He let out a breath. “I am, too. I just worry that all good things come to an end. At least they all do for me.”
The food came out and we started to dig in. The taste was phenomenal. “Did you want to talk about it?”
He played with the food on his plate before answering. The look in his eyes took me to a place that was dark. I wanted to know so badly why he was the way he was but knew he’d take his time and tell me when he was ready to. He was closed off for a reason and that’s okay. I knew how it was to be like that. After Bobby and my parents…that’s how I was for a long time.
“Sadie, some people in life aren’t who they say they are. They break your heart, they tear it apart, and they ruin your life. Those are the people that you don’t forget. It’s funny how most people remember the bad shit in their life, but forget all the good shit that went with it. But when the bad outweighs the good, your mind can’t help but store it.”
“About your family?” I tried to pry.
“Kinda.” He shoved a fork full of pasta into his mouth.
I ate a little too, hoping he’d dig into more conversation but he dropped it right afterwards. So, it sounded like problems in his family were what made him so closed off. I wondered if it had to do with why Ava was so upset or what they discussed that I didn’t get to hear when he walked her to her car. Some things I may never know.
After finishing dinner, he drove me back to my house. The night was quiet and the moon was shining brightly, making the night that much more romantic. The feeling in my gut made me nervous. Jake made me nervous. He walked me up to the door and waited for me to open it. As soon as the key came out of the lock and the door sprung open, he spun me around and pushed me inside the door and up against the wall. His tongue pushed through and his lips locked with mine. The intense feeling was more than I could handle. My leg brushed up his and he grabbed it, raising it up while his erection pressed against me. I craved this man, wanting so much to love him. The man that scared me, made me realize I was replacing Bobby.
Kissing him back wildly, our hands roamed each other’s body before his traveled up my skirt, sliding his hand into my panties. A slight moan escaped me before I ran my hands through his thick hair. His fingers teased my flesh and made me wet in seconds. His lips traveled down my neck and for that second my mind drifted. Not necessarily to where I wanted it to either.
“Jake, wait.” I backed away from him breathing heavily, while I placed my leg back on the floor and pressed my hand into his chest, stopping him. Fucking timing. Always, bad timing. I couldn’t do this.
His hands roughed up his hair while he started to pace.
“Fuck, Sadie. You can’t keep doing this to me. I fucking want you and I know you want me. Let it happen.”
My mouth hung open slightly, shocked by his remark. I thought he was okay with letting me wait till I was ready but now he seemed frustrated. I guess I couldn’t blame him. I was a huge tease to him and this was my fault. Stupidly, I started thinking of things to make me feel guilty. Like I couldn’t move on from Bobby. Like Bobby wouldn’t forgive me. Then I‘d start to realize that Bobby wasn’t here. Bobby left me and this was my way of moving on. This wasn’t a one night stand. This was a guy I was seriously interested in. I couldn’t keep him hanging. But I thought he understood.
“I thought you were okay with waiting till I was ready.”
“Sadie, for fuck’s sake, my fingers were in your pussy. My tongue was down your throat, and your body was practically writhing with mine. How the hell can you tell me you weren’t ready?” He paced the house until he stopped and looked directly at me. “I’m so sorry. I should be patient. Just forget what I said. I’m being a dick. I’m sorry, Sadie.” He came over to me and wrapped his arms around me, pushing my hair out of my face. “I’m so sorry,” he whispered.
I wanted this. I needed this.
My hands pressed against his cheek, bringing his face directly to mine while I gently pressed my lips to his. My hands moved lower to his chest while I slowly unbuttoned each and every button.
“Sadie, it’s okay,” he whispered, stopping my hand.
“No, I want this. I want you. I want you, Jake.” I breathed heavily while my hands continued to unbutton his shirt, moving my way down to his pants before his lips crashed back to mine. Inhaling his scent, his hands made their way under my ass before squeezing and pulling on my panties. He yanked them down and went for the button and zipper undoing my skirt.
