To Mend Fearful Hearts

by Dixie Lynn Dwyer

  “Still letting them in your bed?” Kenny asked, and tears filled her eyes.

  “Before they left, I said it was over. That they couldn’t keep doing this to me. Case died in combat,” she said, and more tears fell.

  “Shit,” Eric commented, and sat down next to her, placing his arm around her shoulder and his hand on her thigh.

  “I’m sorry, baby.”

  “It was so hard, and Ben and Eagan were destroyed. They lost their brother. They had to go on with their careers in the military, and they agreed that they couldn’t be what I needed and deserved. My heart was broken, and I don’t think it ever really mended, you know? So I hold back. There hasn’t been anyone since them. Except for you guys a year ago when we fooled around. I just couldn’t take that chance. I was hurt and felt so raw inside. I couldn’t let go with you that night,” she admitted.

  “That’s understandable. They should have never gotten involved with you if they weren’t ready to commit fully. That wasn’t fair,” Landon stated firmly. She swallowed hard.

  “Where are they now? Do you still talk to them?” Rome asked.

  She stared at her hands. “They text every so often.”

  “Do you still love them?” Kenny asked, and he appeared hurt.

  “I care about them. What we shared can’t just be forgotten or ignored as if it never happened. You know from seeing your friends, and other people involved in ménage relationships, how intense it is. How close the people involved are with one another.”

  “Jesus, I fucking can’t. I can’t stand to think of that,” Landon said.

  “Me either,” Eric said and leaned back.

  She turned to look at him. He was sitting right there next to her and removed his arm now. He was distancing himself, and it hurt. The tears fell. “I didn’t tell you about them to make you jealous or to turn you off. What I had with them was real. Surely you could understand that. I lost Case, he died in battle, and I thank God that at least I had told him that I loved him despite breaking things off with him and his brothers. If I hadn’t, if I had hated him and never got to say how I truly felt, then things would have been worse.”

  “You sound like you still love them and would want Eagan and Ben at least in your life, maybe intimately,” Rome said to her.

  She shook her head. “No. I don’t want them in my bed. They lost that right when they cheated on me. I never cheated on them. I was committed completely to them, and that’s why it hurt so badly. I would never be intimate with either of them again. They hurt me, Rome. Not only did they make me feel like an object as I waited for them between tours, but they also actually slept with other women. How could they do that after what we shared? I believe they did that on purpose to make me separate and let them go, but it also made me change. I don’t trust easily to begin with, but a man, men? How could I when they did what they did to me?” she said to them.

  “Why would they do that if they loved you?” Kenny asked her.

  “I don’t know, maybe to make it easier on me so if I hated them, I could let go too? It really didn’t matter because they did that and then Case died. I had made up with him, accepted his apology because Case didn’t want to leave things the way they were between us before he left for a dangerous mission. I respected that, and I didn’t give him a hard time. Ben and Eagan took his death hard. I helped out with all the arrangements and was their rock for them, but then they left again for another tour. There have been several since, and their contact with me is limited as we’re more like friends than anything else,” she admitted.

  She leaned back on the couch next to Eric, who pulled her against his side. They were all silent.

  “We’re older, more seasoned men. We’re right here in Cherry Hill, ready to commit to you, to learn more about you and to see where this attraction leads us. Are you willing to take that chance with us, Cherise?” Landon asked her.

  “I showed up tonight, didn’t I?” she said.

  “I want a concrete answer,” Kenny stated.

  He was so fierce. They all were, and having them all here surrounding her made it difficult to try to push them away when she knew she didn’t want that.

  “Yes, Kenny.”

  He stood in front of her. “Come here,” he said.

  It was like a test to see if she was serious, and also totally how each of these men were. Commanding, disciplinary, in charge, and she didn’t mind at all. She was shaking, she was so turned on by them. She had kicked off her heeled sandals, and she stood up, tilting her head way back to hold his gaze. Kenny was six feet three, with dark crew cut hair, bold, deep green eyes, and nearly forty years old. He cupped her cheek with one hand and placed his other hand on her hip. “Do you trust us?” he asked.

  “Yes.”

  “Do you believe that we will put you first, care for you, and protect you?” he asked.

  She swallowed hard. “I want to believe you would all do that. That you wouldn’t hurt me or break my heart.”

  Tears filled her eyes.

  “You need to let down that wall you’ve built up and start to let us in. Slowly if need be, but never deny what you feel for us, and we will never deny what we feel for you.” He lowered his mouth to hers slowly, and when their lips touched, she closed her eyes, and she let go.

  When Eric joined in, pressed against her back, and began to undo her skirt and push it down, she tightened up and gripped onto Kenny.

