The old man closed his eyes, and with trembling lids added, ‘He was found, sir, late that night up there in what they call the Trophy Room – sitting in a corner there, weeping. A child. Not a word of what had persuaded him to go or misled him there, not a word of sorrow or sadness, thank God. He didn’t know us, sir – didn’t know me. Just simple; harmless; memory all gone. Simple, sir.’
It was foolish to be whispering together like this beneath these enormous spaces with not so much as a clothes-moth for sign of life within view. But I even lowered my voice still further: ‘Were there no premonitory symptoms? Had he been failing for long?’
The spectacle of grief in any human face is afflicting, but in a face as aged and resigned as this old man’s – I turned away in remorse the moment the question was out of my lips; emotion is a human solvent and a sort of friendliness had sprung up between us.
‘If you will just follow me,’ he whispered, ‘there’s a little place where I make my ablutions that might be of service, sir. We would converse there in better comfort. I am sometimes reminded of those words in Ecclesiastes: “And a bird of the air shall tell of the matter.” There is not much in our poor human affairs, sir, that was not known to the writer of that book.’
He turned and led the way with surprising celerity, gliding along in his thin-soled, square-toed, clerical springside boots; and came to a pause outside a nail-studded door. He opened it with a huge key, and admitted me into a recess under the central tower. We mounted a spiral stone staircase and passed along a corridor hardly more than two feet wide and so dark that now and again I thrust out my fingertips in search of his black velveted gown to make sure of my guide.
This corridor at length conducted us into a little room whose only illumination I gathered was that of the ebbing dusk from within the cathedral. The old man with trembling rheumatic fingers lit a candle, and thrusting its stick into the middle of an old oak table, pushed open yet another thick oaken door. ‘You will find a basin and a towel in there, sir, if you will be so kind.’
I entered. A print of the Crucifixion was tin-tacked to the panelled wall, and beneath it stood a tin basin and jug on a stand. Never was water sweeter. I laved my face and hands and drank deep; my throat like a parched river-course after a drought. What appeared to be a tarnished censer lay in one corner of the room; a pair of seven-branched candlesticks shared a recess with a mouse-trap and a book. My eyes passed wearily yet gratefully from one to another of these mute discarded objects while I stood drying my hands.
When I returned, the old man was standing motionless before the spikebarred grill of the window, peering out and down.
‘You asked me, sir,’ he said, turning his lank waxen face into the feeble rays of the candle, ‘you asked me, sir, a question which, if I understood you aright, was this: Was there anything that had occurred previous that would explain what I have been telling you? Well, sir, it’s a long story, and one best restricted to them perhaps that have the goodwill of things at heart. All Hallows, I might say, sir, is my second home. I have been here, boy and man, for close on fifty-five years – have seen four bishops pass away and have served under no less than five several deans, Dr Pomfrey, poor gentleman, being the last of the five.
‘If such a word could be excused, sir, it’s no exaggeration to say that Canon Leigh Shougar is a greenhorn by comparison; which may in part be why he has never quite hit it off, as they say, with Canon Ockham. Or even with Archdeacon Trafford, though he’s another kind of gentleman altogether. And he is at present abroad. He had what they call a breakdown in health, sir.
‘Now in my humble opinion, what was required was not only wisdom and knowledge but simple common sense. In the circumstances I am about to mention, it serves no purpose for any of us to be talking too much; to be for ever sitting at a table with shut doors and finger on lip, and discussing what to most intents and purposes would hardly be called evidence at all, sir. What is the use of argufying, splitting hairs, objurgating about trifles, when matters are sweeping rapidly on from bad to worse. I say it with all due respect and not, I hope, thrusting myself into what doesn’t concern me: Dr Pomfrey might be with us now in his own self and reason if only common caution had been observed.
‘But now that the poor gentleman is gone beyond all that, there is no hope of action or agreement left, none whatsoever. They meet and they meet, and they have now one expert now another down from London, and even from the continent. And I don’t say they are not knowledgeable gentlemen either, nor a pride to their profession. But why not tell all? Why keep back the very secret of what we know? That’s what I am asking. And, what’s the answer? Why simply that what they don’t want to believe, what runs counter to their hopes and wishes and credibilities – and comfort – in this world, that’s what they keep out of sight as long as decency permits.
