I lie there in his arms, feeling increasingly more panicked with each and every passing second. We didn’t drink that much last night, but it feels like everything took place in a blur of alcohol. Or something. I don’t know what the hell came over me. All I know is, I couldn’t have stopped even if I’d wanted to. And I really didn’t want to.
The memory of lying on my back, my legs spread as wide as they would go, while Aidan gave me the most intense orgasm of my life, hits me full force. I experience multiple emotions all at once. Lust. Desire. Panic. Anger. Fear. More lust.
I see Vaughn’s face behind my closed eyes and I suddenly feel very scared. What would he think about this? Would he be furious with me? Hurt? Oh, god, he’d probably be disgusted with me. I wriggle free from Aidan’s embrace, trying not to disturb him.
How could I let this happen? How could I have been so fucking stupid?
As I sneak out of his bedroom, holding my breath, hoping to god he doesn’t wake up, my heart is racing. I’m barely concentrating as I pull my dress on over my head. My purse is on the floor by my shoes. I gather both items and hurry to the front door, feeling like I’m on the brink of a panic attack. I can’t stop myself; as I tiptoe past Aidan’s bedroom door on my way out of the apartment, I find myself stopping to look at him.
I feel like I’m about to throw up.
I feel like I’m about to throw up because he is beautiful, and he gave me the best sex of my life last night. And a huge part of me wants to say fuck it. To remove this dress and climb right back into bed with him, into his arms, because it felt safe there. For the first time since my brother died, I felt safe. Like I wasn’t alone. Like someone understood.
I don’t climb back into bed with him, though. I run out of the apartment, choking back tears, not knowing how to breathe around the surge of guilt that washes through me. How could I do this to my brother? How could I do this to myself?
I have to get the hell away from Aidan Callahan. I’m supposed to hate him. I’m supposed to enjoy ruining him.
Now, I know with an unwavering certainty, when I bring down the Callahan Corporation, when I avenge my brother and destroy a man’s life forever, I won’t just be hurting Aidan Callahan. I’ll be hurting myself.
It won’t just be his end.
It will be mine, too.
WHERE THE HELL IS BOOK TWO?
If you have enjoyed part one of Heart Breaker and you want to check out second and final part of Essie & Aidan’s story, don’t worry! Book two will be out really soon! While there is no firm release date at the moment, a provisional date of September 15 2015 has been pencilled in.
In the meantime, if you have any questions, you can reach the author at [email protected]. Cole is really looking forward to reading your reviews. Thank you so much for reading, and for showing such amazing support to a debut author.
ABOUT COLE
Cole Saint Jaimes caught the travel bug young. He spent years honing his skills as a writer while he island-hopped and caught some of the most incredible waves in the world, fuelling his addiction for surfing. Along with his adorable French wife, Cole now calls Los Angeles home.You can usually find him procrastinating on Facebook, or watching Game of Thrones for the seventeenth time on HBO.
Heartbreaker is his first contemporary romance series. You can catch more from Cole by checking out his website at www.colesaintjaimes.com
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