by Amity Cross
I grew up in the outer suburbs of Brisbane and moved to the US when I was a teenager. My dad was a big-time surgeon, and like it was the family business, I was destined for medical school at Colombia University and then an internship at the biggest hospital in Manhattan. Not that I minded. I wanted to be a surgeon.
My life had been squashed within the confines of one tiny island that was far too full of the one thing I was trying to escape. Melbourne seemed like a nice place. They offered me a great job, and the weather and people seemed great, so I went there. In a way, it was a homecoming.
Then there was the selfish reason I’d left. The one I’d never thought would ever happen to me in a million years. I wanted to get away from my selfish, cheating a-hole of an ex-boyfriend. I’d forgotten why I sacrificed my happiness for a jerk who fucked nurses in the on-call room while I was in twelve-hour surgeries. I forgot the reason I went into medicine in the first place. I forgot who I was meant to be.
All the great upheavals in life had a trigger. This was mine.
* * *
Dumping my tablet on the nurses’ station, I sighed.
Running my hands through my red hair, I fixed my ponytail back into place. Freckles, brown eyes, and hair, lots of hair, was pretty much it when it came to Holly Walsh, orthopedic surgeon with a chip on her shoulder…and high levels of the reddish pigment pheomelanin and relatively low levels of the dark pigment eumelanin. That was bio-garble that meant I was just another ginger chick.
“What’s up, Blue?”
I glanced up as Doctor Lisa Gunner appeared next to me like a poltergeist. Next to me, she was my total opposite, in looks and temperament. She was this tall, olive-skinned, chestnut-haired, beauty with a happy-go-lucky attitude. If she weren’t a trauma surgery resident, she’d be in the Miss Universe pageant. The only thing that made my pride feel a little better was the fact we had to wear the same shapeless blue scrubs and white lab coats.
Ever since I’d arrived at the hospital, she’d taken it upon herself to declare that she was going to be my best friend. I didn’t mind considering this job was lonely on a good day. Having an ally inside the hospital corridors was a very good thing, especially when you lost a patient or made a costly mistake…and they did happen. Surgeons thought they were gods, but at the end of the day, we were only human.
Gunner had started calling me Blue, Aussie slang for a red headed stunner like me, from day one, and despite trying to convince her to call me Holly, she still insisted on using her own nickname. I just lived with it now.
“Just a patient,” I replied. “I should know better, it isn’t personal, but sometimes they just get to me with their jerky behavior.”
“Who?” she asked. “The hottie? He’s fully awake now? I just saw you come out of there.”
I scowled. “How can you tell? His face is all cut and bruised.”
“I witnessed the abs in the ER if you’re forgetting already,” she declared. “Cut from marble.”
“Like that’s an indicator,” I muttered.
“Why so blue, Blue?”
“I don’t know.” Turning, I leaned my back against the bench. “I can’t stop thinking about how I found him out there. He didn’t seem surprised at all when I spoke to him just now.”
Before Gunner could reply, one of the interns assigned to ortho appeared. Harper was his name. Tall, lanky, fresh out of med school and still wearing diapers. Good kid, a little too eager to please for my taste, but he seemed to get stuff done when I needed it.
“They can squeeze you into CT at three,” he said, glancing at Gunner and instantly flushing red. Pretty much every man in the place turned scarlet when they stood before her, a fact I tried not to be jealous of. I didn’t need another douche manwhore in my life, thank you very much.
“Good,” I said. “I’ll get you to assist, so make sure you’re back here with plenty of time to wheel the patient down.”
Harper’s eyes widened with unmasked pleasure. “Sure thing.”
Interns were so wide-eyed and bushy-tailed. Everything got their juices flowing, and a part of me missed the thrill of discovery that came with the gig. Now this whole medicine thing was just routine. I loved it, but I’d pretty much seen it all. It was totally inappropriate, but I longed for a rare bone tumor or an impossible to fix break to be wheeled into the ER so I could get my hands really dirty.
