by Paula Guran
He stumbled upstairs, past Ginny’s things, and walked down the hall to bed, where he dreamed of black and orange things, and a cute character named Sam Hain, a squat fellow that looked like a comical skeleton with a wide happy grin and a spring in his step, who danced through a children’s Halloween world with his blonde-curled friend Holly. It was a world of orange and yellow and red, of perpetually falling leaves that danced and dervished, and trick-or-treat bags that were always open and bottomless, and Jack o’ lanterns that never sputtered or grew burned black inside or soft rotten, and winds that were blustery and just cold, and clouds that made the fat full moon wink, and a night that was always All Hallows Eve, with hoots in the air, and scary costumes that weren’t really scary at all—
—and in the dream Sam Hain changed, even as the night changed, as he grew from a fat happy children’s character into a monstrous terrifying thing, black and tall and cold as space, his bone hands bone white and hard as smooth stones, his eyes deeper than black empty wells, his grin not happy but ravenous, his breath ancient and colder than space, and sour with death as he bent to whisper into Kerlan’s ear something soft and horrible, and which made him scream even as it filled him with joy—
Two days, it said. You’ll see her in two days.
He awoke, covered in sweat, with the moon higher than his window and the night suddenly chilly, and for a moment he thought he saw something that looked like Ginny lying on the bed next to him, something which turned to writhing tiny balls of dust and then vanished.
He sat up in bed breathing heavily, drenched in cold sweat, eyes wide with fear, and then he lay down again, and the room grew warm, and he slept again, dreamless.
The day next he sat in front of his screen again oblivious, until a sound, a tiny insistent buzzing, made him look up.
He already had outlines for two more Sam Hain stories, and was in the middle of a third. Groggily, he glanced up at his window and saw a hornet buzz by outside the screen.
He went back to work, but the tiny insistent buzzing remained. It was like an itch at the back of his mind.
If anything, the weather had grown even hotter. The radio, which he had listened to briefly while making coffee, mentioned a record-breaker of 82 degrees for this date, October 30th. The leaves on the front lawn were wilting, turning dry and crackly like they normally did in deep winter. The Meyer kids, he barely noticed, were now all in shorts and short sleeve shirts.
As he worked, the faint buzz remained, but he tuned it out, and kept tapping at the keys.
Sometime in early afternoon, after ignoring two phone calls, he hit a lull and reached blindly for the phone when it rang again.
“Yes?” he said curtly.
There was a slight pause, and then a voice said: “Mr. Kerlan? This is Detective Grant.”
For a moment that meant nothing to him, but then he focused on the name.
“Are you there, Mr. Kerlan?” the detective asked.
“Yes, I’m here.”
“I was wondering if you’ve heard from your wife.”
He remembered the dream from the night before. “Have you heard from her?” he said with hope.
Again a pause. “No, I haven’t. Frankly, I don’t see why I would. I’m just checking in to see if by any chance she made contact with you, or anyone else you know.”
“I haven’t heard from her.”
“That’s too bad.” Another pause, which Kerlan waited patiently through.
“Mr. Kerlan, do you mind if I ask you a few more questions?”
Peter’s attention now was on everything Grant said. His hands left the keyboard reluctantly. “Sure, go ahead.”
“Thank you. I was . . . wondering if perhaps your wife had gone to . . . someone other than a family member?”
“Like who?”
“Someone . . . perhaps she was . . . ” Grant laughed with slight embarrassment. “I don’t know quite how to say this, except to just say it.”
Peter waited.
“Mr. Kerlan, was your wife having an affair?”
He instantly thought of Revell.
“Who told you that?”
“Well . . . I shouldn’t say this, but one of her relatives told me that there had been some . . . friction between your wife and yourself lately over the question of her, perhaps, seeing someone else . . . ”
A kind of relief flooded through him; he’d though perhaps the detective had dug up facts when, in fact, he had obviously been talking to Ginny’s big mouthed sister, who would have known about their problems.
