“How about this,” he went on, “why don’t we go out tonight—get dinner and see a movie. You can cross it off your list.”
He smiled, and I felt my stomach twist. Did he just ask me out? Did I just get asked out for the first time? I blinked, almost in disbelief. Was it that he was spying for Ariadne and Old Man Winter that prompted this or had what he told Scott been true? Maybe he felt like he owed his life to me.
I mentally slapped myself. It wasn’t like that, it couldn’t be. After all, even if things went well and the date ended with a kiss, it wouldn’t just be my first date—it’d be his last, and the next time I saw him would be at his funeral.
“Just friends,” he added, as though that would make me feel better. It didn’t. It made me feel a hell of a lot worse.
“Sure,” I said with another weak smile. Wolfe was cackling again, that bastard. “Thanks for offering to...be my guide.”
“It’ll be fun.” His phone rang and he answered, pulling it out of his pocket. “Yeah...I’m with her now, we’re getting some breakfast. Sure, we’ll see you in five.” He finished his call and looked at me. “You’re done, right?”
“What?” I didn’t understand what he was asking until I looked down and saw my half-full plate. I hadn’t taken a bite in several minutes. “Oh, yeah, I’m done.”
“That was Ariadne. She wants us at Headquarters to talk about the warehouse.”
“Okay.” I stood, taking my tray with me to the nearest garbage can and dumping it in. I felt uneven; my head hurt a little, my heart hurt a lot, and I was once again suffering under the realization that my life had been so upended from what I was familiar with that I didn’t know what I wanted.
I mean, even if he wanted me, I couldn’t touch him, right?
Chapter 7
Ariadne’s office was right next to Old Man Winter’s in the Headquarters building. His was cold and Spartan, and I expected the same from her based on her wardrobe. When Zack knocked on the door and she called for us to enter, I was surprised.
Her office had the same view of the grounds as Old Man Winter’s, but that was where the similarities ended. Whereas he had a desk that looked like it was made of a massive piece of natural stone stacked on top of two others, hers was a warm cherrywood, with a workstation and hutch against the left wall and a more formal desk between her and the two visitor chairs. There were pictures scattered around the office of Ariadne with other people, ones that looked a little like her—a man and a woman who were older, another that looked like her sister, and a few of her with her sister and some kids.
“Dear God,” she said as I came into the room. “Are you all right?”
“I’m as fine as I’ve been since I’ve gotten here.”
She beckoned for us to have a seat. “Can I get you something to drink?”
“I’ll take a whiskey on the rocks,” I said without blinking.
She froze. “I have soft drinks...”
“Bummer,” I said. “What’d you want to see us about?”
“About the encounters at the warehouse, and uh...” she blinked and shook her head. “Something else.”
“Great,” I said without enthusiasm. “Let’s start with the ‘something else’ that you don’t really want to talk about and work our way back to the warehouse.”
“Fine.” She tried to smile but it was so fake that it fell apart after about two seconds. “We have a forensics lab that can analyze the personal items from your mother that you found in the warehouse.”
“I’m not hearing the ‘something else.’” I leaned back in her chair with exaggerated casualness.
“Very well.” She rested her hands on the desk between us, folding them, for some reason bringing to my mind the idea that she must have been a goody-goody in school. “I’ve been ordered not to have them analyzed unless you agree to see our on-site psychologist.”
“Beg pardon?” My tone carried more frozen bite than the worst wind I’d experienced thus far.
“The Director would like you to see our counselor,” she said. “Understanding you’ve been through something of a ringer lately—”
“He wants me to submit to headshrinking?” My eyes were so narrow that I was surprised I could see anything out of them. “If he thinks I’m gonna do that, I submit to you that his head has been in the icebox for too damned long.”
One of Ariadne’s eyelids fluttered at my remark as she suppressed whatever her first response would have been. “He thinks,” she said, pacing herself, “and I agree with him, that you’ve been under a great deal of stress and strain—”
“Most of which seems to be the fault of your Directorate.”
