by Kate Elliott
“No, I ought to come with you.”
“As you wish, but stay in the shadows. It will be better for Yuri if Ilya does not know you fetched me.”
Tess followed Sonia into camp. Tents surrounded them, cutting off the distant glow of the great fire. There was no sound, no movement, except for the wailing of a child that faltered and stilled. Tess had to move slowly, hands out to either side, fingers occasionally brushing the coarse fabric of a tent wall. Sonia had lost her, but as the music started up again behind, she heard voices ahead, a quiet counterpoint to the distant melody of celebration. She stumbled over a guy-rope and froze, stopped by the voices coming from right around the edge of the tent.
“You deliberately used my aunt’s authority to undercut mine.” Bakhtiian’s tone was so cutting that Tess instantly regretted ever asking Yuri for help. “Of course I would not object, since I did not suspect what you and she were planning.”
“I didn’t think—”
“Obviously you didn’t think, Yuri. Women don’t ride with the jahar. Her inexperience will slow us down and could be dangerous.”
“But that’s why I gave her the lessons.”
“If she couldn’t ride, there would be no question of her traveling with us, would there?”
“But you just said yourself that—”
“Have you ever bothered to ask yourself why she is here? Or wonder why the priest says she is a spy—”
“You don’t really believe—”
“Had I finished speaking?”
The pause that followed was both heavy and uncomfortable. Into it, the distant music metamorphosed from a slow, pacing number into a frantic tune.
“Well, Ilya,” said Sonia, walking into their silence with all the aplomb of an angry and protective older sister. When Sonia spoke, clear and carrying, Tess abruptly realized that they were all speaking in Rhuian, a family quarrel that no one else could understand. “Have you finished bullying Yuri how? Or shall I leave until you are done?”
“This is men’s business, Sonia.”
“Is it, indeed? When two men meet in the dark to discuss a woman, I call that women’s business. Yuri, you may go.”
“I haven’t given him permission—”
“Ilya. Must I speak to Mama about your manners?”
“Go on, Yuri,” he said curtly.
Tess, standing frozen behind the dark wall of a tent, did not see in which direction Yuri fled.
“You have made your point, Sonia,” said Bakhtiian coldly. “Have I your permission to leave?”
“Certainly, Ilyakoria. But I am curious as to why you were so insistent that Nadine and I travel the long path to Jeds, alone, need I add, where we might have encountered any danger, and in lands where you know very well how they treat women. We cannot even be sure we will ever see Dina again.”
“Knowing Dina, we will undoubtedly receive an envoy from the Prince of Jeds himself requesting that we remove her before she destroys the entire city.”
Sonia chuckled, despite herself. “That is very probably true. Don’t distract me. What I mean to say is, if you risked us, then whatever excuse you give Yuri about Tess not going because she is a woman is the most ridiculous nonsense I have ever heard.”
“Do you suppose she can use a saber?”
“I suppose she can learn, well enough to defend herself, at least. I do not expect her to become such a paragon of saber fighting as Vladimir, or yourself, dear cousin. And I will give her my own bow and arrows, since a woman can use them to protect herself without any shame. What is your real reason?”
“I don’t trust her. There are great things in front of us, in front of our massed armies, if we can get so far. I must rid myself of those last few riders who don’t understand that we must unite, that the old ways no longer protect us. And I need those horses. What if she acts to harm the priest, to disrupt this journey, to ruin all the work I’ve done so far?”
“Why should she care? She is a merchant’s sister, traveling home to Jeds. She says herself that it was a foolish impulse that led her to follow the priest off the ship, that she only meant to protect her brother’s trading rights.”
“Do you believe this story?”
“I trust Tess.”
He did not reply immediately. “She lied to us once. She is not their interpreter. She’s still lying, Sonia.”
“How can you know?”
“I feel it in my gut.”
“And you’re never wrong.” Sonia’s voice came cold and flat and sarcastic. “Never you. Never Bakhtiian. You never listen to anyone else.”
“I would listen to others if they had anything worthwhile to say.”
“If you’d listened to others, Natalia and Timofey and your parents would still be alive.”
