This Blue : Poems (9781466875074)

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by McLane, Maureen N.


  “I need to write

  good fast music.

  All my good music

  is slow.”

  How should a person be?

  “I am happy

  to be contemporary.”

  “I am glad I will die

  before all this prevails.”

  In child pose

  you breathe through the back.

  Then there’s the rest,

  all those positions

  you flow or stumble through

  until that rock. That specific rock.

  ROAD / HERE NOW

  I think of you here

  because I thought of you here

  before. Otherwise

  I never think of you

  except on a summer drive

  that echoes the drive

  I took the day after

  I heard you died

  except when I see

  the red skirt

  I wore that day

  the day you finally

  kissed me

  a red skirt

  I now see

  only in pictures

  from a long-ago trip

  to the Pyrenees

  the skirt I wore

  to your party

  In the middle of the party

  here’s death

  is what I thought

  when we saw our friend

  lying on the bare road

  by her smashed bike

  She’s alive

  in the Berkshires.

  So many are alive!

  More are dead.

  Strange thing

  to survive to discover

  you will live

  till one day it’s over

  no more to discover

  no more rounding back

  to this ongoing living

  avoiding till you don’t

  that specific rock

  III

  TODAY’S COMEDY

  Why Dante in summer?

  Why not? The doctrine

  of purgatory’s no more strange

  than nanotubes or Tang.

  I used to know

  its ins and outs.

  What we’ve abandoned grows

  higher than trashheaps

  in Naples. My love

  canal’s clean and my heart

  in my breast

  is right dressed.

  No guide led me here

  but Virgil and everyone

  I ever met, in woods

  books dreams in suburbs

  the city the farm.

  Marcus Aurelius

  took a page

  from the town mouse

  and his country cousin.

  The lesson of fables

  is mutable, their structure

  not. Something

  must change. A hero

  must range in a land

  he also unwittingly

  charts. If many die

  not everyone can.

  Odysseus must reach

  if not Ithaca

  a farther shore

  and the little zygotic blip

  you once were

  must enter the world

  & its pure gore.

  MEZZO

  To choose

  not to translate

  heaven

  paradiso

  not so heavy

  so let it be

  & let there be

  a Golfo Paradiso

  sailed slowly through

  the day you arrived

  at the place the names

  made their way to your ears

  * * *

  did all this fall

  into the lap of the world

  protozoa pulsing

  upward from the slime

  complicating themselves

  into a sentience

  you’d recognize

  * * *

  the quilted greens

  an eye ascends

  the terraced steep

  attests the hands

  and feet of men

  who raised the sail

  & crushed the grape

  * * *

  Apennines scraped

  but for a few pines—

  man or sheep or time

  the denuder,

  stripper of scrub,

  flayer of rock—

  * * *

  that stone over there

  whitestreaked outcrop clawed

  by perpetual waves

  it too thinks

  a stone’s stoniness

  * * *

  here it is ever

  mild and the faces

  show it gently

  lined different

  from the way

  a less temperate clime

  will incise you

  * * *

  below my neck

  a faint network

  the mirror reveals

  in the morning

  * * *

  nel mezzo del cammin

  I was caught

  in a glass net

  what did the glass weave

  GENOA

  The merchant republics are done

  as is the nun

  who forbade us aged five to say

  we were done.

  The oven door opened

  in her mime

  the door to the oven

  where we were thoroughly roasted

  and done.

  If you are done

  that means I can stick

  a fork in you. You

  she corrected

  are finished.

  Finished

  with all that some days

  it seems a dream

  the long boredom

  in the schoolroom

  workbook assignments

  rushed through straining

  toward what weird

  consummation?

  Sister Lucretia—

  she was another one

  terrifying the children who braved

  the zenana of nuns

  pledged to Christ and torture

  of the wayward souls who ventured

  into the sanctum sanctorum

  the private apartment of six nuns

  for a weekly piano lesson.

  Bach had twenty children

  she declared. Her heart was given

  to a Texan—Van Cliburn.

  A wimpled nun

  one of the last

  thus to dress among the remaining Franciscan

  sisters. Excess

  daughters in immigrant families

  ready to give some

  aid and comfort to the Lord

  or the local monsignor—

  a special vocation—

  were they rotting away

  in their habits, were they

  the transfigured ones?

