by B. J Daniels
“Yes,” Chelsea said, ice in her voice. “We do have a cook, but I can hold my own in the kitchen. I can make vichyssoise, pepper steak, beef bourguignonne.”
“Oh.” Sam’s face fell. “I like Abigail Harper’s macaroni and cheese.”
Chelsea was deflated. She’d been showing off and lost points with Sam. She looked as disappointed as Sam did. And as confused. Chelsea had mistakenly thought Sam would be impressed by the fact that she could cook. What Chelsea didn’t know was that Sam was afraid he would fall in love and marry, and she knew he’d never marry anyone who couldn’t cook. Chelsea might seem more of a threat than Terri Lyn at this point.
He couldn’t understand why Sam was going to so much trouble to get rid of Terri Lyn, anyway.
He caught her eyeing her casserole distastefully, no doubt regretting inviting Chelsea to eat with them.
“How’s your dinner, Sam?” he asked pointedly, taking no little satisfaction in the fact that his daughter had put herself in this predicament and now would have to suffer along with him.
She hurriedly took a bite and pretended it was delicious. No small task considering Sam couldn’t abide tuna casserole. And Terri Lyn’s was especially bad.
He watched Sam take another bite and smiled to himself. Even if she’d liked tuna casserole, she would have found fault with it just because Terri Lyn had made it. Good thing he wasn’t serious about the barrel racer. Not that he had the time or energy for a real relationship. He and Terri Lyn were strictly…consenting adults. Or at least they’d planned to be tonight.
Now he doubted that Terri Lyn would still be talking to him after he’d ruined her little “romantic” dinner by feeding it to another woman. The entire camp would be talking about Chelsea. Speculating. His luck had been running bad lately. Obviously, it wasn’t getting any better.
Chelsea was the kind of woman who couldn’t pass through your life without making ripples, even after a brief encounter. He knew after she left tonight, he’d still be feeling the effects in the weeks and months to come, and he was dreading it.
He didn’t like his daughter’s devious scheming, either. He would have a good long talk with her about it once Chelsea left. He just hadn’t thought of a punishment yet to fit the crime.
“It’s very good,” Chelsea said politely.
“Mmm,” Sam agreed. He watched her choke down another bite, almost feeling sorry for her. Almost.
He took a forkful of the casserole himself and looked up at Chelsea, something he instantly wished he hadn’t done. But there was little other place to look, and he had to admit, seeing her there was like waking up to a sunny spring day. He savored it, storing it for the long days ahead when she would be gone from his life again.
Yes, he thought, she’d matured in ways that were hard to define, but the total package was as close to perfection as he could imagine. Five foot seven, slender, graceful and oh so feminine with her long brown hair caught at the back of her sleek neck. A pampered beauty. She couldn’t have looked more out of place—drinking wine from a plastic tumbler, sitting in his beat-up old motor home, eating tuna casserole.
“So, do you work?” Sam asked Chelsea between bites.
“Chelsea lives on a ranch,” Jack told her. “She’s an accountant and keeps track of the cattle. It’s not polite to cross-examine dinner guests.”
“Sorry,” Sam said, and actually looked apologetic.
He reminded himself that this girl with the scrubbed face, sans cowboy hat, was an alien. Otherwise she’d be rolling her eyes, gagging and complaining.
“It’s all right, I don’t mind,” Chelsea said. He could feel her gaze on him. He didn’t dare look at her again. He realized he’d given himself away, knowing too much about her, almost as if he’d kept track of her all these years. Almost as if he cared.
* * *
JACK KNEW she was an accountant? That she took care of the financial end of the Wishing Tree Ranch?
She stared at him in surprise. He’d acted as if he’d never glanced back once he left the ranch. Look how quickly he’d met someone and had a child?
“How did you know that?” she asked.
He shrugged, avoiding her gaze. “Someone must have mentioned it.”