“Did Ginny’s sister Anna tell you that?”
Grant said, “Well . . . ”
“If she did, there’s nothing to it. I had a fit of jealousy but there was nothing behind it.”
“That’s what your agent said when I talked to him, but you never know with these things. People try to . . . keep things quiet sometimes . . . ”
“Revell.”
“Yes, William Revell. So as far as you know your wife wasn’t having an affair with Mr. Revell?”
“Absolutely not.”
“But you did think he was, for a time.”
“For a brief time, yes. I was wrong.”
“Jealousy, you said . . . ” Grant replied, and Peter could picture the man consulting his cursed note pad, flipping pages . . .
“Is there anything else, detective? I’m busy—”
“Just a few more questions. Unless you’d like me to drop by later . . . ”
Peter sighed. “That’s all right. I’ll answer whatever you want now.”
“Thank you for taking the time, Mr. Kerlan. Now . . . ”
Peter could hear the rustling of notebook pages. He waited.
Grant finally said, “Ah. What I wanted to know was, if it possible, I mean, could it be possible, that your wife is not missing, but has been murdered?”
Peter’s vision went black for a moment. “What?”
“What I mean is,” Grant said, in the same casual tone, “do you think it’s possible?”
“Murdered? By whom?”
“That’s the question, isn’t it? But what we’ve got here, Mr. Kerlan, is a woman who threatened to run away, who may have had an affair, and, when she did finally leave, did not go anywhere logical, to family or friend, or even to the man with whom she may have been having an affair—”
“I told you, there was no affair. You talked with Revell, didn’t you say?”
“Oh, yes, he was very helpful. Told me just what you’re telling me now. But what I’m thinking is that, if there was the perception of an affair, even for a time . . . ”
“Detective Grant, I may be dense but I’m not that dense. Are you telling me you think I killed my wife?”
“Not at all!” Grant gave a falsely hearty laugh. “Did I say that?”
“Not in so many words. But the way you’re talking . . . ”
Another pause. “Let me put it this way, Mr. Kerlan. Usually when we have this kind of situation, a missing person the way we have here, a few logical possibilities usually present themselves. The most logical in this case is that your wife left, and went to someone close to her. That hasn’t happened. Another logical possibility is that she took off on a whim, and went to a faraway place, on an airplane, perhaps, or a train or bus. Since she didn’t take her car, this is the way we think. We’ve checked on this end as far as we could, and that doesn’t seem to have happened. And if it had, usually after two or three days she would have contacted you, or one of the other people close to her, to talk or just to let someone know she was all right. This is the kind of logic we use. After those two scenarios are excluded, there’s another that often presents itself. That is, of course, that she never left at all. That she was . . . ”
“Murdered. By me.”
“Or someone else, Mr. Kerlan. Is there anyone else we should be looking at?”
“Could it have been a random thing, a serial killer—”
He had the feeling Grant almost laughed, but inst
ead the detective said, “That’s not a logical scenario at the moment, Mr. Kerlan. Like I said, is there anyone else . . . ?”
“No. Nobody I can think of.”
“Then if you were me, and thinking logically . . . ”
“You think I killed her. You think I went into a jealous rage, and murdered her, and hid her body, chopped it up with an ax, put it in a blender . . . ”
Grant wasn’t laughing on the other end of the line, and Kerlan suddenly realized the man might take him literally.
“I write horror fiction for a living, detective.”
“Yes, I know.” The voice was a bit harder-edged.
“I didn’t chop her up and put her in a blender.”
Silence.
“Should we be talking further about this, Mr. Kerlan? With perhaps a lawyer present?”
“I didn’t kill my wife, detective.”
Almost all of the civility was gone from Grant’s voice. “Didn’t you, Mr. Kerlan?”
“I didn’t.”
“Can you blame me for thinking such . . . well, horrible thoughts?”