  I wanted once

  to become one.

  Those days are done

  and I am almost done

  almost historical as a usuried ship

  heading west and more west

  to find treasures

  for kings. Look in thy heart

  it is a treasury

  it was said

  Mary said.

  She was another one.

  Even now at the Brignole station

  we see flocks of nuns

  rope-belted, a crucifix flying in wind.

  A veiled woman

  might become another woman

  under a different sun.

  Even here the sisters

  have become Indian, Ethiopian,

  no extra Italian

  daughters to pay the godly sum

  of glorious renunciation.

  The Turks are threatening Christendom

  in old chronicles

  and today’s European bulletin.

  Beware of falling under the thumb

  of Islam.

  It will never be finished

  said the Caliph

>   to the Sultan.

  It is almost done

  this meal where I stick

  a fork in tomatoed squid stew

  called burrida its Arabic origins

  brining my tongue.

  I stick a fork in an animal

  fork in a soul

  and I eat and I eat

  until kingdom come.

  SAN FRUTTUOSO GLOBAL

  The merchant republics are done.

  The Cristo degli Abissi beseeches the sea

  from seventeen meters below.

  He will never again see the sun.

  They sank him in 1954.

  The Strada Nuova was old.

  Genoa devoured the world, Braudel said.

  Columbus killed Taínos for gold.

  It’s good not to be dead

  —a thing one wouldn’t have said

  those days the islanders fled

  to the hills escaping Spaniards

  their helmeted heads

  and fists clasped round handles

  of pikes and swords for striking

  off every savage hand

  empty of glinting metal—

  they knew they knew

  where gold could be found

  and they knew their lord

  a forgiving lord

  who watched indifferent

  as they ran them to ground

  DRINK WITH MOUNTAIN, REMEMBERED, ANDALUCÍAN

  The rosé from Spain

  followed us west

  as if hot on the scent

  of tomato—

  O brave New World

  your fruits have gone incognito!

  A rosé’s a rosé’s a rosé

  with love apples.

  You are moving west

  beyond the Chinese coast

  to the interior

  of Inner Mongolia. A threatened

  horse rides again

  the steppes unburdening

  themselves below revived hooves.

  The time of the emperor

  is nigh. No inquisition

  will be able to check

  the future. Your local

  grapes are delicious

  picked off the vine

  or bottled, thus.

  This is the interval

  between eras of fathers,

  dictators fallen, the marble

  fists crushed and not crushing.

  But the future, its empress,

  who can say what beast

  she’ll ride to meet us?

  Raise a glass, comrades—

  all you who refuse

  to forget the civil war.

  INSCRIPTION

  Not far

  from the Chandrabar

  and the Nervi Belvedere

  I drink this beer

  under an awning

  on the Passeggiata

  Anita Garibaldi

  a kayak flotilla

  choreographed quintet

  heading east and easter

  the French Alps outlined

  in a faint blue to our west

  My t-shirt’s plain

  white & cheap

  an affront to the strollers

  jewelried & jacketed

  though here and there

  a louche jogger

  lowers the tone

  almost to my level

  & a young mother

  & a posse of teens

  newly gelato’d pass by

  Serena Hearts Lucas

  names on stone

  TO ONE IN PARMA

  The privilege

  of even being

  provincial,

  to know the small

  humiliating city,

  the ever unfinished

  cathedral,

  that over there

  is the real where:

  we had none of it.

  No one heard

  of anything.

  The glit and shine

  and scut of it shimmered

  on TV the satin crotch

  of the metropolis

  a 13" square

  of already thinned

  fantasy.

  No wonder

  the saints

  were martyring themselves

  repeatedly, furiously

  in imagination.

  This was something

  to die for

  a life outlined

  in acid-bit etchings

  obsolete as the names

  of trees we were never given

  to know in the neighborhood.

  LEVANTO

  salt lips & a buoyed band

  binds the sea in loose chains

  to swim in. the beach’s

  thinned out, the clouds puffing

  in, the last ferry’s

  debarked a last load.

  starting out now

  seems impossible

  but. the rock walls

  break the breakers

  in. nothing

  cannot be disciplined

  or freed. scant pines

  stagger the apennines

  semaphoring

  what. quartz-

  striped granite

  tells a time

  that outlives us.

  I am older

  than the sea

  in me.

