by Kahlen Aymes
Her clit was full and erect. I let my breath out when my thumb found it, her hips started to move, of their own volition, into my hand as I took her mouth hungrily with mine.
“Uh, Cade, it feels so good,” she said against my mouth. “But I don’t want… huh, huh… mmm… to come without you.” She was gasping, as I moved my thumb for a few more seconds and then my fingers slipped inside her and I felt her muscles constrict around my fingers. My heart was racing. I was in so much love and lust my eyes blurred. She was tight and it made me even harder, swelling to the point of pain. “Please… Please,” she was begging, “not without you.”
“Brook, I need to be inside you, baby. I’m starving, drowning and only you can save me.” I wasn’t sure if I was begging for release or baring my soul. Probably, it was both.
I lifted her with the arm around her waist, as I moved the skirt of her gown up with the other, and then lowered her beneath me on the bed, my mouth still connected to hers. I kissed her passionately and she met my demands, her tongue warring with mine. My breath was coming faster and my heart was full.
“You taste so amazing.”
When I lifted my head, the candles illuminated her face and I thought I’d never seen anything more beautiful in my life. Her eyes were liquid with love and passion as she drew me into the blue depths. I wanted this to last forever, so I slowed my pace.
My knee parted her thighs, spreading her legs wide with my own, as my hand brushed her hair back. Settling down into the cradle of her body, I kissed her long and deep, sucking her tongue into my mouth and feasting on it as I found her opening and started to enter her.
She moaned into my mouth as she moved to sheath the full length of me; hot; wet, and tight. I closed my eyes at the ecstasy of the sensations as her fingers wound in my hair, cradling my head.
“Oh Brook,” I groaned against the curve of her slender neck. It was always like the first time with her. “Mmmmmm. You feel so incredible, like you were made just for me,” I breathed as I kissed her again. “Nothing else will ever feel this amazing. God.”
I started to move slowly within her, as I looked down upon her face. Her head turned to one side, her mouth open as she panted my name, her long hair like silk on the pillows above her head.
“I am, Cade… Cade… Uhhhh… we are.”
I kissed her cheek and dragged my lips to her neck where I sucked and licked as my body drove into hers in long, slow, purposeful thrusts. My hand came up to her breast where I teased and tweaked her hard nipple. Her hands were roaming lightly up my back making my skin tingle until her hands wound in my hair.
“I love you, Brook.” I put more pressure with my thrusts but didn’t increase the speed. I wanted to be deeper, deeper inside my baby… “Mmmmm, you’re mine forever,” I murmured as I felt the orgasm starting to tighten my muscles as it was building.
She brought her knees up as I sank deeper into her body. She pulled my mouth back to hers and sucked my lower lip between her lips before I took her mouth completely in a soul-wrenching kiss.
She turned her face toward me and looked up at me, then her eyes closed and her back started to arch as she brought her hips up to meet my thrusts, her teeth biting her lower lip. I was mesmerized by her flushed skin and lost expression. My hand went between our bodies and touched her clit, my fingers moving in small circles again and again.
“Ohhhhh, Cade…” She moaned my name against my mouth. Her eyes opened and then her arms were going around my neck, into my hair, and sliding her tongue into my mouth as I felt her body clench and convulse around mine, and I answered her with mine. I sucked on her mouth like her body was sucking on mine.
“I love you…” she said and then moaned my name. “I love you, Cade.”
Her beautiful voice, her lithe body writhing under mine, her face drunk with passion, her insides grasping around me, so hot, I felt myself start to come. I tried, but I couldn’t stop it.
I groaned as my mouth closed over hers in another hot kiss, my tongue delving into her mouth, sucking on her lips and her response driving me insane with desire.
I felt her hands rake down my back, she threw her head back and I knew she was starting to climax. I thrust into her harder, deeper, and she was making the sounds that drove me wild.
“Mmmmm… uhhhh… Cade. Cade, oh, my God, can you come with me?” Brook’s voice throbbed.