My hands unzipped his pants and pulled them down to his ankles while he kicked them off. He lifted me up with his ragged breathing and carried me to my bedroom. Stumbling over some clothing and knocking into my nightstand, he sets me down and climbs on top of me, his lips never leaving mine. My tank top was up and over my head before I could even realize how much I wanted him. I reached behind me and unclasped my bra. He shrugged his briefs down and released his erection.
My legs wrapped around him as he sank himself down onto me, gently pressing himself inside. As he pressed into my core I moaned. I stretched open and tears actually sprang from my eyes. Tears of happiness of course, but also tears because I felt the meaning behind this. I felt the love even though it wasn’t apparent in our voices. I felt it. I felt the want and need that I envied about our relationship. I wanted him forever.
Not long after, the connection between us forced into a blissful release. It was the most emotional sexual experience I had ever encountered. I never thought I could I feel so loved having sex. I never thought I could feel so complete.
Chapter 8
The paint looked beautiful as it finally dried along all the walls in my home. The beach beige blended with all my rustic furniture and I was quite happy with how it looked against the sand colored tile. It looked purely the way it should have always been. A beach house should have had the feel of a beach. I’m pretty sure my parents would be proud to see it. Jake wasn’t kidding when he said he knew how to do all this stuff, because he mastered it to perfection. I was happy he was here to help. Painting the house was fun to do together and great bonding time. He put the floor in last week while I was working. We’ve been nothing but in a state of bliss. My love for him was growing by the day. Ever since that night he briskly seduced me and made me his, we’ve been inseparable. He’s slept over every other night but hasn’t been by till late as usual. We couldn’t get enough of each other. Although, I haven’t learned much more about his family situation that had him so bothered. I figured that would come with time.
The girls at work seemed jealous, or weary of our relationship because they kept thinking something was off with him. Frankly, I didn’t want to believe anything they were telling me and tended to ignore it and change the subject. We’ve become good friends Savannah and Jessie and I. But sometimes your friends just couldn’t keep their mouths shut when you were trying to enjoy life as is. I missed Ava a lot. She’s ignored my calls, texts, and even my random appearances at her doorstep. She wouldn’t answer the door and it drove me nuts. What was the big deal? I wanted my friend back and I knew she must be hurting and needed someone with everything she had going on.
If I wanted to start my classes this fall, I had to go register by the end of the week. I set up a meeting with the counselor in hopes of getting in. Even if I started back part-time, it would have been something to get myself on track again. Jake was pretty happy for me and very supportive of my choice.
The sun was bright and after a good home cooked breakfast I made myself, I knew work was calling my name. I didn’t mind going because I needed the money and enjoyed the interaction with people.
The drive to work was short but my energy was high, and I was ready to take on the day. The look Savannah was giving me when I walked in made me laugh.
“Someone had a frisky night.” Her goofy smile made me blush.
“You’re too good.” I punched her arm playfully, walking to the computer to clock in for the day.
“You have sex kitten written all over your sm
ug face. Meoww!” She purred, imitating a feisty cat. She really knew how to make a girl laugh.
“Stop!” I laughed, rolling my eyes.
The work day began and I already knew how it was going to go. Not a second without laughter.
I helped customers throughout the day without realizing what time it was. I happened to hear the bells go off on the door and the ladies attend to whomever walked in the door till I heard my name, and steps walking towards me. I turned around to help who I figured was a returning customer.
“Can I help you?” I whisked around before I saw Jake standing right in front of me. My mouth hung open and my arms went to my waist. He’d never come to my work before. A huge smile escaped and I suddenly felt giddy that I could show off my man to the girls.
“Hey, baby.” He smirked and showed me the beautiful flowers he was hiding behind his back. “You said you wanted hearts and flowers.” A small smirk grew from the corners of his beautiful mouth.
I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tight before letting go. I took his hand and walked over to the register where Savannah and Jessie were standing, eye balling us.
“Savannah, Jessie, this is Jake.”
Jake held out his hand to Savannah first, then Jessie. “It’s a pleasure to meet you,” that sexy voice let out. The girls just gave a coveting gaze over us and smiled.
