands of red, pink, and blue flowers on the ceiling and the white-flower-bearing statues.
Jake squeezed my hand.
“We don’t have them, but I do have something to say.”
Charlene nodded.
“Let’s go to the front, and you can say away.”
Time slowed down as we processed up the aisle of the most beautiful room I’d ever been in. Every detail of the room stood out to me: the mirrored back wall, the glass celebration of a chandelier, the kissing doves on the stained-glass window, even the fire extinguisher tucked in the back. Then, finally, we were at the front, facing ourselves in the mirror, and Jake was speaking.
“I don’t know where to begin, Alice. I don’t know how to explain this to you—hell, how to explain it to myself. How years of loneliness, despair, and hopelessness were extinguished in a single night, by a single person. How I could have been so very wrong about so many things. Before I met you, Alice, there was a glass wall between me and the world. I saw what went on behind the wall but didn’t experience it; I judged it but never lived it.
“I thought I had mastered the game—that in not caring, in not risking enough to get hurt, I had beat the system, that I’d won. I’ve never cared much about anyone in my life, and no one has much cared about me either. And the worst part is, I thought I knew better; I thought disappointment was what relationships were all about, that all love was doomed to pass, that the joy it produced was never worth the pain.
“I thought people always left, always would leave. I thought I would never find someone I could be myself with, someone who would bring out the best in me. And then, Alice…well, I met you.”
As he had been speaking, tears had formed in Jake’s eyes. Now that he looked at me, one rolled down.
“I tried to deny it at first, tried to keep you at a distance. I tried to pretend that this feeling raging in my heart was a blip, a mistake—tried to convince myself that you were just like all the other girls I’d been with. Just another joining of bodies, not of souls. But, Alice, I couldn’t. Not with you. Not with the genuine
caring in your eyes as I shared my story with you. Not with the way you throw your head back when you laugh, or when your eyes flash when you’re angry.
“And really, Alice, not one minute that I was actually in your presence could I convince myself that there wasn’t something different about you, something special, something electric. Something that makes me want to get out of bed every day and give it a real go—not just a half-ass try to prove my assumptions. And that’s all because of you, Alice.
“I’ve known you for less than a month, and yet I feel like I’ve known you my whole life. You challenge me, you make me laugh, and you make me feel. Alice, I know this is a lot to take in at once, but I love you with my whole heart. I used to think the world was so small and separate; I saw everything with narrowed eyes—believed the world was the size of my squint. But you’ve changed that. You’ve opened my eyes. I used to think the world was out to get me, that I was doomed, that I would never be truly happy. But meeting you, this, us, you’ve made me think that, maybe, I’m not so doomed as I thought. That maybe, just maybe, life has some good things in store for me, too. That maybe, just maybe, this is all going to be all right.”
His hands were clasping mine; his face was filled with tears. Or they seemed to be, since I could barely see through my own screen of tears.
“And, Alice, I don’t know what else to say except thank you. Thank you for saving me, for meeting me. Thank you for everything. I love you more than I can say.”
In the wake of his words, the room was silent. Everything seemed to sparkle; it was all crystal clear and vibrant—the colors, these feelings, our love.
And then the words came to me, too.
“I don’t know what else to say either, not really. I’ve always been good at avoiding saying things outright, at expressing things as they really are. My father always got on my case about being indecisive, but the truth is that I was never indecisive. I always knew, deep down, what was right for me. I just didn’t always have the strength to choose it. And before you, Jake, I lived a lukewarm half-life.
“I did things to please others; I did the bare minimum to get by. I postponed what I wanted indefinitely. It was normal, I figured, saying one thing and doing another, keeping up appearances, avoiding that which frightened me. And I got so used to this half-lived life that I started believing that was how things were supposed to be, how things would always be—not really felt or enjoyed or experienced fully. No, just another day doing what was expected, following the schedule, ticking off the to-dos.
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