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by Elizabeth Rolls


  He took her hands in his and stretched her arms up high over her head, so that her breasts jutted up at the perfect level for him to take those stiffened peaks deep into his mouth.

  And for a time, he only lay between her thighs, held her wrists in one hand, and helped himself to one breast, then the other. He kept on until she was writhing beneath him, making those high-pitched, greedy noises in the back of her throat that drove him wild.

  But wild wasn’t how he wanted her. Not tonight.

  He put his free hand to one side of her head, held her gaze, and shifted his hips to thrust deep inside of her.

  One thick, hard thrust, and he was seated within her.

  His gaze was locked to hers. And so, caught there, he began to move.

  Slowly.

  He dragged himself out of her grip, then thrust in again. And he did not look away.

  It was as if all the learning came to this. All the ways he made her scream. All that fire, all those storms. And here again was a quiet thing, yet no less a reckoning. Here was an intensity. An intimacy.

  She wrecked him as surely as any battle.

  Aelfwynn held him, her arms looped around his neck, and it became a rhythm between them, a sigh, a shift. And slowly, deliberately, they unraveled each other.

  Then shattered into something new, together.

  Later, she served him the stew she’d made and they ate on the floor before the fire, tangled up in each other as if they couldn’t bear to let go. And that was where he took her again, stretched out so that the firelight danced all over the both of them, casting shadows and slicking them with heat. He rolled her beneath him, gathered her in his arms, and unraveled them again and again until all that was left was the two of them, wrapped up tight, his flesh still lodged in her, as if all that unraveling had woven them together after all.

  Both of them wrecked, he thought. Both of them new.

  And in the morning, the skies were clear. So too, the following day, was the sun so bright and the air so warm that the ice began to melt.

  That night, he took her in a fury made new, something like desperate.

  “Will you tell me what the matter is?” she asked softly, late in the night. She lay draped over him in his furs, her voice still ragged from the way she’d sat up to ride him, her hair falling between them. Like his very own Valkyrie.

  “Nothing is the matter,” he growled in return.

  Then took her beneath him again to prove it.

  And Thorbrand told himself he spoke truth, for come the morning, Leif and Ulfric were there to take them back to Ragnall.

  Where he should have wanted to go, as he always had before.

  Because it mattered not what Aelfwynn deserved, or what he knew he did not after all he’d done. It had never mattered. These days—and these dreams—were a distraction and no more.

  Thorbrand had made vows, and he would keep them.

  CHAPTER TEN

  Widgongel wif word gespringeð; oft hy mon wommum bilihð.

  A far-wandering woman causes talk; often she is accused of sins.

  —Maxims I, The Exeter Book

  This, then, was the fate Aelfwynn had feared.

  Thorbrand’s brother and cousin arrived with no warning. One moment it had been like any other morn in the cottage she had, foolishly perhaps, begun to consider theirs. She had been straining the mash she’d been using to make their ale, as she did every day before starting the bread for their dinner. Then the door had swung wide, letting the cold in. And Thorbrand was back again but with Leif and Ulfric with him, the three of them far too large for the cottage.

  Oh, no, Aelfwynn thought at the sight of them. Distinctly. Because she very much doubted they were here for a family visit. Especially when Thorbrand’s kin were clearly no less suspicious of her than the last time she’d seen them, weeks ago now.

  They crowded into the cottage’s single room, their sharp eyes missing nothing, she was certain. The laundry she’d hung yesterday. The pallet piled high with Thorbrand’s furs. Her own head bared, her hair caught behind her in a long braid while she bent over her work, like some kind of slattern.

  Aelfwynn hardly knew how to feel. She was sure she was as bright as the fire. Was it shame? Fear? Or was she upset at being disturbed here in this cottage, where she had come to think that being this man’s thrall was...not quite the horror she’d anticipated?

  Yet surely, she lectured herself sternly as the men talked loudly to each other in Irish, she had not imagined that she and Thorbrand could carry on like this forever. She could not possibly have thought any of this was truly hers.

  Nor is he, she reminded herself sharply.

  Not the way she had come to want him, she knew too well. A thrall had only what her master bought her and what he did with her was his own affair. That was the beginning and end of it.

  No matter how her heart beat as if only for him.

  Still, she did as required, no matter her feelings. She was no foolish girl who imagined feelings might sway men’s minds. Especially not these men. Northmen, no less, who had laid in wait for her and carried her out of Mercia to serve their own ends. Aelfwynn quietly offered Ulfric and Leif hospitality and what food and drink she could. And fought to remain all that was serene when they condescended to speak with words she actually understood.

  Though it was only to announce that they were leaving here to take her to their king.

  “Our king commands your presence,” Ulfric told her, a gleam in his dark eyes she could not say she cared for.

  “And yours,” Leif said to Thorbrand.

  “I look forward to meeting such a legend,” Aelfwynn said, as if easy with this turn of events.

  What was far harder was when she looked at Thorbrand and saw no evidence of surprise on his face. She understood at once that he had expected this summons all along. That what had happened here had only ever been a bit of tarrying with his captive.