Yeah, sure. A bubble of pleasure rose before she could slap it back down. Jack had kept track of her! He hadn’t gotten over her any more than she’d gotten over him. A cattle rustler-liar-thief wouldn’t have done that.
Or, suggested that darned voice that sounded suspiciously like her brother’s, Jack had just been waiting for her father to die so he could prey on her again, thinking Cody didn’t know about the rustling.
Sam gulped down her dinner and hurriedly excused herself, saying vaguely that she had to see someone about something and wouldn’t be gone long. She disappeared before Jack could stop her, slipping out under the table, leaving the two of them alone in the already too small motor home.
Jack looked as if he wanted to run as well. He glanced out the window as if afraid of who might show up next.
She put down her fork. She hadn’t had any appetite in the first place and Terri Lyn’s casserole certainly hadn’t improved it. “Look, Jack, I know I shouldn’t have just shown up here like this, but after what Cody told me…”
He nodded, his jaw tensing, then pushed his plate away and got up to clear the table.
“Let me help,” she said as he slid out of the booth.
“No!” He gave her an apologetic smile at his curt tone and motioned for her to stay put. “This kitchen is too small for more than one person.”
He was right about that. She watched him clear the table, seeing his discomfort in the tensed muscles of his back through the thin white T-shirt. She tried not to notice the way his jeans fit. Or remember the feel of his long legs wrapped around her.
She fanned herself with her napkin, wishing there was more air in the room, wishing she hadn’t drunk the wine, wishing there was an easy way to say what she’d come to say. Jack’s admission that he hadn’t completely forgotten about her gave her courage. That and the wine and the fact that Terri Lyn couldn’t cook.
“I’m sure you’re wondering about Samantha,” he said, his back still to her as he began to wash the dishes.
What was there to wonder about? Jack had found someone else right after leaving the Wishing Tree.
He glanced over his shoulder, then back at his dishes.
“What she told you just about covers it. I found Sam on my doorstep nine months after a one-night stand.”
“You’ve raised Sam alone?”
He nodded, still not looking at her. “It wasn’t any big deal.” He chuckled. “At first I was as lost as a young bull in the ring. But Sam and I have done all right by ourselves. She’s taught me a lot.”
There hadn’t been anyone special in his life besides Samantha? “Then you never married?”
He gave another nervous laugh. “I’ve been too busy to even date.”
“You seem to have found time to attract a casserole maker,” she said lightly.
He laughed. “Terri Lyn? We’re just friends.” He made a noise as if he hadn’t meant to say that and instantly regretted it.
She felt her heart inflate like a helium balloon, and without thinking, she opened it to him. “Jack, there’s no one serious in my life, either.”
He froze but didn’t turn around.
She rushed on before she lost her nerve. “I never knew what happened ten years ago. You just up and left. I thought you’d changed your mind about me. Then after my father’s heart attack, I found the check he tried to give you.”
Still Jack said nothing. Nor did he move, as if he were waiting for a blow.
“I know my father regretted what he did. He tried to tell me in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. He knew how much I—”
“Don’t,” Jack said, his voice low. “Chelsea, don’t.”
“But, Jack…” She slid out of the booth and was so close to him that she could feel his b
ody heat. Cautiously, she laid a hand on his back, not surprised this time by the current that raced from her palm to her heart—or his flinch at her touch. “Tell me what happened between us was real. Tell me you weren’t rustling our cattle and just stringing me along. Please, Jack.”
* * *
THE FAMILIAR SOUND of his name on her lips grabbed his heart and squeezed it like a fist. He closed his eyes, her palm radiating warmth that ran like a live wire through him. Heat to heat, reminding him how it had been between the two of them. As if he’d ever forgotten.
“Jack, my father never should have done what he did without giving you a chance to—”
“Chelsea.” He turned quickly, breaking the contact between them as he moved. He held her at arm’s length, his voice rough with emotions he didn’t want to feel. “Listen to me.”
