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by Penny Jordan


  She had, using the apples from their own tree.

  ‘It’s Daddy’s favourite. Perhaps we could take him some.?’

  On the face of it there was no real reason why they should not; Claire always made something extra when she baked which she normally took round to Mrs Vickers; the three of them on their own would certainly not get through everything she had made—but even so, she hesitated, knowing all too well the construction that Jay could place on her gift of food. However, she knew equally that it was not something she could explain to his six-year-old daughter.

  Hating to wipe the happy look of pleasure from Heather’s face, she suggested instead,

  ‘Perhaps next time. I made this one for Mrs Vickers. It’s her favourite too,’ childishly she crossed her fingers behind her back as she mouthed the small fib, ‘and you can help me make it,’ she told Heather. ‘I’m sure your daddy would like that.’

  ‘I’ll help too,’ Lucy chimed in. ‘I could make him some of my gingerbread men.’

  Claire stifled a grin at the thought of Jay’s expression should he be presented with these tokens of her daughter’s regard. She knew enough about him to know that he would eat the proffered gift whether he wanted it or not, but as yet Lucy’s enthusiasm for the task of baking far outweighed her skill.

  An hour later, both girls raincoated and wellingtoned against the heavy rain that had started to fall, they set out for Whitegates.

  As Claire opened the front door, the wind shipped it from her fingers, shrieking malevolently and making her gasp for breath. Both little girls clung firmly to her hands as they hurried down the deserted village street. Luckily the wind was behind them, otherwise Claire wasn’t sure how they would have managed to walk. It had increased tremendously in velocity since she had fetched them home from school, and the heavy, rain-sodden clouds darkening the sky promised a very unpleasant night. Already there was evidence of the storm’s hovoc in the branches that had fallen from some of the trees, reminding Claire that she would have to find someone to prune her own fruit trees.

  Icy flurries of rain stung their faces; the girls’ hooded coats kept them fairly dry, but Claire’s raincoat had no hood, and one look at the weather had convinced her of the folly of trying to use her umbrella. She could feel the rain soaking into her hair, releasing its errant curl, and the walk down the country lane to Whitegates, which was normally such a pleasure, had become more of an ordeal.

  The house was warm, thanks to Claire’s foresight in turning on the central heating when she had called earlier with the shopping. She made both girls strip off their wellingtons and coats in the kitchen, hanging them up to dry.

  Jay’s flight should have landed by now, but the bad weather might have delayed it. She glanced at her watch and frowned. It was barely five o’clock, but already it was very dark outside.

  Having checked that both girls had put on their slippers, she agreed that they could go into the sitting-room to watch television.

  Despite the expensive furnishings, the house always struck Claire as being very unwelcoming. She had always been very sensitive to atmosphere, and it sometimes seemed to her that the house was rejecting its inhabitants in the same way that a child will reject those it senses do not give it love.

  The kitchen was fitted with every electrical device known to man, or so it seemed; the units were undoubtedly very expensive and stylish, but Claire found the white and grey décor of the room distinctly chilling. It was not a kitchen she could ever imagine herself enjoying working in. It was too glossy and sterile, looking more like something out of a magazine advertisement than part of a home. She always felt faintly uncomfortable in it, afraid almost of leaving so much as a finger-mark on the brilliant work-tops.

  What she had seen of the rest of the house was the same: sterile and cold. She often wondered who had chosen the décor, Jay or his wife. It seemed inconceivable that any woman with a small child would opt for off-white carpet and white leather furniture, but then neither could she see Jay choosing the thick white goatskin rugs in the drawing room.

  White was the colour of purity; it was also the colour of snow, and that was how Claire perceived the house’s décor, cold and frigid, unwelcoming, and unliveable-in.

  She turned on the oven and took out of the fridge the casserole she had brought with her earlier in the day. She didn’t normally prepare a meal for Jay, but tonight was an exception; no doubt he would be feeling both cold and tired when he did arrive.

