She had no mother to check her notorious propensity in its infancy, and no brother to bully her out of it in the end. Her father, a public character of considerable distinction, was queer enough to see no fault in her; but he was a busy man. She had, however, a kinsman, Lord Nunthorp, who used to talk to her like a brother on the subject of her behaviour, only a little less heavily than brothers use. Lord Nunthorp knew what he was talking about. He had once played at being in love with her himself. But that was in the days when his moustache looked as though he had forgotten to wash it off, and before Miss Anstruther came out. There had been no nonsense between them for years. They were the best and most intimate of friends.
“Another!” he would say, gazing gravely upon her as the most fascinating curiosity in the world, when she happened to be telling him about the very latest “Let’s see—how many’s that?”
There came a day when she told Lord Nunthorp she had lost count; and she really had. The day was at the fag-end of one season; he had been lunching at the Anstruthers’ and Miss Anstruther had been singing to him.
“I’m afraid I can’t assist you,” said he, with amused concern. “I only remember the first eleven, so to speak. First man in was your rector’s son in the country, young Miller, who was sent out to Australia on the spot. He was the first, wasn’t he? Yes, I thought that was the order; and by Jove, Midge, how fond you were of that boy!”
“I was,” said Miss Anstruther, glancing out of the window with a wistful look in her pretty eyes; but her kinsman said to himself that he remembered that wistful look—it went cheap.
“The next man in,” affirmed Lord Nunthorp, who was an immense cricketer, “was me!”
“I like that!” said Miss Anstruther, taking her eyes from the window with rather a jerk, and smiling brightly. “You’ve left out Cousin Dick!”
“So I have; I beg Dick’s pardon. It was very egotistical of me, but pardonable, for of course Dick never stood so high in the serene favour as I did. I came after Dick then, first wicket down, and since then—well, you say yourself that you’ve lost tally, but you must have bowled out a pretty numerous team by this time. My dear Midge,” said Nunthorp, with a sudden access of paternal gravity, “don’t you think it about time that somebody came in and carried his bat?”
“Don’t talk nonsense!” said Miss Anstruther briskly. She added, almost miserably: “I wish to goodness they wouldn’t ask me! If only they wouldn’t propose I should be all right. Why do they want to go and propose? It spoils everything.”
Her tone and look were quite injured. She was more indignant than Lord Nunthorp had ever seen her—except once—for the girl was of a most serene disposition. He looked at her kindly, and as admiringly as ever, though rather with the eye of a connoisseur; and he found she had still the most lovely, imperfect, uncommon, and fragrant little face he had ever seen in his life. He said candidly—
“I really don’t blame them, and I don’t see how you can. If you are to blame anybody, I’m afraid it must be yourself. You must give them some encouragement, Midge, or I don’t think they’d all come to the point as they do. I never saw such sportsmen as they are! They walk in and walk out again one after the other, and they seem to like it—”
“I wish they did!” Miss Anstruther exclaimed devoutly. “I only wish they’d show me that they liked it; I should have a better time then. They wouldn’t keep making me miserable with their idiotic farewell letters. That’s what they all do. Either they write and call me everything—rudely, politely, sarcastically, all ways—or they say their hearts are broken, and they haven’t the faintest intention of getting over it—in fact, they wouldn’t get over it if they could. That’s enough to make any person feel low, even if you know from experience what to expect. At one time I didn’t dare to look in the paper for fear of seeing their suicides; but I’ve only seen their weddings. They all seem to get over it pretty easily; and that doesn’t make you think much better of yourself, you know. Of course I’m inconsistent!”
“Of course you are,” said Lord Nunthorp cordially. “I approve of you for it. I’d rather see you an old maid, Midge, than going through life in a groove. Consistency’s a narrow groove for narrow minds! I can do better than this about consistency, Midge; I’m hot and strong on the subject; but you’re not listening.”
“Ah! cried Miss Anstruther, who had not listened to a word, “they’re driving me crazy, between them! There’s Mr. Willimott, you know, who writes. Of course he had no business to speak to me. There were a hundred things against him at the time—even if I’d cared for him—though he’s getting more successful now. Well, I do believe he’s put me into every story he’s written since it happened! I crop up in some magazine or other every month!”
“‘Into work the poet kneads them,’” murmured Lord Nunthorp, who was not a professional cricketer. “Well, you needn’t bother yourself about him. You’ve made the fellow. He now draws a heroine better than most men. It’s a pity you don’t take to writing, Midge, you’d draw your heroes better than women do as a rule; for don’t you see that you must know more about us than we know about ourselves?”
“They wouldn’t be much of heroes!” laughed the girl. “But I heartily wish I did write. Wouldn’t I show up some people, that’s all! It would give me something to do, too; it would keep me out of mischief, and really I’m sick of men and their ridiculous nonsense. And they all say the same thing. If only they wouldn’t say anything at all! Why do they? You might tell me!”
Nunthorp put on his thinking-cap. “You see, you are quite pretty,” said he.
“Thanks.”
“Then you sing like an angel.”
“Please don’t! That’s what they all say.”