“I can’t, but you’re wrong. If Ginny is dead I didn’t kill her.”
“Do you think she’s dead, Mr. Kerlan? After what I’ve said?”
His voice caught. “I don’t know. I hope to God she isn’t.”
“I’ll be in touch, Mr. Kerlan,” Grant said, and there was an ominous note to his voice.
The line went dead.
Tomorrow, Peter thought, the previous night’s dream coming into his head. He said I’d see her tomorrow.
He worked the rest of the day and into evening in a fog. Two more complete Sam Hain outlines rolled across his monitor, along with sketches for three more already begged for his attention. And all the while he heard the faintest of buzzings, going so far as to stop his feverish work at one point and search his office. But No matter where he searched the buzzing was faint and out of reach, and finally he went back to pounding the keys until exhaustion made him stop, with yet another moon, even fatter, rising across the window over his desk.
Without eating, he fell into bed and dreamed again of the black shrouded specter, the bleach-bones fingers gripping his shoulder, the whispering voice, dry as August in his ear: Tomorrow . . . .
He awoke to Halloween.
Even after all that had happened, the day was somehow different than all other days. He noted a slight cooling in the air, and saw with surprise that the sky was the deep sapphire blue of a true autumn day. The radio promised dropping temperatures all day, into the forties by dusk. Perfect Halloween weather.
Across the street the Meyer kids were busy, along with every other kid on the block. The streets and lawns were full of children, mounting decorations, stringing pumpkin shaped lights, transforming the neighborhood into the festival of orange and black it always became. Pumpkins seemed to have sprung up everywhere—not only on stoops and porches but in windows, perched on flower boxes, back decks, and, at one house, lined along the entire front of the house, an orange army guarding the lawn and fallen leaves. At the house next to the Meyers, a huge spiders web of pale rope was being erected, pinned from the highest bare tree limb and stretching to the house’s gutter, anchored in three places on the ground to make it stretch like a sail; two boys were hauling a huge and ugly black plastic spider from the garage to mount in its lair.
A steaming mug of coffee in his hand, Peter watched the frantic progress that would continue all day and culminate in a wonderland of Halloween by the time the moon replaced the sun.
He felt the first tendrils of cold weather coming, and shivered for many reasons, turning to go down to his office and work.
When he entered he heard insistent buzzing, and the chill down his spine broadened.
It’s got to be in my mind.
He sat down before his monitor and began to work.
Another Sam Hain outline. And another. Sam and Holly on Mars. Sam and Holly Meet the Undergrounders. Sam and Holly and the Halloween Comet.
The buzzing wouldn’t go away.
Morning melted into afternoon. Through the open casement window he heard shouts and laughter, and, finally, felt a cold breeze which deepened to the point where he had to close the window. For the first time since the previous winter, the house was chilly. Somewhere upstairs he heard the heat tick on.
Have to close those windows later.
At the casement window, leaves rattled against the screen, and something else bumped it and stayed.
A hornet.
He stared at it, as another joined it, crawling, half flying, almost hopping, from the left of the window to cling to the screen.
What the—
The hornets, looking sluggish, crawled off, one of them making an attempt at flying before falling back with the aid of the wind to cling to the screen before dropping from sight.
He remembered what the bee keeper had said: that they would be active until the first cold spell, which would slow them down and then kill them off.
Another hornet appeared, and another.
With effort, he turned his mind back to the screen and continued to work, pausing to bundle what he had done for the day and send it as an attachment to Revell. He was rewarded with an almost instantaneous return email which effused: “Keep ’em comin’, son! They love everything I’ve showed them so far! You’ll be doing these wonderful things for the next ten years—THE KIDS WILL EAT THEM UP!”
He erased the message and went back to work.
In the back of his mind, like a growing hope, was the promise of the dream, that today he would see Ginny.
Please, he thought, please let her come back.