I didn’t mind being on Mr. Caplin’s case. I’d been clocking up some ER hours when I found him out on the street, so I’d claimed him when he was a John Doe. He looked like he’d been beaten by a group of men. His injuries were extensive and pointed to a group bashing, but the thing that no one understood was why he was secured to a spinal board. There was way more to his story than met the eye. He’d have to open up eventually, either to the police, who were waiting for him to stabilize enough for a round of questions, or to me.
We wouldn’t have even known his name if it weren’t for the man who’d come in the morning after and left Mr. Caplin’s belongings…and a sizeable check to cover any expenses.
“You’re daydreaming,” Gunner said, waving her hand in front of my face.
I blinked, shook my head, and snatched up my tablet.
“What’s up?”
“Nothing. I’m just thinking about that guy.” I glanced over my shoulder toward Mr. Caplin’s room.
“I knew it,” she chortled.
“No, nothing like that,” I murmured. “Just the whole situation. The way I found him, the guy who mysteriously paid for his treatment…all of it. I can’t get it out of my head.”
“It’s not our job to go poking around in their business,” Gunner said, leaning against the bench. “We patch ‘em up and ship ‘em out. Let the cops handle it.”
Sighing, I picked up my tablet, brought the screen to life, and began flicking through the list of patients I had to see for the day.
“Take it easy, okay?” Gunner said, knocking her shoulder against mine. “Don’t get too wrapped up in Caplin. He’s got that bad boy look.”
I rolled my eyes. “Last thing I need is one of those.” Pushing off the bench, I wandered away. “Catch you later, Gunner. I’ve got a patient to check up on.”
“Don’t we all,” she replied with a wave.
Striding down the hall, I pushed Mr. Caplin and his case to the back of my mind. Walking into my patient’s room, I stifled a laugh as I caught sight of him inhaling a pot of green jelly like it was hard drugs.
“Mr. Simons,” I said, smiling at the elderly man who was sitting up in bed brandishing a plastic spoon.
“Red,” he said, waving his spoon at me. “How is my favorite Doctor?”
“It doesn’t matter how I am. I’m here to see you.” I picked up his chart and flipped through the pages, making sure that the nurses had been marking down his meds.
“I’m fine, lass,” he said. “They’ve got me up moving or should I say shuffling.” He laughed. “I may be slow on my feet, but I’m quick up here.” He tapped the spoon against his temple.
At seventy-nine, Mr. Simons just had a double hip replacement, and at first glance, you wouldn’t know it. He was sharp as a tack and doubly cheeky. There were always grumpy patients, and then there were the ones who lapped up the attention like it was going out of fashion. They meant well, they were just a little lonely, and they brightened my day a little with their cheeky one-liners. That was Mr. Simons.
“Well, if you’re done with your jelly, I’ll check your lungs and heart.”
“My ticker is fine,” he said, waving me off.
“It’s standard procedure, Mr. Simons. You know the drill.”
Placing the cup on the table, he sat up straight and pulled down the front of his hospital gown. “Do your worst, Sarge,” he said. “I can take it.”
Chuckling, I took the stethoscope from around my neck and placed the earpieces into my ears. Warming up the chest piece against my sleeve, I placed it on the right side of his chest.
Laying my hand on his s
houlder, I said, “Take a deep breath for me.” He breathed in. I listened to the air filling his lungs and then whooshing out. Moving to the left side, I asked him to do the same again.
“You’re fitter than a twenty-year-old,” I declared.
“Never smoked in my life. Worked the farm since I could walk,” he said proudly.
“Which is how you got here,” I said, smiling.
“I’m on my own, lass, and it makes me happy. Leave an old man to milk his cows in peace.”
I smiled kindly at him as I moved the chest piece over his heart and counted the rhythm. Strong as an ox.
“What about you? You’re a pretty young thing,” Mr. Simons said, glancing up at me as I helped him settle back into his pillows. “Is there a husband? A boyfriend?”