‘Canon Leigh Shougar knows, sir, what I know. And how, I ask, is he going to get to grips with it at this late day if he refuses to acknowledge that such things are what every fragment of evidence goes to prove that they are. It’s we, sir, and not the rest of the heedless world outside, who in the long and the short of it are responsible. And what I say is: no power or principality here or hereunder can take possession of a place while those inside have faith enough to keep them out. But once let that falter – the seas are in. And when I say no power, sir, I mean – with all deference – even Satan himself.’ The lean lank face had set at the word like a wax mask. The black eyes beneath the heavy lids were fixed on mine with an acute intensity and – though more inscrutable things haunted them – with an unfaltering courage. So dense a hush hung about us that the very stones of the walls seemed to be of silence solidified. It is curious what a refreshment of spirit a mere tin basinful of water may be. I stood leaning against the edge of the table so that the candlelight still rested on my companion.
‘What is wrong here?’ I asked him baldly.
He seemed not to have expected so direct an inquiry. ‘Wrong, sir? Why, if I might make so bold,’ he replied with a wan, far-away smile and gently drawing his hand down one of the velvet lapels of his gown, ‘if I might make so bold, sir, I take it that you have come as a direct answer to prayer.’
His voice faltered. ‘I am an old man now, and nearly at the end of my tether. You must realize, if you please, that I can’t get any help that I can understand. I am not doubting that the gentlemen I have mentioned have only the salvation of the cathedral at heart – the cause, sir; and a graver responsibility yet. But they refuse to see how close to the edge of things we are: and how we are drifting.
‘Take mere situation. So far as my knowledge tells me, there is no sacred edifice in the whole kingdom – of a piece, that is, with All Hallows not only in mere size and age but in what I might call sanctity and tradition – that is so open – open, I mean, sir, to attack of this peculiar and terrifying nature.’
‘Terrifying?’
‘Terrifying, sir; though I hold fast to what wits my Maker has bestowed on me. Where else, may I ask, would you expect the powers of darkness to congregate in open besiegement than in this narrow valley? First, the sea out there. Are you aware, sir, that ever since living remembrance flood-tide has been gnawing and mumbling its way into this bay to the extent of three or four feet per annum? Forty inches, and forty inches, and forty inches corroding on and on: Watch it, sir, man and boy as I have these sixty years past and then make a century of it. Not to mention positive leaps and bounds.
‘And now, think a moment of the floods and gales that fall upon us autumn and winter through and even in spring, when this valley is liker paradise to young eyes than any place on earth. They make the roads from the nearest towns well-nigh impassable; which means that for some months of the year we are to all intents and purposes clean cut off from the rest of the world – as the Schindels out there are from the mainland. Are you aware, sir, I continue, that as we stand now we are above a mile from traces of the nearest human habitation, and them merely the relics of a burnt
-out old farmstead? I warrant that if (and which God forbid) you had been shut up here during the coming night, and it was a near thing but what you weren’t – I warrant you might have shouted yourself dumb out of the nearest window if window you could reach – and not a human soul to heed or help you.’
I shifted my hands on the table. It was tedious to be asking questions that received only such vague and evasive replies: and it is always a little disconcerting in the presence of a stranger to be spoken to so close, and with such positiveness.
‘Well’, I smiled, ‘I hope I should not have disgraced my nerves to such an extreme as that. As a small boy, one of my particular fancies was to spend a night in a pulpit. There’s a cushion, you know!’
The old man’s solemn glance never swerved from my eyes. ‘But I take it, sir,’ he said, ‘if you had ventured to give out a text up there in the dark hours, your jocular young mind would not have been prepared for any kind of a congregation?’