  Both she and the girls had eaten at the cottage. She didn’t like the thought of them spilling anything on that sterile white marble kitchen table, or those immaculate grey tiles that covered the floor.

  Jay had managed to find an agency who had agreed to take over the cleaning of the house, but as yet he had found no one who could care for his daughter. Secretly Claire was glad, and she knew that when the time eventually came she would miss Heather very much indeed. Lucy, with her sunny practical nature, was not the slightest bit jealous or resentful about sharing her mother with her friend.

  As she moved automatically about the kitchen she frowned, wondering what the future held for Heather: a succession of nannies, perhaps, followed by boarding school? There were doubtless many children for whom such a regime would lead to a perfectly happy and well adjusted adult life, but Heather was so sensitive and withdrawn already. It was none of her business what arrangements Jay might choose to make for his daughter, Claire reminded herself firmly, but no amount of logic or reason could cancel out the bond of love that had built up between Heather and herself. When she lost her, it would in some ways be like losing her own child. Ridiculously, especially in the circumstances, she was already worrying about whether someone else would know how much care and cherishing the little girl needed. And that wasn’t her only concern. She was also worried that Heather would see her withdrawal from her life in the manner of a betrayal, or worse, and although she had scrupulously tried to prepare her for their eventual parting, she sensed that Heather was too young to genuinely comprehend what lay ahead.

  It was gone seven o’clock when Claire eventually heard Jay’s car draw up outside.

  Lucy came dashing into the kitchen almost before the engine had died.

  ‘Jay’s back!’ she called out excitedly, pouting a little when Claire grasped her firmly by one arm and reminded her,

  ‘Jay is Heather’s daddy, Lucy.’

  But for all her encouragement, Heather made no attempt to rush to the door and give Jay the exuberant welcome Lucy always favoured him with.

  Claire saw the moment that the kitchen door opened that he was tired. He dumped his overnight case by the door and grimaced faintly across the kitchen.

  ‘Sorry I’m late, but the plane was delayed.’

  ‘Yes, we thought it might be.’ She gave Heather a little push towards her father, releasing a faintly tense breath as the little girl gave him a slightly shy hug.

  Lucy had no such inhibitions, flinging herself against his knees and lifting up a shining little face for his kiss.

  With one little girl in his arms and the other clinging to his side, he still managed to retain the aura of the male predator rather than that of domesticity.

  His hair had grown, Claire noticed idly, and he seemed to have lost a little more weight. It was stupid and totally unnecessary for her to worry about him; if he knew, he was more likely to be irritated by her concern than anything else.

  ‘Something smells good.’

  ‘It’s a casserole. I thought you might be hungry.’

  ‘I am. Have I got time to shower and change?’

  Claire nodded her head.

  ‘Good. How about someone bringing me a drink?’ he suggested, putting Heather down and smiling at her.

  ‘I’ll do it,’ Lucy piped up instantly, and Claire suppressed a faint sigh.

  ‘Why don’t both of you do it?’ suggested Jay diplomatically. ‘I shan’t be long,’ he promised Claire. ‘About ten minutes.’

  Of course sh
e was the one who poured out the whisky and soda she knew he liked, warning Heather to be careful as she carried it upstairs. She knew which was Jay’s room, but she had never been inside it; there was no need. And yet as she stood at the bottom of the stairs watching her charges’ careful progress she had an instant’s appalling awareness of Jay’s lean body as he divested it of the civilisation of clothes.

  She shuddered tensely, closing her eyes to blot out the image, and when she opened them again she was trembling violently. She had never seen a naked man, not really, and she had never wanted to, so why that brief, illuminating image?

  Jay was as good as his word, returning downstairs within ten minutes, dressed in jeans and a checked wool shirt. His hair was still damp, and the clean male scent of his soap mingled with the aroma of the casserole, cutting sharply through the domestic atmosphere of the kitchen, bringing in an alien and predatory note that made Claire’s body tense as she moved automatically away from him.

  She saw him frown, his mouth tightening as though in some way her reaction displeased him.