She stared at him, her eyes wide, brimming with tears.
He’d almost forgotten how brown her eyes were. How tiny gold flecks shone when she was excited or angry. Or aroused. If only he’d been able to forget the rest. The feel and smell and sound of her. Or the way her father had handed him the check that morning in the corral so many years ago.
“It doesn’t matter, don’t you see that?” he said. “What happened was for the best. Your father was right. You and I were all wrong for each other. The ranch hand and the rancher’s daughter. So he thought I was stealing his cows. He also thought I was trying to steal his daughter, and he wasn’t having any of it.”
He pushed her away and waved an arm at the confined space he called home, thinking of the Wishing Tree Ranch and its massive rooms and high-timbered ceilings and all the antiques handed down through generations of Jensens.
“There is no way we could ever have made it together,” he said, the words beating him like stones. “Look at us, Chelsea. I’m a rodeo cowboy. That, and a ranch hand, is all I’ve ever been.”
“Jack, none of that matters if—”
“It matters to me. And it mattered to your father.”
“He was wrong,” she whispered. “If only he’d let you explain—”
“Chelsea, why dredge this all up again?” He moved away, turning his back on her. For years he’d hoped she would come after him. Now he realized just how wrong he’d been—seeing her served no purpose.
“Ryder Jensen did me a favor.” The rancher had reminded Jack just who he was. A man not good enough for his daughter. He turned to meet her gaze, something that took every ounce of his will. “He could have had me arrested but he didn’t.”
Her eyes darkened. She shook her head, a pleading in her gaze that broke his heart. “Tell me the truth.”
“Will you leave here and never come back?” he asked.
“Yes.” Her voice broke with emotion.
“Then it’s true.” He turned his back on her, leaning over the counter, the pain worse than being gored by a bull—and he’d been gored enough times to know. He wanted to stop but knew he couldn’t. Not if he hoped to finish this once and for all. He should have done this years ago, but he hadn’t been strong enough then. He wasn’t sure he was now.
“I’m everything your father and brother told you I am. Now get out of here.”
CHAPTER FIVE
CHELSEA WINCED as if he’d slapped her. “I don’t believe you.”
He shook his head, his back to her.
“I know you, Jack. Look me in the eye and tell me you were only after my money, that none of what we shared was real, that you never loved me. Tell me to my face and look me in the eye when you do it.”
He turned slowly.
She felt her heart leap to her throat as his gaze came up to meet hers. In his eyes, she saw the answer. Her limbs went weak with relief. “You can’t do it, can you?”
“It doesn’t make any difference whether or not I was stealing your father’s cattle,” he said quietly. “I was sleeping with his daughter and I wasn’t good enough for her. That was a far greater crime than stealing a few bovines.”
“That’s not true. If you had stayed, I could have proved how wrong you were about my father and brother.”
He let out a laugh. “Chelsea, they’d already convicted me and were ready to slip the noose around my neck.”
“If you told my father, I know he would have—”
“He didn’t come out to the corral that morning to ask my thoughts on the rustling problem, Chelsea,” he snapped. “He came with a check for ten thousand dollars and the threat of the sheriff if I didn’t leave the ranch at once.”
She felt sick, knowing what that had done to a man like Jack. “If only you had come to me—”
He let out a snort. “You’re kidding yourself.” He narrowed his gaze. “Did your brother believe you when you told him I didn’t rustle the cattle? You did tell him, didn’t you?” He must have seen the answer in her face. “That’s what I thought. Don’t you see? It doesn’t matter if I rustled your cattle or not.”
“It matters to me,” she said defiantly.
He laughed. “Well, you’re the only one. Now that you’ve found out everything you came for—”
“I’m going to prove to my brother that you were innocent,” she declared. “I’m going to clear your name.”
He shook his head as if he couldn’t believe what she’d said and was amused by it. “Even if you could, do you really think it would change anything?”
