by Nalini Singh
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Raphael brushed his thumb across her cheekbone. “If I do not?” A cool question.
“Stop trying to pick a fight with me. ” She knew what haunted him—that his parents’ madnesses would one day manifest in his own mind, turning him monstrous. Except Elena would never allow that to happen. “We fall, we fall together. ” A soft reminder, a solemn promise.
Elena. One hand going down to curve around her ribs, just below her breasts, as he moved his other thumb over her lips, shaping and stroking her.
“If your mother does wake,” she murmured, her top suddenly abrasive against her nipples, “what will happen to her?”
“Some say a long Sleep cures the madness of age, so she could once more become Cadre. ” Yet Raphael’s voice said that he didn’t believe such a thing possible.
“Will the others on the Cadre try to locate her, kill her beforehand?”
“Those who Sleep are sacrosanct,” Raphael told her. “To harm a Sleeper is to break a law so ancient, it is part of our racial memory. But there is no law that bars a search. ”
She knew without asking that he’d be undertaking such a search, could only hope what he discovered wasn’t a nightmare made flesh.
“I’ll speak to Jason,” he added, “see if he has heard any rumblings on this subject that I have not. ”
“Is he healed?” Raphael’s spymaster had been injured in the same violent explosion of power that had leveled a city and smashed Elena to the earth. “Is Aodhan?” Both angels had refused to leave her and fly to safety, though they were far stronger and faster. Even as they fell to the unforgiving earth, the two males had attempted to shield her body with their own.
“If you are,” Raphael said, stroking his hand down to rest at her waist, “then of course they walk without injury. ”
Because she was an immortal new-Made, while Jason was hundreds of years old. Aodhan, she wasn’t sure about—he was so very other, it was hard to judge—but the fact that he was one of Raphael’s Seven spoke for itself. “Beijing . . . are there any signs of recovery?” The city had ceased to exist in anything but memory after the events of that bloody night, so many dead that Elena couldn’t think about it without a sense of crushing weight on her chest, heavy and black and flavored with the taste of old death.
“No. ” An absolute statement. “It may take centuries for life to take root there once more. ”
The punishing might of power implied by that observation was staggering. It made her viscerally aware of the strength of the man who held her in an embrace she’d never be able to break if he decided to keep her prisoner. It should’ve scared her. But if there was one thing she knew, it was that with Raphael, any fight would be no-holds-barred. There would be no stilettos in the dark, no hurtful blades hidden behind a civilized facade . . . unlike the cutting words of another man who’d once claimed to love her.
Her soul pinched in hurt. “I can’t avoid my father forever,” she said, leaning back against the window again, the cold of the glass almost painful against her wings. “What do you think he’ll say when he sees me?” As far as Jeffrey knew, Raphael had saved her broken and dying body by Making her a vampire.
Raphael gripped his hunter’s jaw with one hand, placing the other beside her head. “He will see you as an opportunity. ” Honest words, for he would not lie to her. “A way to gain entry into the corridors of angelic power. ” If Raphael had his way, Jeffrey Deveraux would even now be rotting in a forgotten grave, but Elena loved her father in spite of his cruelty.
Now, she wrapped her arms around herself, and her words, when they came, were jagged pieces of pain. “I knew that before I asked . . . but part of me can’t help hoping that maybe this time, he’ll love me. ”
“As I can’t help hoping that my mother will rise, and will once again be the woman who sang me such lullabies that the world stood still. ” Pulling her into a crushing embrace, he pressed his lips to her temple. “We are both fools. ”
Thunder crashed at that moment, lightning flashing brilliant in the dark gloom of the world beyond the windowpane. It turned Elena’s hair to glittering silver, her eyes to mercury. Those eyes, he thought as he lowered his head, as he took her lips, would change over the centuries, until they might very well become what they appeared under storm-light. Come, Guild Hunter. It is late.
“Raphael. ” An intimate murmur against his lips. “I’m so cold. ”
He kissed her again, moving one hand down to close over her breast. Then he took them into the heart of a tempest far more demanding in its wrenching hunger than the winds that raged outside.
The nightmare came again that night. She should’ve expected it, but it pulled her into the bloody ruins of what had once been her family home with such speed that she had no chance to fight.
“No, no, no. ” She closed her eyes in childlike defiance.
But the dream forced them open. What she saw made her freeze, her pulse pounding beat after panicked beat at the back of her throat.
There were no broken bodies on the floor slicked by a dark, dark red. Blood. Everywhere she looked, there was blood. More blood than she’d ever seen.
That was when she realized she wasn’t in the kitchen where Ari and Belle had been murdered after all. She was in the kitchen of the Big House, the house her father had bought after her sisters . . . After. Gleaming pots hung on hooks above a long stone bench, while a massive fridge stood humming quietly in the corner. The stove was a shiny steel edifice that had always terrified her into keeping her distance.
