by Riley Sager
Hearing those words come out of my daughter’s mouth almost broke my heart. I looked across the table to Jess, who gave me a small nod of support. It wasn’t much, but it meant everything to me. It told me that, despite our recent clashes, we were still in this together.
“That’s right,” I said. “It was terrible and made everyone very sad. Bad things happen sometimes. But not all the time. Not often at all, in fact. But we know that what happened might scare you, and we want you to understand that it’s all in the past. Nothing like that is going to happen while we’re here.”
“Promise?” Maggie said.
“I promise,” I replied.
Jess reached across the table for our hands and gave them a gentle squeeze. “We promise.”
“If you have any questions about what happened, don’t be afraid to ask,” I told Maggie. “We can talk about it anytime you want. In fact, I have a newspaper article about it, if you want to see it.”
I waited until Maggie nodded before sliding the article in front of her. Since her reading skills were still limited, her gaze immediately went to the photograph.
“Hey,” she said, pressing a finger to the photocopied face of Katie Carver. “That’s the girl.”
I tensed. “What girl, honey?”
“The one I play with sometimes.”
“Hannah?” Jess said hopefully.
Maggie shook her head. “The girl who can’t leave my room.”
She then looked to the other side of the photo and Curtis Carver’s scowling face. Immediately, she began to whimper.
“It’s him,” she said, climbing into my lap and pressing her face against my chest.
“Who?”
Maggie shot one last, frightened look at Curtis Carver.
“Him,” she said. “He’s Mister Shadow.”
Sixteen
The reporters return bright and early. I know because I’ve been awake all night. Sometimes pacing the great room. Other times checking the front door and all the windows, making sure for the second, third, fourth time that they’re secure. Most of the night, though, was spent in the parlor, sitting at attention with the knife in my hand, waiting for more weirdness.
That nothing happened didn’t make it any less nerve-racking. Every shadow on the wall sent my pulse galloping. Each creak of the house prompted a startled jump. At one point, while pacing the room, I caught sight of myself in the secretary desk’s mirror, startled not by my sudden presence there but by how crazed I looked.
I’d always assumed I was nothing like the fearful child in my father’s book. Turns out it was me the whole time.
Now I’m at the third-floor windows, peeking through the trees at the line of news vans arriving at the front gate. I wonder how long they’ll be there before giving up. I hope it’s just another few hours and not days.
Because I need to leave again, and this time going through the broken stone wall won’t cut it. For this journey, I need a car.
I consider the idea of simply hopping into my truck and driving it right into the crowd, casualties be damned. But the thought is more revenge fantasy than actual plan. One, I’ll need to get out of the truck to unlock and open the gate—giving Brian Prince and his ilk ample time to pounce. Second, even if I can drive away in peace, there’s nothing to stop them from following me.
My only way to make a quiet getaway is to catch a ride with someone else. That means a phone call to Dane, even though we haven’t spoken since he left the Two Pines. It is clear we are avoiding each other, although the reasons couldn’t be more different. I suspect Dane is embarrassed I rejected his advances and wants to put some space between us.
My excuse is that I’m still trying to process what Chief Alcott told me about his time in prison. I believe that people make mistakes. But I also can’t help but feel deceived. Until he convinces me he’s not the same man who entered that prison, my trust in Dane will be limited to a ride into town.
“I need a favor,” I tell him when he answers the phone. “Can you give me a lift in your truck?”
“Sure,” he says. “I’ll be right up.”
“That’s exactly what I don’t want you to do. Take your truck a half mile from your place and wait for me on the side of the road.”
Dane, to his credit, doesn’t ask me why. “I’ll be there in ten.”
Just as he promised, his truck is idling on the roadside when I emerge from the woods, having passed through the gap in the wall.
“Where to, lady?” he says as I climb inside.
I give him the address to Dr. Weber’s office, which I found online. Surprisingly, she’s still practicing, and still in Bartleby.
The reason for my visit is simple: to ask her if I was indeed a patient of hers and, if so, what I said. Because I have few memories of Baneberry Hall that weren’t influenced by the Book, I need the recollections of a third party to help me make sense of what’s going on. Yet part of me already knows what’s happening.
It’s all true. Every damn word.
It’s not safe there. Not for you.
“How’s everything going?” Dane asks after driving in silence for several minutes.
“Fine,” I say.
He shoots me a sidelong glance. “That’s all I get? Fine? The other night, you couldn’t stop talking.”
“Things have changed.”
More silence follows. A long, tense pause made all the more unbearable by the fact that Dane is right. I couldn’t stop talking that night at the Two Pines. Because he was easy to talk to, back when I didn’t know what he’d done and what he still might be capable of doing. Now I just want to get through this trip by saying as little as possible.
Dane refuses to let that happen.
“Is this about the other night?” he says. “If I made you uncomfortable, I’m sorry. I was just responding to the vibe in the room. Otherwise I never would have suggested it. The last thing I wanted was to make this—”
“Why didn’t you tell me you were in prison?” I ask, unable to keep the question bottled up.