The tension was so palpable that Tess felt it as loudly as any words. Bakhtiian made a sound, like the beginning of speech, and then fell silent, as if he were so furious that he could not even talk. She took a step back, suddenly sure that her presence here would do Sonia no good if it were discovered.
“Come out,” said Bakhtiian, as if her thoughts alone had alerted him.
“Ilya—” Sonia began, protesting.
“Whom are you protecting?” he snapped.
Tess knew that however much she did not want to walk around the tent and see either of them, in such a mood, she could not leave Sonia to end this conversation alone.
So she joined them. Sonia stood, hands drawn up into fists on either side of her waist, pale, facing Bakhtiian. He had heard the scuff on the grass and he turned; instantaneously took a step back away from Tess, surprised to see her. He froze, as though touched by some stilling hand.
“Excuse me,” she said, and heard the betraying quaver in her voice. “I was looking for Sonia.”
His gaze had the cutting edge of a knife. Tess tensed, knowing for that instant that he was about to say something so vicious that it could never be forgiven. Sonia moved, stepping toward Tess as if she meant to shield her.
Bakhtiian caught his breath and whirled and strode away into the darkness.
Distant voices rose to accompany some melody. Tess put her hands to her face. Against her cold palms, her cheeks felt flushed and hot. Sonia came over to her and grasped her wrists. A moment later, they were laughing and crying all at once.
“Gods,” said Sonia at last, letting go of Tess. “It’s no wonder that there are men out riding just to kill him.”
Tess brushed a wisp of grass from her lips. It was true enough what Bakhtiian had said, that she was lying. But how much could she tell them? How much would be right? How much would be fair? How much could they even believe? She did not know. “Poor Yuri,” she said, to say something. “It’s just as well I’m going, Sonia. He needs someone to protect him.”
“That’s right.” Sonia leaned forward and kissed Tess on the cheek. “But Tess, however hard it may be, try not to lose your temper with Ilya. It’s easy enough to do, but gods, it makes you say the most awful things.”
“It is true, Sonia? What you said about his family?”
“I don’t know. Other people warned him that there had been threats, but he never would listen. But I shouldn’t have said it to him. Harsh words won’t bring them back.” The high, brisk sound of claps underlaid by muffled stamping reached them, sharp in the clear air, followed by cheers, encouragement to some solo dancer. “Listen to us! This is supposed to be a celebration. We’ll wash our faces and run back. The men are showing off. We don’t want to miss that.” She grabbed Tess’s hand, and they went together.
In the morning, Yuri waylaid her as soon as she woke. He looked anxious.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
“We have to choose you a horse. I think the little bay. You’ll need a saber, a knife…Did I say clothing? A blanket!” He broke off when Tess laughed at his expression. “I would never have believed that Bakhtiian would agree to take you, but you weren’t afraid, and so you got what you were reaching for. We call th
at korokh, one who reaches for the wind. They are few and always brave. The gods favor them.”
“I’ll need it.” And she wondered, suddenly, finally, what she had gotten herself into.
“There’s Sonia. She’ll help us.”
By judicious application to various members of their family, Sonia and Yuri acquired all the articles that they thought Tess would need on the journey. It did not come to much, since it all had to be carried, but to Tess it seemed like riches: a saber, a knife, an extra set of clothing down to gloves and belt, a thick blanket and light sleeping mat, a bone comb carved in arborescent detail, a lump of soap, and beaded leather strips to braid in her hair as it grew out. Stassia gave her two bracelets, and her youngest son, barely five, insisted that she take his stamped leather flask. After all this, Sonia led her aside to where her mother sat weaving.
“You will be the only woman,” said Mother Orzhekov. Her strong hands did not falter, feeding out thread, pulling the shuttle across. “You must have your own tent. Sonia, you know the one. And her mirror. No woman ought to be without a mirror.” She dismissed them before Tess could thank her.
“You must thank her,” said Sonia as they left, “by behaving in a manner that will make her proud. Words are only words, after all. It is easy enough for me to call you sister, but by the gift of this tent and the mirror, she has made you her daughter in truth.”
