by Nita Johnson
My family. I’d never do anything that would risk me losing my family. Ever.
I took them all out for a meal to try and cheer them up and for the most part it worked. I could still see the day haunting Willow’s eyes but only time would take that away. Time and me being by her side day after day.
Kaylee asked me to tuck her into bed and I happily said yes, it was fast becoming one of my favorite things to do. After the day’s events she was pooped and it wasn't long before she gave into her tiredness and drifted off to sleep. I place a gentle kiss on her forehead. “Love you, pumpkin,” I whispered before leaving the room.
I looked in on Nate. He was on his bed playing video games, no big shocker there. “You good?” I asked him as I took a seat next to him. He paused his game to answer me.
“Yes, J. I’m good,” he replied using the same nickname Travis used for me. He’d asked me weeks ago if I had a name he could call me as he felt Jesse was a girl’s name. I grinned at the time and told him to call me J. He had ever since.
“I meant what I said earlier. He might be your dad but I’m with your mom now and you can rely on me for anything, just like you can a father. I don't want to take his place but I’m here for you. Always.” I heaved off the bed, my body weary from lack of sleep and too much work. “I love you just as much as I love your mom and Kaylee.” I bent at the waist, placing a kiss on top of his messy hair.
“I love you too, Jesse,” he called out as I shut his bedroom door. I smiled.
Betty told us she’d keep an ear out for the kids if we wanted to spend some time alone and we jumped at the chance. I basically pulled Willow over the road to my house where I proceeded to tell her body with mine just how much I loved her. We had still yet to say those three words to each other but our bodies never held back from showing it.
“My aunt has been in touch. They will be back next weekend, Will,” I told her as we showered together after making love for the second time. Our bodies were sated for now so I brought up the subject of my impending move.
“That soon?” she said quietly as she shut off the shower, wrapping herself in a white fluffy towel. “Have you sorted out where you're going to be staying once they get back here?” she asked.
‘I have. It’s not far from here,” I told her honestly having to fight the urge to tell her about the house. Instead I focused on drying my body.
“Ah, right. Can I see your new place?”
“Yeah, of course. I am just doing a few things to tidy it up a bit and then I’ll invite you all around for a proper housewarming party.” I winked as I walked by her completely naked.
I felt her eyes track my movements just as I felt her following behind me. I stopped at the foot of the bed waiting for her next move. I knew what my body did to her, how it turned her on.
My girl was nice and quiet during the course of the day but she was something else in bed. A wildcat between the sheets or anywhere else we decided to give into our desire for each other. It’s like something had been awoken inside of her that had been laid buried for years and I’m more than happy that she’s chosen to share this part of herself with me. Willow met me head on when it came to sex. Once she had gotten comfortable baring her body to me there was no stopping her. She gave as well as received and almost nothing was off limits. She's the perfect match for me. She completes me in every way possible and as she knelt before me and took my hardening cock into the palm of her hand, pumping me firmly, the subject of the house was long forgotten.
She groaned as she kissed the tip, swirling her tongue over the head. My hips surged forward, my cock bumping against her lips.
“You want my mouth, baby?” she looked up at me seductively. She knew exactly what she was doing to me. She knew what I craved from her. That glorious mouth of hers, all over my aching cock.
“Do you have to ask?” I arched one eyebrow. “I always want you, want your mouth, want your body.”
She opened her mouth and took me into her wet warmth. I almost came from that action alone, I loved the feel of her mouth against my skin. She hollowed her cheeks as she began to move up and down. Reaching a hand between my legs she took ahold of my aching balls and rolled them in her palm, adding to my growing urge to come. The sensations she was evoking throughout my body wanted to break free. Willow sped up her movements as I started jerking my hips, fucking her mouth with my cock. I grabbed her hair with both hands so I could direct her movements.
“I’m not gonna last much longer, sweetheart. You make me feel so good. This feels too good.” I groaned as another wave hit my body. My release was within reach. If you don't want me to come down your throat, Will, move away now,” I said, giving her the option of moving or staying. I prayed to God she stayed.
Willow didn't reply, instead she hummed her response as my hips picked up speed, pushing in and out of her mouth faster and faster. Part of me felt like I was abusing the power she gave me when she surrendered her mouth to me but if she didn't want this my girl would have made her opinion all too clear to me by now.
“God damn, baby. You feel so good around my cock!” I grunted as my release took over, pleasure flooding my body. I slowed down my thrusts bringing myself back down to reality.
Looking down at Willow I pulled my cock out of her mouth. “Was so good, sweetheart. So good. You have a magical mouth.” I complimented her as I helped her to her feet, taking her lips in a crushing kiss which had the potential to bruise her, it was that forceful, But I had to convey to her how much I loved her, how much I thanked her, not just for the amazing blow job but for being in my life. Allowing me to be in her life.
The week leading up to Jesse’s departure from his aunt's house turned out to be a busy one. He was constantly working late with one thing or another and I missed seeing him. The kids missed him too but they knew that given the chance he would be there with them.
