Ghost

by Louise Welsh

  The low sun was full in her face, rendering every feature, shade, and colour distinct, from the curve of her little nostril to the colour of her eyes. The farmer, though he seemed annoyed at the boy’s persistent presence, did not order him to get out of the way; and thus the lad preceded them, his hard gaze never leaving her, till they reached the top of the ascent, when the farmer trotted on with relief in his lineaments having taken no outward notice of the boy whatever.

  “How that poor lad stared at me!” said the young wife.

  “Yes, dear; I saw that he did.”

  “He is one of the village, I suppose?”

  “One of the neighbourhood. I think he lives with his mother a mile or two off.”

  “He knows who we are, no doubt?”

  “O yes. You must expect to be stared at just at first, my pretty Gertrude.”

  “I do – though I think the poor boy may have looked at us in the hope we might relieve him of his heavy load, rather than from curiosity.”

  “O no,” said her husband offhandedly. “These country lads will carry a hundredweight once they get it on their backs; besides his pack had more size than weight in it. Now, then, another mile and I shall be able to show you our house in the distance – if it is not too dark before we get there.” The wheels spun round, and particles flew from their periphery as before, till a white house of ample dimensions revealed itself, with farm-buildings and ricks at the back.

  Meanwhile the boy had quickened his pace, and turning up a by-lane some mile-and-a-half short of the white farmstead, ascended towards the leaner pastures, and so on to the cottage of his mother.

  She had reached home after her day’s milking at the outlying dairy, and was washing cabbage at the doorway in the declining light. “Hold up the net a moment,” she said, without preface, as the boy came up.

  He flung down his bundle, held the edge of the cabbage-net, and as she filled its meshes with the dripping leaves she went on, “Well, did you see her?”

  “Yes; quite plain.”

  “Is she ladylike?”

  “Yes; and more. A lady complete.”

  “Is she young?”

  “Well, she’s growed up, and her ways be quite a woman’s.”

  “Of course. What colour is her hair and face?”

  “Her hair is lightish, and her face as comely as a live doll’s.”

  “Her eyes, then, are not dark like mine?”

  “No – of a bluish turn, and her mouth is very nice and red; and when she smiles, her teeth show white.”

  “Is she tall?” said the woman sharply.

  “I couldn’t see. She was sitting down.”

  “Then do you go to Holmstoke church tomorrow morning: she’s sure to be there. Go early and notice her walking in, and come home and tell me if she’s taller than I.”

  “Very well, Mother. But why don’t you go and see for yourself?”

  “I go to see her! I wouldn’t look up at her if she were to pass my window this instant. She was with Mr Lodge, of course. What did he say or do?”

  “Just the same as usual.”

  “Took no notice of you?”

  “None.”

  Next day the mother put a clean shirt on the boy, and started him off for Holmstoke church. He reached the ancient little pile when the door was just being opened, and he was the first to enter. Taking his seat by the font, he watched all the parishioners file in. The well-to-do Farmer Lodge came nearly last; and his young wife, who accompanied him, walked up the aisle with the shyness natural to a modest woman who had appeared thus for the first time. As all other eyes were fixed upon her, the youth’s stare was not noticed now.

  When he reached home his mother said, “Well?” before he had entered the room.

  “She is not tall. She is rather short,” he replied.

  “Ah!” said his mother, with satisfaction.

  “But she’s very pretty – very. In fact, she’s lovely.” The youthful freshness of the yeoman’s wife had evidently made an impression even on the somewhat hard nature of the boy.

  “That’s all I want to hear,” said his mother quickly. “Now, spread the tablecloth. The hare you wired is very tender; but mind nobody catches you. You’ve never told me what sort of hands she had.”

  “I have never seen ’em. She never took off her gloves”

  “What did she wear this morning?”

  “A white bonnet and a silver-coloured gownd. It whewed and whistled so loud when it rubbed against the pews that the lady coloured up more than ever for very shame at the noise, and pulled it in to keep it from touching; but when she pushed into her seat, it whewed more than ever. Mr Lodge, he seemed pleased, and his waistcoat stuck out, and his great golden seals hung like a lord’s; but she seemed to wish her noisy gownd anywhere but on her.”

  “Not she! However, that will do now.”

  These descriptions of the newly married couple were continued from time to time by the boy at his mother’s request, after any chance encounter he had had with them. But Rhoda Brook, though she might easily have seen young Mrs Lodge for herself by walking a couple of miles, would never attempt an excursion towards the quarter where the farmhouse lay. Neither did she, at the daily milking in the dairyman’s yard on Lodge’s outlying second farm, ever speak on the subject of the recent marriage. The dairyman, who rented the cows of Lodge, and knew perfectly the tall milkmaid’s history, with manly kindness always kept the gossip in the cow-barton from annoying Rhoda. But the atmosphere thereabout was full of the subject the first days of Mrs Lodge’s arrival; and fom her boy’s description and the casual words of the other milkers, Rhoda Brook could raise a mental image of the unconscious Mrs Lodge that was realistic as a photograph.

