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For Fabienne Mandron
Aurélie Poulain
Roland and Schultz from Parabellum
Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in
—LEONARD COHEN, “ANTHEM”
CHARACTERS WHO APPEARED IN VERNON SUBUTEX 1
Vernon Subutex: The Hero. Former record dealer. Evicted from his apartment, he couch-surfed with various acquaintances before finding himself living on the streets at the end of Volume One.
Alexandre Bleach: Successful French indie-rock singer. Died of an overdose in a hotel room. A childhood friend of Vernon, he had been helping him out financially, and left tapes of an interview he did with himself one night when he was stoned and Vernon was asleep. A number of people are hunting for this “treasure” …
Émilie: Former bassist. Friend of Vernon. She was the first to take him in, but refused to put him up for more than one night.
Xavier Fardin: Frustrated screenwriter. An old friend of Vernon. At the end of Volume One, he found Vernon sleeping on the streets and got beaten up by a group of neo-Nazis.
Marie-Ange Fardin: Xavier’s wife.
Céleste: Met Vernon in a bar; he thought she was coming on to him, but she simply recognized him because her father used to take her to his record shop when she was young. A tattooist, she also works at a bar called Rosa Bonheur near the Buttes-Chaumont.
Laurent Dopalet: Film producer. Warning: public menace …
The Hyena: A former private detective turned specialist in cyber-lynching. She was hired by Laurent Dopalet to get her hands on the Alex Bleach interview.
Anaïs: Assistant to Laurent Dopalet.
Sylvie: One of Alex Bleach’s exes, she took in Vernon and they had a brief affair. When he left, he “borrowed” various books and a watch. She hunted for him all over social media, determined to destroy him.
Lydia Bazooka: Rock critic, fan of Bleach, she wanted to write his “biography.” This is how she came to meet Vernon and gave him a bed for a few nights.
Daniel: Ex–porn star, now a trans man, changed his name, manager of an e-cigarette shop, a close friend of Pamela Kant.
Pamela Kant: Ex–porn star. Online Tetris champion.
Kiko: Coke-addled stock market trader. Let Vernon stay a few nights, then threw him out.
Gaëlle: Friend of Kiko, Marcia, Vernon, and the Hyena. It was as a favor to the Hyena that she gave Vernon a place to stay for a few days (in Kiko’s apartment, where she lives).
Marcia (formerly known as Leo): A stunning Brazilian trans woman, hairdresser to the stars. Lives at Kiko’s place.
Vodka Satana (formerly known as Faïza): Ex–porn star. Mother of Aïcha. Ex-mistress of Alex Bleach. Ex-colleague of Daniel and Pamela.
Sélim: Vodka Satana’s former husband. Progressive, secular university lecturer. Bringing up his daughter single-handedly since Vodka Satana died of an overdose.
Aïcha: Daughter of Vodka Satana and Sélim. Devout young Muslim. Sélim, who is a friend of the Hyena, asked her to sound out his daughter, whose personality he does not understand.
Patrice: Old friend of Vernon, former partner of Cécile. A violent, abusive husband. Cut off all ties to the music industry. He was the last person to take in Vernon before he ended up living on the streets.
Noël: A sales assistant at a major clothing chain. Friend of Loïc.
Loïc: Courier, friend of Noël. At the end of Volume One, it was Loïc who delivered the kick in the head that put Xavier Fardin in the hospital in a coma.
Laurent: Homeless. He gave Vernon some advice and some contacts for his new life on the streets. He hangs around the parc des Buttes-Chaumont.
Olga: Homeless. Tall, fierce, red-haired woman. She insulted the neo-Nazis who distribute blankets to the homeless. The streets are her kingdom.