“I’m there, Brook. I’m there. You got me.” I felt my body tense, and then I exploded deep within her body. It was so fucking strong, my whole body trembled and shook, spasm after spasm racked my frame and I took her mouth in kiss after kiss.
“My God.” I was gasping, my body twitching as the waves of pleasure continued, and her body pulled my orgasm from me in powerful spurts. My chest heaved against her, my hands pushing the tendrils clinging to her skin by a sheen of sweat, away from her face, I felt her hands ghost down my back to my ass.
I was exhausted as I collapsed into the pillows beside her head, my hand going up to cup her cheek and I kissed the other side of her face.
My body still moved within her softly, slowly as if it had a mind of it’s own. I could still feel her contractions as her orgasm subsided. I brushed back her hair from her damp brow and stared down at her perfect features. I nuzzled her neck, my hands framing her face as I rested on my elbows above her.
“Brook…” I whispered. “Oh, honey.” I kissed her mouth softly, sucking her upper lip into my mouth and I felt her breath fan out warmly on my face.
My eyes opened slowly to see her cornflower blue ones watching and languid. She ran her nails down my back and I shivered.
“So, did I?” She smiled at me as she kissed my temple and then my chin.
“Mmmm, babe that was earthshattering. Mission accomplished, I’d say.” I laughed softly, nuzzling her neck and cheek, kissing her open mouth once more before I moved to her side and pulled the strap back into place over her shoulder.
“It doesn’t hide much, even when it’s on.” She grinned at me, both of us still panting.
I waggled my eyebrows at her with a grin. “I know. I chose well,” I teased. She nuzzled into my neck and I felt content and sated. I ran my hand down her body, stilling when I crossed her flat stomach.
I lay beside her; studying her features, looking at her perfect form as emotion overwhelmed me. I knew my features were thoughtful, relaxed and satisfied as my hands traced lightly over her body. I bent to place a soft, teasing kiss on her moist lips.
Her hand was on me, too, rubbing up and down my arm and then reaching out to touch my face, as her face turned serious. Her fingers brushing away the hair at my temple then fluttered down to brush across my chin.
“I can’t stop touching you.” It was the simple truth. I’d never be able to.
“Never stop.” She lifted her head toward mine, asking silently for me to kiss her. I brought my mouth to hers and our lips brushed against one another. “Thank you for all of this.”
“No.” I was contemplative, backing away, my eyes locked with hers. “Thank you, love. You’re so much more than I could ever deserve. There are no words.” I brushed her cheek with the back of my hand and then cupped her chin.
I stared at her as if I’d never see her again, taking in every curve of her face and body. I bent to kiss her luscious lips, brushing her mouth with mine again and again.
“Brook…” I began.
“Hmmm?” her hand moved down to run soft fingers across my forearm as my hand lay on her stomach.
“Well, we never really talked about this, but well… are we safe, to make love like we do?” Her eyes widened a little, but she nodded. “I should have asked before, but I don’t think straight when I’m with you.”
“Of course, Cade. I’d never risk that. I’d never try to trap you into anything.” Her brow wrinkled as her hand stroked the skin on my chest.
I started. She has the wrong idea. I shook my head. “No. I know that. I trust you. But I want you protected. You’re so young.”
“We both are,” she said softly, her fingers still tracing my arm.
“Yeah, I guess.” My hand came up to cover hers and bring it lovingly to my lips. I’d never considered children before and maybe we did have years to think about it, but if it happened with Brook, I would embrace it.
“It’s been so amazing between us, that I never even thought about the consequences. This thing between us is so earthshaking, it always takes over the moment.”
I stared down into her aquamarine eyes as she listened to what I was saying. She was sated by our love, so languid, glowing, as she watched my face, and softly caressed my forearm.
“But, I think we should talk about it,” I said and then hesitated. This was a serious conversation and I rubbed my hand lightly on her tummy. “Um…” I stopped.