“Ah, the singing has a lot to do with it; you oughtn’t to sing so well; you should cultivate less expression. And then—I’m afraid you like attention.”
“Of course I do!”
“And I’m sure it must be very hard not to be attentive to you,” Lord Nunthorp declared, with a rather brutal impersonality; “for I should fancy you have a way—quite unconscious, mind—of giving your current admirer the idea that he’s the only one who ever held the office!”
“Thanks,” said she, with perfect good-humour; “that’s a very pretty way of putting it.”
“Putting what, Midge?”
“That I’m a hopeless flirt—which is the root of the whole matter, I suppose!”
She burst out laughing, and he joined her. But there had been a pinch of pathos in her words, and he was weak enough to make a show of contradicting them. She would not listen to him, she laughed at his insincerity. The conversation had broken down, and, as soon as he decently could, he went.
That was at the very end of a season; and Lord Nunthorp did not see his notorious relative again for some months. In the following February, however, he heard her sing at some evening party; he had no chance of talking with her properly; but he was glad to find that he could meet her at a dance the next night.
“Well, Midge!” he was able to say at last, as they sat out together at this dance. “How many proposals since the summer?”
She gravely held up three fingers. Lord Nunthorp laughed consumedly.
“Any more scalps?” he inquired.
This was an ancient pleasantry. It referred to the expensive presents with which some young men had paved their way to disappointment. It was a moot point between Miss Anstruther and her noble kinsman whether she had any right to retain these things. She considered she had every right, protesting that these presents were her only compensation for so many unpleasantnesses. He pretended to take higher ground in the matter. But it amused him a good deal to ask about her “scalps.”
She told him what the new ones were.
“And I perceive mine—upon your wrist!” Nunthorp exclaimed, examining her bracelet; and he was genuinely tickled.
“Well!” said she, turning to him with the frankest eyes, “I’d quite forgotten whose it was—honestly I had!
”
He was vastly amused. So his bracelet—she had absolutely forgotten that it was his—did not make her feel at all awkward. There was a healthy cynicism in the existing relations between these two.
She had nothing very new to tell him. Two out of the last three had proposed by letter. She confessed to being sick and tired of answering this kind of letter.
“I’ll tell you what,” said her kinsman, looking inspired, “you ought to have one printed! You could compose a very pretty one, with blanks for the name and date. It would save you a deal of time and trouble. You would have it printed in brown ink and rummy old type, don’t you know, on rough paper with coarse edges. It would look charming. ‘Dear Mr. Blank, of course I’m greatly flattered’—no, you’d say ‘very’—‘of course I’m very flattered by your letter, but I must confess it astonished me. I thought we were to be such friends?’ Really, Midge, it would be well worth your while!”
Miss Anstruther did not dislike the joke, from him; but when he added, “The pity is you didn’t start it in the very beginning, with young Ted Miller”—she checked him instantly.
“Now don’t you speak about Ted,” she said, in a firm, quiet little way: but he appreciated the look that swept into her soft eyes no better than he had appreciated it six months before; he was merely amused.
“Why not?”
“Because he meant it!”
Nunthorp wondered, but not seriously, whether that young fellow, who had gone in first, was to be the one, after all, to carry out his bat. And this way of putting it, in his own head, which was half full of cricket, carried him back to their last chat, and reminded him of a thing he had wanted to say to her for the past twenty-four hours.
“Do you remember my telling you,” said he, “when I last had the privilege of lecturing you, that you sang iniquitously well? Then I feel it a duty to inform you that your singing is now worse than ever—in this respect. No wonder you have had three fresh troubles; I consider it very little, with your style of singing. Your songs have much to answer for; I said so then, I can swear to it now. Your voice is heavenly, of course; but why pronounce your words so distinctly? I’m sure it isn’t at all fashionable. And why strive to make sense of your sounds? I really don’t think it’s good form to do so. And it’s distinctly dangerous. It didn’t happen to matter last night, because the rooms were so crowded; but if you sing to one or two as you sing to one or two hundred, I don’t wonder at them, I really don’t. You sing as if you meant every word of the drivel—I believe you humbug yourself into half meaning it, while you’re singing!”
“I believe I do,” Miss Anstruther replied, with characteristic candour. “You’ve no idea how much better it makes you sing, to put a little heart into it. But I never thought of this! Perhaps I had better give up singing!”
“I’ll tell you, when my turn comes round again,” said he, leading her back to the ball-room. “I’ll think of nothing else meanwhile.”
He did not dance; he was not a dancing man; but he did think of something else meanwhile. He thought of a pale, young, eager face, which appeared over Miss Anstruther’s shoulder in far too many of this evening’s dances. Lord Nunthorp hated dancing, and he had come here only to sit out a square or two with his amusing relative. He had to wait some time between them; he spent it in watching her; and she spent it in dancing everything with the same very young man, excepting one waltz, during which Lord Nunthorp transferred his attention from the bow to its latest string, who, for the time being, looked miserable.
“Who,” he asked her, as they managed to regain possession of their former corner in the conservatory, “is your dark-haired, pale-faced friend?”