“—and we are concerned with your long term health, mental as well as physical,” she finished without stopping to answer my accusation. “We are willing to help you in the search for your mother, but we feel that you’ve been through a high level of trauma in the last few weeks, more than is healthy for anyone,” she held up a hand and I restrained my sarcastic response, “let alone someone as young as yourself. This is not a negotiation. If you want our help, see our counselor.” Her hands went back to being folded on her desk as she awaited my response.
I caught movement from Zack out of the corner of my eye. “It’s not a bad idea.” I turned to look at him, and I’m pretty sure my glare was more potent than any flame Aleksandr Gavrikov could have tossed out. “You’ve been through a lot—gaining powers, your mom disappearing, being locked in a metal box as punishment, being stalked by a psychopath, beaten, injured, watching a ton of people die and blaming yourself,” he listed them as if he were ticking off points from a list. “It might not be a bad idea to talk to a professional about it.”
“What will they tell me?” I felt the rage, but I leashed it. Wolfe was cackling, but I bade him shut up. “That it’s normal to be stressed over being stalked by a psycho, imprisoned in your own house for over a decade, and finding out that you have superpowers?” I let the sarcasm fly. “I don’t care what kind of shrink you’ve got, he’s not qualified to deal with the crap I’d lay on him. I’d probably make him run screaming from the room, some of the stuff I could tell him.”
Ariadne raised an eyebrow. “So you feel you should deal with these things on your own?”
I bit back an angry reply. Even with Wolfe circling in the back of my head, I knew there was truth to what she and Zack were saying. I had been through a lot, more than most people went through in their lives, I suspected. I’d been near death twice in the last week or so, had Mom vanish on me, and had a variety of other things, great and small, on my mind. I blinked. Actually, it was amazing I wasn’t in pieces already, mentally. Maybe I was. I was hearing the voice of my greatest nemesis, after all, and he was dead.
“Fine,” I conceded. “I will...talk to this...person.” I said every word through gritted teeth. “When can you start looking over my mom’s purse?”
“We’ve already started,” Ariadne said. “Kurt had it delivered to the lab when he went to the medical unit. You’ll get the results after the first session.”
“Fine.” I wasn’t pouting, exactly. But close. “When can I meet with your psycho...analyzer?”
Ariadne’s mouth was a thin line. “Right now. He’s cleared his schedule to meet with you. He’s in a different building.” She looked to Zack. “Show her the way?” He nodded.
“What did you want to talk about regarding the warehouse?” I was in a little bit of a huff, but I wanted to get this over with so I could get the next thing over with. Actually, I just wanted to get the whole day over with at this point.
“Your friend Reed. And the new threat.” Ariadne had turned wary again, like she was tiptoeing around what she wanted to say so as not to set me off.
“I’ve only met Reed twice,” I said. Kind of sad, but that made him my oldest friend. “And I have no idea who this new guy is. Just for the record, I’m calling him ‘Full Metal Jackass’ because he’s a sucker-punching douchebag, and I hope you’ll join me in that by putting
it on his official file or threat designator or whatever you use to keep track of metas that cross you.”
“Duly noted. We have concerns.” She folded her hands again.
“So do I,” I agreed. “Most of them involve your fashion sense, with a few left to spare for the armor-clad whackjob that bitch slapped me around a parking lot this morning.”
She sighed, bowing her head in utter resignation. “We’d like to know who Reed works for.”
“So would I. But I’d also like to know who Wolfe worked for, who this new metal man is, who funds the Directorate, exactly how many factions are out there involved in this dustup over metas, what all their goals are...” I shrugged. “I asked him some of these questions, and he didn’t answer, so I’m not sure how I can help you.”
Ariadne hesitated. “You could tag him for us.”
“Tag him?” I felt a laugh rising from within and I let it slip. “Is that a crude aphorism for sex? Because I think that would kill him before he could answer any of your questions.” I couldn’t bring myself to look at Zack after I said it. I wouldn’t have gone there, but as conservatively as Ariadne dressed, I had a feeling the reaction would be worth it.