Nate still refused to speak to his father. Rob had called my cell phone once or twice. I had let my nan pick it up and he’d asked to speak to the kids. So far only Kaylee had spoken to him and I flat out refused to force Nate to do something he wasn't happy with. He asked my nan to let me know he’d received the divorce papers and wasn't going to fight it, promising her that he’d signed them and send them back off as soon as possible. That bit of news made me so happy, not being able to wait for the day where I’d be free of him and his last name forever.
*Something's come up, sweetheart. Not going to be able to see you tonight. I miss you and your body. xx.*
Yet another night without seeing him. I was starting to get worried. Was he losing interest in me but didn't want to hurt me? Did he not want our relationship anymore?
I stared at my phone willing it to give me all the answers I so desperately required right about now, but the traitorous thing stayed quiet, not giving me a damn thing.
*I miss you too, baby. I miss your body and I miss that mouth of yours. When will I see you again? Will it be at work in the morning?*
He’d not been at the site much either. It made me start to worry that he might be avoiding me. If that were the case, I wish he would just tell me so I could look for another job.
His reply pinged back in seconds but it wasn't the answer I wanted.
*I doubt it, Willow. I’m swamped with other projects. I feel like a headless chicken running from one place to another but hopefully it won't be for too much longer. I miss my girl and my little people. I need some time with you all. Then some time alone with you ;-) I better get back to it. Night, Willow. See you soon. xx.*
Slamming my phone down on my bed in frustration I spotted my nan coming into my room. I internally huffed and rolled my eyes. I was at the edge and her giving me any shit was likely to push me over.
“No, pretty boy tonight?” Nan asked as she walked uninvited into my bedroom. I narrowed my eyes in annoyance.
“Do you not knock?” I gestured to the now open door.
She shrugged her shoulders. “Yeah, when I can be bothered. Now where
is he?” she demanded.
“Something came up so he's not coming around tonight. I will see him at work in the morning,” I told her.
“Something's always coming up lately. His bitch of an aunt is back tomorrow. You'd think he’d wanna make the most of his last night here, spending it with you and the kids. Then some sexy time with you afterward.” She waggled her eyebrows suggestively at me.
I threw my sweater at her, pissed off that what she was saying was right. “Get out, Nan.”
“Like you said, you will see him at work,” she pointed out as she shuffled out of my room. What I hadn’t told her was that I wouldn’t be seeing him at work. He’d been working off site all week. I’d asked Travis, hoping he’d be able to shed some light on what it was Jesse was spending all his time on, but he’d brushed me off with some generic answer. His messages seemed vague too. I’d wait all day and most of the night to speak to him, only for him to bail on me saying he was tired and wanted to sleep. I knew he was home because I’d seen his car in the driveway but he hadn't asked me to go over and I had not offered. Something was going on with Jesse and I was determined to find out what it was he was up to.
With a determination to rival some, I stalked into the office, noticing straight away that Jesse was right when he said he wouldn't be in today. I felt a pang of pain in my heart, what on earth was he up to that kept him away from here.
I’d really come to love my job here and all the staff that came with it but Travis still had the knack of pissing me off daily. Today was no exception.
“You look full of sunshine and rainbows this morning by dear, Willow,” he greeted me while I turned on the computer system.
I sat back in my chair waiting for it to load up, it normally took a few minutes, giving me time to shoot the shit with Travis but I couldn't stomach that today. Something was off with Jesse and it was putting me on edge.
“No Jess again today?” I questioned watching his face intently for any signs to give him away.
“Nope, working off site again unfortunately for you but great for me. Means I don't have to look at you two kissing face every five minutes.” He laughed making a joke out of everything as usual.
“How’s Brooke?” I quizzed him knowing that it would hurt him. I felt like a right bitch but I couldn't take it back now that it was out there.
Just like I thought, her name brought the shutters down over his eyes and all happiness fled his body. “Dunno, she’d have to speak to me for me to know that,” he said so sadly it fractured my heart. I really was being a bitch.
“I’m sorry, Travis. I shouldn't have mentioned her,” I apologized wholeheartedly hoping he'd forgive me. He just nodded his head and got back to the job he was doing.
The phone rang saving me from making anything else worse. “Baker Construction. How may I help you?” I answered with my posh telephone voice.
“Hi, this is Melanie. I have a lunch date with Jesse later and I am going to be about five minutes late. Would you be able to tell him this and to hang on for me please?”
My heart started racing, a lunch date? What the hell was going on? Was it a possible business customer? If so why would she called it a lunch date? Surely she’d have said business meeting?
My mind was in overdrive. Somehow I managed to keep my voice cool and collected when I felt anything but. “Yes, of course. Is it still at the same place?” I inquired wanting to know where he was taking her.
“Yes, it's still at Nero’s but let him know it's at one fifteen instead of one p.m.,” she said in her well spoken voice. I didn't know this woman but I hated her for getting to spend time with Jesse when he couldn't spare five minutes for me, Nate, and Kaylee.
“I will be sure to tell him. Have a good day,” I said happily and put the phone down. Internally I was a mess. Was this what he was up to? Seeing another woman behind my back? We still had yet to say those three words to each other but I thought we were in the right place moving in the right direction. What a fool I had been.