VERNON WAITS UNTIL IT’S DARK and the lights in all the windows have been turned out before climbing over the railings and venturing into the communal gardens. The thumb on his left hand is throbbing, he doesn’t remember how he got this little scratch, but rather than scarring, it is swelling, and he is astonished that such a trivial scratch can be causing him so much pain. He crosses the steep ground, past the vines, following a narrow path. He is careful not to disturb anything. He doesn’t want to make any noise, or for there to be any sign of his presence tomorrow morning. He reaches the tap and drinks thriftily. Then he bends down and runs water over the back of his neck. He rubs his face vigorously and soothes his thumb, holding it under the freezing jet for a long time. Yesterday, he took advantage of the warm weather to have more comprehensive ablutions, but his clothes reek so strongly that as soon as he put them on again he felt dirtier than he had before he washed.
He stands up and stretches. His body is heavy. He thinks about a real bed. About lying in a hot bath. But nothing works. He cannot bring himself to care. He is filled with a feeling of utter emptiness, he should find this terrifying, he knows that, this is no time to feel good, but all he feels is a dull, silent calm. He has been very ill. His temperature has come down, and in the past two days he has recovered enough strength to be able to stand up. His mind is weak. It will come back, the fear, it will come back soon, he thinks. At the moment, nothing touches him. He feels suspended, like this strange neighborhood where he has ended up. The butte Bergeyre is a raised plateau of a handful of streets accessed by flights of stairs, he rarely sees a car here, there are no traffic lights, no shops. Nothing but cats, in abundance. Vernon stares across to the Sacré-Coeur, which seems to be floating over Paris. The full moon bathes the city in a ghostly light.
He is off his head. He has episodes where he zones out. It’s not unpleasant. From time to time, he tries to reason with himself: he cannot stay here indefinitely, it has been a cold summer, he will catch another bout of flu, he needs to take care of himself, he needs to go back down into the city, find some clean clothes, do something … But when he tries to set his mind again to practical problems, it starts up: he goes into a tailspin. There is a sound from the clouds, the air against his skin is softer than silk, the darkness has a scent, the city murmurs to him and he can decipher the whisperings that rise and enfold him, he curls up inside it and he floats. Each time, he is unaware how long he spends swept up in this gentle madness. He does not resist. His mind, shaken by the events of recent weeks, seems to have decided to imitate the heady rush of the drugs he used to take in a former life. After each episode, there is a subtle click, a slow awakening: the normal course of his thoughts resumes.
Leaning over the tap, he drinks some more, long gulps that sting his windpipe. His throat aches since his illness. He thought he was going to die there on the bench. The few things he can still feel with any intensity are entirely physical: a terrible burning in his back, the throbbing of his injured hand, the festering sores on his ankles, the difficulty swallowing … He picks an apple from the far end of the garden, it is sour, but he is ravenous for sugar. Painfully, he climbs over the railings separating the communal garden from the property where he has taken to sleeping. He grips the branches and hoists his body up, almost falling flat on his face on the other side. He ends up kneeling on the ground. He wishes he coul
d feel sorry for himself, or disgust. Anything. But no, nothing. Nothing but this absurd calm.
He crosses the yard of the derelict house where he has set up camp. On the ground floor, what was intended to be a patio with panoramic views of the capital is still no more than an expanse of concrete at one end of which he is sheltered from the wind and the rain, the space is marked out by rusting iron girders. Work on the site had been abandoned several years ago, Vernon had recently been told by a guy working on a building site opposite. The original foundations had been threatening to collapse, there were cracks in the supporting walls so the owner had decided to entirely remodel the house. But he had died in a car accident. His heirs could not reach an agreement. They bickered and fought through their respective lawyers. The house was boarded up and left derelict. Vernon has been sleeping here for some time now, whether ten days or a month he could not say—his sense of time, like everything else, is murky. He likes his hideaway. At dawn, he opens one eye and lies motionless, struck by the sweeping cityscape. Paris is revealed and, seen from this height, it seems welcoming. When the cold gets to be too biting, he curls up and tucks his knees against his body. He doesn’t have a blanket. He has only his own body heat. A fat, one-eyed tabby cat sometimes comes and nestles next to him.
