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by Alexandria Constantinova Szeman


  Eddie's best friend Auggie longs to get closer to God by looking for angels and demons in "Auggie Vernon and the Eclipse," no matter what the personal consequences might be.

  In the collection's title poem "Love in the Time of Dinosaurs," the disillusionment, anger, and pathos of Eddie Madison's life as his marriage deteriorates is likened to the changes of the earth and its climate through long geological transformation, leading to an unexpected, startling conclusion.

  Szeman's voice is simple and melodic, engaging and lyrical. Her themes are universal, encompassing the perspectives of men and women, adults and children, equally honestly. Though the line-breaks are often syllabic, and the stanzas formal, the language flows musically over the artificially imposed line-breaks. The poems' stories and characters have generated a multitude of fans who claim that, "for the first time, [they] understand contemporary poetry."

  All of the poems in the collection have been previously published in literary and university journals, and many of the poems in this collection have been awarded prizes, including the University of Cincinnati's Elliston Prize (anonymous competition; 1983, 1984, 1985), and The Isabel & Mary Neff Fellowship for Creative Writing (1984-85).

  Several poems were part of her dissertation, Survivor: One Who Survives (University of Cincinnati, 1986). Along with her Holocaust poetry collection, Where Lightning Strikes, this collection, Love in the Time of Dinosaurs, was unanimously accepted for publication by all outside readers of UKA Press in 2004.

  As powerfully written, darkly humorous, surprising, and accessible as her prose works, these poems let you glimpse into the hearts, lives, and minds of ordinary people — whether they be mythological, biblical, literary, or contemporary — as they struggle to make sense of relationships, family, marriage, divorce, children, spirituality, faith, and the existence of God. As they struggle to comprehend the very things each of us experiences every day.

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  Love in the Time of Dinosaurs

  (award-winning poems)