  ‘You should know by now that I’m not going to pounce on you, Claire.’

  Her face flushed. ‘I know that.’

  ‘Then why the so-obvious retreat?’

  ‘Perhaps I’m just one of those people who likes a lot of personal space.’

  ‘Maybe, but you must have allowed it to be invaded at one time,’ he retorted, glancing meaningfully at Lucy, just in case she should be unaware of what he was saying.

  Claire gnawed nervously at her bottom lip, wondering what on earth she could say, but to her surprise, Jay made a sound of wry self-disgust and apologised quietly,

  ‘I’m sorry. It’s been a hell of a fortnight, and the delay in landing didn’t help matters. That doesn’t excuse me taking my frustrations out on you, I know. It’s good to come home and find you here, Claire,’ he added slowly, totally confounding her.

  ‘I … we really ought to be leaving.’ She placed his meal in front of him, avoiding his eyes. ‘It’s getting late …’

  ‘You’re not walking back on a night like this. I’ll run you there after I’ve eaten.’

  To drag him out again on a night like tonight, when he was plainly so tired, was the last thing Claire wanted, but she sensed that to argue would only harden his determination.

  ‘I’ll make you some coffee,’ she suggested instead.

  ‘You know, delicious though this is, it’s a little bit off-putting to eat it all alone. Next time, why don’t we all eat together?’

  Taken thoroughly off guard by his statement, Claire stared at him. She had scrupulously avoided doing anything that might even hint at any degree of intimacy between them, and for him to suggest that they all ate together, almost as though they were a family unit …

  To save herself from pursuing her thoughts any further she said quickly, ‘I don’t like letting the girls eat in here. Everything’s so spotless,’ she told him, seeing his uncomprehending frown. ‘I’m always afraid they’ll make a mess.’

  She saw his attention focus on the kitchen and sweep round it, as though he were seeing it properly for the first time.

  ‘Susie was responsible for all the decorating and the furniture.’

  ‘It’s very sophisticated and luxurious,’ Claire hurried to say, hating the thought of him thinking she was criticising his ex-wife, ‘but …’

  ‘But it’s also sterile and clinical,’ he supplied for her in a clipped voice, surprising her with his perception. ‘Unlike your cottage, it isn’t a home, is it?’

  She bit her lip, unable to look at him.

  ‘It’s the woman who makes a place a home, not the furnishings …’

  He pushed his plate away suddenly, and Claire wondered if he was thinking of his ex-wife. Despite his claim that he no longer loved her, did he perhaps miss her more than he allowed anyone to know?

  It was just gone eight o’clock when Jay drove away from Whitegates. The two girls were in the back of the car, Claire sitting in the front next to him.

  She thought as they drove down the village street that there seemed to be a good deal more activity than was usual, but it was only when they turned the corner that Claire saw why, and then all she could do was to sit motionless in shock and stare out of the car window.

  One of the huge elms had lost a heavy main branch during the storm. It had crashed across the road and smashed down on the house opposite—her house, Claire acknowledged in shocked comprehension. She couldn’t speak; she couldn’t do anything but lift appalled eyes to Jay’s grim face. Why was he looking like that? An expression of shocked disbelief in his eyes that was surely far too intense, bearing in mind the very casual nature of their acquaintanceship. And then it hit her—Heather could have been in there with Lucy and herself; Heather could have been asleep in that front bedroom where she could now see a gaping hole in the wall.

  ‘I …’ Hardly aware of what she was doing, Claire struggled to open the car door. A crowd of people were standing outside the house staring up at it.

  ‘You stay here.’ Jay’s hand on her arm held her rigid in her seat, his voice unusually harsh. ‘I’ll deal with it. You look after the girls.’

  She wanted to protest that it wasn’t his problem, that somehow she would cope alone as she had coped with so many other things, but she wasn’t given the opportunity to say anything. He was out of the car and shouldering his way through the massed crowd before she could open her mouth.