Dane doesn’t react, save for a slight clearing of this throat. He’s clearly been anticipating this moment.
“It never came up.”
“So you’re not denying it?”
“Not when it’s the truth,” Dane says. “I spent a year at Northern State Correctional. The food was bad, the company was worse, and don’t even get me started on the showers.”
The joke—not good to begin with—withers amid the strained mood inside the truck.
“And is it true you almost killed a man?” I say.
“Not intentionally.”
I think Dane expects that to make me feel better. It doesn’t.
“But you did intend to hurt him,” I reply.
“I don’t know what I intended,” Dane says, his voice strained. “Everything got out of hand. The other guy started it, okay? Not that it matters, but that’s a fact. Was I drunk? Yes. Did I go too far? Absolutely. And I regret every goddamn punch. I’ve served my time and changed my ways, but people are always going to judge me for that one awful mistake.”
“Is that why you didn’t tell me?” I say. “Because you thought I’d judge you?”
Dane sniffs. “That’s what you’re doing, isn’t it?”
“I wouldn’t if you had been honest with me. I know all too well what it feels like when people think they have you pegged. I would have understood.”
“Then why are you acting so hurt about it?”
“Only because I deserved to know. I hired you for a job, Dane.”
“So we’re just boss and employee now?”
“That’s what we’ve always been,” I say, in a voice eerily like my mother’s. I hear it—that clipped formality, the passive aggressiveness—and cringe.
“It didn’t feel that way the other night,”
Dane says. “Hell, it never felt that way.”
My mother’s tone again seeps into my voice. “Well, that’s how it’s going to be now.”
“Just because you found out I was in prison?”
“No, it’s because of everything I’m dealing with right now. The Book, my father, what he might have done. I don’t need another liar in my life.”
We’ve entered Bartleby proper, the town still waking up. People emerge from their houses with sleepy expressions and steaming travel mugs of coffee. A block away, a church bell chimes out the hour—nine a.m.
Dane pulls up to the curb and gives me an impatient look. “You can get out here. Consider it my resignation. Find someone else to mess up with your daddy issues.”
I hop out of the truck without hesitation, giving Dane a mumbled “Thanks for the ride” before slamming the door and walking away.
Dane calls to me. “Maggie, wait.”
I turn around and see his head stuck out the truck’s window. A hundred thoughts seem to go through his head, all of them unspoken. In the end, he settles for a quiet, concerned “Will you need a ride back?”
I almost tell him yes. That I need more than a ride—I need him to help me understand just what the hell is going on and what, if anything, I can do about it. But I can’t bring myself to say it. It’s better to end things now.
“No,” I say. “I can find my own way home.”
* * *
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I can also find my own way to Dr. Weber’s office, which sits a block off Maple Street, on a tidy thoroughfare that looks residential but is mostly commercial. Craftsman-style homes sit amid compact yards, most bearing signs for the businesses contained within them. A dentist. A law office. A funeral home. Dr. Weber’s is no different.
Inside, the office is soothing to the point of blandness. Everything’s colored either cream or beige, including a woman leaning over a desk to check the calendar. Creamy skin. Beige skirt. Off-white blouse. She looks up when I enter, her eyes kind but curious. Definitely Dr. Weber. It’s the sort of expression than can only come from decades of intense listening.
“I didn’t think I had an appointment first thing this morning,” she says. “Are you a parent?”
“There’s no appointment,” I say. “I was hoping we could talk.”
“I’m afraid I don’t take walk-ins. Nor do I work with adults. But I’d be happy to give you the names of more appropriate therapists.”
“I’m not seeking therapy,” I say. “Been there, done that.”
“Then I’m not sure how I can help you,” Dr. Weber says kindly.
“I’m a former patient,” I say. “We had one session. That I know of.”
“I’ve had lots of patients over the years.”
“I’m Maggie Holt.”
Dr. Weber remains completely still. Her expression never changes. The only thing hinting at her surprise is a hand that makes its way to her heart. She notices and tries to cover by adjusting the top button of her blouse.
“I remember you,” she says.
“What did we talk about?” I say, immediately following it up with another, more pressing question. “And what was I like?”
Dr. Weber gives her calendar another quick glance before leading me into an inner office filled with more beige and cream, including the college degrees hanging on the wall in tasteful frames. It makes me wonder if the doctor has her own phobia—fear of color.
“I assume this visit was prompted by the recent incident at Baneberry Hall,” Dr. Weber says as we sit, she in her doctor’s chair and me in the one reserved for patients. “I imagine that was quite a shock for you.”
“That’s putting it mildly,” I say.
“Do you think your father killed that girl?”
“I can’t think of anyone else who could have done it.”
“So that’s a yes?”