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  Love

  in the Time of

  Dinosaurs

  award-winning poems

  Alexandria Constantinova Szeman

  RockWay Press, LLC · New Mexico

  Copyright © 1984-1986, 1987-2004, 2012

  by Alexandria Constantinova Szeman

  Contents

  Love in the Time of Dinosaurs

  Cain's Lament

  Field Trip to the Serpent Mound

  Eddie Madison and the Theory of Evolution

  Auggie Vernon and the Eclipse

  Love in the Time of Dinosaurs

  Auggie Vernon Gets Struck by Lightning

  Eddie Madison and the Law of Gravity

  The Lies Our Parents Tell Us

  Selling Your Brother

  Portrait of the Poet as a Woman

  Should, Should Not

  Anniversary

  A Cappella

  Haceldama

  Portrait of the Poet as a Woman

  Among Children

  Holiday

  When the Animals Come Out

  The Toast

  When Bitterness Is All We Have

  Holding Our Hearts in Our Hands like Rock

  Group Portrait: During Eclipse

  Group Portrait: During Eclipse

  Penelope to Ulysses

  The Strength of Stones

  Counting the Thunder

  Ahab's Wife

  Blood Songs

  Fireflies

  Hearts, the Game

  Speaking for the Dead

  Field Trip

  to the Serpent Mound

  Once again our professor reminds us that we

  have not come here to see the serpent mound but to see the

  geological formations beside it, and

  because we want the ten weeks' credit for only

  five long, hot summer days, we dutifully turn our

  attention back to the area, nearly five

  miles in diameter, containing extremely

  faulted and folded bedrock, Paleozoic

  carbonates, sandstones, and shales, dutifully noting shatter

  cones and the vertical fractures in the rock, all

  uncommon in the normally flat-layered rocks

  of Ohio, even southwest Ohio. But

  it's the serpent mound that draws our eyes again and

  again. That nearly quarter-mile embankment of

  earth built by Indians a thousand years ago,

  the gigantic snake uncoiling in seven deep

  curves along a bluff overlooking Brush Creek, the

  oval embankment near the end of the bluff most

  probably representing the open mouth of

  the serpent as it strikes. It's the largest and finest

  snake effigy mound in North America and was

  not built over any burials or remnants

  of living areas as everyone once thought,

  its massive body uncoiling, its huge earthen

  mouth unhinged and open, ready to swallow down

  anything foolish or blind enough to stumble

  into its path. With an exasperated sigh,

  the professor reminds us how the landowners

  have been most cooperative in allowing us

  to examine the site and will we please respect

  their property and disturb it as little as

  possible and please pick up that empty plastic

  bag lying there in the thick ground vegetation

  and will we shirkers please pay attention for once

  in our lives? We obediently huddle around him, scribbling all

  his words in our spiral-bound notebooks, thinking of

  Moses instead, casting his rod down before the

  Pharaoh so it might turn into a serpent and

  devour all the serpents conjured up by the

  Pharaoh's magicians and sorcerers. In a drone,

  the professor points out the exposed bedrock and

  the dolomite, shattered and brecciated, but we

  think about snakes digesting everything but hair

  and feathers, even teeth and bones. We think about

  curved fangs and glistening scales and the tremendous size

  of it all. During lunch with his favorite students,

  gulping down tuna salad on toasted rye, the

  professor explains that researchers have been studying the

  possibility that the effigy may have

  been laid out in alignment with various and

  sundry astronomical observations. The

  professor discusses the closely spaced fractures

  and the undisturbed Pleistocene glacial till, while

  we shirkers tiptoe around the serpent mound,

  whispering about Medusa, her voluptuous

  body and writhing nest of serpent-hair turning

  us hard as stone. About the sweet illicit taste

  of forbidden fruit and afterward our crawling

  on our bellies and eating dirt all the days of

  our lives, gladly, so gladly, with the sweet taste of

  the fruit forever on our lips and tongue. After

  lunch the professor patiently explains why the

  serpent mound disturbance cannot be explained by

  either the meteorite- or comet-impact hypotheses

  or by the gas-explosion theory but may be

  somewhat if only incompletely understood

  as the result of some ancient volcanic or

  tectonic activity, but we're thinking of

  Cleopatra, with her dark hair and her milky

  white breasts, bared to fangs which, when not in use, fold back

  and lie flat, but which when used, spring forward and then

  become erect. Ser
pent bodies long and cool and

  hard, muscles undulating beneath taut snake skin.

  Vipers' pits seeking out the heat, the damp moist heat,

  trembling to the vibrations which reach us through the

  faulted and folded Paleozoic structures.

  Which stir us from our underground dens and thrust us

  violently up along the fault lines, our bedrock

  exposed. Which leave us shattered, gasping and spent, our

  snake hearts dark and deep as the earth from which we came.

  Should, Should Not

  (after a poem by

  Czeslaw Milosz)

  A woman should not love a man, but if she does,

  she should keep the child of their breath close to her heart.

  A woman should not love a man, but if she does,

  her house should be clean and tidy, her dinner pots

  full. Her garden should smell of lilacs and roses.

  A man, when he loves a woman, should not use words

  that are dear to her, or split open her heart to

  find what's inside. She should never look over her

  shoulder when crossing over his threshold (or so

  our mothers teach us). When she crawls into his bed

  at night, she may memorize his sleeping face as

  a reminder of what will not last forever.

  Ahab's Wife

  Must ye then perish,

  and without me?

  Herman Melville

  Moby-Dick

  Each night she stands in the open doorway, her hair

  frenzied by the wind, a shawl around her shoulders.

  After she bolts the door, she wanders through the dark,

  empty rooms. As she passes the cradle, the child

  whimpers, so she gathers him to her breast, then coos

  him to anxious dozing. While he dreams, she gazes

  down at him, brushes his soft cheek with her fingers.

  She looks away, out the window, remembering

  herself as a young child, still an orphan, even

  in her uncle's house. One night in summer, she threads

  blue ribbons in her dark hair, then lurks around the

  parlor, hoping to glimpse the tall, gaunt visitor.

  Her uncle sees her, swears, orders her to bed, but

  the other says, Ah, Sarah, as he reaches for

  her, as he lowers his tall, thin frame so that their

  faces meet. Delicately, she places her cool

  fingers on his cheek, on the scar. His palm brushes

  over her thick dark hair, snags one of the blue silk

  ribbons. Behind them, the fire spits. With the child in

  her lap, she remembers another version of

  herself — the young wife waiting on a wind-battered

  wharf, clutching her son, as the murmuring crowd grows

  still, as it divides itself like the biblical

  sea. From the crowd's midst, he lurches forward, paler

  than the scar on his cheek or the new-fashioned

  leg. She holds up the child. Jacob, she says, offering

  their son to him, but the child shrieks and grasps her neck.