‘You mean,’ I said a little sharply, ‘that the place is haunted?’ The absurd notion flitted across my mind of some wandering tribe of gipsies chancing on a refuge so ample and isolated as this, and taking up its quarters in its secret parts. The old church must be honeycombed with corridors and passages and chambers pretty much like the one in which we were now concealed: and what does ‘cartholic’ imply but an infinite hospitality within prescribed limits? But the old man had taken me at my word.
‘I mean, sir,’ he said firmly, shutting his eyes, ‘that there are devilish agencies at work here.’ He raised his hand. ‘Don’t, I entreat you, dismiss what I am saying as the wanderings of a foolish old man.’ He drew a little nearer. ‘I have heard them with these ears; I have seen them with these eyes; though whether they have any positive substance, sir, is beyond my small knowledge to declare. But what indeed might we expect their substance to be? First: “I take it,” says the Book, “to be such as no man can by learning define, nor by wisdom search out.” Is that so? Then I go by the Book. And next: what does the same Word or very near it (I speak of the Apocrypha) say of their purpose? It says – and correct me if I go astray – “Devils are creatures made by God, and that for vengeance.”
‘So far, so good, sir. We stop when we can go no further. Vengeance. But of their power, of what they can do, I can give you definite evidences. It would be a byword if once the rumour was spread abroad. And if it is not so, why, I ask, does every expert that comes here leave us in haste and in dismay? They go off with their tails between their legs. They see, they grope in, but they don’t believe. They invent reasons. And they hasten to leave us!’ His face shook with the emphasis he laid upon the word. ‘Why? Why, because the experience is beyond their knowledge, sir.’ He drew back breathless and, as I could see, profoundly moved.
‘But surely,’ I said, ‘every old building is bound in time to show symptoms of decay. Half the cathedrals in England, half its churches, even, of any age, have been “restored” – and in many cases with ghastly results. This new grouting and so on. Why, only the other day … All I mean is, why should you suppose mere wear and tear should be caused by any other agency than —’
The old man turned away. ‘I must apologize,’ he interrupted me with his inimitable admixture of modesty and dignity. ‘I am a poor mouth at explanations, sir. Decay – stress – strain – settling – dissolution: I have heard those words bandied from lip to lip like a game at cup and ball. They fill me with nausea. Why, I am speaking not of dissolution, sir, but of repairs, restorations. Not decay, strengthening. Not a corroding loss, an awful progress. I could show you places – and chiefly obscured from direct view and difficult of a close examination, sir, where stones lately as rotten as pumice and as fretted as a sponge have been replaced by others fresh-quarried – and nothing of their kind within twenty miles.
‘There are spots where massive blocks a yard or more square have been pushed into place by sheer force. All Hallows is safer at this moment than it has been for three hundred years. They meant well – them who came to see, full of talk and fine language, and went dumb away. I grant you they meant well. I allow that. They hummed and they hawed. They smirked this and they shrugged that. But at heart, sir, they were cowed – horrified: all at a loss. Their very faces showed it. But if you ask me for what purpose such doings are afoot – I have no answer; none.
‘But now, supposing you yourself, sir, were one of them, with your repute at stake, and you were called in to look at a house which the owners of it and them who had it in trust were disturbed by its being re-edificated and restored by some agency unknown to them. Supposing that! Why,’ and he rapped with his knuckles on the table, ‘being human and not one of us mightn’t you be going away too with mouth shut, because you didn’t want to get talked about to your disadvantage? And wouldn’t you at last dismiss the whole thing as a foolish delusion, in the belief that living in out-of-the-way parts like these cuts a man off from the world, breeds maggots in the mind?
‘I assure you, sir, they don’t – not even Canon Ockham himself to the full – they don’t believe even me. And yet, when they have their meetings of the Chapter they talk and wrangle round and round about nothing else. I can bear the other without a murmur. What God sends, I say, we humans deserve. We have laid ourselves open to it. But when you buttress up blindness and wickedness with downright folly, why then, sir, I sometimes fear for my own reason.’
He set his shoulders as square as his aged frame would permit, and with fingers clutching the lapels beneath his chin, he stood gazing out into the darkness through that narrow inward window.
