by Olivia Drake
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Chapter 1
Upon entering Lady Milford’s London town house for the first time in ten years, Nathan Atwood had no notion that his aversion to marriage was about to undergo a dramatic reversal.
Rainwater dripped from his wet garments onto the marble floor of the foyer. A puddle formed around his black boots. As he tossed his cloak and hat to the butler, a gust of wind rattled the night-darkened windows on either side of the door.
Nate rubbed his cold hands together. “Good evening, Hargrove. I see you’re still alive and kicking after all these years.”
Expressionless as ever, Hargrove transferred Nate’s sodden apparel to the arms of a footman, who bore the items away down a corridor. The white-haired butler surveyed Nate’s outmoded garb and, in particular, the too long dark hair held back by a thin leather ribbon. His upper lip curled ever so slightly. “It would have been wise to send a note, instead of appearing like a drowned rat on her ladyship’s doorstep.”
The hint of censure on those battered features tickled Nate’s fancy. He had forgotten the enjoyment of coaxing a reaction from that deadpan visage. Lady Milford’s butler had never approved of him, not even when Nate had been a dashing young libertine arrayed in the latest fashion. “This early spring rain is trifling compared to the typhoons of the Far East. Now, I’ve just arrived back in England and I should like to see my godmother at once. Is she in?”
“Her ladyship has a prior engagement. You may pen a message if you like.”
Nate ignored the man’s gesture to proceed into an antechamber flanked by green marble pillars. “For pity’s sake, I’ve traveled here all the way from China. Go and ask her if she’ll spare a few moments for her godson.”
The butler thinned his lips. “It would be best to return on the morrow. I’m sure she will clear a slot on her calendar—”
“That won’t be necessary, Hargrove.” The feminine voice floated down from the top of the staircase. “Do send him up at once.”
Nate looked up to see an elegant woman standing at the first-floor balcony. A pale violet gown hugged her slim form, and her styled hair appeared as pitch-black as ever, with nary a line on the classic oval of her face. Lady Milford had to be above fifty years of age, yet she looked as eternally youthful as if she’d been wrapped in the finest tissue for the past decade.
Despite the gravity of his purpose, he couldn’t stop a genuine smile. He hadn’t realized until this moment how much he’d missed Lady Milford. She had always been a safe port for him in the tempest of his parents’ marriage. And more of a steadfast influence in his childhood than his own frivolous mother.
Now, Nate had many questions for her that needed answering. Specifically, in regard to the letter she’d sent him over a year ago. It had taken eight months to reach him in Shanghai, then another five months for him to finish several crucial business transactions and then make the long voyage back to England.
He bounded up the staircase, taking the marble steps two at a time. Reaching the top, he caught Lady Milford in a warm embrace, inhaling the familiar scent of lilacs as he planted a kiss on her smooth cheek. “You haven’t aged a whit, Godmother. You’re lovelier than ever.”
She laughed away the extravagant compliment. “And you are still the rogue, my dear Nathan. You should have warned me of your call. I’m due to leave for the theater in half an hour.”
“Forgive me. I came straight from the docks.” As she glanced at the untidy state of his garb, he added, “Alas, there are no proper English tailors where I’ve been living.”
One slender eyebrow arched. “Why, India is quite civilized these days. Surely there must be many tailors in Bombay.”
“Bombay was only my mail drop. Correspondence had to be forwarded to me in China.”
“China!”
“I’ve been living there for the past two years. Trade is beginning to open up more to the Europeans. It’s a treasure trove of tea and silks and gemstones.”
“Have you made your fortune, then? I always thought you would.”
“That and more. In truth, I’m hoping to open an import office here in London.”
“That is good news! Perhaps it will bring you home more often.” She tucked her hand in the crook of his arm. “Do come into my sitting room, Nathan. You’ve time enough for a drink while you tell me about your travels.”
As they strolled along a carpeted corridor and into a rose and yellow room at the rear of the house, he related some of the more unusual sights he’d seen: tall temples called pagodas that were home to Buddhist priests, black-and-white bears that ate only bamboo leaves, and exotically robed merchants who spoke little English yet were shrewd at bartering.
Lady Milford seated herself on a rose-striped chair while he went to a side table to fill a tumbler of brandy from a cut-glass carafe. When he offered it to her, she shook her head.
Her solemn violet eyes studied him. “Enough chitchat,” she said. “I presume it isn’t only business that has lured you back to England. It’s also the sad news conveyed in my letter.”
His fingers gripped the glass. He could feel the imprint of the cut crystal against his skin. “Yes.”
“Pray allow me to say that I’m so very sorry for what has happened. A letter is hardly the ideal way to convey a death in the family.”
Nate took a drink from his glass and let it burn down his throat. So it was true. His father was dead. He expected to feel a rush of triumph, but his chest felt devoid of emotion. “Quite so.”
“If you came straight here from the docks, then you haven’t yet called at Gilmore House,” she observed. “Why?”