  “Let them explore you. Let us all explore what is going to be ours very soon. We won’t go too far if you’re not ready, but you need to let us in,” Landon said.

  She felt him and Rome on either side of her. They used their hands to stroke her bare thighs. Her skirt fell to the rug. She felt their palms slide up under her top and cupped her large breasts, and she moaned into Kenny’s mouth. He plunged his tongue deeper, while Eric suckled against her neck, hitting a sensitive spot. Eric pushed down her panties, wedged his thigh between her legs, then fingered her cunt from behind. Fire. She was instantly on fire.

  Kenny released her lips and started to lift her top up.

  “You’re so damn beautiful and sexy, Cherise. You’re all woman, made for men as big and as needy as we are,” Landon told her and kissed her tenderly.

  When he released them, Kenny lifted up her top as Rome unclipped her bra. She held it against her chest as Eric stroked her pussy and coaxed her back lower.

  “We belong to you too,” Rome said to her. She glanced at him and moaned as Eric increased those thrusts.

  “Let go,” Rome said and nodded toward her bra. She reacted. She came and dropped her bra, and he inhaled. “Jesus, woman,” he said and lowered to his knees. He cupped her breast, and she grabbed onto Kenny’s shoulder and rocked her hips.

  “Explore me too,” Kenny said, and she reached for his pants, undid the zipper, and it was on.

  She wanted this. Wanted more of them. She pushed his pants down with his assistance. Rome suckled on her tit as she licked Kenny’s cock and Eric stroked her pussy. She felt the wet digit slide back and forth over her asshole.

  “Nice tight little bud. A perfectly round ass to hold on to while I fuck you from behind. All while you’re sucking on one of my brother’s cocks, as another brother is filling up this wet, needy pussy,” Landon told her, and she moaned against Kenny’s cock.

  “Fuck,” Eric said, and he lowered down and licked where he thrust his fingers. He pulled his fingers from her pussy and licked her cunt. He kept alternating tongue and fingers, and she came again.

  Landon teased her asshole and pressed a digit into her. She grunted.

  “She is made for us. Goddamn. Let me, Eric,” Rome said, and then used his fingers to slide into her pussy.

  “I’m there, baby. Swallow me,” Kenny commanded, and he gripped her hair and head, thrust into her mouth, and came.

  “The bedroom. Now,” Rome said, and he lifted her up into his arms and carried her as if she were light as a feather. He maneuvered her to the bed, spread her thighs, an
d immediately began to eat at her pussy. He was relentless, and she shook and came and wiggled and turned her head side to side.

  “Rome! Oh God, please, Rome,” she cried out.

  He moved his mouth, pulled her ass and cunt to the edge of the bed, and fingered her pussy as he held her gaze. “I can’t wait to make you my woman. To slide my thick, hard cock into this wet pussy and make you mine,” he said and then lowered down, licked her pussy and asshole, and then slid a finger into her asshole.

  He stroked her, and she felt that deep, tight sensation before she cried out and came. Eric held her hands above her head on one side, and Landon was on the other side. They feasted on her breasts. It was too much.

  “Rome!” she screamed.

  Rome pulled out his fingers, and his brothers moved to the side, and he cupped her cheeks and kissed her. She kissed him back, grabbed onto his shoulders, and he rolled to his back. Held her between his forearms as he stroked her hair and head and stared down into her eyes.

  “This is real. We’re all taking fucking chances, Cherise. All of us,” he said to her His expression intense.

  “I know. I can feel it,” she said to him very seriously, and then she began to explore Rome. She kissed his chin and then down his chest. She felt hands on her thighs, spreading her. As her feet made contact with the rug, she helped Rome get out of his clothing. She saw the tattoos, the scars, and his muscles, and she shivered with desire.

  “No teasing, or that ass will get spanked big time,” he threatened, and she felt her pussy ache. She worried her bottom lip but brushed down his body, letting her full, aroused breasts make contact with his skin. He tightened up. “Quit teasing me, woman. I need that mouth,” he warned, and she refocused and made her way lower and then licked his cock.

  As she began to suck on him, Landon started to finger her cunt and then thrust fingers up into her. He rocked against her back and ass as if he were taking her from behind. Between the two men, she felt so small and protected. It was crazy. They were big. Their cocks huge, and her mouth watered as she set out to make Rome crumble under her ministrations. She bobbed her head up and down and felt Eric’s hands on her ass cheeks.

  “That’s it, baby. Keep sucking on my cock. Make me wild. Make my brothers wild,” Rome said as he caressed her hair, grunted, and tilted up and down.

