white lilies
samantha christy
Saint Augustine, FL 32092
Copyright © 2015 by Samantha Christy
All rights reserved, including the rights to reproduce this book or any portions thereof in any form whatsoever.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental.
Cover design © Sarah Hansen, Okay Creations
ISBN-13: 978-1516998432
ISBN-10: 151699843X
For my son, Dylan.
Don’t mess with fate.
Always have faith.
Never stop believing in family.
Books by Samantha Christy
Be My Reason
Abstract Love
Finding Mikayla
Purple Orchids (The Mitchell Sisters Book One)
White Lilies (The Mitchell Sisters Book Two)
table of contents
part one
prologue
chapter one
chapter two
chapter three
chapter four
chapter five
chapter six
chapter seven
chapter eight
chapter nine
chapter ten
chapter eleven
chapter twelve
chapter thirteen
chapter fourteen
chapter fifteen
chapter sixteen
chapter seventeen
chapter eighteen
chapter nineteen
chapter twenty
part two
chapter twenty-one
chapter twenty-two
chapter twenty-three
chapter twenty-four
chapter twenty-five
chapter twenty-six
chapter twenty-seven
chapter twenty-eight
chapter twenty-nine
chapter thirty
chapter thirty-one
chapter thirty-two
epilogue
acknowledgments
white lilies
part one
skylar
prologue
“Oh, God. Not again,” I mumble, tasting my horrid morning mouth. I look around the dim unfamiliar room hoping to gain some clue as to how I got here and who the guy lying next to me might be.
I lift the covers to investigate. My eyebrows shoot up in appreciation of what I find underneath. I’m vaguely amused at myself for not having beer goggles on last night.
The scorching-hot, totally naked man snoring at my side is the epitome of every girl’s panty-soaking fantasy. My mouth waters at the sight of him, reminding me of my rancid breath. I spy my purse on the floor next to the bed, along with two condom wrappers. Two! I reach in the pocket for a breath mint before resuming my perusal of Adonis.
He must be tall. His feet are practically hanging off the bed. He has large, toned thighs like that of a cyclist—points for that. It looks like you could bounce off his tight abs and I wonder momentarily if I did. His face is hard and rugged, even in sleep. I’ll have to give him a pass on the hair because of how delectable the rest of him is. It’s short. Buzz-cut short. And it might be red. I lift the sheets again. Yup—red.
While my gaze is focused on Ginger’s nether region, the south starts to rise again. And what a generous lift-off. My eyes widen and flicker to his only to find him, um . . . appreciating my body in return. Our glances meet in an awkward recognition. Recognition that neither of us recognizes the other.
He snickers and motions to his erection. “You want to do something about that?” he asks, his voice dripping with a Boston accent that to my discerning ears is like fingernails on a blackboard. I bring my finger to his lips to stop him from talking anymore lest he strip the horny right out of me.
I stare at him for a moment and contemplate leaving. But given that we’ve already screwed twice, I rationalize I should at least have the decency to be able to remember what it feels like. So, what the hell?
“First things first,” I say, reaching over to grab a few provisions from my bag. I hold out a breath mint for him in case his mouth tastes anything like mine did.
“Thanks.” He takes it and pops it in his mouth.
I rip the condom open and roll it onto his impressive length right before I straddle his body and bring myself down on him. It stings because I’m not fully ready.
“You don’t waste any time, do you, honey?”
Honey? God, that’s even worse than his biting blue-collar accent. I look at the clock. “I have to be at work in an hour,” I say.
“Oh. Where do you work?” he asks nonchalantly, like we’re having afternoon tea instead of his long length stroking my sweet spot.
“Can we just move this along . . . honey?” I ask.
He laughs, thrusting deeper into me while tightly gripping my hips. “No problem.”
Ten minutes and a not-so-satisfying orgasm later, I’m cleaning up in his bathroom. It’s filled with a shitload of girl products. I peek in the cabinet under the sink. Tampons.
I quickly finish getting dressed and stomp back into the bedroom to retrieve my purse. “You have a girlfriend, you asshole?” I ask, watching him light a cigarette, hoping the ash will fall and burn his cheating cock.
He answers me with a shrug and a wrinkle of his nose.
Douchebag.
I shake my disapproving head at him, step into my heels and walk out of the bedroom without speaking. I think I hear him mumble a word of thanks as I slam the bedroom door.
Doing a solitary walk of shame through his apartment, I notice a few toys strewn about the floor. I stop to look around.
Son of a bitch!
There’s a playpen in the corner. A highchair at the table. A pack of diapers by the closet. And a large portrait depicting the perfect-fucking-family hanging over the fireplace.
I am such a slut.
chapter one
“Well, what do you expect, Skylar?” Baylor, reprimands me. “If you’re going to hang out at meat markets and drink like a sailor, you’re going to wake up in strange places. You can’t let the guy take all the blame.”