But the buzzing sound increased, becoming insistent, almost angry now. He paused once, thinking to do anything necessary to make it stop—rip the walls out, burn down the house, but the computer screen drew his eyes back:
Sam and Holly and the Texas Tornado.
Sam and Holly Meet the Leprechauns.
Sam and Holly and the Hornets of Doom.
He stopped, breathing hard, and stared at the screen.
That’s it, he thought. Enough.
He pushed himself away from the desk, turned in his swivel chair and got unsteadily to his feet.
The buzzing sound was getting louder.
“Stop!” he shouted, putting his hands to his ears.
He pushed himself from the office, stumbled to the basement stairs, somehow dragged himself up to the main floor.
The house was dark, and cold, and suffused only by orange light from outside.
For a moment he was disoriented. Then he remembered it was Halloween.
He staggered to a window, closed it, and looked out.
A wonderland of orange met his eyes.
The lights in the neighborhood had been lit—strings of them in trees and across gutters and around door frames, orange and white. And all the pumpkins had been carved and lit with flickering light—the world was filled with sickle grins, some with crooked teeth, all with round or triangle noses and evil triangle eyes. As he closed another window he could smell pumpkins, their scooped insides sweet-cold and wet, the smell of whispered cinnamon, allspice.
For a moment he was lost in the smell and lights, and tears ran down his face and he was cold and helpless—
Ginny, come back to me!
The doorbell rang, a jarring, booming sound, and he stood rooted for a moment before stumbling over Ginny’s things in the hallway to get to the door.
Maybe it was her!
God, please!
He yanked the door open, throwing on the porch light as he did so, and blinked at two miniature pirates who held open pillow sacks out to him.
“Trick or treat!”
He stood staring at them for a moment, and then the smaller, bolder one thrust his sack out again and demanded, “Trick or treat, mister!”
“Just . . . a moment,” he blurted, turning to stumble into the kitchen where he rummaged in an overhead cabinet where
he knew they kept the candy they had bought on sale weeks before. He saw flour and unopened cans—and then, behind them, his fingers found the bags and he pulled them out.
Two were filled with candy bars melted from the recent heat—a third contained miniature boxes of jawbreakers. He tore that bag open, took two handfuls of candy and went back to the front door.
The smaller pirate was scowling; his buccaneer friend already turning away.
“We thought you was gonna welsh,” the little one said.
Peter pushed open the door, thrust a multitude of tiny boxes into the pirate’s bag. He followed it with his other handful.
“For your friend,” he said.
“Thanks, Mister!” the kid shouted, turning away to consult with his compatriot. Peter looked out to see the street filled with children in groups, cars and vans moving slowly up one side of the street and down the other, ferrying other costumed congregations.
He went back to retrieve whatever candy they had, and spent the next hour stationed at the door, pushing candy into the open mouths of trick-or-treat bags.
He noticed one car parked in front of his house that didn’t move with the others.
A curl of cigarette smoke rose from the open window on the driver’s side, and he noticed the man sitting there looking his way now and then.
It looked like Grant, but he couldn’t be sure.
The night grew colder, more blustery; leaves began to dance around the few remaining children, until the groups trickled to a few older uncostumed kids, out for fun with shaving cream cans or rolls of toilet paper.
Then, abruptly, it was quiet. The vans, engorged with little riders, drove off, leaving only the single car in front of Kerlan’s house, and the curl of smoke.
Some of the lights went out; pumpkin flames were snuffed by the wind, leaving the block quieter, more eerie.
He closed the front door; locked it; closed the remaining windows, found a sweater in his bedroom and went back down to his office.
It was cold inside—and was filled with the sound of buzzing.
When he stepped into the room, his foot crushed something alive and wriggling on the carpet.
A hornet.
Others were moving over the rug, crawling slowly up the walls from behind the couch; one made a feeble try at flying up toward the light but fell back, exhausted, to land on the coffee table which held manuscripts in front of the sofa.