  III

  A Vision

  One night, two or three weeks after the bridal return, when the boy had gone to bed, Rhoda sat a long time over the turf ashes that she had raked out in front of her to extinguish them. She contemplated so intently the new wife, as presented to her in her mind’s eye over the embers, that she forgot the lapse of time. At last, wearied by her day’s work, she too retired.

  But the figure which had occupied her so much during this and the previous days was not to be banished at night. For the first time Gertrude Lodge “visited” the supplanted woman in her dreams. Rhoda Brook dreamed – since her assertion that she really saw, before falling asleep, was not to be believed – that the young wife, in the pale silk dress and white bonnet, but with features shockingly distorted, and wrinkled as by age, was sitting upon her chest as she lay. The pressure of Mrs Lodge’s person grew heavier; the blue eyes peered cruelly into her face: and then the figure thrust forward its left hand mockingly, so as to make the wedding-ring it wore glitter in Rhoda’s eyes. Maddened mentally, and nearly suffocated by pressure, the sleeper struggled; the incubus, still regarding her, withdrew to the foot of the bed, only, however, to come forward by degrees, resume her seat, and flash her left hand as before.

  Gasping for breath, Rhoda, in a last desperate effort, swung out her right hand, seized the confronting spectre by its obtrusive left arm, and whirled it backward to the floor, starting up herself as she did so with a low cry.

  “O, merciful heaven!” she cried, sitting on the edge of the bed in a cold sweat; “that was not a dream – she was here!”

  She could feel her antagonist’s arm within her grasp even now – the very flesh and hone of it, as it seemed. She looked on the floor whither she had whirled the spectre, but there was nothing to be seen.

  Rhoda Brook slept no more that night, and when she went milking at the next dawn they noticed how pale and haggard she looked. The milk that she drew quivered into the pail; her hand had not calmed even yet. And still retained the feel of the arm. She came home to breakfast as wearily as if it had been suppertime.

  “What was that noise in your chimmer, mother, last night?” said her son. “You fell off the bed, surely?”

  “Did you hear anything fall? At what time?”
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  “Just when the clock struck two.”

  She could not explain, and when the meal was done went silently about her household works, the boy assisting her, for he hated going afield on the farms, and she indulged his reluctance. Between eleven and twelve the garden-gate clicked, and she lifted her eyes to the window. At the bottom of the garden, within the gate, stood the woman of her vision. Rhoda seemed transfixed.

  “Ah, she said she would come!” exclaimed the boy, also observing her.

  “Said so – when? How does she know us?”

  “I have seen and spoken” to her. I talked to her yesterday.”

  “I told you,” said the mother, flushing indignantly, “never to speak to anybody in that house, or go near the place.”

  “I did not speak to her till she spoke to me. And I did not go near the place. I met her in the road.”

  “What did you tell her?”

  “Nothing. She said, “Are you the poor boy who had to bring the heavy load from market?” And she looked at my hoots, and said they would not keep my feet dry if it came on wet, because they were so cracked. I told her I lived with my mother, and we had enough to do to keep ourselves, and that’s how it was; and she said then: “I’ll come and bring you some better hoots, and see your mother.” She gives away things to other folks in the meads besides us.”

  Mrs Lodge was by this time close to the door – not in her silk, as Rhoda had dreamt of in the bedchamber, but in a morning hat, and gown of common light material, which became her better than silk. On her arm she carried a basket.

  The impression remaining from the night’s experience was still strong. Brook had almost expected to see the wrinkles, the scorn and the cruelty on her visitor’s face. She would have escaped an interview, had escape been possible. There was, however, no backdoor to the cottage, and in an instant the boy had lifted the latch to Mrs Lodge’s gentle knock.

  “I see I have come to the right house,” said she, glancing at the lad, and smiling. “But I was not sure till you opened the door.”

  The figure and action were those of the phantom; but her voice was so indescribably sweet, her glance so winning, her smile so tender, so unlike that of Rhoda’s midnight visitant, that the latter could hardly believe the evidence of her senses. She was truly glad that she had not hidden away in sheer aversion, as she had been inclined to do. In her basket Mrs Lodge brought the pair of boots that she had promised to the boy, and other useful articles.

  At these proofs of a kindly feeling towards her and hers Rhoda’s heart reproached her bitterly. This innocent young thing should have her blessing and not her curse. When she left them a light seemed gone from the dwelling. Two days later she came again to know if the boots fitted; and less than a fortnight after paid Rhoda another call. On this occasion the boy was absent.

  “I walk a good deal,” said Mrs Lodge, “and your house is the nearest outside our own parish. I hope you are well. You don’t look quite well.”

  Rhoda said she was well enough; and, indeed, though the paler of the two, there was more of the strength that endures in her well-defined features and large frame than in the soft-cheeked young woman before her. The conversation became quite confidential as regarded their powers and weaknesses; and when Mrs Lodge was leaving, Rhoda said, “I hope you will find this air agree with you, ma’am, and not suffer from the damp of the water-meads.”

  The younger one replied that there was not much doubt of her general health being usually good. “Though, now you remind me, she added, “I have one little ailment which puzzles me. It is nothing serious, but I cannot make it out.”