“Ugh!” I pout. I take a long sip of the strawberry margarita Baylor poured me as part of girls’ night. She may not be able to drink because she’s knocked up, but she can still make a good one. “He’s married with a goddamn kid. What right does he have to pick someone up in a bar?”
“Maybe,” she says, re-filling Jenna’s and Mindy’s glasses. “But if it wasn’t him, it would have been some other random guy, so does it really matter?”
She’s right. She’s absolutely fucking right. The past several years flash through my mind and my illustrious reputation of slutiness almost makes me choke on my drink. I rarely even bother to stay with a man long enough to like him. And if a guy has feelings for me? Forget it. Feelings lead to love. Love leads to broken hearts. Broken hearts lead to shitty lives. I’ve seen it firsthand. Okay, so maybe it all turned out great in the end for my big sister, Baylor, who was crushed by the man she loved when she was eighteen. But I vowed back then, being two years younger than her, that I would never let it happen to me.
So, here I sit, twenty-four years old and a bed post with enough notches on it to rival a cat’s scratching pole. I hang my head in shame while my sister and our friends try to sympathize.
I sigh. “I’m a terrible person,” I say.
“No you aren’t,” Jenna tells me. “You just don’t make the
best choices, sweetie.”
Visions of the shameful choices I’ve made over the years trample through my head. “No—I’m a terrible person,” I repeat.
“Come on,” Mindy says. “It’s not that bad.”
I shake my head at my roommate. Mindy is my closest friend, next to my sisters, Baylor and Piper. She’s also the best waitress at Mitchell’s NYC, my parents’ restaurant. We have a walk-up apartment only a few blocks from the restaurant that I manage. We also have—okay I have—a signal for said apartment to alert the other one of us that we should get lost for a while. When we have a guy over, in our tiny apartment with thin walls, we leave the light on in the hallway out front. And in this very moment, it occurs to me, that not once has Mindy ever turned it on. Not that she doesn’t have anyone over. She does. But I guess she plans it when I’m working. Or they go elsewhere. She’s a considerate slut. I’m a selfish one.
“Not that bad?” I say. “It’s worse. I’m a self-centered slut and inconsiderate lush. I don’t even buy Girl Scout cookies. I hang up the phone on charity callers. I sleep with men who have families for Christ’s sake. Face it, I’m going to hell.”
Jenna fails at trying to sound like she’s not scolding me when she says, “Skylar, you do this every time. You get drunk, wake up in some random stranger’s bed and then tell us what a bad person you are. If you’re so tired of this happening—and I think I speak for the rest of us when I say we’re tired of this happening—then do something about it.”
I look from face to face as they stare at me to see what my reaction will be. They are all so damn perfect. Jenna, who is Baylor’s best friend and agent, is engaged to a batting coach for the Yankees. She volunteers her time working for a charity set up by the team that raises money to vaccinate kids in Africa. Mindy comes from a life of money, but refuses to live on her father’s dime so she became a waitress and is putting herself through college to become a physical therapist. And of course, Baylor is a successful author. She is finally with the love of her life and they are expecting their second child. Even my little sister, Piper, is off living her dream life backpacking the world with her best friend.
Everyone has something going for them. What the hell do I have?
Man . . . don’t want one.
Kids . . . hate them.
Happiness . . . overrated.
Dignity . . . absent.
Self-worth . . . on vacation with dignity.
The only thing I really have going for me is my job. I love managing Mitchell’s NYC. In fact, my parents have entrusted me with it almost completely. Yes, they still keep tabs and show up at least once a week to make sure I’m not royally screwing up their empire, but they’ve moved on to location number three in Long Island. My job is my life. My life is my job. And that’s pretty much the way I like it. Or I did until my epiphany ten minutes ago. But that was then and this is now. And now is when I tell myself to shape the hell up. Turn over a new leaf. Toe the line. Do something with my life. Become meaningful.
Oh, God. I’ve swallowed an existential pill and it’s regurgitating itself all over my fourth margarita.
“Okay, so let’s say I wanted to change,” I muse. “How would I go about that?”
They all share a look. I know what they’re thinking. I want to tell them to piss off, but they know me too well. They think this will all blow over. I’m sure I say ten times a week that I want to change something about myself. But they know as well as I do that I never mean it. Until now, that is.
“Well, what exactly is it that you want to change?” Mindy asks. “I mean there’s just so much to work with.” The other girls laugh, but I sulk in the face of the truth. She places an apologetic hand on my arm. “Skylar, you know I love you. You have my full support and I’ll help you any way I can.”
I look down into my alluring margarita. “I need to stop drinking.” They all nod their heads in agreement. “I need to stop fucking.” More emphatic nods. “I need to do something deeply meaningful with my life.”
It’s the last one that has them drawing their eyebrows together.
While they think it over, I take a drink. Baylor eyes me skeptically, watching me drain my glass. “I didn’t mean this second,” I spit at her. “Tomorrow. I’ll start tomorrow.
“The floor is open for suggestions,” I tell them.