“It’s nice to meet you finally. We’ve heard lots and lots about you,” Savannah added, with her sarcastic remark she knew I’d give her a look for.
“I hope all good things.” He squeezed my hand before looking into my eyes, then back at Savannah’s.
Savannah didn’t respond, just screeched an annoying giggle and walked away.
“Ladies, I’m taking my lunch.”
I pulled on his arm and he followed me. I made him stop before the break room, and I went back through the white doors and grabbed my purse, before we headed out of the boutique. We walked through town hand in hand, heading towards the diner, the closest thing nearby to get a bite to eat.
“How’s work today?” He made conversation on our short little walk.
“It’s going fast, thankfully. I’m reading a really good book and can’t wait to get home to finish it.”
“I didn’t know you liked to read.” He opened the door for me to the diner. The waitress told us to sit anywhere and so we did, close to the window in a booth.
“I happen to love books. Mostly romance.” He flipped through the menu with a smug smile on his face.
“What?” I placed the menu down, acting annoyed.
“Oh, nothing.” He smiled, keeping his eyes on the menu before flashing them up at me, then back down.
I kicked his foot under the table. “Ow!” He laughed. “Ok, ok, you enjoy romance novels. I find that quite interesting to your want for hearts and flowers. Just makes sense now.” He stuck his tongue out at me.
“Oh, no. You don’t get to do that.” I pointed my finger at him.
“Do what? This?” He stuck his tongue back out at me.
“You don’t get to judge women based off the books they read. I was always hearts and flowers and I just recently developed a love for romance novels. So shush.” I tilted my head to make a point.
“Whatever you say, darling.” He picked up the menu in front of me and placed it so I could read it. “Find something to eat.”
“You’re something else.” I shook my head.
“I’m pretty sure you like this someone else.”
Who was he kidding? He knew I liked him, that was just a given. But sometimes I wanted to smack him upside the head.
After we finished up a delicious lunch at the diner, he walked me back to work before heading to work himself. I hated that I only got to see him so late when I was typically exhausted and ready for bed. But I took what I could get.
The rest of the day dragged at work and I was looking forward to that book when I got home. Something about finding out what was going to happen kept me on edge and if I could sneak and read at work I would, but it was just not possible. Savannah interrupted my thoughts.
“So how was lunch with lover boy?”
“It was delicious.” I folded some clothes that were being put out for display.
“You should come out with us tonight to this club. It’s a really cool place, dancers, drinks. It’s fun.”
“Dancers? Aren’t only guys supposed to see those?” I asked innocently, knowing that would really be stepping out of my comfort zone. Why would any woman want to see woman dancers? I knew what she was talking about. At least I thought.
“Everyone goes. It’s fun. You really should come.”
“Not tonight. I’m really tired and just want to curl up in bed.” I made up an excuse that always put me in my comfort zone of saying no.
Was it bad that I only wanted to be with Jake? I loved my new friends but I just enjoyed Jake’s company, knowing that late at night was the only time I usually could see him.
The girls weren’t too happy that I didn’t want to go out with them, but understood my love of being home. After my shift ended, I directed myself straight to the drive thru, then home on the comfy couch. I charged my Kindle while I was gone, so I could enjoy the rest of the night reading in my little nook of space. I hadn’t heard from Jake, so I figured I wouldn’t be seeing him tonight. I saw him for lunch though, so that made up for it.
After digging into my fried chicken and coleslaw, I dug into my book. It was getting late and I heard a knock at my door. I placed my Kindle on the coffee table and ran over to the door wearing just sweatpants and a tank top. My hair was down and messy; I was hoping it was Jake.
I slid the door open and smiled. “Luke?” I was shocked to see him.
“Hey, I don’t mean to bother you so late, but have you heard from Jake?” He tipped his ball cap and leaned on the doorframe, waiting patiently for what I had to say.
“Come on in.” I gestured. Closing the door behind him, he stood in my small dining area. “I saw him at lunch time, but haven’t heard from him since. Why, what’s up?”
“He usually doesn’t miss guy’s night. Figured something came up at the job. Figured you might know, since you two are up each other’s asses lately.”