  She uncovered her left hand and arm; and their outline confronted Rhoda’s gaze as the exact original of the limb she had beheld and seized in her dream. Upon the pink round surface of the arm were faint marks of an unhealthy colour, as if produced by a rough grasp. Rhoda’s eyes became riveted on the discolorations; she fancied that she discerned in them the shape of her own four fingers.

  “How did it happen?” she said mechanically.

  “I cannot tell,” replied Mrs Lodge, shaking her head. “One night when I was sound asleep, dreaming I was away in some strange place, a pain suddenly shot into my arm there, and was so keen as to awaken me. I must have struck it in the daytime, I suppose, though I don’t remember doing so.” She added, laughing, “I tell my dear husband that it looks just as if he had flown into a rage and struck me there. O, I daresay it will soon disappear.”

  “Ha, ha! Yes… On what night did it come?”

  Mrs Lodge considered, and said it would be a fortnight ago on the morrow. “When I awoke I could not remember where I was,” she added, “till the clock striking two reminded me.”

  She had named the night and hour of Rhoda’s spectral encounter, and Brook felt like a guilty thing. The artless disclosure startled her; she did not reason on the freaks of coincidence; and all the scenery of that ghastly night returned with double vividness to her mind.

  “O, can it be,” she said to herself, when her visitor had departed, “that I exercise a malignant power over people against my own will?” She knew that she had been slyly called a witch since hey fall; but never having understood why that particular stigma had been attached to her, it had passed disregarded. Could this be the explanation, and had such things as this ever happened before?

  IV

  A Suggestion

  The summer drew on, and Rhoda Brook almost dreaded to meet Mrs Lodge again, notwithstanding that her feeling for the young wife amounted well-nigh to affection. Something in her own individuality seemed to convict Rhoda of crime. Yet a fatality sometimes would direct the steps of the latter to the outskirts of Holmstoke whenever she left her house for any other purpose than her daily work; and hence it happened that their next encounter was out of doors. Rhoda could not avoid the subject which had so mystified her, and after the first few words she stammered, “I hope your – arm is well again, ma’m?” She had perceived with consternation that Gertrude Lodge carried her left arm stiffly.

  “No; it not quite well. Indeed it is no better at all; it is rather worse. It pains me dreadfully sometimes.”

  “Perhaps you had better go to a doctor, ma’am.”

  She replied that she had already seen a doctor. Her husband had insisted upon her going to one. But the surgeon had not seemed to understand the afflicted limb at all; he had told her to bathe it in hot water, and she had bathed it, but the treatment had done no good.

  “Will you let me see it?” said the milkwoman.

  Mrs Lodge pushed up her sleeve and disclosed the place, which was a few inches above the wrist. As soon as Rhoda Brook saw it, she could hardly preserve her composure. There was nothing of the nature of a wound, but the arm at that point had a shrivelled look, and the outline of the four fingers appeared more distinct than at the former Moreover, she fancied that they were imprinted in precisely the relative position of her clutch upon the arm in the trance; the first linger towards Gertrude’s wrist, and the fourth towards her elbow.

  What the impress resembled seemed to have struck Gertrude herself since their last meeting. “It looks almost like finger marks,” she said; adding with a faint laugh, “my husband says it is as if some witch, or the devil himself, had taken hold of me there, and blasted the flesh.”

  Rhoda shivered. “That’s fancy,” she said hurriedly. “I wouldn’t mind it, if I were you.”

  “I shouldn’t so much mind it,” said the younger, with hesitation, “if – if I hadn’t a notion that it makes my husband dislike me – no, love me less. Men think so much of personal appearance.”

  “Some do – he for one.”

  “Yes; and he was very proud of mine, at first.”

  “Keep your arm covered from his sight.”

  “Ah – he knows the disfigurement is there!” She tried to hide the tears that filled her eyes.

  “Well, ma’am, I earnestly hope it will go away soon.”

  And so the milkwoman’s mind was chained ane
w to the subject by a horrid sort of spell as she returned home. The sense of having been guilty of an act of malignity increased, affect as she might to ridicule her superstition. In her secret heart Rhoda did not altogether object to a slight diminution of her successor’s beauty, by whatever means it had come about; but she did not wish to inflict upon her physical pain. For though this pretty young woman had rendered impossible any reparation which Lodge might have made Rhoda for his past conduct, everything like resentment at the unconscious usurpation had quite passed away from the elder’s mind.

  If the sweet and kindly Gertrude Lodge only knew of the dream-scene in the bedchamber, what would she think? Not to inform her of it seemed treachery in the presence of her friendliness; but tell she could not of her own accord neither could she devise a remedy.

  She mused upon the matter the greater part of the night; and the next day, after the morning milking, set out to obtain another glimpse of Gertrude Lodge if she could, being held to her by a gruesome fascination. By watching the house from a distance the milkmaid was presently able to discern the farmer’s wife in a ride she was taking alone – probably to join her husband in some distant field. Mrs Lodge perceived her, and cantered in her direction.

  “Good morning, Rhoda!” Gertrude said, when she had come up. “I was going to call.”

  Rhoda noticed that Mrs Lodge held the reins with some difficulty.