“Who was that?” Travis asked me, he looked concerned for me but he could shove it where the sun didn't shine. He had known Jesse was up to something and there he sat looking at me like that as if he cared.
I swallowed down all the hateful words I really wanted to, instead I remained as professional as ever.
“Jesse’s aunt. Wanted to tell him her flight had to be moved,” I lied through my teeth. I also had no intention of informing Jesse of the change to his lunch plans. Instead I was going to head on over there and see for myself what the hell was going on.
I tried to immerse myself in the humdrum of paperwork but my mind kept wandering to Jesse and his lunch date. I was heartbroken and angry in equal measures. I know I should keep an open mind but the way he’d been acting had me thinking the worst.
“Travis I’m gonna head out to lunch. Want me to pick you up anything?” I said as I shut away my work for the time being. It was getting close to the time Jesse was meeting up with Melanie so I needed to get a move on.
“Nah, Will. Got my own plans for lunch,” he replied with a smile. A rare genuine smile that had me thinking these plans included a girl.
I returned his smile with a huge fake one of my own as I picked up my bag and breezed out of the office. “Have fun!”
I was tired, hungry, and most of all completely pissed off. This last week had been a race against time to get the house finished before I could move into it. My aunt was due home today and I needed to be out of there.
I’d hated not seeing Willow and the kids this week and I felt really bad for neglecting them but I kept telling myself it would all be worth it in the end; that it would all work out.
Noticing the time on my watch I threw down the hammer I was holding and ran into the house needing to wash up and get changed before the lunch I had planned. This was another thing I’d kept from Willow. The list of things I was hiding getting ever longer and it was killing me inside. Just this one last thing and I was done with it all. She had to know everything.
I pulled up outside the restaurant just a little after one, quickly spotting Jesse sitting inside. He was not far from the window so I could make him out as clear as day.
“Oh, Jesse. What are you doing?” I muttered to no one but myself. He really was breaking my heart. Tearing it into tiny little pieces with his actions and secrecy. He knew what Rob had done to me, yet here he was keeping secrets and acting all strange. The signs did not point to anything good.
A few moments later my worst suspicions were confirmed when he was joined by a woman with platinum blonde hair which hung halfway down her back. She was dressed nicely, her tiny frame covered with a simple blue knee length dress paired with electric blue sky high heels. She stood out from the crowd. She was that stunning, and I mean stunning. Next to her I would pale in comparison. I saw Jesse stand up to greet her with a kiss on her cheek. She smiled and hugged him in return, the pair of them seeming very close. Like they had shared something and only they knew about it.
I couldn't help it, I saw red. Blood red. I had been cheated on once before but I'd be fucked if I'd let it happen again.
It was over between us.
Done.
Jumping out my car I raced toward Nero’s bypassing the lady who asked me how many I wanted a table for. I just waved her off and continued on my path toward my cheating boyfriend. A boyfriend who I loved with all my heart. A heart that he had completely obliterated.
As I got nearer to their table I saw that both Jesse and Melanie were laughing at something. I saw him reach out and envelope one of her small hands in his own as she stared at his handsome face with emotion flickering in her gaze.
I gasped so loud it caught the attention of the nearby diners, Jesse included. His face filled with shock as it dawned on him who had caught him with her. Tears flooded my eyes as I brought my hands up to cover my mouth, to cover the scream of pain that threatened to escape. I needed to be strong now, being weak got me nowhere. I only had me to re
ly on now and only I would get through this mess.
“Willow!” Jesse bellowed as I stepped backwards then whirling around, I took off running as fast as I possibly could, not stopping until I was in the safety of my car.
With shaking hands I'd gotten the keys in the ignition as Jesse came racing over to my
car.
“Willow, sweetheart. It's not what it looks like. Baby, you have to believe me,” he pleaded as he stood by my window waiting for me to glance up at him.
I refused to look at him knowing that with one look into his stormy grey gaze, I’d be lost and whatever excuse he’d come up with I’d fall for hook, line, and sinker and that just wasn't going to happen. Not today.
Instead I started my car and drove to my nan’s. She’d help me, yet again.
“Shit, fuck!” I roared kicking over a trash can on the sidewalk. She would never forgive me for this. I’d lost her. She thought I’d been seeing someone else. That I’d done the same as dickface. As if I’d do that to her.
Her.
My Willow.
My life.
My reason for everything.
I slumped down on a nearby bench utterly defeated. Not knowing how I could put this all right, to make her see that what she’d thought she’d seen wasn’t the truth. That I’m still faithful to her that, I wouldn't ever dream of straying from her.
“Was that Willow?” Melanie asked me quietly. Of course she knew all about the love of my life. I told everyone that would listen to me about her.
“She doesn't know who I am, I take it?”
Shaking my head I muttered brokenly. “No, I hadn't gotten around to telling her yet.”
Melanie put her arm around my shoulders offering me her comfort. “When you do tell her, you know where to find me,” she reminded me as she gave me one last hug then walked away leaving me to face this shit storm on my own. This wasn't Melanie's fault. It was mine for thinking I could keep this all a secret.