Instantly, my mind went to Mr. Caplin. It seemed silly to call him that when he was younger than I was. Only three years, Holly. Twenty-seven to my thirty. I didn’t know if it was a doctor thing, but I could see that underneath all of the bruises and breaks he was handsome. I also didn’t know anything about him other than the fact he was a grumpy asshole who was butt-sore because he was in hospital.
“There’s a sparkle in your eye, lass,” Mr. Simons declared. “I knew a pretty young thing like you wouldn’t be single. You never are.”
I sighed. Poor Mr. Simons had it the wrong way around. I was nothing but an idiot when it came to relationships. Falling for the wrong guy and running to the other side of the world to get away from him. That was really well adjusted.
“You just keep your cheek to yourself,” I said with a laugh.
My thoughts turned back to Mr. Caplin, and I began to wish that time would go faster. Three p.m. was too far away.
Bidding Mr. Simons a half-hearted ‘bye for now’, I wandered down the hall to visit my next patient. I was just drawn to the chiseled bad boy because of the mystery. Yeah, it was the mystery.
* * *
I stood outside of Mr. Caplin’s room and took a deep breath.
Stepping inside, I wondered if his mood had calmed down some. I shouldn’t hold it against the guy. He had just woken up and found out he might be paralyzed from the waist down. Benefit of the doubt and all.
Rounding the curtain, I found he was awake, and his eyes were bright considering his injuries. He obviously took care of himself to have sprung back so quickly.
“I didn’t expect to see you,” he said, watching me. “I thought you’d get one of your minions to wheel me around.”
“Feeling a little brighter this afternoon, Mr. Caplin?” I asked.
He let his gaze roam up and down my body. I wasn’t sure what he was expecting to find considering I was wearing a pair of unflattering blue scrubs.
“This is Dr. Harper,” I declared, gesturing to the young intern as he rounded the curtain and began readying Mr. Caplin for transport. “He’s got the lovely job of wheeling you down for your CT scan.” He glanced at the intern and scowled. What was that all about? “We’re going to check the swelling around your spine and get your arm checked out so we can change that splint for a cast.”
Caplin grunted, seeming a little blasé about the whole thing.
“How’s your head?” I went on, drawing his gaze back to mine. When I was flashing a light in his eyes to check his pupil response in the ER, I noticed his eyes were green, but now that he was awake and very much alert, they were really green…like emeralds. Against his battered face, they stood out even more, and I couldn’t look away.
“Better,” he said in his deep rasp, his lip curling into a slight smile.
Shit, he thought I was checking him out. I was checking him out.
“Good. I’ll meet you down at CT,” I said, drawing a line of professionalism back in the sand.
“Whatever you say, Sparks,” he declared, letting his gaze return to the ceiling.
As Harper wheeled the gurney out of the room and down the hall, I frowned. Sparks? What was that all about? Fidgeting with my stethoscope, I found I liked the fact that the mysterious Mr. Caplin had taken it upon himself to give me a nickname. It was much better than Blue.
It had only been a few hours, but I found myself drawn to the cocky man with the prickly exterior. There was something behind his eyes just out of reach…something deeper. A story I was dying to know the ending of.
Shaking my head, I gathered my wits and made my way down to CT, reminding myself of ‘the way things were’.
Surgeons are friends with surgeons.
Surgeons date surgeons.
The hospital where you work is your whole life.
It’s not long before you start coming in early and leaving late.
The hospital is the center of your entire life.
In what universe could a relationship outside the orbit of St. Vincent’s Hospital ever work? Especially one with a guy I didn’t even know. It was a simple case of instant infatuation. He was the most exciting thing to happen to me since I moved to Melbourne, a bright spark amidst the depression I’d been fighting to escape.
When I got to CT, Harper had positioned the patient in the machine, and when he saw me appear, he left the room so we could fire it up. Sparks.
“Holly,” the neurosurgeon said as I closed the door behind me. He was annoyingly on time.
“Archer,” I said curtly and sat in the chair beside him as the images started to appear on the monitors.