On his first few nights in the butte Bergeyre, Vernon slept on the bench where he collapsed when he first got there. It rained nonstop for days. No one bothered him. Delirious and running a high fever, he had embarked on a fantastical journey, feverishly raving. Gradually, he had come back to himself, reluctantly reemerging from the cozy cotton ball of his hallucinations. An old wino found him on the bench at daybreak and started hurling abuse at him, but seeing that Vernon was too weak to respond, he started to worry about his condition, and developed an affection for him. He brought him some oranges and a box of Tylenol. Charles is a loudmouth and pretty crazy. He likes to kvetch, to ramble on about his native Northern France and his father, who was a railwayman. He laughs hysterically at his own jokes, slapping his thighs, until the laugh turns into a phlegmy cough that all but chokes him. Vernon has taken up residence on “his” bench. After a cursory evaluation whose criteria are unknown even to him, the old man decides to be his friend. He takes care of him. He comes by to check that all is well. He warned Vernon: “You can’t go on sleeping here now that the weather’s cleared up,” and pointed to a house a few feet away. “Get yourself in there and hide out in the back. Make sure you disappear for a couple of hours a day, otherwise the council workers won’t waste any time throwing your ass out. Do it now, because you need to get some rest, get yourself fit, son…”
Vernon did not heed the warning, but on the second sunny day, he discovered that it had been sound advice. The street cleaners were hosing down the sidewalks. He didn’t hear them coming. One of them trained the hose right on his face. Vernon scrabbled to his feet and the cleaner flushed away the cardboard boxes he was using to shelter from the cold. The young black guy with delicate features gave him a hateful stare. “Get the fuck out of here. People don’t want to have to look at your shiftless mug when they open their windows. Go on, fuck off.” And, from the guy’s tone, Vernon realized he would be wise to obey, and fast: otherwise he was in for a kicking. His legs numb from spending so long lying down, he had staggered away and aimlessly roamed the neighboring streets. He listened for the sound of the street sweeper’s engine and tried to get as far away as possible. The injustice of the situation left him completely unmoved. This was the day that he began to understand that there was something seriously wrong with him. He wondered where he had washed up. It took him some time to work out why the area looked so unfamiliar: he could see no cars, could hear no sounds. All he could see were old-style, low-rise houses with little yards. Were it not for the fact that the bench he had just left had a view of Sacré-Coeur, he would have thought that in his bout of fever, he had hopped on a train and wound up at the ass end of nowhere. Or in the 1980s …
Too weak to carry on his perambulations, he went back to the bench as soon as the street sweeper drove away. Rubbing his cheeks with his palms, he was surprised to discover how much his beard had grown. His whole body ached from the cold, he was thirsty, and he stank of piss. He had a clear memory of the events of the previous days. He had abandoned his friend at a hospital after a street brawl that had left Xavier in a coma, without so much as asking whether he would pull through. He had wandered in the rain and found himself here, sick as a dog and happy as a fool. But though he has been expecting it, he has yet to feel the vicious sting of fear. Fear might have prompted him to react. But he senses only his aching body, his own smell, which, truth be told, provided pleasant company. He no longer experienced ordinary emotions. He spent his time staring at the sky, it occupied his days. Just before nightfall, Charles had come back to sit next to him on the bench.
“Good to see you emerging from your lethargy. About time too!”
Charles had explained that he was in northern Paris, not far from the Buttes-Chaumont. Charles had offered him a beer and half a soggy, squashed baguette that had obviously been lying around in his backpack for some time, and Vernon wolfed it down. “Fuck sake, go easy there or you’ll make yourself sick. You gonna be here tomorrow? I’ll bring you some ham, you need something to buck you up a bit.” The old man was not a tramp, his hands were not calloused, his shoes were new. But he was not exactly fresh as a daisy either. He seemed to spend his time boozing with guys who smelled of piss. He and Vernon sat together for a while, not saying much.