I laughed. “I’m sensing a bit of jealously?” I jabbed his arm, playfully. With hardened eyes, he glared back at me.
He chuckled coldly, “Ha, no, I wouldn’t want to get myself wrapped up in that shit storm.”
My tongue rolled over my teeth while I sunk that in for a moment. I tilted my head with confusion. “What shit storm?”
“Not my place, Sadie.”
“You know, I’m really getting sick and tired of people coming to me and making these sly remarks and not backing them up by coming out and telling me what the fuck is going on. Seriously, I’m so over this bullshit. What don’t I know?” I rested my hands on my hips, getting ticked off that first it was Ava, then it’s the girls at the store, and now Luke. It was really starting to make me question it all.
“Luke, if you’re my friend, you’re going to tell me what the fuck is going on. Ava has fucking disappeared on me since the night she saw Jake and I together here. I was supposed to go somewhere with her and she left after getting so upset with me that I was with Jake, who I didn’t know was her damn half-brother. Now she refuses to speak to me or see me. Now you’re making these comments and I’m supposed to just stay calm and not ask questions. What the fuck is going on?” I reiterated angrily. I wasn’t taking no for an answer.
He held up his hand, stopping me from talking. “Wait, Ava? She stopped talking to you? Look, I don’t know what’s going on with you and Jake. I stay out of people’s business. But I did see Ava headed to Candy’s about an hour ago. Maybe you could go surprise her and talk to her if you want to know what’s going on.”
“Candy’s? That dance place?”
“Yeah…look Sadie, that boy’s a warning sign. He’s my best friend and all, but he’s a warning sign.”
Luke walked closer to me and wrapped me in a friendly hug. “It’s not that I don’t want to be straight up with you, I just don’t want to put myself in the middle of two of my friends. This is between you and Jake. And whatever the heck is going on between you and Ava.”
I couldn’t take the accusatory remarks with these people. How many people were going to warn me off from Jake? Was he hiding something from me? Or was everyone just delusional and jealous? Why couldn’t things just go easy for me in my life? I loved this man I was getting to know by giving him the benefit of the doubt and hoping he was telling me all I needed to know. But the way Luke walked in here tonight really made me think about Jake and I. Why was Luke so sure it was a shit storm? Whatever he was talking about, I had to know.
I pulled away from his hug and took his hands in mine, looking him dead on in the eye. Hoping to get his attention on how sincere I was being, I needed him to feel my pain. “Luke, am I in danger of any kind?”
“Danger, I’m not so sure I’d call it that. But I hate to see you get hurt in all this. Just be careful, is all I’m saying.” He smiled genuinely. “If you see Jake, let him know to call me.”
“Thanks, Luke.” I looked down, disappointed that I still know nothing more than I did when he walked in the door.
Something has got to give. As I watched Luke walk out the door back to his place, I paced the house. I was determined to drill my mind with questions on my version of what could be going on. I couldn’t come up with anything. Jake was so sweet to me. How could I get hurt in all this? I decided taking a drive to get some fresh air was the only way I was going to clear my mind from all the nonsense. Nonsense I didn’t even know what to think of, or what was true, or what was being hidden from me.
Chapter 9
The drive to Candy’s place was a little far, but not far enough for me to try not to get ahold of Ava. I missed my friend and I wanted to know why she was ignoring me so much. After speaking with Luke, I was even more concerned about what I should know about. I wondered in the back of my mind why the hell Ava was going to Candy’s, which was that stripper place the girls at work were talking to me about. I didn’t figure she’d be interested in that type of thing. Yet, it was Ava, who knew. I saw her car and decided to look for parking. The night had not a cloud in sight, and the moon shined its presence over the dim parking lot. Right as I pulled into a spot nearby, I saw her walk out to her car, get in and drive off abruptly. So, I followed her. I figured she had to be going home since it was so late. This was my opportunity to corner her and make her talk. I followed a little distance behind her as she went a different way home. Almost like a longer route, but I had all the time in the world now that I was awake and turning over in my mind every possible explanation she could give for avoiding me all this time.. Would she be mad?
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