‘Ah, sir,’ he began again, ‘I have not spent sixty years in this solitary place without paying heed to my own small wandering thoughts and instincts. Look at your newspapers, sir. What they call the Great War is over – and he’d be a brave man who would take an oath before heaven that that was only of human designing – and yet what do we see around us? Nothing but strife and juggleries and hatred and contempt and discord wherever you look. I am no scholar, sir, but so far as my knowledge and experience carry me, we human beings are living to-day merely from hand to mouth. We learn to-day what ought to have been done yesterday, and yet are at a loss to know what’s to be done to-morrow.
‘And the Church, sir. God forbid I should push my way into what does not concern me; and if you had told me half an hour gone by that you were a regular churchman, I shouldn’t be pouring out all this to you now. It wouldn’t be seemly. But being not so gives me confidence. By merely listening you can help me, sir; though you can’t help us. Centuries ago – and in my humble judgement, rightly – we broke away from the parent stem and rooted outselves in our own soil. But, right or wrong, doesn’t that of itself, I ask you, make us all the more open to attack from him who never wearies in going to and fro in the world seeking whom he may devour?
‘I am not wishing you to take sides. But a gentleman doesn’t scoff; you don’t find him jeering at what he doesn’t rightly understand. He keeps his own counsel, sir. And that’s where, as I say, Canon Leigh Shougar sets me doubting. He refuses to make allowances; though up there in London things may look different. He gets his company there; and then for him the whole kallyidoscope changes, if you take me.’
The old man scanned me an instant as if inquiring within himself whether, after all, I too might not be one of the outcasts. ‘You see, sir,’ he went on dejectedly, ‘I can bear what may be to come. I can, if need be, live on through what few years may yet remain to me and keep going, as they say. But only if I can be assured that my own inmost senses are not cheating and misleading me. Tell me the worst, and you will have done an old man a service he can never repay. Tell me, on the other hand, that I am merely groping along in a network of devilish delusion, sir – well, in that case I hope to with my master, with Dr Pomfrey, as soon as possible. We were all children once; and now there’s nothing worse in this world for him to come into, in a manner of speaking.
‘Oh, sir, I sometimes wonder if what we call chil
dhood and growing up isn’t a copy of the fate of our ancient forefathers. In the beginning of time there were Fallen Angels, we are told; but even if it weren’t there in Holy Writ, we might have learnt it of our own fears and misgivings. I sometimes find myself looking at a young child with little short of awe, sir, knowing that within its mind is a scene of peace and paradise of which we older folk have no notion, and which will fade away out of it, as life wears on, like the mere tabernacling of a dream.’
There was no trace of unction in his speech, though the phraseology might suggest it, and he smiled at me as if in reassurance. ‘You see, sir – if I have any true notion of the matter – then I say, heaven is dealing very gently with Dr Pomfrey. He has gone back, and, I take it, his soul is elsewhere and at rest.’
He had come a pace or two nearer, and the candle-light now cast grotesque shadows in the hollows of his brows and cheekbones, silvering his long scanty hair. The eyes, dimming with age, were fixed on mine as if in incommunicable entreaty. I was at a loss to answer him.
He dropped his hands to his sides. ‘The fact is,’ he looked cautiously about him, ‘what I am now being so bold as to suggest, though it’s a familiar enough experience to me, may put you in actual physical danger. But then, duty’s duty, and a deed of kindness from stranger to stranger quite another matter. You seem to have come, if I may say so, in the nick of time; that was all. On the other hand, we can leave the building at once if you are so minded. In any case we must be gone well before dark sets in; even mere human beings are best not disturbed at any night-work they may be after. The dark brings recklessness: conscience cannot see as clear in the dark. Besides, I once delayed too long myself. There is not much of day left even now, though I see by the almanac there should be a slip of moon tonight – unless the sky is over-clouded. All that I’m meaning is that our all-in-all, so to speak, is the calm untrammelled evidence of the outer senses, sir. And there comes a time when – well, when one hesitates to trust one’s own.’
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