“Cade, what is it?” she whispered. I hesitated because of this new, powerful desire that had risen within me. “Just say it.”
I was totally unprepared for the intensity and complete and utter astonishment I felt at this new need of mine.
My heart pounding in my chest, I knew that I wanted to give her the world and more. She had become my entire life.
“Brook.” I bent to kiss her mouth, brushing mine back and forth across it before kissing her more deeply, and then a few more, soft, sucking kisses.
“I would give you anything you asked. Would you do the same?” I whispered against her luscious mouth, she rose toward me, her lips searching, seeking mine. I took her mouth wildly with mine, my tongue diving into her mouth, I sucked on her tongue, tasting, teasing.
She reached up to brush the hair from my forehead as she sucked my lower lip into her mouth, before again brushing my lips with hers.
“Yes, anything.” She nodded and I could see the questions in her eyes, her brow crinkling a little above her nose. “Anything.” She smiled softly as she said it again.
“Would you give me… a child?” My eyes never left her face as I asked.
She gasped and her eyes grew wider.
“Not right away, obviously,” I assured her.
“But, I thought… you wouldn’t want that…” Brook began, shaking her head, her brow furrowed.
I placed a finger on her lips to still her words.
“I didn’t think I did either, but this thing between us is so profound, I find myself in unfamiliar territory. A place I never thought I’d be. Maybe I’m thinking about it because of the books—the movies.”
I stopped for a second and moved my hand on her stomach below her navel again. I watched her looking at me, her hair like silk fanning out behind her head, her blue eyes soft.
“But, nothing would make me happier.” I stopped and lifted her hand to my mouth to softly kiss it, noticing the beautiful engagement ring on her delicate finger. My heart felt like it would burst within my chest: it was so full of her. “I want that with you.” I raised my eyes to meet hers and smiled. “Someday.”
Her beautiful eyes filled up with tears as she looked at me. I moved to lie on my side, propping up on one hand while the other went back to her smooth stomach and lightly rested there.
“It would be irrefutable proof of the love between us; and the world would know it,” I said, my voice growing deeper as emotion surged within my chest. “I can’t wait to see a beautiful little girl with your face and my eyes, or to see my baby son suckling at your breast would be the most incredible, powerful thing I could ever imagine.” I watched her expression soften and her lips tremble, her eyes becoming even more liquid. “I love you so much I feel a little ridiculous, like I’m making an utter ass of myself.”
The tears fell softly from her eyes as she looked into mine and shook her head. “Brook, don’t cry. I’m sorry.” I kissed the tears from her cheeks. “You’re the love of my life,” I vowed.
“Cade, don’t be sorry that you love me like that. You make me so happy.” Her hand covered mine and pressed it against her where it rested above her womb. “Nothing would give me more joy. It’s amazing to know you want to share that with me.” Her voice cracked as a sob broke from her chest. “I love you,” she whispered, and I bent to kiss her again softly, the fingers of my right hand twining with her left. “More than I ever believed it was possible to love anyone.”
I rested my head against hers, and sighed deeply. I felt like I was living a dream.
“Just not for about 10 years, okay?” She laughed though the tears on her face.
“Okay, honey, sure.” I smiled and laughed with her as my arms closed around her and we both laughed out loud. “Whatever you want. Anything,” I promised, and meant every word.
Chapter 23
Morning Glory
I awoke in the dark, many of the candles burnt out and only a few of the larger ones still flickering. Cade was curled up against my body from behind, his hand around my waist and coming up to cup my breast. I inhaled the scent of him all around me as I closed my eyes, remembering the ecstasy of the evening before.
It was magical and unbelievable. The stuff dreams are made of.
Thinking back, I remembered his beautiful eyes, glistening with tears when he looked upon me in the negligee for the first time, and again as he knelt to place his ring on my finger. I closed my eyes as I remembered his velvet voice telling me he loved me and that I belonged to him in the middle of our passionate lovemaking. His touch made my body sing. The reverence in his voice when he admitted that he wanted our child filled my heart to the point of bursting. It was surreal. Never in my wildest imagination would I have dared hope that Caden Carlisle would be mine. Not only that, he’d proposed and told me he wanted a child with me. Holy fuck.