Dr. Desmond Archer was the kind of guy that all the girls would have chased in high school. Like a bad American Teen movie, he was the equivalent of the captain of the football team and the quarterback, dated the head cheerleader and drove a BMW convertible to and from the best years of his life…until he became the king of St Vincent’s.
Chiseled jawline, designer stubble, sun-kissed blond hair swept back into an artfully designed quiff, scrubs that hugged his perfect chest, and arms that had just the right amount of muscle definition to get a woman’s panties damp. Dr. Archer was the whole package…and for some reason, he wouldn’t leave me alone.
“Here’s one thing I don’t get. Why ortho?” he asked out of nowhere as I studied the first images of Caplin’s spine.
“Why not?” I retorted, bothered by his familiarity when I hardly knew the guy.
“C’mon, there must be a reason for it. I’ve seen you work. You could pick up any specialty and blitz it.”
I narrowed my eyes and turned my attention back to the scans.
“The Australian girl who moves to New York and tears through Columbia, turns down a job as head of ortho at the biggest hospital in Manhattan to come here. I don’t get it.”
“There’s nothing to get,” I retorted.
“You’re a hard mountain, Hol.”
“Walsh,” I snapped. “My name is Walsh.”
Archer held up his hands and shook his head, a stupid smirk on his face. “Fair enough.”
“If you don’t mind,” I said, pointing to the scans. “Could you consult on the patient?”
He turned to the scans and fell silent. Thank god.
“Swelling has gone down significantly,” he mused. “He’s responding well to treatment… He’s in really good shape. No fractures, no lesions. He’ll be stuck in bed for a while, but he should get full use of his legs back. I’d recommend a little physical therapy to get him moving again, pending the treatment of his other injuries, but other than that, he’s clear from neuro. He’s bloody lucky if you ask me.”
“No surgery?” I asked, wanting to confirm what I already knew.
Archer shook his head. “Unfortunately, no.”
“Why is that unfortunate? Cracking open the guy’s spine would’ve been a last resort.”
“Because I don’t get to spend a ten-hour surgery with you.”
My eyes widened, and I swallowed a pile of vomit that had begun to rise in the back of my throat.
He smiled, doing his best sexy come-hither look. I mean, he didn’t have to try hard, but when I looked at Archer, all I saw was a guy who thought the eart
h revolved around him. Arrogant had nothing on this guy, and he reminded me too much of the things I’d left behind in Manhattan. Little did he know his whole aura was drying up my lady parts.
Swirling around in my chair, I beckoned to Harper, who’d been lingering behind us as we reviewed the scans. If he thought anything about Archer and his inappropriate behavior, he didn’t show it.
“Could you take Mr. Caplin back to his room,” I said. “I’ll be up to see him shortly.”
Sparks. I wondered where he’d gotten that one. I decided I’d ask.
“I’ll catch you later, Walsh,” Archer said, snapping me out of my daydream.
I nodded absently, and he chuckled, leaving me behind in the room to run over the rest of the scans in peace and quiet. Thank god.
Focusing on the images, I found myself wondering more and more about where Caplin had come from. There were preexisting scars on his face, old yellowish bruises mixed in with the new, his body was in really good shape… If I had to guess, I’d say he was some kind of athlete. Boxing or some kind of martial art. It still didn’t explain why he was left on a spinal board out on the footpath like an unwanted puppy in a box.
“Who are you?” I murmured to myself. I was determined to find out one way or another.
4
Josh
Hospitals were boring as fuck.
There was nothing to do, so all I did was think. I hated thinking. There were a lot of shitty memories I never wanted to think about again.
I had a lot of stuff to be pissed about in my life and being paralyzed should’ve been right at the top of the list. When I thought about it, I didn’t care. That was fucked up.
It was an excuse to change my path and to take it out of the cage and to the unknown. Problem was, I didn’t like the idea of not knowing where I was headed. When I fought, I had a purpose and a goal. When I didn’t, I was just…nothing. A lot of people expected me to be exactly that. People I was determined to prove wrong.