“She has honored me.” Tess wiped a tear from one cheek. The tent and hand mirror she received had belonged to Anna, the sister who had died in childbirth. The tent was beautifully woven, the pattern of stripes, gold, orange, and green as befitted a young woman. On the tent flap a spiral of interlocking, thin-limbed beasts curled infinitely around themselves, and this same spiral of beasts was carved into the wooden handle and back of the mirror. “My parents died when I was ten years old. My brother is the only family I have left.”
“Now you have us as well,” said Sonia.
They walked on for a time in silence, companionable, going nowhere. Tess stroked her mirror where it now hung from her belt, the grooved handle and the embossed leather case with its cloisonne clasps that protected the mirror’s face. Horses whinnied beyond. Wind sounded faintly in the sparse trees.
Two women and a child knelt at a long, flat loom. Stassia’s husband Pavel worked, sweating, at his forge. An ancient withered woman tenderly dabbed steaming water spiced with the sweet scent of herbs from a copper pot onto a rash of red sores that blistered a child’s back. A girl sang, pounding out meal. Two old men chattered together while they worked at embroidery. A young man sat holding a mass of wool for a girl Tess knew to be unmarried. He smiled as he looked at the ground, up at her as she spun the wool out on her spindle, and down again.
“I’ll see a whole land,” Tess said. “More than I’ve seen in my entire life.” A life spent within buildings, parks, cities—here it would be all sky, huge, unknown; dangerous, yes, but also new. “I want you to have something, Sonia, to remember me by.” She reached into her pouch and drew out the little book of essays from the University in Jeds. “It’s all I have, really. And at least you can read them.”
Sonia’s eyes widened. She reached out and touched the tiny leather volume with reverence. “A book. A real book.” Taking it, she held it to her chest. “Oh, Tess.” And then, without more thought than that, she hugged her.
“Mama! Mama!” Sonia’s little Ivan ran up to them. Sonia released Tess, tucked the book carefully into her belt, and squatted beside him. He put a crude carved figure into her hands. A horse. She smiled, cheeks dimpling, her eyes mirroring his innocent joy, his spontaneous, unreserved expression of love. She looked up, drawing Tess down, laughing together, sharing it with her. Ivan quickly grew tired of their praise and ran away to show his father.
“Wasn’t it awful?” said Sonia as they rose. “But so wonderful.”
Tess put a hand to one eye and found tears. “I’m sorry to be leaving you, Sonia.”
Sonia took both Tess’s hands in hers. “You’ll come back to us.”
Tess smiled. “Can you see the future?”
“No,” said Sonia, “but I can see something else, and that will bring you back.”
Chapter Six
“It is better to deliberate before action than to repent afterwards.”
—DEMOCRITUS OF ABDERA
THEY STARTED AUSPICIOUSLY ENOUGH. Tess readied her pack the night before. Indeed, sleep eluded her until the stars had wheeled halfway around the Wagon’s Axle, late, late into the night. But in the morning, Sonia brought her yoghurt and bread and Yuri saddled her horse as well as his own, so she made her good-byes without much trepidation and followed close behind Yuri as the jahar, escorting the Chapalii, rode out of camp. Women waved, wiping away tears. A pack of children raced after them, clustering on the top of a rise from which they watched as their fathers and brothers and uncles and cousins disappeared onto the vast emptiness of the plains.
At first Tess concentrated simply on riding, on staying on the bay mare and finding some accommodation with this animal. She knew that it ought to be possible to ride as one with the horse, who was amiable enough though strong, but she lacked some trick or understanding of the art. After a time, the duration of which she could not guess, she risked looking beyond her hands and Yuri’s back at the group around her. The jahar rode in a V-formation, like birds flocking, with the remounts and pack ponies herded in a clump at the broad base of the V. Besides Yuri and Cha Ishii, Tess recognized Niko Sibirin and a few of the younger men: Sonia’s husband Mikhal, Konstans, father of the new baby, and Kirill. Kirill was watching her. For an instant their eyes met. His head tilted to one side, his lips parting, and he smiled at her. Tess looked away. Yuri muttered a word under his breath that Tess did not know.