I never thought I could love someone this much. It mirrored the intensity relationship Ryan and Julia shared in the books, and in our film.
My eyes stung with tears at the memory of the months since the end of shooting, and the pain we’d suffered during our separation. All of the longing and worry that had built up inside as I’d wondered if we’d still be “us” when we finally had time to spend time together again, had been for nothing.
I listened to Cade’s steady breathing, the warmth from his breath on my shoulder and neck. There was nowhere else I’d rather be.
He’s so perfect in every way… How could such a man even exist, let alone love me?
My heart beat faster and my arm tightened on top of his. I brought his hand up to my face and pressed my lips to it. Part of me was afraid that this was too good to be true, that something would happen to shatter the perfection in front of me, but I tried to push those feelings away.
I would cherish these precious moments and days with Cade, memorize every second and pack it away in the recesses of my heart so I could relive them when we were apart.
Usually, I was beyond all of this romantic stuff, even thinking at times that it was all bullshit or something that only existed in movie scripts, but never in reality. I never thought in a million years that I’d want to have children either. Even though it would still be years, Cade had changed my mind in a matter of seconds..
He was perfect; a gentleman, respectful and caring, not to mention beautiful. It was no wonder every woman he met wanted him.
My stomach lurched a little at the thought of all of the women that would chase him and surely all of the tabloid rumors that would be conjured up just to sell magazines. It wouldn’t be easy, but being with Cade would be worth the turmoil.
He was worth everything.
I was content as I lay next to him as he slept, his warm arms around me, feeling protected and safe from anything bad that could happen.
If only the studio didn’t have such utter control over our lives. I knew I shouldn’t think of it that way, it was because of this movie that we’d met, but the restrictions they placed over our lives and time together, sucked. And, the pain Cade would suffer when I had to pretend to be with David was regrettable. Even though it was a ruse, I hated putting him through that, and there was much more of it to come.
Jeanne told me yesterday on the phone that David would be flying with me to Rome for the premier of The Future of Our Past in October, and Cade would be joining us directly from London after visiting his family. No doubt, Cade would torture himself the entire time I was with David; at least until he was holed up with me in my hotel room after the red carpet and the interviews were finished.
The worst part of the secrecy was the lying. I hated it and it was risky. I hated pretending I was with David when my heart was screaming for Cade. I hated that he suffered because of it, but so did David. Mostly, I hated not being able to be open with our feelings for each other, hated we couldn’t just be natural with each other. It was bullshit.
I also worried about all of the screaming women and surely all of the actresses that he’d be in contact with over the next few months. I shivered as the thought left me ice cold. This thing with Cade was fragile and filled with variables, which scared the living shit out of me. I was terrified. If I ever lost him, it would devastate my life.
I didn’t give a damn about what people thought about me, but everything was different now. Celebrity changed everything, but if I had my druthers, I’d rather stand my ground. Cade gave me all I wanted, and knew what I needed before I did. No negotiation necessary. There was a strange tightness building within my chest at the turn of my thoughts. I was a pile of mush under his hands; one word from him could take me to heaven, or plunge me to hell. It was a precarious, yet glorious place to be.
Amazing, and scary.
My fingers traced up and down the strong forearm that was wrapped around me. Cade stirred slightly and his arm tightened more when he pressed his lips into the back of my head in a series of kisses that continued down my neck to the curve of my shoulder, as he lifted the curtain of my hair out of his way.
“Mmmm…” he breathed against the side of my neck. “Here you are, as if in a dream.” His body mirrored mine, both of us lying on our sides. He was plastered up against my back, and yet I wanted him closer. I felt the soft caress of his lips run across my shoulder and I smiled at his words. “I was afraid to wake up.”