“Yes. You’re trying to sell my brother short. You’ve already done that with my father and me.”
Anger sparked in his dark eyes. “Your family tried to buy me off. They were so desperate to get rid of me that they were willing to pay ten thousand dollars to a man they believed was a cattle thief.”
“My father only did that to protect me.”
“Exactly. To protect his precious daughter from the likes of me. And you really thought they would ever accept me as more than a hired hand? That’s why I left, Chelsea. There wasn’t a chance in hell for the two of us but you’ve never been able to see that.”
“Because you were wrong then and you’re wrong now. When two people love each other the way we—”
“Don’t,” he warned, and tried to move away from her, but there wasn’t room in the motor home and she was blocking the door.
“I know you still feel something,” she said with emotion.
“Even if I did, it wouldn’t make any difference.” His eyes darkened with anger. “You make it sound as if I left the ranch and you because I wasn’t up to the fight. I was just smart enough not to take on a battle I knew I couldn’t win. The loss would have been too great.”
She opened her mouth, but he didn’t give her a chance to respond before he rushed on as if the words had been bottled up for ten years.
“Look at us, Chelsea. You were born to wealth and privilege. Everything has come easy to you. You’ve never had to prove yourself. You’ve never had to give up anything or work hard for anything. You’ve never had to pick yourself up from the dirt because you’ve never been that low.”
His words hit her like stones, stunning her to silence as he rushed on.
“You’re soft, spoiled, pampered.” He waved a hand through the air. “I’ve had to prove myself my entire life. Tomorrow after the rodeo I’ll drive to another rodeo, then another after that. In my world, I have to keep proving myself over and over but it’s on my terms. You came here looking for the truth? The truth is, you wouldn’t last a week in my world so don’t you dare try to tell me I should have fought to stay in yours. You don’t belong here any more than I belonged in your world. Now get out of here and do us both a favor and don’t come back.”
Closing her eyes, she felt those damned tears, scalding hot behind her lids, as she searched blindly for the door handle. She wanted to tell him how wrong he was. About her. About them. About everything.
But the things he’d said cut too deeply.
“Please go, Chelsea.”
She opened her eyes, tears spilling. He was bent over the sink, his arms braced on the count
er. It wasn’t like her to leave without the last word, but she knew if she didn’t get away from Jack, she wouldn’t be able to keep from sobbing her heart out.
She found the door handle. The door fell open and she stumbled out into the darkness.
A few campfires lit up the night and voices carried on the breeze. A horse whinnied nearby. She could feel someone watching her, just as she had earlier.
“You’re wrong,” she managed to say as she closed the door.
* * *
IF HE’D BEEN WRONG, she’d have slammed it. And she wouldn’t have left without putting up a fight. It wasn’t like her not to give him a piece of her mind. Not to argue. He’d almost forgotten what a firebrand she was. Almost.
He ached to call her back, to call back the words, to pull her to him and bury his hands in her hair, to bury himself in her, the only place he’d ever felt at home.
He stood where he was, waiting for the sound of her expensive car engine to turn over, part of him still foolishly hoping she wouldn’t go. Damn but he was a fool.
When the door opened, his heart leaped in spite of himself.
“Where’s Chelsea?” Sam said, glancing around.
“Gone.” He heard the car engine. He turned on the faucet and ran hot water into the sink to do the dishes. He could sense Sam’s confusion. The dishes were part of her chores.
“Did you have a fight?” she asked.
“Don’t you have some homework to do?”
“No, I already finished it.”
“Then why don’t you get ready for bed,” he said, sounding as tired as he felt.
“Okay.”
He could hear the hesitation in her voice, the concern.
“She isn’t coming back, is she?” Sam asked.
“No. She’s long gone.”
Good. Sam didn’t say it, but he could hear it in the breath she let out.
“You know, one of these days I might want to get married.”
Silence.
“Haven’t you ever wanted a mother?” When she didn’t answer, he turned to look at her.