  IV

  TERRAN LIFE

  —an excursion beginning with a line of William Wordsworth

  When we had given our bodies to the wind

  we found bones in the earth and not in the sky.

  We found arrowheads in the earth and not in the sky though they’d flown through the air before grounding.

  The era of common sense is over

  & finished too the flourishing of horoscopes.

  Hey traveler what chart to sign your way? what iPhone app?

  All the birthdays have immolated themselves in a far pyre

  and no one knows where

  they were born.

  Earth gods always come after sky gods.

  If you could choose

  a secret power would it be flight?—

  a wish more often expressed

  than the desire for invisibility.

  “A mythology reflects its region”

  and a poet sang the sea the lemon trees and pines

  the Ligurian breeze salting his lines

  and a lightly placed step on a Greek mountain is the goat song of tragedy.

  Jehovah rarely shows his face for we would die of it

  die as surely as those who looked to the sky in the bombing raid

  the underground tunnels a sudden refuge

  Out of ash I come Out of the earth

  Back to ash I go He fashioned them

  male and female I tell you

  they wore the most beautiful evanescent clothes

  in paradise so much subtler than the trawling nakedness of heaving giants

  hurling other giants to heaven & some to hell

  on the restored ceiling of the Sistine Chapel.

  Thus far clones are of earth, alone.

  When you say earth you mean land but more than land You mean the oceans covering “the earth” as if earth were the substrate of everything and not also the crust.

  I found the ground sound, unfaulted, uncracked, even where the continents have split and will again split the archaic seamstress unable to suture the plates of the earth forever.

  “Terran life”: what the biologists typically study but “weird life” is also a zone of research. “It is easy to conceive of chemical reactions that might support life involving noncarbon compounds”—

  viz. The Limits of Organic Life in Planetary Systems, p. 6.

  Earth now supports life but could not now initiate it.

  Crawl, sway, sashay: you’re still doing it on an earth

  you take for granted instead of going crazy

  yr head blown off by an apple no I meant an IED no

  I meant an apple.

  N
ewtonian physics’ defunct but that doesn’t mean an apple doesn’t fall far from the tree composed of atoms whose dark matter you don’t know how to measure, supermodel. Me neither.

  Gravity thy name is woman

  always secretly pulling me toward you

  as if I had no resistance

  as if the clothes I wore were merely draped

  on a mannequin as if I were merely an earthbound species with new skin

  that fur an old animal’s fur

  reclaimed by another.

  Did you see the subtle shift from umber to somber to ochre on the walls of Les Caves de Lascaux?

  What ibex steps as beautifully as you

  what ancient bison shakes the steppes

  what gazelle’s ankles are so perfectly turned as yours?

  There are no crackheads in prehistory but surely

  they were addicted to something those hominids

  strutting their way out of the savannah—

  I demand the sun

  shine on me

  I demand the moon bare its face in the night

  and lo! damn! see how these heavenly bodies do what they do

  like clockwork before clocks

  like skin before clothes

  like the earth before the parting of the waters revealed

  the earth was the earth is the earth …

  And if she only likes vegetable things

  that grow toward the light

  and if she will not eat your roots and tubers

  how then choose

  between a rooting boar and an urban forager—

  There is beauty in indistinct areas the microtonal

  hover where the ear buzzes so—

  There is a gasp a sharp breath in a sharp wind reminding

  you the wind was someone’s breath chilled.

  Clouds are now fashionable as they were in John Constable’s day Luke Howard having taxonomized the little buggers in 1803: cumulus, cirrus, etc.

  So let’s go skying with Constable let’s scan

  the horizon as if we were sailors

  able to read the sky Let’s blast off

  and outsoar the noctilucent clouds

  I espy with my little stratospheric eye.

  Do you think I’m afraid of crashing to earth?

  Love we’ve been falling ever since falling made way for a leap.

  EMBROIDERED EARTH

  embroidered earth

  refusing an undesigned mind

  uphold me now

  it’s hard to walk

  secure on your pillowed ground

  mossed ferned & grassed

  this tapestried field

  may it yield to an unsteady step

  & take only the softest impress

  the enfolded brain pressing

  against a carapace

  millennia ago unfolded

  a species and its walk—

  a steady upright walk

  ICE PEOPLE, SUN PEOPLE

 

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