Tonight, however, that steel was dulled with a rust-red coating that made her gorge rise, made her stumble to look away. At the knives. They lay everywhere. On the floor, on the counters, in the walls. All dripping thick, heavy gobs of deepest red . . . and other, fleshier things. “No, no, no. ” Clutching her arms around herself, her thin, fragile body that of a child, she skittered her gaze across the nightmare room in search of a safe harbor.
The blood, the knives had vanished.
The kitchen lay pristine once more. And cold. So cold. Always so cold in the Big House, no matter how much she cranked up the heat.
A shift in the dream—she’d been wrong, she thought. This cold place wasn’t pristine after all. There was a single high-heeled shoe on the dazzling white of the tile.
Then she saw the shadow on the wall, swinging to and fro.
“No!”
“Elena. ” Hands gripping her upper arms tight, the clean bright scent of the sea in her mind. “Guild Hunter. ”
The snapped words cut through the remnants of the dream, wrenching her back into the present. “I’m okay. I’m okay. ” The words came out jerky, disconnected. “I’m okay. ”
He pulled her into his arms when she would’ve jumped out of bed. To do what, she didn’t know, but sleep never came easy after the memories hit her with such brutal force. “I need to—”
He shifted until she was half under him, his wings rising to encase them in lush, dark privacy. “Hush, hbeebti. ” His body, heavy on her own, formed a hard shield against the softly swinging shadow that had chased her across time.
When he dropped his head and murmured more quiet, passionate words in the language that was part of her mother’s legacy, she lifted her arms and wrapped them around his neck, trying to pull him down. Trying to drown herself in him. But he squeezed her thigh and raised himself up on one arm so he could look down at her. “Tell me. ”
Elena had always made sure to hug Beth after the day their family shattered, to ensure her younger sister didn’t ever feel the chill, but she’d never had anyone to hold her in turn, never had anyone to smash apart the block of ice that encased her organs for hours after a nightmare. So, the words took time to come, but he was an immortal. Patience was a lesson he’d learned long ago.
“It didn’t make sense,” she said at last, her voice raw—as if she’d been screaming. “None of it made sense. ” Her mother hadn’t done what she had i
n the kitchen. No, Marguerite Deveraux had very carefully tied the rope to the strong railing that went around the mezzanine. Her pretty, shiny high heel had dropped onto the gleaming checkerboard tile of the hallway that was the grand entrance to the Big House.
A glossy cherry red, that shoe had made Elena’s heart fill with hope for a fractured second. She’d thought her mother had finally come back to them, finally stopped crying . . . finally stopped screaming. Then she’d looked up. Seen something that could never be erased from the wall of her mind. “It was all just a big jumble. ”
Raphael said nothing, but she had not a single doubt that she was the complete and total center of his attention.
“I thought,” she said, clenching her hands on his shoulders, “that the nightmares would stop after I killed Slater. He’ll never again hurt anyone I love. Why won’t they stop?” It came out shaky, not with fear, but with a tight, helpless rage.
“Our memories make us, Elena,” Raphael answered, in an echo of something she’d once said to him. “Even the darkest of them all. ”
Hand splayed out on his chest, she listened to the beat of his heart, strong, steady, always. “I won’t ever forget,” she whispered. “But I wish they’d stop haunting me. ” It made her feel like a traitor to say those words, to dare to wish for such a thing when Ari and Belle had lived the nightmare. When her mother had been unable to escape it.
“They will. ” Knowledge in his tone. “I promise you. ”
And because he’d never broken a promise to her, she let him hold her through what remained of the night. Dawn was pushing its way into the room on slender fingers of gold and pink when the sweet nothingness of sleep took her under.
But the peace only lasted for what felt like a mere blink of time.
Elena. A wave crashing into her head, a fresh bite of storm.
Groggy with sleep, she blinked open her eyes to see that she was alone in the sun-kissed bed, the rain having cleared away to leave the sky beyond the windows a startling azure. “Raphael. ” A glance at the bedside clock showed her it was midmorning. Rubbing at her eyes, she sat up. “What is it?”
Something has occurred that requires your skill.
Her senses stretched awake in anticipation, her mental muscles seeming to pop with the same pleasure-pain as her physical ones when she lifted her arms and arched her body. Where do you need me?
A school upstate. It is named the Eleanor Vand—
She dropped her arms, abdomen heavy with dread. I know
what it’s called. My sisters go there.
3
Ten-year-old Evelyn saw Elena first. Evelyn’s eyes went wide as Elena said good-bye to the angel who’d escorted her to the location via the quickest route, and flared out her wings to come to a steady landing in the front yard of the tony prep school, the velvet green perfection marred only by a number of errant leaves. Miniature twisters of spring green and crisp brown, small dervishes full of irritation, rose up in the wind created by her descent.