How could he explain his reluctance to visit the place where he’d grown up as the second son of the Earl of Gilmore? After all, his father no longer held sway over the family. The tyrant was gone now. Nate had learned the news from Lady Milford’s letter:
With great sorrow, I must inform you that your father lies on his deathbed. The smallpox has weakened his heart and the doctors have little hope of his recovery. My dear Nathan, although I can’t pretend to know the nature of your quarrel with Gilmore, I do understand your desire to make your own way in the world. Yet, as your godmother, I dare say that you have been parted from your brother and sister for long enough …
Walking to the night-darkened window, he took another swallow of brandy. The Earl of Gilmore—dead. It was still hard to believe it. The man had been a harsh, godlike despot who had singled out Nate as the target of his vitriol. He had been the bane of Nate’s childhood.
By nature, his elder brother, David, had been dutiful and well behaved, the ideal son and heir, while Nate had been the bad seed, wild and rebellious. All the gifts, the admiration, the praise from the earl had been directed at David. Gilmore had had nothing left for his younger son but chilly stares and cold rebukes.
On his twenty-first birthday, Nate had had one final explosive quarrel with Gilmore. He had left England the very next day
, vowing never to return. But now, the news of the earl’s death changed everything. It was gratifying to imagine the man moldering in his grave. No fate could be more fitting for that vile wretch.
Lightning flashed against the night sky. For a moment he saw the silhouetted rooftops of Mayfair, strange and yet so familiar. Somewhere out there, his siblings were likely at Gilmore House, where the family always stayed during the season. Emily must be a young lady of nineteen now. David would be thirty-three and the new Earl of Gilmore.
The prospect of seeing them again stirred a morass of emotion in Nate’s chest. David had never taken advantage of being the favorite. There had always been a sort of camaraderie between the brothers whenever their father wasn’t around. In a way, David had been as much a victim of Gilmore’s poison as Nate had.
But did David know the real reason why Nate had departed so abruptly? Had the old devil told his heir the truth? Would his brother reject him now?
As rain sluiced down the window, Nate saw Lady Milford’s seated figure reflected in the glass. It struck him that she was still awaiting his response.
Brandy in hand, he walked forward and settled himself on the chaise opposite her chair. “Of course I came here first,” he said, swirling his drink. “After all, it was your letter that brought me back to England. And I thought it best to do a bit of reconnaissance before going to Gilmore House. You can fill me in on all the household news.”
“Your family has been in mourning this past year, of course. Emily is finally to make her come-out in a few weeks.” Lady Milford paused, then added, “But before I say more, I must ask why you departed so abruptly—with nary a word of explanation. Your father would only say the two of you had quarreled.”
Scowling, Nate tilted his head back and drained the rest of his brandy. “It was a long time ago. It’s best forgotten.”
“Nonsense, such a powerful disagreement cannot be swept under the rug. It will have to be resolved, or it will continue to fester.”
“Fester? Why would you say that?” He sat up straight, his spine rigid. He wondered if she knew the truth. “Did the earl tell David why I left England? Did my brother say something to you?”
“No! Not a word.” Her fine eyebrows drawn in a quizzical frown, she tilted her head. “Nathan, I feel we’re speaking at cross-purposes. Did you and your father already clear the air? Did the two of you perhaps straighten things out by letter?”
“Absolutely not. I cut off all contact with my family when I left England. No one but you knew my address.”
“I see,” she said slowly. “Then you must be prepared to make amends when you visit Gilmore House. What will you say to him?”
Nate frowned at her. He must have misheard. There could be no reason for the horrifying suspicion that lurked at the verge of his mind. “What the devil do you mean, say to him? My father is dead. You yourself wrote in your letter that he lay on his deathbed.”
Lady Milford’s face paled. She lifted her hand to her mouth. For a moment there was only the distant rumble of thunder and the hissing of the fire on the hearth. “My dear Nathan,” she said faintly. “Did you not receive my second letter? I mailed it a week later, after your father had made a miraculous recovery. The doctors were truly amazed…”
His blood ran cold. He could feel his heart thudding in heavy strokes against his rib cage. Despite the brandy he’d just finished, his mouth felt dry as dust. “That’s impossible. Only a moment ago, you said the family was in mourning this past year.”
“Yes, because I thought you knew…” Lady Milford rose from the chair, seated herself beside him on the chaise, and placed her hand on his sleeve. Her violet eyes conveyed a deep compassion. “Soon after I sent that first letter, David contracted the smallpox, too, as did Emily. Your sister survived but … I’m afraid David did not. I’m so very sorry.”
A roaring filled his ears. The air Nate drew into his lungs cut like knives. His brother was dead. David, who had slipped Nate food whenever he’d been put to bed without his supper. David, who had covered for Nate when he’d failed to complete his school assignments. David, who had been buried over twelve months ago.
A nightmarish unreality suffocated Nate. The mail service was often unreliable, especially to the Far East where few Europeans traveled. He must have departed Shanghai before the arrival of the second letter. The sympathy on Lady Milford’s face confirmed that awful truth.