  Did he suggest any other aim? a voice in her asked.

  But Aelfwynn knew the answer already. The shame of it was hers. And so too the sin.

  It took little time to pack up. Little time indeed to break apart the cottage she’d made more a home than it ought to have been until no trace of them remained. Aelfwynn knew from this that Thorbrand did not intend to return. What she could not know was how, somewhere in this quiet stretch of peaceful days threaded through with the wonders he worked with his body, she had let herself forget not only who she was—but who she was to him.

  She blamed the way their bodies fit together. She blamed the heat of that spring and the surprising tenderness in the way Thorbrand fit his hand to her cheek. There was the temptation of his midnight gaze. The impossible beauty of his kiss. There were the scars that marked him, each and every one she had kissed while he’d told her a short, gruff story of how he’d survived the getting of it.

  Trust well that the man who laid me open will never lift an axe again, he had growled once.

  And that was the trouble, was it not? Aelfwynn had trusted him. Too well.

  Maybe she wasn’t as weak and foolish as she felt now, however, she thought as she drew her cloak around her and stepped out of the cottage to look out over the valley one last time. Maybe it had been the peace here, that was all. The simple joys of tending a fire and baking bread. Of making ale and washing their clothes. All the skills Mildrithe had insisted any charge of hers possess, and no matter who her parents were.

  You are a woman first, child, she would say. And there is no telling what sort of marriage you’ll have.

  But it had been a long while since Aelfwynn had been given an opportunity to put her skills to the test. It was far different to help out than it was to take charge, and she found she liked it. Not that the work wasn’t hard. It was. What work wasn’t?

  Yet she had found the simplicity of this life nothing les
s than a wonder. It had been what she’d hoped to find in Wilton Abbey. An order to her days and a reverence for that order, a far cry indeed from what her life had been like until now—both before and after her mother died.

  More, she had found a deep joy in it because it was for him.

  For Thorbrand.

  She had let herself daydream...but there was nothing to be gained by dwelling on such things now. She pulled her hood tighter around her face while the men closed up the cottage and brought the horses round. There was a stiff, cold wind rushing down from the hills this morn and it felt too much like a slap in her face. But Aelfwynn welcomed it. Because the truth was, she should have known better. There was no safe, secluded space on this earth. Not for her.

  Even if she had made it to the abbey as planned, had she truly believed that it would stand as a true sanctuary? Wherever people were, there were wars. It was only that they took a different shape in different places.

  So too had this cottage been. They had fought in their own manner, had they not? Just because it felt good didn’t make it any less of a battle, and Thorbrand had always been better at it. More skilled in every regard. Aelfwynn might have loved every moment, but that didn’t make him any less the victor.

  It made it sinful, that was all.

  But she’d known that too. She’d known all of this. It was her fault for forgetting. Her fault for pretending this could be other than it was. Her own fault—and her shame.

  When he hauled her up to ride before him once again, she had a thought that he might whisper something for her ear only. That he might tell her not to fear, or tell her what to expect. That he might offer her comfort.

  Or hope, something in her added wistfully.

  But he did not.

  The three Northmen kicked their horses into a gallop and set off. And it had been what seemed like a lifetime since she’d last sat like this, before Thorbrand on the back of a horse. It felt familiar, yet also new. Because she knew his touch far better now. The press of his thigh against hers made her...melt. And this time, she did not try to pretend she felt it not.

  Even though she rode to what must surely be her doom.

  Again.

  They rode for a few hours, this time keeping to the roads for a time, before veering off again and into the woods on a road less traveled. When they finally slowed, she expected to see a city worth the taking. But there was only a small village in another valley much like the one they’d stayed in.

  “This cannot be York, can it?” she asked, confused.

  “It would make little strategic sense to bring you into Jorvik,” Thorbrand rumbled at her ear. “What if you were recognized?”

  “Heaven forfend,” she murmured, and took more pleasure in it than she should have when she could feel his laughter move his mighty chest behind her.

  As if that might save her from what awaited her here.

  Only then did it occur to her to worry about her reception here, so far north. She had no idea how Thorbrand’s king treated his captives and slaves. All she’d ever heard about Ragnall was that he was a savage—but not one to underestimate. And even if she had not already listened well to her own mother rant about the Northmen who had fought these long years to reclaim Dublin and bring York under their rule, certainly she could not believe that Thorbrand would call any man king unless he was...an immensity.

  But she dared not allow herself to think too much about it, lest she topple from the back of Thorbrand’s horse in a dead faint, which would honor neither her nor her people.

  She’d been sure that Thorbrand would do something to better indicate her status once they arrived amongst his own people. Bind her hands. Make her walk behind the horse in the trodden snow that had turned to mud. Cast her down before them, at the very least.

  But instead, he rode her straight into the small village, sat up high on his steed for everyone to see.