  “Widen those thighs,” Landon commanded as he pumped his fingers into her pussy, and someone slid a finger into her asshole. “Goddamn, this ass is tight. Fuck, I’m so hard,” Landon said.

  “Me too,” Kenny added.

  “There. I’m fucking there,” Rome said and came in her mouth.

  She sucked him while Landon and Eric thrust fingers into her pussy and asshole. She fell against Rome’s chest, and he caressed her hair, sliding his hand down to tug on her nipple.

  Kenny approached and pushed her hair from her face. He was naked. “More?” he asked, breathing heavily. She felt anxious, shaky.

  “I’m scared,” she admitted, and fingers left her body and hands caressed her skin and then lips as all four men touched her and cared for her.

  “Then we wait,” Kenny said and kissed her forehead.

  Landon and Eric pulled off their clothes.

  “We can’t be stuck like this, baby,” Landon said and stroked his cock.

  When she lifted up off Rome, she was flushed, her body exceptional with her nipples hard and cream glistening between her legs. She shocked them as she lowered to her knees, pulled Landon and Eric close, and cupped both their balls.

  “Fuck.” Landon exhaled and Eric hissed.

  She licked Landon’s cock first as she gripped Eric’s cock and moved it back and forth in her fist. Then she sucked up and down, getting Landon super hard, and then she released her hold and licked and sucked on Eric’s cock. They both caressed her hair, watching her as Rome and Kenny sat on the bed and watched too. She was relentless, wild as her breasts moved and swayed, and she reached down and fingered herself as she took turns sucking on them.

  “Oh, baby, let us take you together. Let us love you, and you won’t need to finger that sweet, wet cunt. We’ll bring you pleasure and get this thing started full throttle,” Landon said to her.

  She looked up under hooded eyes as she sucked him faster and faster, and he closed his eyes and came.

  Eric lifted her up before she could suck on his cock, and he laid her on the bed. “Take me inside of you. Come on, baby. Make love to us,” he said to her.

  She reached up and cupped his cheek. “I don’t want to lose you. I’m so scared of letting down this guard fully.”

  “You won’t lose us. This is real. This is forever,” he said to her, then turned, and kissed her palm.

  “We can go grab condoms,” Kenny said. Rome and Landon were right there too.

  Tears filled her eyes.

  “If you aren’t ready, then we’ll wait,” he said and lowered down to kiss her.

  Cherise felt he tears fall as she gripped onto Eric, rolled him to his back, and kissed him. She wanted to do this. She wanted them. Felt the desire, the need. It had been so long, and this was perfect with them. She had the same strong feelings for each of the men, but she also felt insecure about her decision. Could she base this just on sex? It wasn’t like she was a virgin. When Rome squeezed her ass and stepped in behind her, she moaned and kissed down Eric’s chest, toward his torso, and then began to feast on his cock.

  Rome slid fingers into her cunt. “Don’t cry, baby. Please don’t cry. We’ll be patient with you,” he said to her. She released Eric’s cock and turned to look over her shoulder. Rome cupped her cheek and kept a hand on her hip.

  “You know we want you, and now we know why you held back. You should know why I did too. It was because I was active duty, and I feared my brothers getting to have you, hold you, and love you while I couldn’t. I also feared not being as close to you because I’m so hard, so dead set on handling things myself. Sweetie, I lost good men on my last mission. I lost ones I would refer to as my brothers, and it hurts inside. I have nightmares about them, and I fear losing my shit like a lot of soldiers do, even though I’m fine. It’s crazy.”

  “Rome, you didn’t say anything to us,” Kenny said to him.

  “We’re here for you. We’re a team, we’re brothers,” Landon said to him.

  “We sure are, and we’re a family, and Cherise is about to complete that family when she accepts us in her life, in her bed, and in her body,” Eric said.

  She glanced at him and then reached back to take Rome’s hand.

  “Take me, Rome. All of you, make love to me. I want to feel the connection. I want it all. If you can give me all of each of you, I’m ready,” she said, and Rome kissed her lips and Eric cupped her breasts.

  “Condoms, Kenny,” Eric said.

  Rome released her lips and kissed her shoulder and then her back.

  “No need, Kenny. I have an IUD. It’s been two years plus for me,” she said.

  “Over a year for us,” Rome told her, and she was shocked.

  “Rome?” she questioned him.

  “One night making out with you a year ago, and there was no looking elsewhere,” he admitted.

  She smiled at him. “I’m ready,” she said and then lowered down to kiss Eric on the lips before she went back to pleasuring him.

  “That mouth, oh, baby, I am never going to get used to this mouth. You got me there,” Eric said and moaned softly.