The Earl of Gilmore was alive.
Springing to his feet, Nate hurled the tumbler at the fire. The glass shattered with an earsplitting crash. Shards skittered across the marble hearth. “I should have known the wretch was too hateful to die!”
Before Lady Milford could do more than rise from the chaise, Hargrove appeared in the doorway. “Is aught amiss, my lady?”
Nate spun toward him. “What the devil! You were eavesdropping out in the corridor!”
“Quite the contrary.” The butler glowered before turning to his employer. “Your visitor is waiting downstairs in the library, my lady. Shall I send a footman to clean up here?”
“Later,” she said. “Kindly close the door on your way out.”
The servant’s pale blue eyes flicked to Nate. Hargrove made a slight bow and retreated. The door shut with a small bang that conveyed his displeasure.
Though caught up in a storm cloud of wrath, Nate felt the jab of proper manners. He toed a few splinters of glass away from his godmother. “Forgive me,” he said stiffly. “I’ll repay you for the damage.”
Lady Milford dismissed his offer with a wave of her hand. “I never understood why Gilmore treated you so shabbily. But it’s clear your feelings toward him have not changed.”
“Nor shall they! I would never have returned to England had I known his presence still poisoned the air.”
Her lips pursed, she glided to his side. She tilted her head back to look him in the eyes. “Nathan, whatever happened in the past, it is time to arrive at some sort of peace with your father. After all, you are now Gilmore’s heir. You hold the title of Viscount Rowley.”
Another quake ripped through him. David had always borne that courtesy title. It had been an intrinsic part of his elder brother’s persona. It could never belong to the unfit second son.
At her penetrating look, he turned on his heel and prowled the confines of the feminine room. “No! I can’t just step into my brother’s shoes. I’m not like him.”
“Of course you’re not like him. You are your own man, and a fine one at that. And however distasteful it might be, you’ve a duty to your family.”
He made a sharp, slicing sweep of his hand. “I reject that duty. And I certainly don’t intend to stay in town and dance to Gilmore’s tune. He can go to the devil for all I care!”
“And what of your sister? Your grandmother? Your two nieces? Will you reject them, as well?”
He pivoted sharply toward her. “Nieces?”
“I wrote to you of David’s marriage after you left England. His young daughters are now fatherless. But that isn’t my point.” She stepped in front of him to stop his pacing. “Nathan, running away again won’t solve anything. You’re no longer a boy to flee at a whiff of trouble.”
“Are you calling me a coward?” he snapped.
She placed her hands on her slim hips. “I’m merely saying it’s time for you to put the past behind you. For the sake of your family, you can learn to be civil to your father. You can rejoin society as the heir to a venerable title. Perhaps in time you’ll even find a young lady to wed.”
Nate snorted. How like a woman to play matchmaker. They always thought a bachelor’s troubles would be solved by taking a wife. But he knew the discord of marriage from observing his own parents. And he had no desire to claim a place in society, anyway.
He should return to the docks, board his ship, and depart at first tide. Let his godmother disparage him. She would never understand why he loathed the Earl of Gilmore—or why making amends with the man was impossible.
Yet, in the next breath, Nate realized he hungered for revenge. He craved payback for all the slights, the coldness, the criticisms. It wasn’t enough to know that Gilmore had lost his precious eldest son. The man deserved to have his snobbish nose rubbed in the dirt.
What better way than to force him to face his new heir?
The clarity of that thought reverberated in Nate. By damn, he’d be a fool to squander this opportunity. Especially when Lady Milford had planted the seeds for the perfect plan of revenge.
Without further ado, he sprang toward the doorway. “If you’ll excuse me,” he flung over his shoulder.
Lady Milford hastened after him. “Where are you going?”
“I’m taking your advice. I’m staying in London for a time and entering society. And I’m getting married.”
She caught hold of his sleeve as he flung open the door. “Married? To whom?”
“To the most loudmouthed, tawdry, unsuitable vixen I can find. A serving maid perhaps. Or a shopgirl. Maybe even a whore. It matters little so long as she’s an embarrassment to Gilmore.”
“That’s mad! You can’t truly mean to shackle yourself to such a woman for the rest of your life.”
“Oh, I won’t be the one punished.” He bared his teeth in a feral smile. “You see, after foisting the trollop on Gilmore, I’ll leave her in his care whilst I depart England forever. She’ll remain here as a permanent reminder of how I bested him.”
His godmother gave him a withering look. “It isn’t like you to be so mean-spirited, Nathan. Do you care so little for the plight of that poor girl that you would throw her to the wolves of society?”
“Mean-spirited?” he said on a harsh laugh. “She’ll go from living in a hovel to residing in a mansion with the prospect of someday becoming a countess. The chit will thank me!”
Lady Milford stepped into the doorway to block his exit. Resolve firmed her fine features. “If you are intent on this wicked plan, then it seems I cannot stop you. However, I will insist upon one stipulation.”