It was. She reddened, her face turning roughly the same shade as her hair. “I mean with a tracer bug, if you should run into him again.” She reached into her top desk drawer and her hand emerged with a small wooden case. She snapped it open, revealing a pen. “When you hold the clicker, it launches a tracking beacon that only we can follow.” She slid it across the desk. “It has a range of about twenty feet when it fires, so make sure you’re aiming the pen properly. It will cling to almost any surface, and it has ten tracers within it.”
“Tricky,” I said. “Reed would be pissed if he found out I was tracking him. I think he’d be less offended if I tagged him the other, more lethal way.”
“I think he knows how to find those,” Zack said from beside me. I didn’t dare look at him yet. We’d faced death together, but I didn’t want to see his reaction to my references to sex for some reason. Dammit. “Kurt used one of those to tag the bumper of his car outside your house the day we met, and it went offline after he left us behind at the supermarket.”
I stared at the pen, picking it up and cradling it in my fingers. It was small, black, and slightly rounded. Looked fancy. “I always wondered how you guys had found us there.” I held it up. “I’m not going to promise that I’ll use this because I still don’t work for you guys. But I’ll consider it.”
“Fair enough,” she said. “What will it take to get you to trust us?”
“I notice you didn’t answer any of the questions I asked a minute ago about who the players are in this meta conflict.” I stared her down, making her uncomfortable.
“You want answers,” she said with a nod. “I think we can accommodate that request. Let me talk with the Director. It will be a long conversation though, so let’s plan for it to happen tomorrow morning. There might be other things we can discuss by then.”
“Just to be clear,” I told her. “This isn’t an ‘all or nothing’ proposition. You don’t get my trust all in one move, but this will help. Be honest with me and you build your credibility.”
“That’s a two-way street,” she said with a flush.
“Which is why I’m going to see your master of mind games.” I stood and looked at Zack, now finally able to do so without profound embarrassment. “Care to show me the way to my mental doom?”
“You don’t have to treat it like it’s some awful, hellish scenario,” Zack said once we were in the hallways outside Ariadne’s office. “This is a good thing for you.”
“Maybe. But it doesn’t mean I want to do it.” I was actually more scared that I’d inadvertantly let something slip that I shouldn’t, like the fact that the first man I’d ever killed was a houseguest in my mind, spinning wheels and talking to me. Even for a recent arrival from recluse-hood like myself, that didn’t seem normal. But then, neither did killing people with a touch.
“Life’s about more than just doing what you want to do,” Zack said, terse.
“That’s the story of mine.”
“Right,” he said. “Just try and let Dr. Zollers help you. He’s good; I’ve seen him myself.”
“What for?” Now I was very curious.
“Standard procedure for agents,” he said, just airily enough that I didn’t believe him. “We’re in a high-stress occupation, so before they put us on field duty we get a full evaluation, and the doctor counsels us throughout our careers.”
“What do you talk to him about?”
“Normal stuff. The pressures that come with being on call 24/7, ready to round up and suppress any meta that steps out of line.”
“Suppress?” I giggled. “You mean kill?”
“Or capture,” he said, bristling.
I felt my face fall. “Like Gavrikov.” I thought of that coffin that they put him in, and I felt a familiar kind of sick.
The regret was there, on his face. “Yeah. Like him.”
“Are there more?” I looked at him. “Have you guys captured a lot of metas?”
“Yeah. Our facility in Arizona has a prison where they’re kept. It’s far out in the desert, middle of nowhere.”
“What do they do, these metas? You know, to deserve confinement like Gavrikov?”
“Gavrikov is unique,” Zack said in protest. “Most of the ones we have to confine—and it’s very few, fortunately—are ones that are clear, obvious cases of metas using their powers to commit crimes. They’re strong enough that law enforcement would have a hell of a time catching them.”
“Like Wolfe?”
Zack cringed. “Not that bad. At least, none of the ones I’ve dealt with. Murderers, sure, some major thieves. But every one of them has committed enough crimes that you get the idea that they’ll never be able to live in human society again without returning to the same behaviors.”