  He limps home alone. She stands and stares a long time

  at the sea — his sea. Every night after dinner,

  he paces his study, his new leg tapping on

  the wooden floor, until he walks himself to sleep,

  until he collapses in one of the large chairs.

  Every night, alone in their vast bed, she hugs the

  pillows as she curses her own hesitation,

  her own trembling. Then one night, his loud cries wake her.

  She rushes to him, kisses his clenched fists, bends his

  writhing, shuddering form to her warm body, chants

  his name until his eyes see her, until his voice

  coughs out her name, until, with an animal sob,

  his mouth chafes hers. Every night after that, they are

  together. On their last night, she jolts awake in

  their abandoned bed. She discovers him in the

  child's room, over the cradle. Behind him, the wind

  rattles the windows. The moonlight haloes his greyed

  hair, glows on the child's face, glares on the new leg. She

  calls to him, but he stays still. She grips his arm through

  the coarse cloth. He doesn't move. Tomorrow his ship

  will wrench away. She opens her eyes, aches with the

  longing for him. It's too long since he's been

  with her, too long before the sea surrenders him

  to her again. The wind swells, heaves snow from the roof

  with a thud. She lays the child in her bed, secures

  the blanket on either side of him, drags her long

  fingers through his dark curls, kisses his cheek, and sighs.

  She waits by the window, gazing at his dark and

  heaving sea as, all around them, pale-blue snow swirls,

  climbs into steep crests, collapses upon itself.

  Publication Acknowledgments

  & Awards

  Portions of Love in the Time of Dinosaurs have appeared previously (sometimes in altered form or under different titles, and under the name "Sherri" Szeman) in the following publications:

  Journals

  • Borderlands: Texas Poetry Review

  • The Cape Rock (Southeast Missouri State University)

  • Carolina Quarterly (University of North Carolina)

  • Cedar Rock

  • Centennial Review (Michigan State University)

  • Cincinnati Poetry Review (University of Cincinnati)

  • Chester H. Jones Foundation Poetry Competition Winners 1985

  • Chicago Review (University of Chicago)

  • Colorado-North Review (University of Northern Colorado)

  • Cornfield Review (Ohio State University at Marion)

  • Dark Horse

  • DeKalb Literary Arts Journal (DeKalb Community College)

  • Encore: A Quarterly of Verse and Poetic Arts

  • The Great Lakes Review: A Journal of Midwest Culture (Central Michigan University)

  • Hawaii Review (University of Hawaii)

  • Images (Wright State University)

  • Kansas Quarterly (Kansas State University)

  • The Kenyon Review (Kenyon College)

  • Midland Review (Oklahoma State University)

  • Nebo (Arkansas Technical University)

  • New Kent Quarterly (Kent State University)

  • New Letters (University of Missouri-Kansas City)

  • Ohio Journal (Ohio State University)

  • Orphic Lute

  • Piedmont Literary Review

  • Poetry Today

  • Portland Review (Portland State University)

  • Soundings East (Salem State College)

  • South Carolina Review (Clemson University)

  • Southern Poetry Review (University of North Carolina)

  • The Third Eye

  • Wittenberg Review of Art and Literature (Wittenberg University)

  • Writers' Forum (University of Colorado at Colorado Springs)

  Books

  • Survivor: One Who Survives (Ph.D. dissertation, original poetry, University of Cincinnati) 1986

  Awards

  • Chester H. Jones Foundation Poetry Competition, Honorable Commendation, 1985

  • The Centennial Review Prize for Poetry (Michael Miller Award) for best poem published in 1984 (Michigan State University) 1985

  • The Isabel & Mary Neff Fellowship for Creative Writing (University of Cincinnati) 1984-1985

  • Elliston Prize, First Place (anonymous competition; University of Cincinnati) 1985

  • Elliston Prize, Second Place (anonymous competition; University of Cincinnati) 1984

  • Elliston Prize, Grand Prize (no other prize awarded)
(anonymous competition; University of Cincinnati) 1983

  • Writer's Digest National Writing Competition, Honorable Mention, 1980

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  Where Lightning Strikes

  (award-winning poems on the Holocaust)

  Where Lightning Strikes includes all Szeman's Holocaust poetry, from the poems featured in her Ph.D. dissertation Survivor: One Who Survives, to the original versions of "Rachel's poems" appearing or mentioned in Szeman's award-winning, critically acclaimed first novel The Kommandant's Mistress.

 

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