“More like an I-don’t-know.” An edge creeps into my voice. The argument with Dane has left me feeling defensive. Or maybe the defensiveness stems from sitting under Dr. Weber’s watchful gaze. “I was hoping you could help me fill in the blanks.”
“I’m honestly not sure how much help I can be,” Dr. Weber says. “We only had that one session your father mentioned in his book.”
That’s a surprise. I didn’t expect Dr. Weber to have read it.
“What did you think of House of Horrors?” I say.
The doctor folds her hands in her lap. “As literature, I found it lacking. From a psychological standpoint, I thought it was fascinating.”
“How so?”
“While on the surface it was about a haunted house and evil spirits, I saw the book for what it really was—a father’s attempt to understand his daughter.”
It sounds like something Dr. Harris would have told me. Typical analytical bullshit.
“I was five,” I say. “There wasn’t too much for him to try to understand.”
“You’d be surprised by the complexity of young minds.”
I start to rise from the chair, gripped by a sudden urge to leave. This is going nowhere. Certainly not in the direction I want it to. What keeps me here, hovering over the chair’s beige upholstery, is the need for answers.
“All that book did was make life very hard for my family,” I say. “Me, especially.”
“Then why did you return to Baneberry Hall?”
“I inherited it. Now I have to get it ready to be sold.”
“You don’t have to,” the doctor says. “Not really. Everything regarding the house could be taken care of remotely. Movers and designers and so forth.”
“I am a designer,” I say, bristling. “I needed to see the condition of the house.”
“That’s the key word, I think.”
“House?”
Dr. Weber gives me a patient smile. “See. You needed to see the condition of the house. It’s very similar to that phrase ‘I’ll believe it when I see it.’ Which makes me think you came back not to see the condition of the house but to find out if, just maybe, your father was telling the truth in his book.”
I lean forward in the chair. “What did I tell you during that session?”
“So you’re a designer,” Dr. Weber says, ignoring my question. “Of what?”
“Interiors.”
“Fascinating.”
I knew she’d glom on to that bit of information. Dr. Harris certainly had. She said Baneberry Hall is the reason I do what I do. That the story of my family’s brief time there has led me to seek out other stories in other houses. A constant quest for truth.
“What do you really hope to accomplish by renovating that house?” Dr. Weber says.
“To make a profit.”
“Are you sure it’s not really an attempt to change your experience there? Flip the house, flip your past.”
“I think it’s a little more complex than that,” I say.
“Is it? You just told me that house made life very hard for you.”
“No, I said my father’s book did. That house has nothing to do with it.”
“It absolutely does,” Dr. Weber says, the newfound sparkle in her eye signaling she thinks she’s got me all figured out. “It’s all tied together, Maggie. The house. The book. Your family. I’m not surprised you say your father’s book hurt you. I can only imagine how strange it must have been, growing up with such a burden. Now here you are, renovating Baneberry Hall. Don’t you think this project is, in essence, now an attempt to rewrite that story?”
“I’m not here to be analyzed,” I say, struck once more by the urge to leave. This time, I stand. Dr. Weber remains in her seat. Our sudden difference in height emboldens me. “If you don’t want to tell me what I said during that session we had, fine. But I’m not going to let you waste my time in the process.”
I take a step toward the
door, stopping only when Dr. Weber says, “Your parents contacted me, saying you were having trouble adjusting to your new house. When I learned where you lived, I wasn’t surprised.”
She gestures for me to return to the chair. Seated once more, I say, “Because of what happened with the Carver family?”
“And other things,” Dr. Weber says. “Stories. Rumors. Every town has a haunted house. In Bartleby, that’s Baneberry Hall. And it was that way long before your father’s book existed.”
I think of the passages in the Book about the house’s history. All those articles my father had reportedly found about deaths that had occurred there beyond the Carver family’s tragedy. I assumed he’d made them up.
“When your parents brought you to see me, I was prepared to talk to a little girl afraid of the dark. Instead, I met a smart, willful five-year-old convinced there were supernatural presences in her house.”
“I mentioned ghosts?”
“Oh, yes. A little girl, Miss Pennyface, and Mister Shadow.”
A thin sliver of fear shoots up my spine like a titanium rod. I sit up straighter in my chair.
“My father made them up.”
“It’s possible,” Dr. Weber says. “Children are impressionable. If an adult tells them something, no matter how impossible it may sound, a child will tend to believe it. Take Santa Claus, for example. So, yes, your father could have planted the idea of these people in your head.”
For the first time since we’ve sat down, I detect uncertainty in Dr. Weber’s voice.
“You don’t think that’s what happened,” I say.
“I don’t.” The doctor shifts in her chair. “I can tell when a child’s thinking has been manipulated. That wasn’t the case with you. It’s why I remember that session so vividly after all these years. You spoke with complete conviction.”
“About ghosts?”
Dr. Weber nods. “You said they came into your room at night. One of them whispered to you in the darkness, warning you that you were going to die.”
“They were probably night terrors. I’ve had them since I was a little girl.”