Since then, Vernon has felt weightless. An invisible hand has fiddled with all the buttons on his mixing desk: the equalization is different. He somehow cannot leave this bench. For as long as he is not forcibly ejected, the butte Bergeyre hangs suspended, a tiny, hovering island. He feels good here.
He takes short walks to stretch his legs, and so that he does not spend all day on the bench. Sometimes he will sit on the steps that border his territory, or linger in a street, but he always returns to his point of departure. His bench, opposite the communal gardens, with its stunning view of the rooftops of Paris. He begins to establish a routine.
At first, the builders working on the rue Remy-de-Gourmont ignored him. Then the site foreman came over on one of his breaks and smoked a cigarette while making a telephone call. He had walked straight over to the bench and Vernon had given up his seat, moving away, eager to be invisible, when the guy called to him: “Hey, I’ve been watching you for a couple of days now … Didn’t you used to have a record shop?” Vernon had hesitated—it was on the tip of his tongue to say “No” and go on his way. He was no longer interested in his previous identity. It had slipped from his back like an old coat, heavy and unwieldy. The person he had been for decades had nothing to do with him now. But the foreman didn’t give him a chance—“You don’t remember me, do you? I used to work next door, I was an apprentice in the bakery … I used to pop in all the time.” The face did not ring a bell. Vernon had spread his hands—“I haven’t really got all my marbles anymore”—and the guy had laughed—“Yeah, I get it, life’s fucked you over” … Since then, he comes by every day to chat for a couple of minutes. When you live on the streets, anything that has happened three days in a row is a venerable tradition. Stéphane wears Bermuda shorts and huge sneakers, he has curly hair and smokes hand-rolled cigarettes. He likes to reminisce about the music festivals he went to, to talk about his kids and bitch about his problems with the guys on the building site. He avoids any reference to the fact that Vernon is living on the streets. Hard to say whether this is extraordinary tact on his part or sheer thoughtlessness. He lets Vernon help himself from his pouch of tobacco, sometimes leaves him a bag of chips or the dregs of a bottle of Coke … And he allows him to use the site toilets during the day. This changes everything for Vernon, who has had to dig two trenches in the yard of the house where he sleeps, but even in warm weather it’s difficult digging deep holes with your bare hands and filling them in so they don’t stin
k … even short-term, it would have brought an end to his squat. Sooner or later, the local residents would have started complaining about the smell.
For the past three days, Jeanine has been secretly coming to visit him. She also feeds stray cats. She brings Vernon food in Tupperware boxes. She does it furtively because the locals have already had harsh words with her about encouraging the homeless to hang around. Vernon is not the first. She told him as much: at first, everyone thought it was a kindness, they wanted to help their fellow man, but there were too many problems: traces of vomit, a radio left on full-blast all night, a garrulous oddball with no sense of boundaries who wanted to go into people’s houses and chat, some guy on psychotropic drugs who talked to himself and scared the local kids … The neighbors had no choice: they had to curb their compassion. Jeanine persists in sharing her dinner with him. She is a tiny little old lady, stooped, well-turned-out, the eyebrows drawn on with pencil are asymmetrical, but her lipstick is always neatly applied, and perfect curls of white hair frame her powdered face. “When I’m at home, I wear curlers all morning, and I’m not going to stop until they put me in the ground.” She dresses in bright colors and complains about the terrible summer weather, because of the pretty dresses she has not been able to wear, “and I don’t know whether I’ll still be here next summer to get the use out of them.” She tells Vernon he is a “little dear, you can tell these things when you get to my age, I’ve got the eye, you’re a little dear, and you have such lovely eyes.” She says the same thing to the stray cats she feeds. She fills bottles of water for Vernon, brings him rice in which she has melted generous quantities of butter. She passes no comment, but Vernon suspects that she assumes that whatever is good for keeping a cat’s coat glossy is good for people. Last night, she brought a few squares of chocolate wrapped in foil. He was shocked by the pleasure he felt as he ate them. For a brief moment, his taste buds almost hurt. He had already forgotten what it was like to put something in his mouth and enjoy the taste.
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