Jenna turns to me with a playful grin. “You could become a nun. It covers all the bases. No sex, no drinking.” Her brows draw together in thought. “Wait, nuns can’t drink, can they? And you can’t get any more meaningful than serving The Big Guy, can you?”
“A nun?” Baylor offers. “This is my sister we’re talking about here. Let’s try to be a little realistic.”
I stick my tongue out at her like a petulant five-year-old.
“Oh, you could join the Peace Corps,” Mindy says. “You’d be helping people all over the world, and you’d have to go to really remote places that probably don’t have hot men and alcohol.”
I shake my head at them. “No. I love my job. I won’t leave Mitchell’s. It’ll have to be something else.”
“You could get fat,” Jenna says. “You know, to keep the men away.”
I roll my eyes at her. “First of all, there are guys out there who love fat chicks. And second and third, how does that solve my drinking problem and my do-gooder problem?”
“Yeah, I guess there’s that.” Jenna studies me, waiting for inspiration.
Baylor rubs her hand in a circle on her growing belly. “You could get knocked up,” she teases. “That would easily solve your first two problems. Men are fundamentally turned off by pregnant women unless they happen to be your own super-hot husband.” She sighs and I can tell she’s fantasizing about her man.
“Ewww. Please don’t make me picture you and Gavin having dirty pregnant sex.” I shiver with disgust. “And, me, pregnant? God, no. I hate kids.”
“You love Maddox.” She looks at me with soft eyes.
“Of course I do. I can give him back,” I explain. “It’d almost be a good idea if it didn’t mean I’d end up with a snotty-nosed brat and some unemployed loser for a baby daddy.”
Mindy sits up straight. “You could have a kid for someone else.”
“As in give one up for adoption?” I ask, my forehead creasing into a dubious frown.
“No, like you could be a surrogate,” she says excitedly, as if coming up with the most brilliant idea to trump all brilliant ideas. “You know, get knocked up in some lab and carry someone else’s baby and then hand it over when the thing pops out. It’s the perfect solution.” She holds her hand up and counts off on her fingers, saying, “You can’t drink. No man in his right mind would want to have sex with a knocked-up stranger. And to top it all, you’d be doing something totally awesome for someone.”
“And you could still run the restaurant,” Jenna adds.
“I could?” I look back and forth from Jenna to Mindy who are both nodding encouragingly. I think about what they’ve said. “Yes. I could.”
“What?” Baylor shrieks, her face arranged in a scowl. “I was kidding, Skylar. You can’t get pregnant.”
I shoot her a venomous look. “It’s not like you’ve cornered the market, big sister. I have a perfectly good uterus that’ll grow cobwebs if I don’t use it.”
Mindy ignores Baylor’s disapproving stare. “There’s a big demand for surrogates. A lot of women can’t have their own kids. They’ll pay you a goddamn arm and leg if you can give them a baby. My mom was recently telling me about this couple she knows who can’t have a kid because the woman had cancer.”
I shake my head. “I don’t want to do it for the money, Min. That’d kind of be against the whole do-something-meaningful premise.”
“There’s a slight problem, guys,” Jenna says, tapping away on her phone. “Skylar can’t be a surrogate.”
“What? Why?” I ask, disappointed that the idea would get debunked so quickly.
“It says here in order to qualify as a
surrogate, you have to already have your own kid,” she says. “I guess they want to make sure you won’t change your mind and run off with it.”
“Makes sense,” Mindy says.
“Crap.” My shoulders slump towards the table. “It was a perfect solution.”
“Perfect solution?” My sister looks at me through incredulous eyes. “Skylar Mitchell, you mean to say you’d have actually considered it? That’s ludicrous.”
“Hell yes! Why not?”
“Why not?” she spits back at me. “Because your body wouldn’t be your own for nine months. Because you’d throw up and get hormonal and get stretch marks. Because you’d have some strange woman watching everything you do to make sure you didn’t mess up her kid. Because you’d fall in love with the little baby the instant it was born. Need I go on?”
“Those first things you said about the throwing up and stretch marks—that’s what’ll keep the men away. The second thing you said about the woman watching me—that will keep me from drinking and doing stupid shit. And fall in love with the baby—are you crazy? Do you remember how I gave little Maddox back to you every time he so much as looked at me the wrong way?”
I frown at them. “It might have been perfect. But if I can’t even qualify to do it, there’s no use harping on it.”
“Hold on,” Mindy says, not yet ready to concede defeat. “Who’s to say you have to go through an official agency? Why not just find someone who needs a surrogate and have their kid. It happens all the time.”
“What, like run an ad in the newspaper?” I giggle at the absurdity. “‘Womb for hire’?”
We laugh. Everyone but Baylor, that is. Baylor looks pissed. “Would you guys shut up!” she shouts. “Quit encouraging her. This is seriously not a good idea.”
Jenna snaps her head to Baylor. “Not a good idea? What kind of world would we live in if people like Skylar didn’t step up and do selfless things for others?”
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