“How many crimes is that?”
“Lots.” He looked at me as we exited the Headquarters building, and he was all seriousness. “On average, twenty felony offenses, ranging from burglary to the big ones, the capital offenses, before we catch up with them.”
“Do they get a trial?” Again, I was curious.
“Not really,” he said. “Usually we’ve caught them in the act, and our forensics are better than average. But it wouldn’t matter; when we send them to Arizona, it’s almost always for life.”
“A life sentence,” I mused. “So you guys are the judge, jury, and executioner.”
“It’s not like that.” His voice lowered, and the defensiveness was on the rise within it. “These are criminals that the justice system couldn’t contain if they wanted to.”
“The government doesn’t know about metas?” I shook my head. “They don’t want to deal with them?”
“They know about them,” Zack said. “I’ve heard they have a program in place for dealing with them if they catch them.
“And?”
“It’s less charitable than ours. Our facility can allow even a truly dangerous meta some free rein, because our guards are metas and the staff are prepared. The government facility is a hole in the ground. They go in, they don’t come out, and who knows if they’re alive or dead.” He looked at me. “You don’t approve.”
“I don’t know,” I said with a surprising lack of emotion one way or another. Bet I’d have felt different if I’d been in one of the Directorate’s cells in Arizona. “I don’t have a better solution, but I’m famed for my lack of trust.”
“And?”
“Why would I trust you to faithfully execute a full criminal justice system, hidden where no one can observe or see it?” I shrugged. “I’m not going to get involved—for a myriad of reasons, including the fact that I’m one person, and I have no better solution—but it doesn’t sound like a perfect use of power to me. It sounds worrisome, and seems like it has a high potential for abuse of prisoners and people. Kind of Draconian.”
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We lapsed into a vaguely comfortable silence, not saying anything as he led the way across the campus, which was just as well. If I hadn’t been feeling so self-involved and worried about what was going on for myself, I might have thought more deeply about what Zack had been describing. It sounded ugly, but I had no time to worry about it.
He walked me to a building on a side of the campus I’d spent little time on. It was closest to the gymnasium but wasn’t far from a host of buildings I’d never been in. Like the others, it wasn’t marked well, I suspected on purpose. He held the door for me, which was a nice touch. I pretended to be too preoccupied to notice.
The hallways were long, brick, and like everywhere else in the Directorate they had a sterile scent to them. The building was older than HQ, the brick was faded, and it was quiet; only the hum of the overhead fluorescent lights could be heard. I wanted to believe I could hear the beating of my own heart, but I really couldn’t. I was nervous, but not off the scale.
Zack stopped me at a solid wooden door. It had one of those silver name plates over it, and it read: Dr. Quinton Zollers, M.D. I grimaced inwardly. Not that I thought it would be easier, but having a psychologist without the M.D. appellation seemed less intimidating for some reason.
“You’ll do fine,” Zack said. In my nervous tension, I couldn’t decide whether I wanted to kiss him or slap him, then remembered that they’d both have roughly the same effect. “Don’t forget about our date tonight.”
I froze. “Our what?”
“You know,” he said, casual. “We’re going to dinner, the movies, mall, all that?”
“Yes. Sorry.”
“Not a problem,” he said with a genuine smile. “You’ve got a lot on your mind. I’ll come by your dorm at five to pick you up?”
“Sounds good,” I said, relieved that he missed the source of my reluctance. After all, it was infinitely preferable that he thought I’d forgotten our rendezvous than that I was taken aback by him referring to it as a date. Because, of course, he meant nothing serious by it.
He was halfway down the hall and had not looked back when I reached for the door handle and swung it open. I found myself in a waiting room with chairs lined up against the walls and a fish tank in the corner. On the far wall was another door, solid, which I assumed led to the inner sanctum of Dr. Quinton Zollers, who would be helping me diagnose problems I didn’t even recognize I had. I found myself surprised that Wolfe didn’t have a funny comment for this situation, and then wondered if perhaps he was sleeping.
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