  He was only gone for ten minutes. Claire could see him in conversation with another man. Both of them glanced up at the house from time to time as they spoke.

  Slowly the reality of what had happened was seeping into her. That was her home with the gaping holes in the roof and front wall where the heavy branch had crashed through. Her house … her home … She started to shake with shock; silly, really unimportant things, such as the fact that she had only just done the ironing and everything would now need washing again, preventing her from taking in the full enormity of what had happened.

  It took Lucy’s anxious, ‘Mummy … where are we going to live?’ to alert her to it and then she could think of no answer to give her daughter. Her thoughts ran round a round in frantic circles as she tried to grapple with the shock of what had happened. Perhaps Mrs Vickers would put them up. Thank God they hadn’t been inside when the branch had fallen …

  Jay came back and slid into the car beside her.

  Claire struggled with her seat belt.

  ‘I must go and ask Mrs Vickers if we can stay the night with her. I … I must go inside and find our clothes, I …’

  ‘For God’s sake, you’re not going anywhere. The house is unsafe!’ Jay told her grimly, his voice so angry that she actually focused her eyes on him, unaware of how vulnerable and young she looked in her jeans and sweater, her hair curling wildly round her small face.

  ‘I’ve just been talking to someone from the council. He says the house is unsafe. You can’t go back inside.’

  ‘But our clothes. My …’

  ‘Damn your clothes!’

  She hadn’t heard him swear before, and the violence in this voice shocked her. In the darkness of the car her eyes widened, her body shaking suddenly with the drenching onset of reality.

  ‘You’re coming back with me,’ Jay told her flatly. ‘There’s plenty of room at Whitegates.’

  ‘Mrs Vickers …’

  ‘For God’s sake, Claire!’ he exploded tensely. ‘Why are you always so damned independent? You hate me doing the slightest thing for you. You didn’t even want me to run you home tonight, did you? Did you?’

  How could she explain to him that she hated being reliant on anyone? Suddenly it all seemed too much; she could feel the tremors of reaction building up inside her. She wanted to cry, but she couldn’t let herself, not in front of Jay and the girls.

  ‘You’ve done me enough favours,’ he reminded her grimly. ‘Surely I’m allowed to do you one small one in return? You and Lucy will stay
at Whitegates tonight, and every night until your own home has been repaired.’

  ‘That could take weeks,’ protested Claire, her eyes darkening bleakly as she looked back at her small house.

  ‘The council are going to put some men in to make sure it’s safe; when they have we can come back down and collect your things. You realise that the council won’t pay for the repairs, don’t you even though the tree is on council-owned land?’

  She hadn’t thought that far ahead yet, and she looked at him blankly. Her mind seemed to be working very slowly.

  ‘But surely my own insurance …’

  For some reason Jay’s mouth compressed grimly.

  ‘Maybe,’ he agreed at last, ‘but most insurance companies class something like this as an “Act of God”.’

  When he saw that she was looking uncomprehendingly at him, he explained tersely,

  ‘It isn’t one of the risks they cover—they won’t pay out under the policy. You’ll have to find the money for the repairs yourself.’

  Claire had too much pride to let him see what she was feeling. She turned her face away, so that he wouldn’t see her shock. If the insurance company wouldn’t pay out, what on earth was she going to do? How could she possibly afford to pay for the restoration work herself? A terrible, icy sense of fear engulfed her. A vision of the cramped council flat she and Lucy had lived in before they moved to the cottage rose up in front of her and wouldn’t go away. She couldn’t go back to that, not now that she had had a taste of the pleasure that life could be in attractive surroundings. Fate couldn’t be so cruel, surely?

  Jay had set the car in motion, but she was barely aware of it. If only tomorrow wasn’t a Saturday. It would be Monday before she could get in touch with the insurance company, before she would know where she stood. Surely Jay was wrong? The house must be covered for this kind of accidental damage.

  Round and round her thoughts went in a feverish dance that took her no further forward and did nothing to alleviate the horrendous sense of oppression hanging over her.

 

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