“Yurinya.” Bakhtiian rode smoothly past Tess, so at one with his mount that they seemed almost one creature. “You will ride scout with Fedya.”
Yuri flushed at his cousin’s curt tone of voice, but he nodded his head obediently. “But Ilya, who will Tess ride with?”
Something smug in Bakhtiian’s expression made Tess instantly suspicious. “She will ride with me.”
“But you always ride rear scout. Tess can’t keep up with—” Yuri faltered, blushed from his chin to the tips of his ears, and with a despairing glance at Tess, reined his horse abruptly away from them and rode off. Bakhtiian watched him depart without any expression at all.
Tess drew in a deep breath. Can’t keep up with you, he had been about to say. Suddenly she knew what Bakhtiian was about.
“We are not so far from camp yet,” said Bakhtiian, “that I cannot have one of my riders escort you back to the tribe, if you wish.”
Tess met his gaze squarely and had the satisfaction of seeing him look away. “You won’t be rid of me so easily,” she replied. Her mare took a rough patch of ground, hard, and Tess clutched at the high front of the saddle to keep her seat.
Bakhtiian did not exactly smile, but he looked satisfied. “Follow me.” He reined his horse toward the back of the group. Tess followed awkwardly, and she felt rather than saw that many in the group watched her go, though whether with sympathy or malice she could not be sure. Cha Ishii’s white face flashed past, and she had the momentary pleasure of seeing that the Chapalii’s seat was no steadier than her own. Then, as they separated from the last wings of the V, she had no luxury for any thought but staying on her horse.
Bakhtiian did not wait for her. The entire day blurred before her as she tried to catch up with him. He always rode just ahead, changing direction and speed capriciously, stopping abruptly to stare at the ground or at the horizon, but always, before she reached him, riding on.
By the time they reunited with the main group at dusk, she hurt everywhere. Everywhere, intensely, and her inner thighs and knees felt rubbed raw. She was too exhausted to dismount, so she simply remained slumped in the saddle. She wanted nothing more than to cry, but she was damned if she would.
Bakhtiian had
already dismounted. He paused beside her as he led his horse toward the others. “She needs to be unsaddled and brushed down.” Then he was gone.
Beyond, in the inconstant glare of the fire, she saw the four conical tents of the Chapalii, already set up, but no other tents. Dark figures stood in clusters around the fire, warming themselves. She sat alone beyond its warmth. At least the mare was content to stand for now.
“Tess.” Out of the darkness Yuri appeared. “Here is food. Something to drink.”
“I’m not hungry,” she said, and was surprised to hear how dry and cracked her voice sounded.
“No, Tess. You must eat. I’ll take care of your horse.” He set down his bundle and reached up to pull her off. She could not resist him, but God, it hurt to move. He gave her a hunk of flat bread and a pouch of yoghurt, and she drank from her own waterskin. He led the mare away.
Tess collapsed. She almost cried out as her muscles cramped agonizingly. In the distance, angry words were exchanged, but they faded away. After a time Yuri returned with her bedroll and half carried her out where she could have some privacy, and left her. She rolled up in her blanket and slept.
Very few people knew it, but Charles Soerensen spent most of his time in the spartan office that looked out over the mud flats of Odys Massif. To the right, concealed behind the flat-screen wall that projected two-dees on its surface or holos out into the room, lay a small bedroom and washroom, equally spartan. In the central tower of the great palace lay the official ducal state suite: sleeping chamber, efficiency, sitting room, receiving room, and the border room whose high, rib-vaulted aisles gave onto the arcade that led to the female tower, untenanted and unused. If a visitor of sufficient importance came to Odys, Charles used the state suite. Otherwise, he lived in his office.
Marco found Charles sitting at his desk. Its lights were up, projecting first flat text, then numbers, then graphs, then virtual representations in three dimensions over the smooth surface of the desk. Charles sat straight in his chair. Now and then he keyed in commands on his keypad. Now and then he spoke a word or two and the holo changed or dissipated to flat text and numbers again.