“Well,” whispered Miss Anstruther, with grave concern, “I’m very much afraid that he is what you would call the next man in!”
“Good heaven!” ejaculated Lord Nunthorp, for once aghast. “Do you mean to say he is going to propose to you?”
“I feel it coming; I know the symptoms only too well!”
“Then perhaps you’re going to make a different answer at last?”
“My dear man!” said Lord Nunthorp’s sisterly little connection; and her tone was that of a person rather cruelly misjudged.
The noble kinsman held his tongue for several seconds. Man of the world as he was, he looked utterly scandalised. Here, in this fair, frail, beautiful form, lay a depth of cynicism which he could not equal personally—which he could not fathom in another, and that other a quite young girl.
“Midge,” he said at last, with sincere solemnity, “you horrify me! You’ve often told me the kind of thing, but this is the first time I’ve seen you with a fly actually in the web: for I don’t think I myself counted, after all. That boy is helplessly in love with you! And you were smiling upon him as though you liked him too!”
Nunthorp was touched tremulously upon the arm. “Was I?” the girl asked him, in a frightened voice. “Was I looking—like that?”
“I think you were,” he answered frankly. “And now you calmly scoff at the bare notion of accepting him! You make my blood run cold, Midge! I think you can have no heart!”
“Do you think that?” she asked strenuously, as though he had struck her.
“No, no; you know I don’t; only after seeing you look at him like that—”
“Honestly, I didn’t know I was looking in any particular way.” Miss Anstruther added in a lowered, softened voice; “If I was—well, it wasn’t meant for him.”
Lord Nunthorp dropped his eye-glass.
“And it wasn’t meant for you, either!” she super-added, smartly enough.
Lord Nunthorp breathed again, and ventured to recommend an immediate snub, in the pale boy’s case.
When he had led her back to her chaperone, he felt easier on her account than he had been for a long time. It was obvious to him that the biter was bit at last. The right man was evidently in view, though he was not there at the dance—which was hard on the white-faced youth. Perhaps she was not the right girl for the right man; perhaps he refused to be attracted by her. That would be odd, but not impossible; and a girl who had refused to fall in love with every man who had ever fallen in love with her, was the likeliest girl in the world to care for some man who cared nothing for her—primarily to make him care. That is a woman, through and through, reflected Lord Nunthorp, out of the recesses of a somewhat recherché experience. But Midge would most certainly make him care: she was fascinating enough to capture any man (except himself) if she seriously tried; and he sincerely hoped she was going to try, to succeed, and to live happily ever after. For Nunthorp had now quite a fatherly affection for the girl, and he wished her well from his heart, which was kindly enough, though turning prematurely gray. But he did not like a little scene, with her in it, which he witnessed just before he quitted that party.
“My dance!” said a boy’s confident, excited voice, just behind him; and the voice of Miss Anstruther replied, in the coldest of tones, that he must have made a mistake, for it was not his dance at all.
“But I’ve got it down,” the boy pleaded, as yet only amazed; his face was like marble as Lord Nunthorp watched him; Miss Anstruther was also slightly pale.
“She’s doing her duty, for once,” thought Lord Nunthorp, to whom the pathos of the incident lay in its utter conventionality. “But she plays a cruel game!”
“You’ve got it down?” said Miss Anstruther, very clearly, examining her card with ostentatious care. “Excuse me, but there is really some mistake; I haven’t got your name down for anything else!”
For an instant Lord Nunthorp held himself in readiness for a scene: he half expected to see the boy, whose white face was now on fire, snatch the card from her, expose her infamy, tear up the card and throw the pieces in her face. His face looked like it for a single instant, and Nunthorp was prepared to protect him if he did it. But the boy went away without a word.
Lord Nunthorp met the girl’s eyes with his. He knew she was looking for his approval: he knew she h
ad earned it, by preventing one poor fellow from going the whole humbling length, and he was glad to think that she had taken his advice: but the glance he gave her was very grim. He could not help it. He went away feeling quite unlike himself.
Just outside, in the street, some one brushed past him, sobbing an oath. And Lord Nunthorp became himself again; for this person was Miss Anstruther’s last victim.
“That’s all right,” he muttered; “not a broken heart—only broken pride. That’s all that’s breakable, after all; and it mends.” He walked home rather pleased with Midge, as he called her, for having done her duty, no matter how late, in at least one case. He was vexed with himself for having been stupid about it at the moment. But it delighted him to think that most likely this would be the last case of the kind; for he took always the most good-natured interest in the vivacious young woman with whom, once upon a time, he had himself been slightly smitten.
But how plain it was to the world that Miss Anstruther was motherless! No mother would have allowed her to behave as she did. With a mother she would have married one of the many, whether she loved him or not. Her father, whose time was much taken up, was so blind as to see no harm in her. The only people she had to remonstrate with her were her married sisters. One of these had been Miss Anstruther’s chaperone at this dance, where she sat out twice with her kinsman, Lord Nunthorp, and broke a silly youth’s pride. This sister ventured to remonstrate with her (but very gently) when they got home, in the small hours of the February morning.
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