  Once again, Aelfwynn was forced to ask herself what it was Thorbrand wanted from her. What too his king might want. And unlike those first few days when they had ridden north with his kin, she thought she knew now. Was it possible Thorbrand had taken her to that cottage as...a test? She had heard whispers of such things in her uncle’s court. Of women used and sold for pleasure, again and again. And not the woman’s pleasure.

  It would be a certain kind of man’s idea of the perfect revenge.

  Was Thorbrand that kind of man? Had she misjudged him so completely?

  She cast down her eyes to block out the stares of the villagers who came out to watch as they rode in, and she could feel a surging, terrible panic inside her.

  The truth was, her time in that cottage with Thorbrand had ruined her in more ways than one.

  She felt as if she’d forgotten...everything. Who she was. What she was about. How to protect herself and how she might behave now that she found herself here. She knew already that whatever connection she might have imagined she felt with Thorbrand, it could not possibly matter.

  Not here.

  The three men stopped, and swung off the horses, though Thorbrand laid a heavy hand on Aelfwynn’s leg and kept her where she was. High on his horse, visible to all who might gaze upon her.

  He and his kin began to speak in Irish again, but she could hear other voices. The voices of the villagers here, speaking words she understood. And Aelfwynn could not decide if that was a gift or not. Perhaps it was a kindness not to comprehend what was happening to her.

  Grace, she reminded herself. This is an opportunity for grace.

  So she sat tall, though she was a Northman’s slave. He could call her what he wished, she knew what blood she carried within her. She knew who she was.

  No matter how he might have confused her with his touch, she knew.

  Thorbrand turned from his brother and cousin and the other men who had come to join them in conversation. He came to the horse and lifted Aelfwynn off its back, an easy demonstration of his strength that should have terrified her. Instead, it made that flame inside her reach high.

  He set her down, moving her to the front of him with his hand resting heavily on the nape of her neck.

  Better that than an iron chain, she thought.

  Aelfwynn tried her best to keep her gaze demurely lowered as he began to move, guiding her before him so she might walk when he did. She expected jeers, perhaps. Shouts. Even the odd stone, but all was silent. Eerily so.

  Soon enough they reached the longhouse that stood at the center of the village with smaller cottages and the other buildings necessary to village life arrayed around it. Though unlike other villages, where the people came and went freely from the communal places, men stood at the off-center door and eyed her coldly.

  Aelfwynn tried her best to look serenely unconcerned, though she feared her hands shook.

  Then the men opened the door, Thorbrand thrust her forward, and she found herself in the presence of the Northman king who would have killed her mother, if he could. Ragnall, whose name had only ever been spoken in her presence in these last years as a curse.

  There were others in the hall, dark and smoky, but she knew him instantly. It was how he sat at the great chair at the far end with an appearance of languor that was utterly belied by the power in his gaze and the authority that sat on him like armor.

  This was Ragnall, the scourge of Dublin even before the Irish kings had expelled him and other Northmen who had originally come from Norway, yet had long since mixed with the natives. Ragnall who had taken the Isles and had moved on to Northumbria. Rumored to be a direct descendant of Ivar the Boneless, though there were many who claimed such things around a fire on a cold night. Rumored too to be a man of dark appetites and darker grudges, Ragnall wreaked havoc wherever he went, and the way he looked at her suggested he would think it a pleasure indeed to turn his dark attentions on her. She reminded herself that true though all those stories and r
umors might be, he was yet a man.

  Just a man, flesh and blood like any other.

  But that had never comforted her when it was her uncle who stood before her, her life in his hands. Nor did it aid her overmuch now as Thorbrand marched her down the center of the hall to stop before his king’s chair.

  Ragnall was not a young man, though he yet had power written deep all over him. There was gray on his head and in his beard, but his gaze pierced straight through her.

  “Aethelflaed’s daughter,” the king said, after all those around him had stopped speaking in Irish. In a tone of great satisfaction. “You have the look of her.”

  It was as if Aelfwynn had been in a dream. There had been nothing but snow, the wind howling around the cottage so intensely she’d been certain they would wake to find no roof above them. And she would not have cared, for the wonder that she experienced again and again at Thorbrand’s hands.

  Not only his hands. His mouth. Every part of his marvelous body. And that impossible magic when he thrust deep inside her.

  What she could not understand was how, when such sensations existed, she had lived her whole life having no idea they were possible. She had found herself staring off into space when she should have been mending, or tending to the fire and her many other tasks, asking herself who of the people she knew could possibly have experienced these things. How could it be that they had walked next to her in this state and she had never known it?

  For even if she now understood a need so great that any dark corner would do, she found it difficult to believe that people simply lived their lives, breathing the same air she did, when they had ever felt... Like this. Like new.

  And she had lost herself in it so completely that even the arrival of his disapproving kin hadn’t brought her back to herself. Even traveling through this village, for all she had braced herself, hadn’t quite done it. For there was Thorbrand’s heavy hand at her neck and the traitorous slickness between her legs.

  But here, now, was her mother’s name in an enemy’s mouth.

  And Aelfwynn might have felt a pang about letting go of all that rich, wondrous heat that had so marked these past weeks. But let it go she did.

 

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