“The dark collector.” How on earth I get the words out is beyond me.
“Yeah? That’s a good name, Oliver, you know why?”
I shake my head, staring at him wide-eyed as his knuckles—Oh fuck—slide around the entrance to my body.
“I’m gonna collect all this dark out of you. I’m gonna take it away for a while, and you’re going to be nothing but shiny, okay?”
I nod, wanting that. Take it, take my darkness.
And my God, he does.
The pain as his knuckles slide past my stretched rim is intense—but then he’s inside me, his whole damn hand inside. I’m gone, past coherency, mumbling and whimpering and possibly begging him for more.
“Oliver.” His voice is soft and reverent, cutting through my own mindless noises. My eyes snap open. When he’s got my attention, he smiles and says, “My name is Henry.”
Henry.
He turns his hand, making soft little motions with it, and he takes my cock in his other hand and starts to pump it. I’m hard and leaking and the pressure in my ass is so intense, I just give myself over to it. Let him have all the dark, all the grief, all the loneliness.
And I’m free and shiny, just like he said, when I come all over myself with a shout and a shudder.
****
When I wake in the morning, stiff and sore in the best of ways, I’m curled into his body, my head on his chest. He’s stroking my hair.
“Rise and shine, sleepyhead,” he murmurs. “You okay?”
I wriggle a little and wince. “I will be.”
“Did I hurt you?” His eyes widen, and he moves like he’s going to inspect my ass.
“No. Not really. I promise, I’m fine.” Exhausted. Depleted. Fine.
Something about my grief has been so sharp, I’ve shied away from touching it. But over the course of one weekend, he’s stripped everything away and forced me to confront all of it, bit by bit.
In the pale light filtering through his windows, I’m not Jeffrey’s wild, fey muse. And he’s not some dark collector, taking away my last tie to Jeffrey.
I’m just Oliver, and he’s just Henry, and that’s just fine.
“I’ll call the auction house and arrange to have the painting shipped to you.” He strokes a hand down my arm and tangles his fingers with mine. “I’m sorry. I should have sold it to you and asked you out on a proper date.”
“I wouldn’t have said yes.” I bring his hand up to my lips and kiss the back of it. “I don’t regret this.”
“You called yourself a whore.”
“I didn’t mean it.” I laugh. “Well, I might have in the moment. But I don’t feel that way now.” I look at his alarm clock next to the bed. Seven-thirty. “I have to go to work. I have a call in Brooklyn at nine.”
“You still model?” He looks startled.
“Not like what I did for Jeffrey. Catalog work. Pays the bills.”
“I suppose it must.” He shrugs. “Go ahead and use the shower, I’ll set your clothes out and get breakfast ready.”
“Don’t. I’ll just grab coffee and a bagel on the way.” I don’t want to drag this out. I take that shower, but I don’t linger for breakfast. I kiss him goodbye at the door, and I walk out of his life.
****
Two weeks later…
The package arrives late in the afternoon. I know it’s the painting, because the courier service has me sign all these documents, and they wait for me to unwrap it and make sure it’s okay before they leave. I can barely look at it. I nod, then they hand me a box.
“What’s this?”
“Something else sent over from the auction house. If everything is good with the painting, we need to go.”
I sign the last document and off they go.
I open the box. Inside is a binder—I recognize it immediately. I touch a trembling hand to my mouth. He sent them all. The negatives I should have bid on, rather than the painting. My life with Jeffrey. He’s given it back to me. In the box with the binder is a small card. I open it and begin to read.
Dear Oliver,
I hope you’re well. I hope you’re happy, and whole, and maybe these can make you smile, even if you cry a little at the same time. I want to thank you for the amazing weekend. I’ve admired you through Jeffrey’s art for years, and I wanted you.
You gave me so much more than I ever hoped for.
I know you still think of yourself as Kuyper’s muse. I know you loved him, and you're only just beginning to grieve him. But when you’re ready, if you think you can be simply Oliver, and you might like to have dinner with simply Henry, a collector of art and things, I’d welcome your call.
My kindest, warmest regards,
Henry
Henry, who always writes his own thank you cards. Henry who saw me wild and sad and gave me back to myself.
Am I ready to be simply Oliver?
I dial the number on the card.
“Hello?” His voice sounds muffled, like he’s put me on speaker.
“Henry? This is Oliver.”
A flurry of noise, then, “Oliver!” clear as day. “How are you, did you get the painting, and the…”
“I got your note, and the negatives, and the painting, yes, thank you.”
“You’re welcome.”
“I was wondering if you’d maybe like to come over and cook dinner with me?”
The line goes quiet. Then, in almost a whisper, “I would like that very much.”
About Vanessa North
Vanessa North was born in New England but moved to the South as a teenager, where she learned to appreciate biscuits and gravy, bluegrass, and that most welcome of greetings: “Hey y’all!” She has a degree in Mass Communication but has long since abandoned journalism in favor of writing romance. Instead of telling the news, V would rather tell stories.
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Other Titles by Vanessa North
Two in Winter
Fight or Flight
Jackson’s Law
Hostile Beauty
The Ushers
Amazon
United
Cracked
The Wiccan Haus
Shifter’s Dance
Shifter’s Song
Anthologies:
Wild at Heart: Storm Haven
Lucky’s Charms: Seamus
Under a Moonlit Night: Ripped Awake
Love in the Cards: Two of Wands
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